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Now I'm at a head cold. That was fucking gay as hell to deal with!

On a positive thing, I noticed bar pseudoephedrine, I've been "straight edge" and my mood has improved a bit.

I'm gonna keep the painkiller use to a fucking minimum if I can help it. Only when my face is *really* fucking hurting because that shit is fucking with my mind.
 
A person I was extremely close with, but who eventually betrayed me during the worst time of my life has died. I don't know how to feel about it. I thought, I would feel relief and let it finally go, but now I am just very sad it ended this way. I can't even put my finger on why exactly, just sad, period.
 
So exhausted after waking up early, and even though I'm happy to see my great uncle again soon, I'm not looking forward to picking him up when he lands back in America. I want to nap, not drive to the airport. Oh well.
 
Once again, summer didn’t pan out. That’s like, what, the fifth consecutive “Summer of Me” that ended with a whimper.

I have an an expanding, formless urge to commit random violence.

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> Mom’s probably dying
> Doctors do nothing
> Living at home
> Just sacked
> Unemployed > 1 month
> Criminal record due to corrupt cops
> Protip: don’t do the Devil’s Lettuce
> Never made anything important
> No savings
> Friends abandoning me
> Husband constantly suicidal
> Possibly infertile
> 30 y/o Real Woman and utter failure


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I hate to ask so soon after my last post, and I'm even willing to be seen as a retard in return for actual, legit advice:

What are some social hobbies, things to try out, or places to go so I can develop some social interests while also meeting people?

I need to get away from a lifetime of keeping myself busy with solo hobbies like reading and exercising on my own due to living in the boonies for the vast majority of my life, and now that I'm finally in a populated area I'm tired of feeling way behind on a social/friend network compared to.... anyone else I've ever been able to see. I about to say you may as well consider me starting from scratch or step one at this rate when it comes to learning to socialize.
I am in the same exact predicament as you.

I am trying to make friends through a local youth political association. I found this group by going to a comedy show. Made one or two buddies, hoping I can get them out drinking sometime soon, or maybe go to church with them.

The strongest piece of advice I've heard from friends that graduated college and moved is that you need to become a regular somewhere. Doesn't matter where. Hopefully we'll both make friends that way.

Young men need young men, its very critical.

Good question to start with is 'what do you like'? Do you like drinking? Do you like book clubs? Do you like politics? Do you like comedy? Live music? Robotics? Theres bound to be something near you to do regularly.
 
I am in the same exact predicament as you.

I am trying to make friends through a local youth political association. I found this group by going to a comedy show. Made one or two buddies, hoping I can get them out drinking sometime soon, or maybe go to church with them.

The strongest piece of advice I've heard from friends that graduated college and moved is that you need to become a regular somewhere. Doesn't matter where. Hopefully we'll both make friends that way.

Young men need young men, its very critical.

Good question to start with is 'what do you like'? Do you like drinking? Do you like book clubs? Do you like politics? Do you like comedy? Live music? Robotics? Theres bound to be something near you to do regularly.
Thank you much for it, and I want to say I bolded/italicized to me the most important part - and I'm not "young" anymore!

I am still figuring myself out socially. Not a drinker and while I keep abreast of politics I find it can be an obvious roadblock to people, so I think I need to try some stuff out like... well, I'm down for looking into the comedy like you said. I need to find a shelter in this area to volunteer at, as well. I still like your typical nerdy stuff like comics and considering cons, but I do wonder if it's more for 20-somethings at this rate (decade ahead of that, eh). Fighter games are also nice, they're really the only gaming I pay attention to anymore, but obviously incredibly niche.

I will keep figuring out. At the very least forcing myself out of my place on weekends is helping. I definitely like being outside and in the sun and nature though I never considered myself one of those "outdoorsy" types as in the hiking/camping sort in the slightest.
 
GIVE ME A FUCKING JOB

I don't know how these lolcows can stand being unemployed. I'm not a worker bee or anything but jesus fucking christ I'm losing my mind. Wish I could get back in the military but I tried when I quit my job and even the Marines were like lol lmao fuck off.

I'm a pretty good applicant on paper too, a couple years of IT experience, certs out the ass, an Associates and I'm working on my Bachelors too. IT market is just fucked (according to reddit)
 
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So, i did not get into any shit with people on public transit yesterday for a change but today was absolutely cursed. Been in a bad mood already because i was hungover and it was way too hot, been to two stores, got accosted by a schizo bum even before entering Lidl, got into it with another subhuman at the checkout line because he behaved rudely with the cashier and really had to get myself into check because of common gypsy behaviour in the second store. Really one of these days. Feels like i am really asking to much of people with just wanting some common courtesy and them not behaving like animals.
A person I was extremely close with, but who eventually betrayed me during the worst time of my life has died. I don't know how to feel about it. I thought, I would feel relief and let it finally go, but now I am just very sad it ended this way. I can't even put my finger on why exactly, just sad, period.
Maybe because you are thinking about how it all could have been different between you two? That's mostly how i feel about the situations in my life where people died and i still kind of feel mostly indifferent about their passing.
 
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GIVE ME A FUCKING JOB

I don't know how these lolcows can stand being unemployed. I'm not a worker bee or anything but jesus fucking christ I'm losing my mind. Wish I could get back in the military but I tried when I quit my job and even the Marines were like lol lmao fuck off.

I'm a pretty good applicant on paper too, a couple years of IT experience, certs out the ass, an Associates and I'm working on my Bachelors too. IT market is just fucked (according to reddit)
The Air Force and Space Force are combining their Cyber Intel and Cyber Warfare career fields into a single career field at the moment. Not sure what recruiting numbers will look like when they finish with the merger, but it may be worth keeping an eye on since you already have certs and experience, which is a huge plus for those two fields already so they may be open to prior service if they don't have the numbers. They already struggle to retain people in those fields since most get out to chase the contractor positions. My last job and current job told me I was given an interview just because I had JCAC on my resume. I wish you the best of luck and hope something works out for you soon.
 
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Brother men, I have a scheduled C-section (already had a previous emergency one, don’t want to do that again,) in a couple months and have received a letter in the mail from my doctor. Her handwriting looks like that of an 85 year old with Parkinson’s.

Not “haha, doctor handwriting” bad, I mean “person in nursing home about to die” bad. It’s HUGE and VERY shaky, like she wrote the thing during an earthquake. There are no earthquakes here. It's entirely in print, as if from a child learning to write. My (misspelled) name and address takes up 3/4 of the envelope front. I thought they had pity hired a cripple to do the mailing, but this is my doctor.

If she can’t hold a pen, how can she hold a scalpel? Or a needle and thread?? This person is supposed to gut me, carefully remove a living baby, and sew me back up?? What is this Curb Your Enthusiasm level nonsense???? I am legitimately terrified, do I switch doctors again?? What the fuck
 
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Brother men, I have a scheduled c-section (already had a previous emergency one, don’t want to do that again,) in a couple months and have received a letter in the mail from my doctor. Her handwriting looks like that of an 85 year old with Parkinson’s.
The "doctors write like shit" thing is so old, Frasier did a bit on it. These guys are basically auto pens now, at a certain point the part of their brain that writes like a human just ossifies, gets replaced with squiggles.
 
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