An Apology - (The Mr Zhukov Lolcow Thread)

[Death Grip]

Everyone still hates me so no.
I'm still seen as a sperg.

I had that discussion with @NoReturn and he said I wasn't doing anything wrong, but im not sure he's right.
Thats why I made this to clear things up and to not be seen as some random idiot.
I can make perfectly fine posts here, look at them.
Its just this that bothers me.

As a cyborg I find this both informative and offensive.

There's no point now. There's literally no point. People have come up with their conclusions about me.
I was told to stay off here and yet here I am. And now while trying to conclude this whole fiasco where I clear everything up I make it worse.

Hate is not the issue. No one here genuinely hates you.

Firstly lurk and learn the culture.

Secondly don't power level, I can't find the exact link but basically this website is not your personal blog, it's not about you or me or anyone else who is here, unless you are trying to get into the realm of being an LOLcow: (Internet, slang, derogatory) A person whose eccentric or foolish behaviour can be exploited to amuse onlookers.)

Thirdly don't double/triple post, edit button is at the bottom of your posts.

Fourthly don't take the stickers to heart, they are not a thing you should be concerned with. They mean nothing unless you yourself assign a meaning to them.

Someone's rated my first post on this thread as dumb and it's just not a thing to get worked up over.

If you are stressed by being on this forum, close the tab. Block the website. Walk away, it really doesn't matter.

 

[Mr Zhukov]

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OP is a hypocritical attention whore

That was an act. Again, you have the transformers general thread where people talk about buying transformers stuff. That baffled me when you have the consoomer thread and such.

I just want to apologise for all this. I know its stupid and everything you guys are saying has been stuff said to me by people who know me and close to me. @NoReturn mentioned it was hyper fixation and he's right, it is.
I've been in this non stop cycle and I'm tired of it, which is why I made the thread. I just want closure and not in a way where people think I'm something im not.

 

[Gangster Talk]

This guy had been messaging me..


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I got a similar message as well about some random post I made two years ago

 

[The Cunting Death]

And we're trying to provide you some closure but you keep putting yourself in this weird cycle of pity

 

[Tangerine Dreams]

I just want closure and not in a way where people think I'm something im not.

Oh no worries, you're clearly an autist consumer.

 

[lolnah]

I don't give a single care about how autistic it is.
Give me some actual answers or advice so I can take them and better myself.

The only thing I get from my councillor, my safeguard and stuff is "its a bad site stay off it"
So I'm stuck in this perpetual state of questioning things i saw as normal.
I'm in this cycle of nonsense and I'm tired of it.

I want to do something here that isn't sperging over the same dumb stuff over and over and over.

Genuine question:

Why do you want to do something here if this place is not conducive to whatever you want to accomplish? Do you feel as though this place isn't meant for you and you must prove yourself? Or do you see people with whom you think you share interests and as such you're trying to find your place here?

 

[Mr Zhukov]

So to summarize.
People you're talking about are people with no other interests/qualities other than liking something, which is where I stand?
Because I see people saying "key part of their personality" "part of their personality" "sole purpose" and so forth.
So its confusing when you have these opinions and you aren't sure how much you can attach yourself to something.
I'd say cars and stuff is a big part of me, like a biker makes bikes a big part of them.
Its not all i do or care about but, its something i want to be a part of.

 

[Estolysis]

I'd say cars and stuff is a big part of me, like a biker makes bikes a big part of them.

Nobody is saying that you can't play with your hot wheels cars, just that you shouldn't post about it on KiwiFarms and expect people not to make fun of you.

 

[Mr Zhukov]

Genuine question:

Why do you want to do something here if this place is not conducive to whatever you want to accomplish? Do you feel as though this place isn't meant for you and you must prove yourself? Or do you see people with whom you think you share interests and as such you're trying to find your place here?

My OP explains everything. Its spergy, but it needs to be. It was because I was uncertain if i was one of these people talked about and to clear up assumptions about my previous sperging.

 

[The Cunting Death]

So to summarize.
People you're talking about are people with no other interests/qualities other than liking something, which is where I stand?
Because I see people saying "key part of their personality" "part of their personality" "sole purpose" and so forth.
So its confusing when you have these opinions and you aren't sure how much you can attach yourself to something.
I'd say cars and stuff is a big part of me, like a biker makes bikes a big part of them.
Its not all i do or care about but, its something i want to be a part of.

We mean having your every moment in your waking life be nothing but dedication to bikes, getting obsessed to the point where its unhealthy.
Making a spectcle of yourself onilne because of your unhealthy obsession with bikes.

You can still enjoy the hobby, just don't act weird about it and we wont make fun of you.

Another example, the consoomers thread. I hate those type of people who buy literally everything they see, yet I collect a few figurines and such and dont make a big deal out of it. It's the people in the former that get made fun on, not the latter.

 

[Pee Cola]

OP needs to stop consooming so much penis

 

[Lemmingwise]

Firstly lurk and learn the culture.

He's had 5 or so different accounts before that got banned. At this point it's not that he isn't culturally integrated, he's the village idiot.

Fourthly don't take the stickers to heart, they are not a thing you should be concerned with.

This is just wrong. There is nothing more important in life than what other people think about you. Particularly people you don't know, as they're impartial and without any bias. The best thing to do if you get negrated is to post more frequently and make a passionate plea for why you were right all along.

 

[lolnah]

Everyone still hates me so no.
I'm still seen as a sperg.

Ok, listen to me: you need to find awareness of the rest of the world. Right now, you're seeing other people through your point of view as side characters in your anime. You think that you can make people like you if you just do and say the "right" things. This is because your brain is wired that way; you see society as a program, and you're just trying to find the correct inputs to be a part of it.

However, this is not how things really work for people who are allistic. You have to understand that there is no strategy to "win" at life, at friends, at fitting in, not even for regular people. The more genuine you are, the more you stop thinking about what you think other people are thinking, and the more you just enjoy things that you enjoy without castigating others for not liking the same thing or liking other things - these are the things that will help you gain friends. You obviously have some self-awareness, in that you recognize that you don't understand how people work, but you can't just ask those same people "what they want" from you. It doesn't work that way. No one wants anything from you, seriously. The only way to actually learn to fit in is to stop trying to make people view you in a positive light and just relax, which is very tough advice for someone who is in your position because your newly found self-awareness is causing you quite a bit of anxiety.

I fucking hate myself for quoting Rick and Morty here, but seriously, this is actually good advice:

“Nobody exists on purpose. Nobody belongs anywhere. Everybody's gonna die. Come watch TV”​

 

[Gangster Talk]

So to summarize.
People you're talking about are people with no other interests/qualities other than liking something, which is where I stand?
Because I see people saying "key part of their personality" "part of their personality" "sole purpose" and so forth.
So its confusing when you have these opinions and you aren't sure how much you can attach yourself to something.
I'd say cars and stuff is a big part of me, like a biker makes bikes a big part of them.
Its not all i do or care about but, its something i want to be a part of.

I could respond to your messages and try to clarify specifically what kind of person I think is pathetic but literally why do you give a shit about my opinion or validation, I'm a random poster on a gossip forum and spent an hour last night listening to a fat alcoholic cry and scream at a cancer patient about internet drama, most normal people would rightfully consider this to be a complete waste of time but I couldn't give less of a shit

 

[Non-Threatening Niall]

I realise this is prolly a waste of perfectly good bandwidth, but anyway.

In principle, you don't owe anyone an apology for having hobbies and interests, however cringey they might be. That's your right, for better or worse. The problem is, at this point in life you must have realised that when you so much as make anyone else barely aware of your existence, you're basically forfeiting your right not to be judged.

You say your thing is motorsports, right? Okay, so right now that's as much as I know about you, and that's pretty much it. You're "that F1 sperg" to me now, end of.
Now, let's say tomorrow you decide to leave your house cosplaying as Max Verstappen, helmet and everything, and then I run into you on the street. You can't possibly expect me not to point, laugh and tell anyone who'll listen about the fucking Racecar Johnny weirdo I saw. But hey, if that's your thing, by all means carry on.
But then, picture yourself in a train or something, while still dressed as Verstappen, Suddenly, you start autistically droning on about F1... really specific stuff (sorry, only thing I know about F1 is it's not a real sport) to a captive audience of uninterested randos. Here, not only mockery is to be expected, chances are someone at some point is gonna stand up and pimp slap you to make you shut up.
See where I'm trying to go with this?

A lot of people here are telling you to log off and go outside. But touching grass and lifting weights won't do you any favours with growing the thicker skin you're in dire need of. If anything, a few more rounds of online mockery and derision are in order, cos if you care this much for the impression a bunch of autistic weirdoes on a godforsaken corner of the internet have of you, you should abstain from having any IRL interaction for your own safety.

 

[Mr Zhukov]

We mean having your every moment in your waking life be nothing but dedication to bikes, getting obsessed to the point where its unhealthy.
Making a spectcle of yourself onilne because of your unhealthy obsession with bikes.

You can still enjoy the hobby, just don't act weird about it and we wont make fun of you.

Another example, the consoomers thread. I hate those type of people who buy literally everything they see, yet I collect a few figurines and such and dont make a big deal out of it. It's the people in the former that get made fun on, not the latter.

Yeah I get that. Its just sometimes the thread has stuff I consider fine.
I guess my frustration with the consoomer thread is some people go a bit too far with the anti consooming.

Also this stuff would be mauled if it was on Kevin gibbs thread. The consoomer thread also.
I'm fine with it.

 

[Pissmaster]

Okay, I'm not reading all this. What's the gist?

Good, don't. Your brain will melt.

 

[Mr Zhukov]

I could respond to your messages and try to clarify specifically what kind of person I think is pathetic but literally why do you give a shit about my opinion or validation, I'm a random poster on a gossip forum and spent an hour last night listening to a fat alcoholic cry and scream at a cancer patient about internet drama, most normal people would rightfully consider this to be a complete waste of time but I couldn't give less of a shit

This is really my issue. I sperged on at @Gar For Archer about one time in the consoomer thread he disagreed with someone and how he could collect toys when others in the thread said it was for manchildren or something.
Its the "if you disagree with me your Y" kind of stuff.

 

[Botchy Galoop]

Do What Thou Wilt Shall Be The Whole Of The Law.

 

[Pissmaster]

I think this guy is a kid

He's posted about starting college and how he's attached to his Cars (the Pixar movie) memorabilia, so I'm guessing he was born around '01-'03