Sometimes we don't get the closure we feel like the world owes to us. This last year, I have been going through a fairly standard divorce, and facing the prospect of being on my own for the first time in years. I grew up in what I call a "souls-like" household, which is just the fun way of saying abusive. Mostly neglect, but I was also assaulted in every way you can likely imagine, that i won't say here. At 16, I was kicked out. At 18, I was in Iraq. I drew some inspiration from Berserk, because I feel a deep relation with the character "Guts" and the way he approaches life mostly alone. You'll recognize some of the inspiration, but I didn't want to carbon copy it. I have plans for his story, but it is entirely grounded, personal, and not a high impact "chosen one" story by any means. Gore is a regular guy. For the last six months, I have, across several notepads, journals, and play-throughs, been trying to find a way to convey my struggle with manic-depressive episodes, abandonment, and loss. I didn't want it to be the forefront of the character, but it plays a small role in why he is the way he is, and why he interacts with you, and the world the way he does. Consider this a content warning, I guess. It is what it is. It gets dark. I put off this project for a long time, because I didn't want to pour this negative energy into it, but I feel like I needed something to pour it into. Maybe. I am putting all of myself into this, but I should mention I am not a coder, I am not a voice actor, I am not a writer, and I am not any different from you. If you want to help clean up some of the messiness in the scripts, please feel free. But almost all of this was figured out through trial and error by me. Oh, and Gore is bisexual. Like me. He'll comment on wanting to fuck Faendal, and other examples. If that bothers you, I don't really care. I'm not "fixing" it. Fix yourself. Or take the current version, remove the lines, and upload him yourself. I don't really give a shit.
