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Going through another phalloplasty recovery TikTok: AshtonWilliams211. She doesn't have downloads on for her videos so I screenrecorded, sorry for a couple moments of screen record failings. I wasn't expecting to record for so long, but I honestly found it captivating to watch, so I'm just uploading all of it.
The story starts with her stage 1 phalloplasty. She is unable to walk in the hospital for 120 hours, and has a tube stitched into her arm to grow her urethra, that she has to put saline through 2x per day. She has a severe allergic reaction to antibiotics after being released from the hospital. She gets her catheter out on day 13. Her girlfriend needs to help her shower, she laments the loss of independence. She also talks about how she "I didn't even think about the fact that I was going to bleed". Weeks after the surgery she is still having trouble standing for extended periods of time.
She continues recovering from stage 1. She reports that she didn't think she would have a catheter for more than 2-3 days in the hospital. "Independence is definitely something I took for granted before phalloplasty." Phalloplasty is "extremely hard on your body, but also hard on your mind." She has to go to urgent care because there is blood gushing out of her hand, turns out there was a blood clot in her "urethra" growing in her arm. She is starting to get feeling back in his arm but it's even more uncomfortable now that there is feeling. She first busts a stitch in her arm and they have to try multiple ways to repair it, then surgeon out of nowhere instructs her to get the stitches taken out, which she had no idea would happen. She seems to assume this was the plan all along that hadn't been explained to her... seems to me the surgeon is learning on the fly. The arm feels "completely different every day," it will become very swollen and painful then get better on its own, etc. She shares she paid $8,000 out of pocket for stage 1.
I became MATI watching these because THIS IS NOT MASCULINITY. there should be nothing more emasculating than destroying your physical condition and relying on nurses and your girlfriend for activities of daily living! Any MALE would be emasculated by this. If you want to be masculine why not lift weights, assert yourself, take care of your girlfriend, build something. It is utterly pathetic and far more munchie behavior rather than MALE.
She is getting more and more sick of dealing with her arm. She says your arm if you get urethra lengthening "is always going to bother you", you "learn to live with the constant pain of your arm". She has to take antibiotics due to possible infection in the arm. Then, she tried to flush her urethra with saline as she needs to every day, but there was a blockage, so she tried to push it through and keeled over in pain. She called her surgeon and asked for stage 2 surgery ASAP to get this out of her arm. They are trying to move her date up, but in the meantime she is getting pockets of fluid build up in her arm that she needs to press until the fluid comes out. Her thumb also starts hurting terribly whenever she moves it, turns out this is due to scar tissue in the arm. She is prescribed muscle relaxers to deal with it.
Leading up to stage 2, she wonders what she will think looking back at this time in 1 years time, he can't wait for it to be over. "I am so excited to finally feel whole in my body!" But for now she declares she is no longer going to let her arm hold her back.
Finally, she has stage 2 (5/31 I believe). On the 4th day in the ICU after stage 2, she reports she is finally back on a solid food diet. On day 5, she needs a blood transfusion. Day 6, she can finally stand up, and has her skin graft surgery, which includes putting piece of placenta within the arm. She is finally out of the ICU on day 7. She gloats, 'every nurse tells me my phallus is so beautiful! they say my surgeon is an artist! I can't believe I finally have this and am getting so many compliments already!' "I can't thank my surgeon enough for changing my world." She reports that she doesn't poop until 2 weeks post-surgery.
In recovery, showering takes every single ounce of energy. She feels like she has an elephant on her shoulders weighing her down when she stands up. She will have 2 catheters for next 3 months -- she has already spilled her pee all over the floor multiple times trying to connect the tubes. She will also have physical therapy 3x per week to regain arm feeling and function. 3+ weeks past surgery still can't do things like pull up her pants on her own and bend over. "It is very difficult to learn how to walk with this new part of me" but don't worry, it's very "euphoric."
She ends up with complications due to discomfort in catheters, has to get both catheters changed and "screamed in pain". But, she can finally shower with her arm exposed for the first time since February (4 months ago).
About 5 weeks post-surgery: "I miss being able to sit, but other than that bottom surgery wasn't really that hard for me!" She finally doesn't need to cover her arm, except in the sun. About 2 months with catheters, she is starting to have bladder spasms. She has gained 20lbs since starting phalloplasty. "I have to walk completely different, I have to sleep completely different, sleeping on my side is a whole different ballgame." Over 2 months since surgery, she shares she had a complicated UTI that is resistant to antibiotics, for the past 3.5 weeks. She has to get a midline, and will have to administer hospital strength liquid antibiotics. At the end of August says she is moving on with her life and will not post updates on TikTok any more.
She returns to TikTok in November, reports she has had some "very low lows" and has a fistula in the urethra, and 18 months of surgeries ahead of her. She had one of the catheters taken out, and was able to pee through the urethra for 12 hours... Then lost ability to pee. Her surgeon sent her something to put in the urethra to try to fix it, it didn't work, and now her urethra hole has completely closed up. She will continue being reliant on catheters until her next surgery. But "phalloplasty is the best decision I have ever made for my transition ... I knew the complications that would arise, and I am one of the complications." Phalloplasty was "eye opening, humbling," "I've learned a lot about myself and all the people around me who really care about me."
She shares she was not able to regain any feeling in her arm. She is really struggling with not being able to pee. "These are things you never think about when you're going to have phalloplasty, you don't think gee I won't be able to pee and I"ll need to have a catheter for 7 months." But she is still looking forward to when she finally heals and achieves "the ultimate happiness. " But for now, "I'm still living in a literal nightmare."
Finally, this past week she had urethraplasty. During the surgery they realized her urethra was not viable at all, so they had to take skin grafts from her mouth to build a new urethra. She looks and talks like she got punched in the face. But don't worry, she is one of the top 250 hospitals in the United States! She finally has her catheters out and can live a normal life! Of course, after dealing with the 2 infections she contracted post-surgery. And in 6 months she needs another surgery to open up her phallo again. (I believe that currently she is "growing" her urethra again, within the rotdog.)
The way she acts like everything is okay and she's so happy for her phallo, while barely able to talk from skin grafts in her mouth, reminds me of in Fight Club when Norton beats himself up in front of his boss and then smiles up at his boss as he's bleeding...
<-- The face of gender euphoria.
This honestly ended up being one of the darkest things I've ever witnessed.... Phalloplasty needs to be illegal.
The story starts with her stage 1 phalloplasty. She is unable to walk in the hospital for 120 hours, and has a tube stitched into her arm to grow her urethra, that she has to put saline through 2x per day. She has a severe allergic reaction to antibiotics after being released from the hospital. She gets her catheter out on day 13. Her girlfriend needs to help her shower, she laments the loss of independence. She also talks about how she "I didn't even think about the fact that I was going to bleed". Weeks after the surgery she is still having trouble standing for extended periods of time.
She continues recovering from stage 1. She reports that she didn't think she would have a catheter for more than 2-3 days in the hospital. "Independence is definitely something I took for granted before phalloplasty." Phalloplasty is "extremely hard on your body, but also hard on your mind." She has to go to urgent care because there is blood gushing out of her hand, turns out there was a blood clot in her "urethra" growing in her arm. She is starting to get feeling back in his arm but it's even more uncomfortable now that there is feeling. She first busts a stitch in her arm and they have to try multiple ways to repair it, then surgeon out of nowhere instructs her to get the stitches taken out, which she had no idea would happen. She seems to assume this was the plan all along that hadn't been explained to her... seems to me the surgeon is learning on the fly. The arm feels "completely different every day," it will become very swollen and painful then get better on its own, etc. She shares she paid $8,000 out of pocket for stage 1.
I became MATI watching these because THIS IS NOT MASCULINITY. there should be nothing more emasculating than destroying your physical condition and relying on nurses and your girlfriend for activities of daily living! Any MALE would be emasculated by this. If you want to be masculine why not lift weights, assert yourself, take care of your girlfriend, build something. It is utterly pathetic and far more munchie behavior rather than MALE.
She is getting more and more sick of dealing with her arm. She says your arm if you get urethra lengthening "is always going to bother you", you "learn to live with the constant pain of your arm". She has to take antibiotics due to possible infection in the arm. Then, she tried to flush her urethra with saline as she needs to every day, but there was a blockage, so she tried to push it through and keeled over in pain. She called her surgeon and asked for stage 2 surgery ASAP to get this out of her arm. They are trying to move her date up, but in the meantime she is getting pockets of fluid build up in her arm that she needs to press until the fluid comes out. Her thumb also starts hurting terribly whenever she moves it, turns out this is due to scar tissue in the arm. She is prescribed muscle relaxers to deal with it.
Leading up to stage 2, she wonders what she will think looking back at this time in 1 years time, he can't wait for it to be over. "I am so excited to finally feel whole in my body!" But for now she declares she is no longer going to let her arm hold her back.
Finally, she has stage 2 (5/31 I believe). On the 4th day in the ICU after stage 2, she reports she is finally back on a solid food diet. On day 5, she needs a blood transfusion. Day 6, she can finally stand up, and has her skin graft surgery, which includes putting piece of placenta within the arm. She is finally out of the ICU on day 7. She gloats, 'every nurse tells me my phallus is so beautiful! they say my surgeon is an artist! I can't believe I finally have this and am getting so many compliments already!' "I can't thank my surgeon enough for changing my world." She reports that she doesn't poop until 2 weeks post-surgery.
She ends up with complications due to discomfort in catheters, has to get both catheters changed and "screamed in pain". But, she can finally shower with her arm exposed for the first time since February (4 months ago).
About 5 weeks post-surgery: "I miss being able to sit, but other than that bottom surgery wasn't really that hard for me!" She finally doesn't need to cover her arm, except in the sun. About 2 months with catheters, she is starting to have bladder spasms. She has gained 20lbs since starting phalloplasty. "I have to walk completely different, I have to sleep completely different, sleeping on my side is a whole different ballgame." Over 2 months since surgery, she shares she had a complicated UTI that is resistant to antibiotics, for the past 3.5 weeks. She has to get a midline, and will have to administer hospital strength liquid antibiotics. At the end of August says she is moving on with her life and will not post updates on TikTok any more.
She returns to TikTok in November, reports she has had some "very low lows" and has a fistula in the urethra, and 18 months of surgeries ahead of her. She had one of the catheters taken out, and was able to pee through the urethra for 12 hours... Then lost ability to pee. Her surgeon sent her something to put in the urethra to try to fix it, it didn't work, and now her urethra hole has completely closed up. She will continue being reliant on catheters until her next surgery. But "phalloplasty is the best decision I have ever made for my transition ... I knew the complications that would arise, and I am one of the complications." Phalloplasty was "eye opening, humbling," "I've learned a lot about myself and all the people around me who really care about me."
She shares she was not able to regain any feeling in her arm. She is really struggling with not being able to pee. "These are things you never think about when you're going to have phalloplasty, you don't think gee I won't be able to pee and I"ll need to have a catheter for 7 months." But she is still looking forward to when she finally heals and achieves "the ultimate happiness. " But for now, "I'm still living in a literal nightmare."
Finally, this past week she had urethraplasty. During the surgery they realized her urethra was not viable at all, so they had to take skin grafts from her mouth to build a new urethra. She looks and talks like she got punched in the face. But don't worry, she is one of the top 250 hospitals in the United States! She finally has her catheters out and can live a normal life! Of course, after dealing with the 2 infections she contracted post-surgery. And in 6 months she needs another surgery to open up her phallo again. (I believe that currently she is "growing" her urethra again, within the rotdog.)
The way she acts like everything is okay and she's so happy for her phallo, while barely able to talk from skin grafts in her mouth, reminds me of in Fight Club when Norton beats himself up in front of his boss and then smiles up at his boss as he's bleeding...
<-- The face of gender euphoria.This honestly ended up being one of the darkest things I've ever witnessed.... Phalloplasty needs to be illegal.
