What is going through Nick's mind? This is what is going through Nicks mind:
"I'm not an addict. I may do lots of alcohol but I am not like an addict. I financially support my kids, I have money, a house and a career. I am not some unemployed guy trying to get his next fix by selling off the kids toys. I'm totally different. I choose to do drugs and alcohol completely at will and could stop at any time I wish to - so I am not an addict or like the others. Besides, I have a stream that pays. All this stuff with the Pastor reporting me was just bad timing - that coke was supposed to last me weeks, and I had just re-uped so it isn't fair to say I do copious amounts of coke like an addict. I also buy for several people, and in fact don't do that much at all. The scales weren't there to measure out stuff for sale, it was to moderate my own use. My kids were never in any danger and know not to do drugs and respect my responsible use. And the guns weren't even loaded, I only load them up when the dealer comes around or someone from the sex group who I am not familiar with - and that is just common sense. I would never endanger the kids and leave them alone in the home with a safe full of drugs tempting a thief, it was like I said, a recent re-up. It is true that friends and family have asked me to moderate when it comes to drugs, sex and alcohol, but this just proves the point that I am a smarter than average guy and they don't understand the actual level of control I actually have over these things. But I do understand why people compare me to addicts, but as you can clearly see, I am above that. And as for my "infidelity" it is not if it is consensual and my wife and I are simply above the caveman conservative mentality that dominates lesser types that can't be trusted with having multiple partners. We have agreed to this and that is what a marriage is really all about - agreements and following them, so if anything, I am more loyal than most are in marriage and am committed to having a working relationship that respects boundaries. I have never done anything my wife wasn't 100% behind. And as for the comments about my lawyer, Judge and Church, these views are commonly held by many people in my field and their taking it to heart only proves their guilt, and the fact that I called them out on it should be cause to recognize my ability to see things for what they really are".