Two Trans Girls: Travelled Across the Country Broke n Scared (
self.lgbt)
submitted 4 years ago by
XeroBounds
I just crossed the country from Florida to Utah in an old beat up Corolla with my girlfriend and $30 to my name.
The trip took about a week in total of non-stop driving, only stopping to sleep in our car and eat. We ended up sleeping in 100°F+ temperatures in Jacksonville with no AC and stayed in Wyoming where it got down to the teens with no heating.
The past few months have been literal hell on earth. My dad, who before I came out was already very hot-headed and abusive, took a 180° and in March when I told him I was transgender he lost all patience with me. We fought and argued nearly every single day and when my girlfriend came to Florida to stay with me all shit hit the giant, proverbial fan. It started out with lots of yelling and name calling.
He always refused to call me Nicole and would purposely call my girlfriend, who is full time trans, ‘boy’ and ‘freak’ and ‘it’ all the fucking time. Stuff started getting out of hand when physical violence started breaking out against me and my girlfriend.
At first my reaction to him getting in her face was violent and I ended up getting the shit kicked out of me on my birthday this last August. My uncle, who was staying at the house for free while we payed rent, and my father shoved me over the corner of a table which injured my back very severely and made it hard to walk for a couple weeks. I was covered in blood from him punching my face and I was basically bruised everywhere.
After that I was just angry all the time. I was working 2 jobs when this happened, totalling about 70 hours a week. It was so much stress and anger built up inside me that it still irritates me to this day. About a month later, in September, 2018, we got in another fight. I was paying him to keep me on his insurance since it was cheaper and I was always flat broke due to how much rent he wanted from me and my girlfriend.
Well, on the 4th he cancelled that insurance and my car was the only way to get to my work since there was no public transportation to it (kinda lived in Nowhere Land, Florida-- not a lot of buses) and it was 20 miles away.
I confronted him about it and basically told him he was entrapping me in that house by taking all my money.
Well, he didn't like that all too much and he ended up pushing and grabbing me again and it started a fight, except this time I won. He ended up calling the cops and they took his side, of course, him being a combat veteran and all. In their eyes I was a 21 year old adult male who was a danger to him. Even though he's the one that's laidlayed his hand on me since I was 9 years old.
After I went to jail... my life had basically fallen apart. My girlfriend ended up having to work full time to help support us since the 2 days I spent in jail lost me both of my jobs. A little while after that my car broke down and I was really, really depressed. I ended up trying to swallow a bottle of pills and a bottle of Jack Daniel's after the court dropped the charges on me and my probation ended. Luckily I survived.
I didn't end up doing it obviously. I thought of a better plan. I ended up filming my dad abusing us and sending it to my girlfriend's mom and brother who live in Utah. Well, nevertheless, they were appalled by what they saw going on to their sister/daughter and me. Her mom told us to pack our things and gtfo of there that night that I sent the videos, so we did. We left that house with the clothes on our backs in a crappy corolla we got in at midnight and never looked back once. We ended up traveling from Florida all the way to Utah with $30 to our names and somehow made it.
Well, now that we're here, we still need some help.
We came here to make a better life for ourselves but we are flat broke. Like 10 bucks and a pack of skittles broke. I need 32 dollars to get a new ID here in Utah to make it easier to get a decent job out here. Also our car has no gas left and we haven't eaten in about 4 days. I'm starting to feel sick from hunger pains and my girlfriend felt nauseous and dizzy this morning due to the lack of food and being trapped here. We only have till December to move out of here and I'm not sure how we're going to pull that off.
I've never struggled this hard in my life, it feels like I've started over in a new place without any head start. Literally starting again from nothing.
I even had to leave my wig and hormones in Florida and I've felt super dysphoric everyday I've been here. We're looking to get enough money to be able to comfortably get our lives back together and be able to have enough time and energy to look for jobs
Please repost and share if you can, and thank you for taking the time to read this, Nicole
We have GoFundMe too set up to help us, if you would like to donate, however posting it in subreddits usually results in a ban.