Dilation is literally consuming my life, does it get better?
I am a little over 45 days post op. Everything’s almost healing well, but I am one of chett’s girl so yeah that means sticking to an extremely rigorous dilation schedule.
Initially I used to have to have no problem doing it 3 times a day for 70 mins. But lately it’s just been a lot. Frequent mental breakdowns, because dilation is all I am doing these days. No social interaction, barely going out, (it’s still discomforting to stand for longer and sitting is still uncomfortable) and with dilation it’s like by the time I am done with one session it’s already time for another. Some days it feels more heavy, other days I comfort myself by saying it’ll get better. But it’s just a lot. It’s just me venting out here.
I had other trans girl say me how frustrating dilation would be, but you only realize it when you’re yourself in that space. I can totally see someone getting extremely depressed because of it, gladly I have a partner, to whom I am crying most of the days, while he sits besides me and lands me kisses all over face and holds my hand. It’s hard! I am hopeful that it’ll get better and that I’ll look back at these times and be glad I made it. Sending lots of hugs to someone going through the same. It’s hard ik.