I was sexually abused by a couple different cousins growing up, one male and one female. My father was absent because he was an alcoholic, my mother brought an abusive man into her life as a second husband, who berated me for not being manly enough for 10 years before she finally divorced him
Jesus. Sorry to hear that.
My family culture despite being homophobic is matriarchal in nature, and it’s made of men who by and large like their women to be in charge
You mean men who don’t like adulting and dump it all on women? Hmmm…
I remember back when I was going through puberty, I had an appointment with the pediatrician who gave me this whole speech on my body, and boners, and wet dreams, and stuff… All I remember from it was disassociating…
As many teenagers do when an adult gives them the sex talk.
I don’t want to be a big fat hairy girl. But maybe that is the experience of most women anyways, lol, wishing they were smaller and better looking or whatever.
There is a world of difference. I wish I looked like a supermodel, but I still look OK. You are a large 250lb man. The only woman you could resemble is a genderless deathfat.
I were to be given a choice to go back and relive my childhood and life as the opposite gender, I would do it in a heartbeat
Because you romanticise girlhood. Only someone who’s never had a period would think they’re fun. And if you think it was bad being sexually assaulted as a boy, being a girl probably increases your risk. Idiot.
when my wife was pregnant, I was SO jealous of her the whole time and perhaps didn’t empathize much with her discomfort because I wished we could switch places… I have always been much more empathetic and sensitive and intuitive and artistic and emotive than my male friends.
Fuck. You.
I’ve wondered more recently if some of my attraction to women is more of a “Jealousy” thing and not true attraction per se
You don’t want to fuck men, you’re not sure you’re attracted to women… stop having sex. Please. You are too retarded to be allowed near a hoochie.
I have read a ton of transgender erotica over the years. Stories where characters are magically transformed have really called out to me. They are a sexual turn on too - which makes me wonder if this is al just a fetish. Am I really just struggling with Autogynephilia? Am I just a crossdresser? Am I just a perverted weirdo?
Surprise me.
I also have a fetish around a certain bit of clotning
No surprises there.
I’ve always been ridiculously fascinated by reading about genital reassignment surgery and other treatments related to that
Well do we have a thread for you.
I had an undescended testicle at birth. Surgery to make it drop. It has always been very small. I’ve always wondered if my testosterone levels were off or if I was somehow intersex because of this.
NO YOU ARE NOT INTERSEX YOU FUCKING TARD.
I recently started having bladder problems which normally would be horrifying. But when I discovered that it’s almost only women (especially if under 40) with this problem, it somehow didn’t seem as bad all of a sudden
So glad you can enjoy pissing razor blades. No true and honest woman does.
my wife is wildly supportive of gay rights etc. but she is also triggered by ME coming off as effeminate in almost any way.
Because she likes men and finds you attractive as you are, you moron.
I've always been uncomfortable with the masculine stereotype of Assertiveness or dominance or being big and strong.
No-one says you have to live like a stereotype. Plenty of men are gentle, caring, and still men. Plenty of women are aggressive and dominant. Your gender is only a piece of who you are.
I’ve been depressed and even contemplated driving my car into the opposite lane of traffic many times
Unresolved childhood trauma clearly has nothing to do with this - it must be because you are really a woman. FFS.
If you read all this, you are a saint
Thank you!
Am I overthinking this? Do I strike you as OCD about it? Do you think I’m transgender?
Yes, yes, no. Now go do something for another person and stop ruminating about yourself. You really aren’t that interesting.
