Your 推し is くそ Ellie Lois Marcus / fallenshadow / Shondo / syadouu / shadowxeclipse / killudesu / IRresolute / @fallenshadow_YT

[HottoMotto]

I can't blame her at all for committing. Between her incredibly dysfunctional family, irregular relationships, medical conditions (both mental and physical), hopeless children she could not protect from her abusive partners and themselves topped with constant unbearable pain this was the happy ending for her. If I were her I would do it much sooner, ideally before birthing retards and likely future abusers and abused.

she couldn’t take her meds for BPD while she was there

Im curious about this, for someone as mentally ill as her with history it seems like a weird thing to enforce which makes me wonder if by BPD meds Ellie just meant some drugs her mom was abusing to self medicate.

On a different note, I briefly saw her stream yesterday. She had over 3k CCV, one of the biggest vtubers on Twitch, which is truly horrifying, is there really nothing better to watch? My brain couldn't take watching her for long but I swear she was talking about possibly joining Mythic Talent (Asmongolds agency), but maybe I misunderstood. Can someone confirm or deny this?

 

[AltCtrl56]

I can't blame her at all for committing. Between her incredibly dysfunctional family, irregular relationships, medical conditions (both mental and physical), hopeless children she could not protect from her abusive partners and themselves topped with constant unbearable pain this was the happy ending for her. If I were her I would do it much sooner, ideally before birthing retards and likely future abusers and abused.

Im curious about this, for someone as mentally ill as her with history it seems like a weird thing to enforce which makes me wonder if by BPD meds Ellie just meant some drugs her mom was abusing to self medicate.

On a different note, I briefly saw her stream yesterday. She had over 3k CCV, one of the biggest vtubers on Twitch, which is truly horrifying, is there really nothing better to watch? My brain couldn't take watching her for long but I swear she was talking about possibly joining Mythic Talent (Asmongolds agency), but maybe I misunderstood. Can someone confirm or deny this?

People watch her this much now because of the recent events. There is no other way. She doesn’t seem to really collab with big names besides filian (sometimes) and neuro (one time). If I remember correctly she also got raided by 3 vtubers including squchan. But as I said she doesn’t really collab wity big names like Lily, Bao, Numi, Ironmouse etc. I wonder if they hate her too

 

[cheesed to meet you]

My brain couldn't take watching her for long but I swear she was talking about possibly joining Mythic Talent (Asmongolds agency), but maybe I misunderstood. Can someone confirm or deny this?

I can't find a clip on Youtube but from what people said in her /vt thread it seems she did bring it up and was positive about the idea.

 

[Nigga Bullshit]

I imagine it will. I doubt that information will be made public however unless included in the lawsuit.

A hearing has been scheduled [A] for August 5, 2025:



The hearings are public. Not sure about the documents though:


I also saw that they publish the results of each investigation. A lot of the outcomes are very vague though, some of them just say "accident" or "suicide."

My brain couldn't take watching her for long but I swear she was talking about possibly joining Mythic Talent (Asmongolds agency), but maybe I misunderstood. Can someone confirm or deny this?

I can't find a clip on Youtube but from what people said in her /vt thread it seems she did bring it up and was positive about the idea.

Yes, she is joining Mythic Talent:

Source (1:25:13)

In summary, she says it won't have an impact on her content and it's just so she can get better sponsorship deals and make more money. She adds that she would only get into trouble with management if she did something like saying slurs on stream (because we live in a society where saying "nigger" generates more outrage than pandering to pedophiles does).

 

[WelperHelper99]

A hearing has been scheduled [A] for August 5, 2025:
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The hearings are public. Not sure about the documents though:
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I also saw that they publish the results of each investigation. A lot of the outcomes are very vague though, some of them just say "accident" or "suicide."

I imagine recording isn't allowed. Been through this with Russel Greer. You can attend on zoom. Most you can take are notes. You *might* be able to get a transcript if you pay for it.

Yes, she is joining Mythic Talent:
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Source (1:25:13)

That's Asmongold's thing.

In summary, she says it won't have an impact on her content and it's just so she can get better sponsorship deals and make more money. She adds that she would only get into trouble with management if she did something like saying slurs on stream (because we live in a society where saying "nigger" generates more outrage than pandering to pedophiles does).

Seems like she's making out like a bandit

 

[HottoMotto]

(because we live in a society where saying "nigger" generates more outrage than pandering to pedophiles does).

With all the recent Mythic vtubing shit is it safe to assume asmongold is a groomer? Or just the same old grifter

 

[Ferryman]

You can attend on zoom.

I mean, realistically, what's stopping someone from just recoring the zoom call? Where illegality is concerned, unless every attendee gets a separate camera angle I can't imagine how you'd prevent that. Not suggesting someone do it of course, just wondering how or if those types of situations are prevented.

 

[WelperHelper99]

I mean, realistically, what's stopping someone from just recoring the zoom call? Where illegality is concerned, unless every attendee gets a separate camera angle I can't imagine how you'd prevent that. Not suggesting someone do it of course, just wondering how or if those types of situations are prevented.

They will subpoena the farms and get your IP if it was ever posted. They will find you. I swear we have this conversation every fucking time a court case comes up. Take notes, don't be lazy.

 

[Ferryman]

They will subpoena the farms and get your IP if it was ever posted. They will find you. I swear we have this conversation every fucking time a court case comes up. Take notes, don't be lazy.

Fair enough! I know fuck all about lawfare and even less about international lawfare, so you've got me there. First time following a court case like this while(before?) it is ongoing, so pardon the dumb question.

With all the recent Mythic vtubing shit is it safe to assume asmongold is a groomer? Or just the same old grifter

Grifter. Just look at the tonal shift in his politics as of late - just a year ago he was the biggest left-leaning fence sitter ever, but he sees the pendulum swing just the tiniest touch and boom, to the right he goes. Just compare to how he reacted to Dear Elon vs any political video/topic from 1+ year ago to see the difference.

 

[Hoi Polloi]

I imagine recording isn't allowed.

I can confirm that generally hearings, tribunals, and so on are not permitted to be recorded. I don't know how this relates to coroner inquests but given that they're using the word "hearing" I'm going to assume the rules apply here also. Generally you can get hold of transcripts.

 

[Asukaismywaifu]

She got sick, a complication from her cancer treatment, an abscess. It was serious enough to take her to the hospital, but after some time, it seemed like she was stabilizing. They were getting ready to discharge her. But the pain was constant, relentless. On top of that, she couldn’t take her meds for BPD while she was there. It all just built up the physical agony, the mental chaos. Eventually, it became too much, and she tried to end it right there in the hospital.

They kept her for about a week longer after that. Her family begged them to do more, and the nurses who saw her struggling recommended it too. But the doctor decided against involuntary commitment.

A week later, back at home, she took her own life. It’s hard to know what went through her mind in those final moments, whether she felt abandoned or just too exhausted to keep fighting. But now she’s gone, and the people who loved her are left holding the silence she left behind. It didn’t help that her boyfriend had been discouraging her from taking her meds when they met each other.

How do you know all this

 

[Mr. Krabs]

Also, this audio recording of a subs-only stream she did the night of the day she posted that tweet:
https://files.catbox.moe/zhmwel.ogg

1:28:00: Ellie claims to have had a Kiwi Farms account, which she used to stalk Amberlynn Reid. She says that she followed deathfats and Chris.
1:31:00: Ellie had a phase of trying to creep up on YandereDev in 2015. She claims that he was her first lolcow obsession and that she wanted to be friends with him. She says she tried to get him to groom her, but it didn't work.

Her email ( elliethelemon@gmail.com ) is an email which was leaked in the Kiwi Farms data breach.

The interesting part is that this email appears in the old KF breach list from 2019:

Is fallenshadow secretly a member of the infamous Kiwi Farms?

 

[AltCtrl56]

Her discord messages + tweets + what she has said in streams (both open access and subscriber-only).

An important source is this tweet, posted 3 days after her mom's suicide attempt at the hospital:

https://x.com/fallenshadow_YT/status/1890147642774045043

https://archive.is/20250213212045/https://x.com/fallenshadow_YT/status/1890147642774045043

Also, this audio recording of a subs-only stream she did the night of the day she posted that tweet:

https://files.catbox.moe/zhmwel.ogg

It was supposed to be a watchalong of the 1981 slasher movie My Bloody Valentine (which she chose because she said she hates Valentine's Day and people who have sex), but she stopped near the beginning to vent and rant for hours about various aspects of her life, including her mom's situation. She said a lot of things. Notably, she said that she hates people with BPD (like her mom), people who have sex, especially premarital sex (like her mom), and people who give birth to children and then treat them like shit (like her mom).

The audio link doesn’t work for me

 

[AltCtrl56]

It's common for catbox to randomly go offline a few minutes a day; just try again.

This is what it shows

 

[Ferryman]

Also, this audio recording of a subs-only stream she did the night of the day she posted that tweet:

Is there a public archive of her sub-only streams available anywhere? Bound to be more juice somewhere in there.

 

[nmp]

I can confirm that generally hearings, tribunals, and so on are not permitted to be recorded. I don't know how this relates to coroner inquests but given that they're using the word "hearing" I'm going to assume the rules apply here also. Generally you can get hold of transcripts.

What about recording and then running it through an AI transcriber?

 

[4090 Chad]

Grifter. Just look at the tonal shift in his politics as of late - just a year ago he was the biggest left-leaning fence sitter ever, but he sees the pendulum swing just the tiniest touch and boom, to the right he goes. Just compare to how he reacted to Dear Elon vs any political video/topic from 1+ year ago to see the difference.

I’ll play devils advocate and say it’s possible he’s always had rightish political beliefs, but since he streams on gay and pozzed twitch he could have been just a sellout and spouted the normie rhetoric that wouldn’t get him banned. Once he cemented himself as one of (if not the largest) Twitch viewerships and the political winds started to changed, he could have seen it as an opportunity to speak freely because it would have been harder for Twitch to do anything about it without massive backlash.

But you could also be right and I agree with the grifter sentiment regardless.

 

[Hoi Polloi]

What about recording and then running it through an AI transcriber?

This was asked a ton on this site w.r.t US court cases where the same rules applied and it was the general consensus that this is probably not a good idea either.

More to the point, this appears to be happening in Preston, UK with no obvious facility to view it online. Unless you're there in person, you won't be seeing it.

 

[Zelwik]

1:28:00: Ellie claims to have had a Kiwi Farms account, which she used to stalk Amberlynn Reid. She says that she followed deathfats and Chris.

Oh yeah, I'm surprised this hasn't been posted here already. She once tried to fish for Chris' attention (probably for her lolcow obsession) by drawing a fanart of him as an anime girl.

https://preservetube.com/watch?v=9MoEWrEGkfQ

https://x.com/fallenshadow_YT/status/1105666895678722049

 

[Abella]

Oh yeah, I'm surprised this hasn't been posted here already. She once tried to fish for Chris' attention (probably for her lolcow obsession) by drawing a fanart of him as an anime girl.

https://preservetube.com/watch?v=9MoEWrEGkfQ

https://x.com/fallenshadow_YT/status/1105666895678722049

That’s such a low effort and quality thing to do. Reminds me of either whang or wavywebsurf talking about him and trying to skirt around saying they basically came here to read about him.