[–]delulu2407
I can absolutely relate to this except for the part of being with men. I wish I could just explore one without the sexual implications
Yes same, I have no interest in men sexually or romantically, I just want to explore
[–]FtM_Jax0n
I think most cis guys constantly think about their dicks too.
[–]androidingly
Considering how much I literally just hold my BFs dick at times I 110% get you man. It can be sexual bc I'm gay and dicks are hot, but like it's also just the physical reality of a penis? The feel of it and how they respond to various stimuli. Balls too tbh, kinda fascinated by those.
An odd mix of gayness, dysphoria processing, and a fun sort of sensory/stim experience. Once we even laid side by side in bed with the lights dim and I jerked him off imagining it was myself. Oh Boy: 11/10, highly recommended.
Another vote for the jerking off in the dark, side position or with him kinda in my lap (like this one bc I can really feel his breathing changes and tell when he’s going to finish) I actually finished hands free at the same time as him once and it was incredibly euphoric, felt like my own dick erupting. Had a wet dream sometime after that where I vividly had my own cis dick and it felt so incredibly realistic, every tiny detail, I could feel all of it as if it were my own body. It’s wild what the mind can cultivate with enough relevant data and sensory information to manipulate with your imagination
I refer to my boyfriend’s dick as “the comfort penis” hahaha sometimes I’ll hold it just because it’s there.
[–]InTheWoodsS0mewhere
Ooo yes! Totally know this feeling. Before my wife asked us to be monogamous, when we first started dating I asked if we could be open. And it was mainly for this reason. Up until then, I had only been with cis women. And then I was suddenly so obsessed with dick lol. Granted the only way I felt I could experience it was in a sexual way, even though a lot of my feelings weren’t necessarily sexual. Anyway, had some hook ups and experiences with cis men, and at some point I realized I was mostly doing this to help my dysphoria, more than anything.
If I couldn’t have a dick of my own, I would live vicariously through someone else. I honestly still have that fascination and really felt it helped my dysphoria, but my wife wanted us to be monogamous. The D isn’t worth ruining my relationship for lolol. But never know, maybe someday they will be ok with things being open again, or finding a fwb for us both to enjoy.
[–]galacticatman
It’s called penis envy or autoadrophilia and yes it’s a fetish the last one
Autoandrophilia is not a thing.
Why would it be a fetish for a man to want a penis? I think that's pretty typical for men.
Read the entire post… even in his title he refers to it as a kink.
I did not mean that all of it is a kink. I probably didn't word it super well but what I mean is I have an obsession and fascination with dicks as a whole. Most of it isn't sexual at all. I'm thinking about my absence of dick almost constantly to some degree. Most of it isn't in sexual contexts but some of it is. I'm obsessed with dick in every context possible. I'm curious about the way they function. How they can be so different from one another, how they grow and shrink, how balls look and function too. Like I mentioned in my post, I ask my male friends about these things, everyday mundane things. That being said, yes some of it is sexual because sex is a part of my life and it is a major function of genitals. So yes this obsession and fascination plays a part in how I enjoy sex. But it's not ALL sex is to me. I would say it can end up almost functioning like a kink but I'm not sure I'd fully call it that honestly. Even with the fwb I mentioned, he and I are both mid to low libido and are mainly focusing on being friends with some light sex on the side. But we still talk about our dicks, I ask him questions, he's down to show me some non sexual stuff and let me be curious since we're already comfortable touching each other. Like most of my obsession has nothing to do with sex. If anything, I seek out sex as an excuse to hold and touch a dick to help my dysphoria. Sometimes I'm excited for sex not because I'm horny but because I just want to be up close with a penis. I totally get where you're coming from and maybe I didn't clarify in my post but it's not a fully sexual thing for me at all.
I guess. It is not entirely sexual as I said in my post. I do not want a penis or have a fascination with them as a purely sexual thing. It is half and half. If anything, more of it is non sexual than is sexual.
I get that you say it isn’t but… from how you’re describing it… it definitely sounds like AAP.
Most of it has nothing to do with sex. I wanna hold a dick while someone pees so I can close my eyes and pretend it's mine and put that memory in my head. Not because it makes me aroused. There is a lot more to it than sex. Yeah, sex plays a part because it's a big part of life and a major function of penises but a lot of my curiosity and obsession is totally non sexual.
And that still sounds like AAP.
How? Bro I just said it's not about being aroused or sex. AAP is primarily a sexual thing no??? I'm fascinated by dicks because I'm a man and I don't fucking have one not because it makes me horny. What the fuck?? Like yeah, if we're talking about during sex the thought of me having a dick does help me stay aroused because...I'm a MAN without one. But outside of sex, unrelated to sex I still find penises interesting and fascinating and I wanna learn everything about them because I do not have one and I am a man. I ask my friends about plenty of other things related to being a man outside of having a dick. I ask them about their male friendships growing up, about growing up as a son, their relationships to their families and siblings. I ask about experiences I don't have or missed out on. Most of it has nothing to do with sex or dicks at all. Some of it is non sexual interest about dicks. Some of it is sexual. What makes any of this AAP?
It’s not AAP. What you describe sounds like normal dysphoria and even the sexual part sounds completely normal and not AAP. The fact that you identify with every part of being a man/having a penis and not just the sexual parts means it is not a paraphilia. Your desires make sense for your gender identity and are normal.
Also, it is normal for cis men to feel sexual about their penises and therefore it is normal for a trans man to feel sexual about them.
THANK YOU. That's exactly how I feel. I said "almost like a kink" for a reason because sometimes the sexual parts can feel that way. But really, I'm no different than any cis gay guy who loves cock either. Not sure why people are painting a totally normal attraction and interest in dicks as a full flow fetish. I am like pretty fuckin vanilla anyway. And yeah, I do identify with every aspect of having a dick, down to the smallest details and the bigger picture, sexual, non sexual, all of it. Like duh a dude without a dick is interested in them. I wasn't even asking for advice or like "what's wrong with me" and people jump to the comments diagnosing me and calling me shit I am not. I wanted to hear from other guys who feel similarly. Figured most of us can relate to some degree with the things I'm saying. Anyway thanks for the comment
