Roketsune / Darosne / Christian Crawford / Field Marshal Crappenburg - Pedophile Activist Furry, Kiwi Farms Member, Verbose Cunt, Furry Drama Investigator

[Cato]

Looks like he's been hard at work catching up. Also further evidence he's been trying to get our attention again (and I guess I'm playing right into that by posting this, but whatever).

 

[OtterParty]

@Field Marshal Crappenberg post the private messages @keksz sent you

 

[Feline Darkmage]

PermaNEET?

 

[Field Marshal Crappenberg]

My apologies for the very delayed response here. As I indicated late last month, I was extremely busy with various matters, and this continued into April. In fact, I still have things to do which were suspended while all of that excitement and preparation were happening, but I've been wanting to respond here for a while and the impetus is very high currently.

As was reported here on 25 March, I read this thread after over three weeks of not having looked in KF at all, then Tweeted my status regarding KF to Kiwis in general in lieu of coming here. There was new information and advice to process and deliberate and I lacked the capacity to promptly do this, and I had wordlessly been absent from here for weeks. I thus gave a rushed response from my Twitter to communicate my status both as a courtesy and to adhere to my own personal standards. Unfortunately, this act of courteous prudence was misinterpreted as a display of weakness and a confirmation of the perceived destructive capabilities of KF. My subsequent clarification Tweet wasn't posted here, so that didn't help. While the natural inclinations of many here was a main factor, I concede I also caused this by carelessly responding in a shitty medium.

The mere act of making a post here demonstrates I rejected the advice I was given. I hope that at least a few people here understand I pondered this intermittently over the course of almost a month rather than blithely disregarded what was said. There are several reasons for my decision:

• It is exceedingly unlikely my presence here will precipitate some catastrophic scenario that several people here predicted. I asserted this earlier and I am confident in asserting it again. Even true villains featured here often or usually aren't destroyed or seriously harmed. There wouldn't likely be much impetus for serious aggression due to a variety of factors which would take too long to explain.
• Even if the aforementioned desire was there, extreme measures would have to be taken to actually cause substantial damage- things that would entail physically coming here. Anything short of that would at worst be an inconvenience.
• I have deemed the scenario @Fareal presented in her very endearing post extremely unlikely. Greta was not violent when she was at Null's former residence- the menacing posturing was done online. Null even declined to give her a Terrorist tag after its creation. The impetus for aggression by TLL's people towards me is certainly substantially lower. Also, the possibility I am armed or trained in martial arts was not considered when the entreaty was made.

In the exceedingly unlikely event she both learns where I actually reside and murders me, it would at least obviate the very great fear and uneasiness I have over inexorable aging, decline, and mortality, and the decision of self-euthanasia. It's far better to die abruptly and sympathetically than to have to decide when is too long and how to end it in old age or during terminally illness.

• Deciding to permanently withdraw from here would be an endorsement of the vastly inflated perceptions some regulars hold of the destructive will and capability of this community and its watchers. I detest the prospect of reinforcing this unwarranted self-perception.
• The dynamics have changed in the interim. There are several lolcows I have peculiar knowledge of, and I am desirous of imparting that knowledge. Also, as Melkor demonstrated while I was away at FWA, there is the likelihood of Kiwis sniping at me from afar regardless of what I choose to do.
• By refusing to contribute to a thread which others decide to create and contribute to without any direct input or encouragement from me, any falsehoods and misperceptions would go unchallenged, and mitigating stuff would never be presented.
• I have been accused of cowardice multiple times here. My delay in returning and responding (these responses consume a huge amount of time- I can't just pop in and quickly remark) do not constitute cowardice, but given my various assessments, my withdrawal from here would. I will not become that which I loathe.

For all of these reasons, I have concluded the logical and honorable decision is to resume my original course and speak here directly when I need or wish to. That's not to say I've completely disregarded all advice, behavior, and signals in the thread. I very readily learn from and adjust to stimuli and observations. However, I find refraining from contributing to a discussion/examination about me which was started without any prompting from me to be self-injurious and ridiculous. I will not live in great fear of internet randoms online who are overwhelmingly self-aggrandizing but harmless spectators (that description is also highly applicable to me generally). It is highly unlikely my doctrine on this will change.

Speaking of my presence... I've repeatedly read people essentially proudly asserting that I fully expected to win everyone over and instead I've been thwarted. This ignores two critical facts: 1.) I understood that this was a very optimistic scenario which was plausible but perhaps probably wouldn't have materialized. 2.) I understood that the opposite scenario- revealing myself to the owner backfired and the level of acrimony remained acute and insuppressible- was plausible. I do not prefer #2 because it's less entertaining and beneficial to me, but I always knew my actions could precipitate it and that was an acceptable outcome to risk.

Since this thread materialized during a time where multiple projects/interests were starting to need my attention simultaneously, I have not been able to respond often. This has meant the discussion has not been matured or furthered much, which means we're still somewhat in the Haha Die Pedofur phase. Me inarticulately revealing I was deliberating advice and intel caused it to go into another bad direction and reinforced the beliefs of some Kiwis. I had made a few tweets pertinent to this thread and KF which weren't posted, so that also is a factor. If I had been 2-3x as active here, I believe the thread by now would at least be different- probably different in a better way.

About the hebephilia and cub stuff... My sexuality is not nearly as important to me as it is to other people. I am preoccupied to a far greater degree with other concerns and aspects on an everyday basis. When I resume writing, my general military/world war storyline will have priority over pubescent cub erotica. The prospect of any RL sexual relationship at all frightens and deters me- let alone illegal ones with children (who I usually don't sexually respond to anyway). On the relatively infrequent occasions I do engage in sexual expression or gratification, it's generally extremely furry-based. I sometimes look for anime human shotacon and femboys, or RL femboy/feminine twink stuff on occasion. My masturbation fantasies inevitably drift back to my characters and world even when looking at porn. So many of you are absolutely fixated on my sexual orientation and ideology, when in practice it's totally irrelevant in the physical world and is a minor component of my being overall.

Everyone seems to have overlooked that there is far more about me to laugh derisively at, or angrily derogate and repudiate. There are multiple other subjects to delve into such as substance abuse, my political ideology (it swings wildly between issues from liberal socialism to outright bloody fascism), my feelings of superiority and disdain towards people in general, various other things. Hell, I'll even agree with Kiwis who think I'm ugly IRL because I don't like my face and body either (I do what I can, which isn't all that much). I do have a sense of dignity and self-respect and thus there will be some things I will refuse to reveal despite being an awkward and obnoxious autist, but I'm generally pretty open and responsive.

A few Kiwis are more benevolent and compassionate and appreciate success/reform stories. I've collided with and largely overcome my mental illnesses and immaturity and other negative traits despite having lousy biological parents, a lousy upbringing, a lousy and incompetent system which was supposed to empower me, a lousy self for decades, and a severely disordered brain which resists me every day (I swear, if my mind was a person in my life I'd want to murder him). Every day I'm plagued by innate negative traits/defects which cause appalling inefficiency and exhaustion, and my immense self-knowledge and drive to improve seems to almost be useless in combating them- hence me entering psychotherapy.

For those who like being generally fascinated and intrigued, there are benign quirks of mine which could be explored. Military strategy, history, and tactics, and warfare in general, have been my lifelong autistic fixation and it manifests in various ways- I even want to make an very elaborate furry grand strategy game at some point. There's this weird system I have for doing things which sometimes even I don't understand or adhere to. I have idiosyncratic terms for various functions and things. There's the whole femboy IRL thing. There are my sexual fixations and fetishes which are very specific and inflexible. I have literary and game aspirations which might fascinate or amuse people. There are many other weird or lolworthy things about me (maybe including this entire post of mine).

It won't be heartbreaking if the dialogue remains a series of contests of who can conceive the wittiest insult or who can anger me the most. That and trolling is mildly amusing to me but not my primary objective here. Actually, once my urgent/immediate queue is lighter and I'm less emotionally encumbered, I would like to once again collaborate with Kiwis on those few cases whose circumstances generate a moral impetus for action. This rarely happens here, but occasionally there is a case such as TLL and that recent fucking "pranking" YouTube couple which incites Kiwis into inspiring and redeeming noble malevolence. While I don't often have the ability to go on grand documentation/examination and presentation sprees, it'd be nice to occasionally contribute my substantial talents to such worthy imperatives.

I've already selected quotes which warrant a response, and I'll be working on that after sending this. I think I'll finish that before bedtime today, and then I'll start on a few miscellaneous other tasks while I'm here. Whatever I don't finish today will be resumed Monday or Tuesday.

 

[Melkor]

My apologies for the very delayed response here. As I indicated late last month, I was extremely busy with various matters, and this continued into April. In fact, I still have things to do which were suspended while all of that excitement and preparation were happening, but I've been wanting to respond here for a while and the impetus is very high currently.

As was reported here on 25 March, I read this thread after over three weeks of not having looked in KF at all, then Tweeted my status regarding KF to Kiwis in general in lieu of coming here. There was new information and advice to process and deliberate and I lacked the capacity to promptly do this, and I had wordlessly been absent from here for weeks. I thus gave a rushed response from my Twitter to communicate my status both as a courtesy and to adhere to my own personal standards. Unfortunately, this act of courteous prudence was misinterpreted as a display of weakness and a confirmation of the perceived destructive capabilities of KF. My subsequent clarification Tweet wasn't posted here, so that didn't help. While the natural inclinations of many here was a main factor, I concede I also caused this by carelessly responding in a shitty medium.

The mere act of making a post here demonstrates I rejected the advice I was given. I hope that at least a few people here understand I pondered this intermittently over the course of almost a month rather than blithely disregarded what was said. There are several reasons for my decision:

• It is exceedingly unlikely my presence here will precipitate some catastrophic scenario that several people here predicted. I asserted this earlier and I am confident in asserting it again. Even true villains featured here often or usually aren't destroyed or seriously harmed. There wouldn't likely be much impetus for serious aggression due to a variety of factors which would take too long to explain.
• Even if the aforementioned desire was there, extreme measures would have to be taken to actually cause substantial damage- things that would entail physically coming here. Anything short of that would at worst be an inconvenience.
• I have deemed the scenario @Fareal presented in her very endearing post extremely unlikely. Greta was not violent when she was at Null's former residence- the menacing posturing was done online. Null even declined to give her a Terrorist tag after its creation. The impetus for aggression by TLL's people towards me is certainly substantially lower. Also, the possibility I am armed or trained in martial arts was not considered when the entreaty was made.

In the exceedingly unlikely event she both learns where I actually reside and murders me, it would at least obviate the very great fear and uneasiness I have over inexorable aging, decline, and mortality, and the decision of self-euthanasia. It's far better to die abruptly and sympathetically than to have to decide when is too long and how to end it in old age or during terminally illness.

• Deciding to permanently withdraw from here would be an endorsement of the vastly inflated perceptions some regulars hold of the destructive will and capability of this community and its watchers. I detest the prospect of reinforcing this unwarranted self-perception.
• The dynamics have changed in the interim. There are several lolcows I have peculiar knowledge of, and I am desirous of imparting that knowledge. Also, as Melkor demonstrated while I was away at FWA, there is the likelihood of Kiwis sniping at me from afar regardless of what I choose to do.
• By refusing to contribute to a thread which others decide to create and contribute to without any direct input or encouragement from me, any falsehoods and misperceptions would go unchallenged, and mitigating stuff would never be presented.
• I have been accused of cowardice multiple times here. My delay in returning and responding (these responses consume a huge amount of time- I can't just pop in and quickly remark) do not constitute cowardice, but given my various assessments, my withdrawal from here would. I will not become that which I loathe.

For all of these reasons, I have concluded the logical and honorable decision is to resume my original course and speak here directly when I need or wish to. That's not to say I've completely disregarded all advice, behavior, and signals in the thread. I very readily learn from and adjust to stimuli and observations. However, I find refraining from contributing to a discussion/examination about me which was started without any prompting from me to be self-injurious and ridiculous. I will not live in great fear of internet randoms online who are overwhelmingly self-aggrandizing but harmless spectators (that description is also highly applicable to me generally). It is highly unlikely my doctrine on this will change.

Speaking of my presence... I've repeatedly read people essentially proudly asserting that I fully expected to win everyone over and instead I've been thwarted. This ignores two critical facts: 1.) I understood that this was a very optimistic scenario which was plausible but perhaps probably wouldn't have materialized. 2.) I understood that the opposite scenario- revealing myself to the owner backfired and the level of acrimony remained acute and insuppressible- was plausible. I do not prefer #2 because it's less entertaining and beneficial to me, but I always knew my actions could precipitate it and that was an acceptable outcome to risk.

Since this thread materialized during a time where multiple projects/interests were starting to need my attention simultaneously, I have not been able to respond often. This has meant the discussion has not been matured or furthered much, which means we're still somewhat in the Haha Die Pedofur phase. Me inarticulately revealing I was deliberating advice and intel caused it to go into another bad direction and reinforced the beliefs of some Kiwis. I had made a few tweets pertinent to this thread and KF which weren't posted, so that also is a factor. If I had been 2-3x as active here, I believe the thread by now would at least be different- probably different in a better way.

About the hebephilia and cub stuff... My sexuality is not nearly as important to me as it is to other people. I am preoccupied to a far greater degree with other concerns and aspects on an everyday basis. When I resume writing, my general military/world war storyline will have priority over pubescent cub erotica. The prospect of any RL sexual relationship at all frightens and deters me- let alone illegal ones with children (who I usually don't sexually respond to anyway). On the relatively infrequent occasions I do engage in sexual expression or gratification, it's generally extremely furry-based. I sometimes look for anime human shotacon and femboys, or RL femboy/feminine twink stuff on occasion. My masturbation fantasies inevitably drift back to my characters and world even when looking at porn. So many of you are absolutely fixated on my sexual orientation and ideology, when in practice it's totally irrelevant in the physical world and is a minor component of my being overall.

Everyone seems to have overlooked that there is far more about me to laugh derisively at, or angrily derogate and repudiate. There are multiple other subjects to delve into such as substance abuse, my political ideology (it swings wildly between issues from liberal socialism to outright bloody fascism), my feelings of superiority and disdain towards people in general, various other things. Hell, I'll even agree with Kiwis who think I'm ugly IRL because I don't like my face and body either (I do what I can, which isn't all that much). I do have a sense of dignity and self-respect and thus there will be some things I will refuse to reveal despite being an awkward and obnoxious autist, but I'm generally pretty open and responsive.

A few Kiwis are more benevolent and compassionate and appreciate success/reform stories. I've collided with and largely overcome my mental illnesses and immaturity and other negative traits despite having lousy biological parents, a lousy upbringing, a lousy and incompetent system which was supposed to empower me, a lousy self for decades, and a severely disordered brain which resists me every day (I swear, if my mind was a person in my life I'd want to murder him). Every day I'm plagued by innate negative traits/defects which cause appalling inefficiency and exhaustion, and my immense self-knowledge and drive to improve seems to almost be useless in combating them- hence me entering psychotherapy.

For those who like being generally fascinated and intrigued, there are benign quirks of mine which could be explored. Military strategy, history, and tactics, and warfare in general, have been my lifelong autistic fixation and it manifests in various ways- I even want to make an very elaborate furry grand strategy game at some point. There's this weird system I have for doing things which sometimes even I don't understand or adhere to. I have idiosyncratic terms for various functions and things. There's the whole femboy IRL thing. There are my sexual fixations and fetishes which are very specific and inflexible. I have literary and game aspirations which might fascinate or amuse people. There are many other weird or lolworthy things about me (maybe including this entire post of mine).

It won't be heartbreaking if the dialogue remains a series of contests of who can conceive the wittiest insult or who can anger me the most. That and trolling is mildly amusing to me but not my primary objective here. Actually, once my urgent/immediate queue is lighter and I'm less emotionally encumbered, I would like to once again collaborate with Kiwis on those few cases whose circumstances generate a moral impetus for action. This rarely happens here, but occasionally there is a case such as TLL and that recent fucking "pranking" YouTube couple which incites Kiwis into inspiring and redeeming noble malevolence. While I don't often have the ability to go on grand documentation/examination and presentation sprees, it'd be nice to occasionally contribute my substantial talents to such worthy imperatives.

I've already selected quotes which warrant a response, and I'll be working on that after sending this. I think I'll finish that before bedtime today, and then I'll start on a few miscellaneous other tasks while I'm here. Whatever I don't finish today will be resumed Monday or Tuesday.

TL;DR gas yourself

 

[Feline Darkmage]

I actually agree with one of the points @Field Marshal Crappenberg brought up in his highly autistic (as per his usual) textwall. And that's we should mock the shit out of him for being an A-Log. I feel we haven't talked about that shit enough.

He might be even more of an A-Log than the original person that shit was named after.

 

[NobleGreyHorse]

I'm just not sure "But u guize, there are so many other things about me that are humorously aberrant, here are just a few" is the best, well... strategy, although Feline Darkmage has a point -- "true villains"?

 

[Feline Darkmage]

"true villains"?

I'm pretty sure he's talking about the literal child molesters and other criminals we have threads about.

 

[Melkor]

He thrives off unironic a-logging.

 

[OtterParty]

Everyone seems to have overlooked that there is far more about me to laugh derisively at, or angrily derogate and repudiate. There are multiple other subjects to delve into such as substance abuse, my political ideology (it swings wildly between issues from liberal socialism to outright bloody fascism), my feelings of superiority and disdain towards people in general, various other things.

Tell us about them

 

[GS 281]

why a raccoon? I always wonder about these things. Also, what are your thoughts on diaperfurs?

 

[AnOminous]

My apologies for the very delayed response here. As I indicated late last month, I was

tl;dr

 

[Begemot]

Nah, you're still an admitted 'virtuous' paedo that tries to explain away their degeneracy via needless textwalls and obtuse terminology. There's no 'moral impetus to action' available here, kid, just like there's no such thing as 'virtuous' paedophillia.

 

[BILLY MAYS]

@Field Marshal Crappenberg show us where the big bad post made you cry

 

[Conrix]

My apologies for the very delayed response here. As I indicated late last month, I was extremely busy with various matters, and this continued into April. In fact, I still have things to do which were suspended while all of that excitement and preparation were happening, but I've been wanting to respond here for a while and the impetus is very high currently.

As was reported here on 25 March, I read this thread after over three weeks of not having looked in KF at all, then Tweeted my status regarding KF to Kiwis in general in lieu of coming here. There was new information and advice to process and deliberate and I lacked the capacity to promptly do this, and I had wordlessly been absent from here for weeks. I thus gave a rushed response from my Twitter to communicate my status both as a courtesy and to adhere to my own personal standards. Unfortunately, this act of courteous prudence was misinterpreted as a display of weakness and a confirmation of the perceived destructive capabilities of KF. My subsequent clarification Tweet wasn't posted here, so that didn't help. While the natural inclinations of many here was a main factor, I concede I also caused this by carelessly responding in a shitty medium.

The mere act of making a post here demonstrates I rejected the advice I was given. I hope that at least a few people here understand I pondered this intermittently over the course of almost a month rather than blithely disregarded what was said. There are several reasons for my decision:

• It is exceedingly unlikely my presence here will precipitate some catastrophic scenario that several people here predicted. I asserted this earlier and I am confident in asserting it again. Even true villains featured here often or usually aren't destroyed or seriously harmed. There wouldn't likely be much impetus for serious aggression due to a variety of factors which would take too long to explain.
• Even if the aforementioned desire was there, extreme measures would have to be taken to actually cause substantial damage- things that would entail physically coming here. Anything short of that would at worst be an inconvenience.
• I have deemed the scenario @Fareal presented in her very endearing post extremely unlikely. Greta was not violent when she was at Null's former residence- the menacing posturing was done online. Null even declined to give her a Terrorist tag after its creation. The impetus for aggression by TLL's people towards me is certainly substantially lower. Also, the possibility I am armed or trained in martial arts was not considered when the entreaty was made.

In the exceedingly unlikely event she both learns where I actually reside and murders me, it would at least obviate the very great fear and uneasiness I have over inexorable aging, decline, and mortality, and the decision of self-euthanasia. It's far better to die abruptly and sympathetically than to have to decide when is too long and how to end it in old age or during terminally illness.

• Deciding to permanently withdraw from here would be an endorsement of the vastly inflated perceptions some regulars hold of the destructive will and capability of this community and its watchers. I detest the prospect of reinforcing this unwarranted self-perception.
• The dynamics have changed in the interim. There are several lolcows I have peculiar knowledge of, and I am desirous of imparting that knowledge. Also, as Melkor demonstrated while I was away at FWA, there is the likelihood of Kiwis sniping at me from afar regardless of what I choose to do.
• By refusing to contribute to a thread which others decide to create and contribute to without any direct input or encouragement from me, any falsehoods and misperceptions would go unchallenged, and mitigating stuff would never be presented.
• I have been accused of cowardice multiple times here. My delay in returning and responding (these responses consume a huge amount of time- I can't just pop in and quickly remark) do not constitute cowardice, but given my various assessments, my withdrawal from here would. I will not become that which I loathe.

For all of these reasons, I have concluded the logical and honorable decision is to resume my original course and speak here directly when I need or wish to. That's not to say I've completely disregarded all advice, behavior, and signals in the thread. I very readily learn from and adjust to stimuli and observations. However, I find refraining from contributing to a discussion/examination about me which was started without any prompting from me to be self-injurious and ridiculous. I will not live in great fear of internet randoms online who are overwhelmingly self-aggrandizing but harmless spectators (that description is also highly applicable to me generally). It is highly unlikely my doctrine on this will change.

Speaking of my presence... I've repeatedly read people essentially proudly asserting that I fully expected to win everyone over and instead I've been thwarted. This ignores two critical facts: 1.) I understood that this was a very optimistic scenario which was plausible but perhaps probably wouldn't have materialized. 2.) I understood that the opposite scenario- revealing myself to the owner backfired and the level of acrimony remained acute and insuppressible- was plausible. I do not prefer #2 because it's less entertaining and beneficial to me, but I always knew my actions could precipitate it and that was an acceptable outcome to risk.

Since this thread materialized during a time where multiple projects/interests were starting to need my attention simultaneously, I have not been able to respond often. This has meant the discussion has not been matured or furthered much, which means we're still somewhat in the Haha Die Pedofur phase. Me inarticulately revealing I was deliberating advice and intel caused it to go into another bad direction and reinforced the beliefs of some Kiwis. I had made a few tweets pertinent to this thread and KF which weren't posted, so that also is a factor. If I had been 2-3x as active here, I believe the thread by now would at least be different- probably different in a better way.

About the hebephilia and cub stuff... My sexuality is not nearly as important to me as it is to other people. I am preoccupied to a far greater degree with other concerns and aspects on an everyday basis. When I resume writing, my general military/world war storyline will have priority over pubescent cub erotica. The prospect of any RL sexual relationship at all frightens and deters me- let alone illegal ones with children (who I usually don't sexually respond to anyway). On the relatively infrequent occasions I do engage in sexual expression or gratification, it's generally extremely furry-based. I sometimes look for anime human shotacon and femboys, or RL femboy/feminine twink stuff on occasion. My masturbation fantasies inevitably drift back to my characters and world even when looking at porn. So many of you are absolutely fixated on my sexual orientation and ideology, when in practice it's totally irrelevant in the physical world and is a minor component of my being overall.

Everyone seems to have overlooked that there is far more about me to laugh derisively at, or angrily derogate and repudiate. There are multiple other subjects to delve into such as substance abuse, my political ideology (it swings wildly between issues from liberal socialism to outright bloody fascism), my feelings of superiority and disdain towards people in general, various other things. Hell, I'll even agree with Kiwis who think I'm ugly IRL because I don't like my face and body either (I do what I can, which isn't all that much). I do have a sense of dignity and self-respect and thus there will be some things I will refuse to reveal despite being an awkward and obnoxious autist, but I'm generally pretty open and responsive.

A few Kiwis are more benevolent and compassionate and appreciate success/reform stories. I've collided with and largely overcome my mental illnesses and immaturity and other negative traits despite having lousy biological parents, a lousy upbringing, a lousy and incompetent system which was supposed to empower me, a lousy self for decades, and a severely disordered brain which resists me every day (I swear, if my mind was a person in my life I'd want to murder him). Every day I'm plagued by innate negative traits/defects which cause appalling inefficiency and exhaustion, and my immense self-knowledge and drive to improve seems to almost be useless in combating them- hence me entering psychotherapy.

For those who like being generally fascinated and intrigued, there are benign quirks of mine which could be explored. Military strategy, history, and tactics, and warfare in general, have been my lifelong autistic fixation and it manifests in various ways- I even want to make an very elaborate furry grand strategy game at some point. There's this weird system I have for doing things which sometimes even I don't understand or adhere to. I have idiosyncratic terms for various functions and things. There's the whole femboy IRL thing. There are my sexual fixations and fetishes which are very specific and inflexible. I have literary and game aspirations which might fascinate or amuse people. There are many other weird or lolworthy things about me (maybe including this entire post of mine).

It won't be heartbreaking if the dialogue remains a series of contests of who can conceive the wittiest insult or who can anger me the most. That and trolling is mildly amusing to me but not my primary objective here. Actually, once my urgent/immediate queue is lighter and I'm less emotionally encumbered, I would like to once again collaborate with Kiwis on those few cases whose circumstances generate a moral impetus for action. This rarely happens here, but occasionally there is a case such as TLL and that recent fucking "pranking" YouTube couple which incites Kiwis into inspiring and redeeming noble malevolence. While I don't often have the ability to go on grand documentation/examination and presentation sprees, it'd be nice to occasionally contribute my substantial talents to such worthy imperatives.

I've already selected quotes which warrant a response, and I'll be working on that after sending this. I think I'll finish that before bedtime today, and then I'll start on a few miscellaneous other tasks while I'm here. Whatever I don't finish today will be resumed Monday or Tuesday.

Is that why you rated my post "Feels"?

 

[Kudgel]

Whatever I don't finish today will be resumed Monday or Tuesday.

Don't.

 

[Melkor]

View attachment 209128
@Field Marshal Crappenberg show us where the big bad post made you cry

 

[ES 148]

*witty insult*
*condemnation of lolcow's deviancy*
*slightly self-serving anecdote demonstrating how I'm not the same*

 

[Jean Pierre Polnareff]

snip

I like how you type all these fancy big boy words to try to look smart but you're still just a pedo furfag with delusions of grandeur. I'm embarrassed for you.

 

[Field Marshal Crappenberg]

I think he genuinely believed that his foul character traits would be tolerated because he believed we had investment in him as a member due to the effort he put in on the Greta/TLL wiki. That's how he misjudged the terrain - he thought laying a foundation for himself as a useful member would allow him to show his true colors and still be welcomed.

You're actually correct, except for one crucial aspect I just mentioned in my last post- I never was certain this would happen. I cannot control people and I find predicting others' behavior and motivations to be problematic at best. The reverse was about as much a possibility in my mind as this one you stated.

He also, in his response to me, avoided answering the actually difficult questions or refute my facts regarding childhood development in the wake of sexual abuse that he couldn't twist to support his views. He didn't even address them or acknowledge them.

I don't know what post(s) you're referring to. It sounds like you were trying to argue with me about my perceived or actual sexual ideology. While I chose to counter-stroke on this with someone else a while back because he was being especially obnoxious and I wanted to watch reactions, I have generally decided not to engage in these arguments here because no one would be persuaded and I don't find the exercise rewarding to me or this thread in general.

If it was something else and you weren't merely trying to anger me, ask it again and I'll answer it.

He's said before that he's never gotten negative reactions about his clothing choices, but I believe that's because people probably think he's a sped and want to be nice.

That might be one factor. I cannot read minds so if people are silent I don't know how they feel. However, based on the comments I've received, at least some believe I'm either heading to an event or do this as part of my job. Ironically, I'm often seen as an entertainer of children professionally, yet children almost never respond to my appearance. Every time, I respond I'm merely wearing what I prefer to.

We should drop his family's dox. Iirc he was strongly against having his family doxed.

See, you can't really proclaim moral superiority when you're loudly calling for a lolcow's immediate family to be doxed and subject to harassment over things they have no control over and even oppose. Also, yes, like almost everyone else here and in the world at large, I prefer my family to not be successfully doxed, because I'm not completely sociopathic.

Seeing a clown on the street might brighten someone's day.

Actually, I've received several responses to that effect since being a full-on furry femboy. I like knowing I had a positive effect on someone just by being there as myself.

Paedo slapfight! Paedo slapfight!

Yeah, I knew Kiwis would be amused by that outburst of mine. I really just dislike that buffoon. I side with him on tolerance and treatment for non-offending MAPs, but he just goes about it in such a retarded and self-defeating way. He's even openly dared people to dox him and mocked their perceived inability to do so, which is unbelievably stupid to do as a pedo/hebephile regardless of ideology. He's embarrassing, and if me tormenting him entertains other people, so much the better.

I think guys like this see us as edgelords instead of half of us typically being disgusted at lolcow degenerates.

There's no reason someone can't be both of those things. I think it's obvious that the vast majority of us like to gawk at those we perceive to be dysfunctional and inferior to us. It's also obvious many or most of the actives here like making edgy remarks about lolcows to amuse people and/or stroke their egos. Since I'm well familiarized with the culture here, I understand much or most of it is insincere or exaggerated and reflects the coarse sense of humor which pervades KF, and also designed to anger the lolcow. So, unless I'm misinterpreting what you mean by "edgelord", I would characterize this community as having both traits: edgelord lolcow critics who scorn perceived and real degeneracy.

I didn't always have this opinion, but the "Virtuous Pedophiles" thread and the work I did with @chimpburgers on that thread sorta opened my eyes to the fact that there are people out there who do struggle with this compulsion and seek any lifeline possible to avoid it.

It's a shame your post on them was eaten by that forum program issue you mentioned a while back. I read it before that happened (before I registered IIRC) and I also found it informative. As you say, there are some who genuinely hate their sexuality and abhor the concept of sexualizing children, but so many people refuse to accept the notion they will not break laws and deserve treatment if they need it. I see this attitude here displayed frequently. I do not deserve much sympathy or tolerance because I openly repudiate society's attitudes towards sex, but many of those you spoke of are indeed anti-reform and just want to be tolerated by society and live their lives peacefully.

Some of them aren't as virtuous as they may think (Todd Nickerson is one name that sticks out to me)

I think people here have described me as "virtuous" or "VirPed", which demonstrates their ignorance of them and me. Anyway, one reason I did not object to the covert investigations of that organization is they are anti-reform publicly, but many of their members only refrain from such behaviors because of legal factors. Some posts by Nickerson IIRC were rather concerning, and him shutting down dialogue with that other person was morally repulsive to me. I suspect their organization is highly corrupted. I also found their FAQ to be badly made and largely erroneous.

but if you're a pedophile, ephebophile, hebophile, etc., don't expect people to just brush off talking about wanting to be a middle school teacher

I hope YOU of all people knew I was being sarcastic. The "I see no problem with this plan whatsoever" part should have indicated to the average person aware of my case I was trolling/joking. To be honest, if a hebephile actually did wish to pursue that career, I would have grave reservations about that.

Virtpeds are the worst, because they aren't looking for a way to cure their shameful mental illness, they are trying to politicize it for sympathy.

Perhaps some are. They and B4UACT do actually perform critically needed advocacy. I have had highly trained therapists recoil or become deterred when I informed them of being hebephilic (some didn't even know what it was- one though I meant snakes at first). Many have been trained to distrust MAPs completely regardless of their history or ideology. This is not conducive to treating them in general or reducing sexual offenses. And, yes, I know some will respond with "Just kill them all.", but most aren't suicidal and thus won't oblige that strategy.

He strikes me as the type who would seek kiwis out in public just to try and make them ween him

I actually really dislike conflict in a physical medium. I'm not proficient in verbal conflict and find the prospect generally frightening. There were a few people at FWA I really despise, but I avoided them entirely instead and never even considered trolling them there (and also I just think cons should be safe spaces where people celebrate). This is a natural aversion to IRL conflict most people have.

You should run away before he tries to raep your youthful boipussy.

Actually, based on my vague recollection of his facial features (youthful, soft, little to no facial hair), he was at least slightly attractive. I think he was twinkish in build, too. If he had longer hair and had no acne I might have found him substantially attractive.

From our pal rocketsune I expect a 20 tweet update about how his TRUE plan was to become a well respected and then prosecuted member of KF and his plan to use this for some gain.

20 Tweets is only 2,800 characters. I need 100x that to describe grand Kiwi Farms strategy at a minimum.

First day of FWA was today. Might as well post the email sent to con staff and the response back.

I was screaming and swearing the morning I read this... because I couldn't find my brush and my hair extensions were infuriatingly difficult to put in. I was actually greatly amused by seeing this earlier that morning. While I have to commend you for at least trying to cause damage rather than just posture like everyone else here was doing, this was a botched attempt and it was likely doomed to fail even if someone of my caliber had attempted it.

There are several things about this I could critique but this is already very long and I'm not going to be a tactician for your side. Suffice it to say, this message was badly planned and comes across as blatant drama-whoring. And why would you include a screenshot of what I presume was the Halloween candy tweet of mine to Cartograph, something that's mitigating evidence? Amateur!

Knowing con staff at AWA, however, he'll definitely be banned.

I rated your post optimistic. To be honest, I have minimal familiarity with their staff and leadership. In general, conventions are far less willing to preemptively ban someone than you and others presume. You have to be Evil Sibe levels of terrible or a recently convicted sex offender before preemptive banishment becomes a major possibility.

You really should take your case to DragonCon. They're the biggest con in that region. Why stop at comparatively small AWA? Why just limit yourself to one state? Try MegaPlex or MFF! If you're going to mobilize offensively, go big! All you've done so far is warn me of your intentions.

We just have to wait til September.

It is unlikely I'll be at AWA this year anyway. That being said, I have heard nothing from them, and it may well be completely irrelevant because I remember not needing to present ID for my membership in 2015.

Yep. Makes you wonder why there's so much drama in said fandom. Does this much shit go on in other ones?

People love to say furrydom is extremely drama prone. I suspect it's not that much worse than other fandoms. There's also a lot of sexuality within furrydom and sexuality seems to naturally breed drama overall.

What really got to me was his physical appearance, he had a Terry A. Davis-like facial structure so he looked like an old creep

Did I really look that old and crappy? Honestly, I don't care for my face generally either, but especially on the left side at certain anglesI sometimes like the way I look.

I can only imagine the tension in the air that only you could sense.

I knew to expect him or some other Kiwi there, and I did not resent that possibility. As he said, I had invited people here to respectfully interact with me upon spotting me.

and one of us even trying to make sure he isn't allowed at the convention

I strongly suspect more than one person has done this already. Melkor's just the only one to openly brag about it.

I'll give him this, the man has thick skin, as crazy as he is.

I've always been amenable to chatting about difficult or contentious aspects of me. It's just that most here were too busy trying to come up with the wittiest retort or too fixated on my sexuality to notice or care. If I didn't have thick skin I never would have even considered coming here as a lolcow.

I'm not sure how FWA didn't do anything about him, maybe Roketsune was just convincing if he ever talked with staff.

No one from the organization spoke to me at all, and I strongly doubt anyone will. I doubt they even spoke to Tora, who actually IS a convicted sex offender and allowed to attend (IIRC he's friendly with the chairman). Hell, Kage and AC didn't ban him when there was a huge uproar years ago.

And honestly, would any of us really try to pick a physical fight with him?

The person probably was being facetious. Anyone who would seriously advocate violence in a crowded room at a furry con over online drama is utterly retarded.

I'm pretty sure if that message was sent to AC, he wouldn't get in.

You could always try this yourself. Should you decide to, you should also relay I think Kage is a disingenuous fuck and I'm glad the board overruled him and disinvited that reprehensible friend of his, 2 Gryphon. Also, you can inquire why he didn't ban the RSO and attempted re-offender Tora while demanding my preemptive banning.

I'm not a fighter either, but the dude doesn't look too imposing.

I'll have you know I'm a 23rd Degree black belt and carry six firearms at all times. Anyway, in all seriousness, one doesn't have to have a large muscular masculine frame to be capable of formidable defense.

I will say I regret not arranging a little meetup so we can sit down and I read him some questions asked by my friends and other kiwis, wasn't a priority tho.

Ahh, were there people who presented questions to ask? To be very candid, you really should have done this at some point. I was at my weakest point with regards to fitness and preparedness for questioning. I am not very proficient in verbal mediums and I was acutely exhausted mentally and physically, and I would have stood alone. The chance of me saying something stupid, incriminating, or otherwise useful was at its greatest there.

He pretty much acts like he isn't bothered by all of this, but at the same time you can tell that he clearly is, if only a little bit.

Virtually everyone is at least minimally affected by even trivial things. I don't believe someone when they assert they are completely immune to insults or provocation. I think regarding this thread, fixated or even obsessed are far better descriptors than bothered or agitated, but the latter reactions do occur. The difference is they are momentary and minimal, and I don't reflexively charge into battle over them. Many I also find amusing to a degree.

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If his gross-ass murrsona likes to pound little boys, wouldn't having a huge wang like...kill the kids Mr. Hands style?

I'm spoilering my response since it's rather gross to the average Kiwi and even I display a modicum of restraint and awareness. Don't complain to me if you look and are horrified.

Spoiler

I've never envisioned him sticking his 30-cm knotted dick into a pre-teen cub (or an adult with such a body- their advanced medical technology allows people to set permanent physiological ages and adjust other traits that are generally immutable to us). They tend to have bodies which can accommodate larger penises and more frequent sex, but not to absurd levels like is often depicted in furry porn. Roketsune's 12-year-old partner, the femboy otter Lucien, has never been the bottom/uke with Roketsune either in my stories or my fantasies, for the general reason you just stated (and I'd never want either of them yiffing me anally IRL because I'd fucking die or at least have severe anal trauma). Lucien's always the top in that pairing, sometimes the bottom with male classmates.

I wonder if FWA knew he took these pics and has said all the shit he has, they'd ban him. I'd fucking hope so! Then again, I heard that they let a convicted pedo in for some fuck all reason, so probably not.

Even then I'd doubt they'd care, especially if they realized I posted those pictures primarily to anger enemies. They're extremely reluctant to ban anyone who isn't causing them direct and severe grief. They're also aware of my sexual inclinations, including the person who leads Con-ops and most likely responded to his e-mail. He even once linked me to a story of a teenage anti-reform pedophile I guess out of sympathy or empathy.

He's trolling and taking the piss

Pretty much. Though, what exactly does "taking the piss" mean? That's a British phrase, isn't it?

Or in his case he's just being sincere.

Virtually all of my trolling is sincere. Meaning, I almost never say something I don't actually believe to upset people. Not that there's any need to with the great abundance of material I have to work with.

Because he knows were watching his Twitter, so he is posting more provocative posts poking at how he is a pedophile. He knows he is into kids, he knows it gets our people riled up and he knows that we are watching him. He's posting this shit to get our people to nut up about it.

I suspected if anyone here understood this reality, it would be you. Too many people just respond like Pavlov's Dog to bait like that. I'm rather disappointed it didn't result in a massive firestorm here or on that Tumblr blog. I was trying to pull a Tay Ferret, but I suppose only he has the ability to enrage legions of people with innocuous pictures and silly Inkbunny-directed remarks. *sighs heavily and enviously*

he could make us frothing mad if he bought chris' clown shirt and added it to his fursuit

Yeah, I probably could. If I hadn't already near-catastrophically ruined my financial health I definitely would pay 26k for fatso's Classic to push my Trolling stat to over 9k.

I have been monitoring the CWC forum FAR more than I should have been over the last few days, speaking of which. These spectacles are just indescribably ludicrous. I really need a better hobby.

Except in this case, it's "I was only pretending to be a pedophile furfag seeking out children." But he actually is one.

I don't know why people are pushing this notion. I never proclaimed I was pretending to be or do anything. I'm not actually seeking children and never claimed to, but the hebephilia in general I've consistently admitted to for years. Why would I suddenly recant this now?

@Field Marshal Crappenberg post the private messages @keksz sent you

I probably will if people wish this. Honestly, the exchange in general is pretty boring, short, and unremarkable. We were talking about the TLL wiki overhaul. He added the section on LordkaT's testing and generally wished to help the process. The most memorable thing about it was him opening by saluting and asking if he had permission to speak. Even I was caught off guard by that, and I have a fucking military strategist fursona. But it was just an innocuous quirk.

I haven't the faintest idea why he made that outburst, but it provided a lot of levity at a time the acrimony and posturing had reached tedious peak levels, so I was happy with it.

PermaNEET?

I actually do hope that with enough personal rehabilitation and consolidation, I'll become capable of some safe and well-deliberated part-time work, maybe even college education. Or maybe my military strategy game idea will come to fruition 5-10 years from now and provide a modest income. Right now though, despite suffering high debt I have quickly disregarded the prospect of part-time work even at a library or from home every time I considered it. I'm just too neurotic and overextended for this to be feasible currently.

He might be even more of an A-Log than the original person that shit was named after.

I'm not very familiar with Lagatto's remarks and only specifically remember the whole 6-inch foxdick thing. However, I wouldn't be surprised if my more extreme rhetoric was even more odious than his.

Tell us about them

This thing is already gargantuan. You want me to add a political dissertation to it, too?

why a raccoon?

I've always been enamored with raccoons, and I have several traits in common with them. I'm intelligent, curious and inquisitive, adaptive, and reclusive and solitary. It was very easy to choose that as my furry species.

Also, what are your thoughts on diaperfurs?

I don't have a diaper fetish at all and there's a mild visceral discomfort I have about DL/AB things. However, that alone is not a worthy cause of malignment or abuse, and I defend them and babyfurs in general who aren't creepy or inept. Of course, KF loves a good diaperfur/babyfur horror story and some maladroits do exist in that demographic (probably a disproportionately high number of them), so they seem more predisposed to insanity and idiocy than they actually are.

Nah, you're still an admitted 'virtuous' paedo

I think you're misapplying that label. I don't deserve the title "virtuous" in that regard.