However, I don't think you getting banned off xitter is a big deal
My anger is from the realization that the pendulum will never swing so far that I, personally, can benefit from it. It doesn't matter what I do, what I say, what I write, what I accomplish, who I inspire, who I influence, etc: I
personally will
never benefit. I will
never profit from my work. I will
never benefit from my mission. The only possible good fortune I am going to ever receive is possibly living to see a day where my idealism is spread a bit further.
Actually make money? No.
Speak freely on whatever platform? No.
Hold any position in any organization? No.
Be thanked by name by anyone who matters? No.
Even when I can demonstrate, beyond any benefit of a doubt, that certain organizations like Cogent and Path are terrible, I can't even get the supposedly free speech orgs like Rumble to take it seriously. It almost feels like they have deliberately picked the two worst ISPs to do business with so that when Schaeffer invariably chimps out and cuts them off, they can make a press release
RUMBLE AT FOREFRONT OF CENSORSHIP; FIRST COMPANY DEPLATFORMED BY TIER 1 INTERNET BACKBONE COMPANY! and then the boomers rally around them and give them a billion dollars in market value to fight the good fight.
Like that's how it's going to happen. They don't want to avoid problems. They don't want to listen to weirdos who've been there and done that. They want to capture that essence and convert it to profit because they have the means and ability, whereas I
never will, and
never can.
Elon is very happy to let outright pedophiles on his platform so long as they don't attract enough negative attention. He's happy to make token gestures and allow Nick Fuentes on because it makes him look like a freedom fighter. He's not willing to allow me on because I am not high profile enough. I attract all the wrong negative attention without making any point. Who cares what happens to the Kiwi Farms guy? He's not even on a political team! He doesn't vote!
I am not depressed, I am angry. I am extremely angry and indignant that I am the world's omni-nigger. I am the nigger of all niggers, lower than the lowest nigger, beneath the calloused feet of the most dirty disgusting retard gorilla nigger.
And I'm not even really sure why at this point. I feel like I hold back continuously. If I said what I really wanted to say I'd be naming names in a way that would probably get arrested. I feel like I continually piss off everybody. We're not hardcore enough for actual criminal sites, we're not political enough for the far right, we're not correct enough for the left, but we're too correct for the libertarians! We're just the odd peg. A drama site that just so happened to piss off a bunch of really important gross faggots. So we (I) have no friends and never will. I honestly feel like my life would be easier if I just let some political activist group like the Groypers take over and nod along with Fuentes, or some other group of insufferable retarded faggots.
Saying shit like they're in hell watching their children suck niggerdick and then saying "I don't hate them" feels disingenuous and makes you sound like an angry spiteful mutt who can't even stay consistent.
Well, they are, and I don't. That's just what I think.