hi all, 20M here, i had a pretty bad accident at work today and i just need to vent. i’ll start by saying i’m a welder and i started working at my current company about 6 weeks ago. as far as i’m concerned, nobody at my job is aware that i’m trans. even though i’m pre-op, my chest isn’t very noticeable through my clothes and i’m just under 3 years on t so i pass pretty well. i don’t like to be very open about it because you never know how the guys are going to react, especially in that trade.
well, it was the end of the day and i was using the drill press to drill some pieces when i reached for something and the sleeve of my shirt got caught in the drill. so in a matter of seconds, my arm got caught, my feet came off the ground and i was pretty much on top of the table stuck in the drill yelling for help, i fell on the floor with no shirt (i somehow maneuvered my way out of my shirt to save my own ass, and my coworker ran over to turn off the machine. i just kinda crossed my arms across my chest and stood there in shock for a minute while my coworkers asked me if i’m alright.
thankfully, i am okay and i just have a small scrape on my arm but i genuinely thought i was going to die for a split second and i’ve never really felt that before. i feel so embarrassed and stupid after all that to the point where i’m dreading work tomorrow. i feel like i made a fool of myself and im just so humiliated. no one said anything about my body or anything, they were just asking if i was okay and making sure i didn’t get hurt, which i really appreciate but i can’t help but feel ashamed. i just smiled and told them i was fine and that i just felt bad for all the trouble. i’m almost certain that im the only person that’s ever gotten themselves into this situation but if anyone has a word of advice or anything to contribute at all it is so, so greatly appreciated <3