Doing separate post for a recap. This is a transcription as she'll dirty delete this most likely - so forgive typos and bad grammar.
She's in the kitchen, still high, in the wheely chair and smoking a joint. Her voice is really hoarse. VIB's are losing patience.
She looks distraught and teetering between constantly tell her story and she
LOVES HIM TOO MUCH AND CAN"T LIVE WITHOUT HIM
Hi Christy Smith, Ready set beeze!
Things she doesn't want to talk about.
SO - seeing him like 5 month now and wanted to hook up and have fun. So that's why I called him don to proact ID and then she got addicted to coke pretty bad.
Saw some red flag, the chat saw them and that she ignored because she never thought it would happen to me.. that someone would would do that. SOOO um she was also too high to give a shit.
So started with small flags like sneaking out of the house to go home He didn't want her to go home. He would get mad if she left.
SOooooo little things like that or um, little lies she could not prove. Possessive stuff. and then he was going through a bad time in his life. He was emotionally on edge . The big fight thing happen. The big red flag was him escalating getting mad over stupid things or sexually inappropriate things. Little things like being too rough with sex.
He got mad during sex, she did not consent to something like a position and he punched her arm - and he said it was an accident. Few weeks later she bought a ton o coke. Everything was her fault.
she bought 7 grams of coke and they did several grams and he because a different person and his very dark eyes turned black and he was so on edge and she was apparently pissing him off by just being there and accusing her of pissing him off
He was getting upset at her for not controlling how much coke he was doing. He was getting so gambling game - money to lay money gambling and mad and nasty in her face almost hitting her. They went upstairs and then she wanted to go home. Then things blew up and he got up, with dark black eyes and kind of soulless and he said she was behaving on purpose, she didn't listen and he he grabbed her face, pinching it, and she was scared
then he flicked a cigarette at her and felt something hard on her ace and he hit her nd was mean and he hit her a ew times.. "does it make you feel big to hit a woman" and then he figured she d go along with it and he took her pone and she left when he was sleeping. She used Peetz phone and called mom. And then she's not over it because she still flinches, she didn't want to let people know they were right about him.
the worst part is he blamed it on her afterwards. "Why did you make me hit you" type rhetoric. Then he blamed it on the coke.
He hasn't hit her since then but have had some bad fights and a lot of signs of aggression and that's why she stays away sometimes. She doesn't want him to lose temper or she'll change plans on him to protect herself and lie to him.
He never kicked BBJ but does have anger management. We've seen his cooking side which is his good side.
Now she wants to be alone and the stress, chest pain is getting worse.
He made breakfast yesterday and he was pacing in anger nd I made tis breakfast for you and I do things for you and she was on her pone an he got pissed off. She never felt like her body stressful.
welcomes VIB Ready set beeze
She got comfortable with him at times and then he'd send her things like no man would except her (accept her) and money not funny but someone just emotionally and financially draining nd "like for what" then she felt bad.
She doesn't want to screw him over and yesterday she was in love again but was burnt out and she had a breakdown. Went to bed at 3 and was up about 5:30 and was full of energy. Then not considerate
One time playing around. He would restrain her when she's claustrophobic.
She pretended to lose wallet and she was mad at him and made up the lost wallet which had his rent.
She apologizes for being a spectacle. She's annoyed that, hard to be happy for his success on Youtube when she knows how she feels about him. Its because she's like... that if she says it, there is no going back.
(super chats flowing now)
She says she's always on eggshells because he gets really mad.
One time - she has to wait for him to sleep to leave. One time he was blocking her from car so she went back in.
Peetz now is talking from upstairs and he can smell the pot from the room. He wants her to go outside. She says it's dank stuff and needs it right now.
Even at this point she was thinking about getting place with him - she's reading comments from room - super chats.
She didn't say anything - he kept asking why do this online and he never apologized for what he did.
Chat room is giving her advice like blocking him etc. Annie asks if he hit her and she admits he did.
(Note: She should apologize to FFG - she was being honest Chantal wasn't).
Chantal said she was burned by cigarette, blamed behavior on blacking out and how coke makes him. SHE GO IN A CAR ACCIDENT. He was at the Villa. Driving him back home - he was raging in house and he didn't want to leave and that's when he made comment about killing her before cop arrive.
She looks freaked out - big eyes, holding in tears but definitely high. She was bawling and he was like "where is the lighter" and something about a woman? She went in with him and went into house
Her dad was a yeller so she has a thing about it. BBJ has her attention now. So there are sex related items like he recording sx without her full knowledge but she found out, thought it was a little kinky.
She feels her body rejecting being around him, especially this morning. She can't do it to him because he has a way she can't explain. Never been with someone who made her feel this way. She knows she has to end it.
She's reading room - she does not have feelings for Beebs anymore. She calls it infatuation and loving each other and he's controlling and possessive and never apologizes or takes accountability for it. He gets obsessed like with the Youtube "ya know" and she doesn't feel right.
SHe doesn't like how he's going about things. She feels better talking about it;
PASSIONTIM
SO YOUR JEALOUS ABOUT THE CHANNEL TAKING OFF AND HIM USING U SO NOW U WANT TO EXPOSE HIM
Chantal denies this VIB comment and she's not sure if he's off the coke and drugs.
She's been through extreme stress. She's reading the room . I'll end transcript here. People asking what she expects from people if she goes back to him.