I'm deaf. I wouldn't say your pretending. In fact your Dysphoria makes it so you can't speak. If you were saying "I have a physical disability that impacts my vocal chords etc etc" than that's lying, obviously. I don't know anyone who would believe you're "mocking" the disabled community. People are mute, "selectively" or not, and that's it. There's no pretending.
Trans kid here. I have not thought about detransitioning nor do I expect to ever regret this but who knows what the future will bring
How do you feel about the de-transition community in general? How do you fit in? I only ask because in general I see a lot of transphobic views spread In those spaces mainly due to anger, but what I've read from you you seem to continue to stay an ally to trans people.
Best of luck to you in your future journey!!
I'm 15. Came out at 8 and started T and 14th birthday.
My chest grew a little before I started blockers. My chest started developing decently young. I was out as trans but we were not expecting puberty to hit so fast so we kinda had to scramble for blockers.
I came out as a young young child. Ever since I was practically a fetus I always more masculine clothing so there wasn't that change. I went by a different name and pronouns but that's obviously reversible.
I started hormone blockers at 9/10, years after my social transition. Usually blockers aren't started much earlier than 7/8, however hormone blockers are reversible, some cis children go on them for puberty that starts too early.
No one's giving testosterone to a 6 year old, and socially transitioning at a young age did wonders to help minimize dysphoria I'd gain during puberty that I would have hit.