I just had my first dilation today after removing my packing and wow that was definitely an experience. It wasn’t enjoyable at all. I’d even go as far as to say it was painful, why did I not think it would be

. But never the less we move.
How was ur first dilation?
My first dilation very nearly was my last, I felt violated and it reminded me of abuse as a child. It took a lot of talking with my partner and friends to work out something that could get me through this feeling and able to dilate again.
Thankfully that worked, it became barely tolerable, but I was able to continue.
I’m now nearly 4 months and it’s no longer a feeling of violating and it’s so much easier to do, pleasurable? Not a chance, but it’s no longer an issue.
The first dilation was straight-up traumatizing. It continues to be a nightmare when sizing up. "Mastered" sizes when a very mild vibe are applied

So I'm hopeful, even if frustrated. But you aren't alone - I didn't understand how horrifically painful it is at first.
Just had my first as well. Didn't feel like much, and it was a bit awkward. Definitely wouldn't call it a sexual feeling.
like being filled up with concrete; cold, hard, very clinical