Well, the thing is, and this is coming from some experience and outside observation, looks of it you're going to take a beating one way or the other. Either by Kiwi Farms or by yourself. You may be kinder to yourself, but that's rarely if ever the case. It's been my experience if you go to someone with authority and be up front, tell them exactly what happened, what you did and why you did it, there's usually a lot less blowback than if you try to keep it hidden and it all comes to the forefront in one massive shitstorm.