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She's not as amusing as many of the mini-cows on this thread, but I'd like to share my own personal schizocow, Wyna. We were close friends long ago (like 2012-2013) back when she was more rational and self-aware, but ever since then she's gradually devolved more and more into delusion and insanity... probably due to a combination of stopping her schizo meds, being a NEET who doesn't go out often, and the enabling behavior of her "friends"/orbiters. She still has brief phases where she appears to be slightly rational, but most of the time these days she is in full schizo mode.
She's smart enough not to have a strong public internet presence despite having been terminally online for the past 15 years, though two autistic entries for her name on urban dictionary did show up when I searched:
Now I know that she obviously isn't the only one who goes by the name Wyna, but I swear that this shit sounds exactly like something one of her orbiters would write up.
To get a taste of my lolcow's "personality" (just like any other schizo autist, it's unstable as fuck) here are some screenshots I have of her schizo messages to myself and others (she sent me the screenshots of her messages to others herself, for no particular sane reason):
No, her messages don't make any more sense even given what little context there might be. Furthermore, I couldn't explain the "context" even if I wanted to, because despite knowing her for years, her intents and motivations are unclear for the most part. The way she views the world, herself, and others is constantly in fluctuation.
Now for her backstory and the shenanigans I personally have known her for. This is going to be long so I'll put the detailed version in a spoiler, but what we're dealing with here is schizophrenia, autism, narcissism, messiah-complex delusions, and an unstable, incoherent personality all wrapped up in one package.
Some might wonder why I've interacted with this cow so much, given the shit she pulled on me. Well, I'm an autist myself who enjoys spiritual stories & RP, and I never realized that her Messiah story was something she was actually taking seriously until recently. Besides that? Honestly, her unpredictable insanity was just entertaining for a while, and I went along with it for a bit just because it was amusing and outside the norm. Plus, all of her friends are retarded simps who are incapable of thinking for themselves , so I didn't give a fuck that me interacting with her in any way was just fuel for her to talk more shit to them. But recently, her unpredictability has become predictable in itself, and she just spouts similar-sounding insane dribble over and over. So now I watch my prized little schizocow from afar, occasionally unblocking her for a little trolling whenever I get bored enough.
So yeah, nothing too special honestly, just a very unstable, schizophrenic autistic woman with a messiah complex who types in a way that reveals her insanity. Maybe someone will get a small laugh out of something recent on her YouTube. She's also got a Deviantart. She drew fanart of my troon ex-boyfriend, so there's a little cross-over if anyone here happened to also see my post about my ex over in the troon victim support thread.
She's smart enough not to have a strong public internet presence despite having been terminally online for the past 15 years, though two autistic entries for her name on urban dictionary did show up when I searched:
Now I know that she obviously isn't the only one who goes by the name Wyna, but I swear that this shit sounds exactly like something one of her orbiters would write up.
To get a taste of my lolcow's "personality" (just like any other schizo autist, it's unstable as fuck) here are some screenshots I have of her schizo messages to myself and others (she sent me the screenshots of her messages to others herself, for no particular sane reason):
No, her messages don't make any more sense even given what little context there might be. Furthermore, I couldn't explain the "context" even if I wanted to, because despite knowing her for years, her intents and motivations are unclear for the most part. The way she views the world, herself, and others is constantly in fluctuation.
Now for her backstory and the shenanigans I personally have known her for. This is going to be long so I'll put the detailed version in a spoiler, but what we're dealing with here is schizophrenia, autism, narcissism, messiah-complex delusions, and an unstable, incoherent personality all wrapped up in one package.
- She claims to have had an awful mother who apparently was so abusive, she forced her to finish her plate at dinner and made her wear feminine clothes that she didn’t like. My cow claims that her mother’s “abuse” pushed her to attempt suicide in her teens, where she failed and suffered severe permanent brain and nerve damage as a result. She also claims to have been diddled by grandpa as a child. The pedo grandpa and suicide attempt sound shitty and depressing, except for the fact that I’m pretty sure those two things never happened, because she has been known to regularly lie about shit like this. She has lied about having an abortion, having cancer, being raped, and likely other things as well. Despite trying to use the pedo grandpa, brain damage, and shitty mother as excuses for why she’s fucked up and to win sympathy, she often goes back-and-forth between speaking lovingly of them one day, and then talking shit the next. She also doesn’t actually show any signs of significant brain or nerve damage besides being insane.
- She’s on disability, and attributes it and the fact that she lazes around in bed most days as being because of said nerve damage. She has always claimed that her body is in constant, excruciating physical pain to the point where it hurts her to even move at all, as a result of the “failed suicide attempt.” I’m pretty fucking sure she’s making it all up. For one, she once let slip that the condition listed on her disability case was changed from “schizophrenia” to “autism” after a required medical examination. If she had brain/nerve damage to the degree she claims, I’m pretty sure that would be the primary diagnosis. Also, I lived with her for a month and have visited her multiple times in-person. We went out into town all the fucking time during that month, including shopping, visiting her friends, swimming in the pool, and hanging out at parks. The only issue with movement she seemed to have was from the fact she was over 250 lbs (she claims her weight was due to her schizo meds). She claimed that she was just “pushing herself” and fighting through the terrible, excruciating nerve pain for the sake of hanging out with me every time we went out… but yeah, big fucking doubt on that. The only thing notable was that she went into a semi-catatonic state in my car when we pulled into her driveway after an outing once. She then proceeded to get upset and kick me out of her house (she had invited me there due to temporary hard times I was facing) because I stayed in the car to make sure she was okay. Lol. She also has claimed to be intersex, which is probably a lie, too. It's funny though, because she claims that her "woman parts" don't work properly and she is infertile due to being intersex... and then claimed to have gotten pregnant and had an abortion. M'kay.
- She’s similar to CWC in that she often takes in stuff she’s introduced to and then twists it around in her mind to come up with a weird schizo fantasy that she believes is real. For example..
- She has always had a Messiah-Complex, believing herself to be a very special existence in the grand scheme of the Universe. The story and exact details of her messiah-hood has simply changed and morphed around whatever material she happens to be interested in at the moment, or what her current spiritual beliefs are.
- In an early version, she was the “Keeper of Quintessence” which apparently meant that she was the special being who contained vast knowledge of the workings of the Universe... like the embodiment of the knowledge of God. As a result, she claimed that some group of evil aliens was after her, and that the universe would be destroyed if they succeeded in finding her here on Earth where she was hiding from them, disguised as a mere human being.
- Across her different narratives, she has always portrayed herself as the special “wife” of God. She is the embodiment of Christ-like love, and if her soul were to ever be destroyed, the entire fabric of the Universe would come undone. Should her spirit be imprisoned or taken hostage, a war of universal proportions shall ensue. Additionally, she has a soulmate named “Kyuu” who is literally Satan, the embodiment of Darkness. As the Christ embodiment, she is meant to be with him and “cure him” through her pure, absolutely God-like love. She has seriously thought that multiple different guys were him, but once they did something she didn’t like, she changed her mind. She continues to search for Kyuu despite the fact that she is already living with one partner and has multiple romantic interests online.
- When she started having Bible reading/studying sessions with her dad, she began to claim that her family is descended from characters in the Old Testament such as Jacob (her family is white and has no known connections to any Jews). She supposedly (if it’s not another lie) had a stillborn twin brother named Joshua (Jesus’ original Hebrew name translates to Joshua) and has said some weird shit like how her brother is in fact the reincarnation of Jesus and his soul resides within her… thus making her both the sister & embodiment of Jesus Christ. Apparently the “suffering” she has put up with from her family is purposeful in the grand scheme of the world, and that through her life and suffering, all of humanity shall be redeemed because she forgives her “tormentors.” Her tormentor mainly being her "abusive" mother who was really just more controlling than the average parent... she mentions the "sins" of her mother almost exclusively and hasn't brought up pedo grandfather in nearly a decade, leading me to believe even more that she made it up. In general, she's always had a really fucking weird fixation on her grievances with her mom... she's gone so far multiple times as to say that she seriously wants to hate-fuck her.
- A constantly fluctuating love-hate for people in her life is a recurring theme. Back when I interacted with her more, she would move between phases of love-bombing and calling me one of her best friends… into hating me, talking shit about me to her friends, and verbally abusing me over little things I did that she schizophrenically interpreted in bizarre ways: “you did that because you’re insert negative trait and insert shitty motivation was your intention” without listening to my own explanation. She thinks the only reality is what she believes in her own mind. For example, after kicking me out for staying by her side during the catatonic episode, she began to continually diss me to all of her friends, saying that I had hurt her deeply and done awful things to her, and twisting all of my past actions into some weird, nonsensical distortion of her own creation. And because all of her friends are gullible idiots who think she’s a sweet little angel who was abused as a child and has done nothing wrong, they all blocked me and hate me to this day, years later. Most of them had never even spoken to me before.
- She has a size-able group of these “friends” (read: orbiters) though it’s quickly dwindling as she becomes more and more blatantly schizo and therefore fails to properly manipulate others into thinking she’s a rational human being. These orbiters are very deluded and think not only that she is sane and rational, but they put her on a pedestal because “omg your life has been so sad with evil mother and "a failed suicide attempt that led to unbearable nerve pain" but you’re still alive, you’re so strong <33” Unfortunately, when she isn’t going full schizo, she has a knack for “seeing into” people and getting a gist of who they are and what makes them tick. She uses this ability to manipulate others and get them to automatically take her side unquestioningly in any conflict with another person.... and she engages in such conflicts on nonsensical whims. If you're her friend, unless you're a mindless submissive simp, you never know when you'll accidently step on a landmine and trigger the shit out of her, causing her to start spouting all sorts of insane nonsense about you to everyone she knows.
- She pulled similar shit that she did to me with another person. She started dating this guy, Cody, who had been simping for her for years. Cody was an incel autist who believed that Wyna was the cure to all of his problems in life. She was well-aware of this, and though she had friendzoned him for all those years, one day she just decided she wanted to use him, I guess. So Wyna invited him to live with her and her two other partners she had at the time. (She’s very strongly polygamous) According to him, things were going great for the first month or two, and then all of a sudden she starts acting like an asshole soon before kicking him out. According to her, he apparently forced his way into having sex with her without her consent. Cody insists that she gave full permission for the act, however. As autistic and semi-schizo as Cody is himself, I believe him over Wyna any day.
- Though Cody had been her simp and hated me for years over lies that Wyna made up about me, we ended up bonding over our shared experience of her. Now that she was shit-talking Cody to all her friends, he finally understood my perspective. We tried dating, and this made Wyna go absolutely apeshit. Fucking ironic, considering that she had always bitched whenever I pointed out that Cody seemed like an incel, for not “giving him a chance.” She had always wanted us to try dating. Now that it happened after she had “claimed him for herself” though, it was a big problem. You see, she had this weird idea that because she had dated Cody for even just 2 months, he was now “eternally hers” despite having broken up with him. She showed up at my workplace one day after having me blocked online for over a year, basically accusing me of touching what belongs to her (even though she had blocked and refused to interact with Cody for over a year). From then on even I don’t know what the fuck she was trying to pull. I believe she was trying to “seduce” me into being her partner to replace Cody, which is why she was love-bombing me during that time. Obviously I didn’t believe a word she said, but interacting with her was entertaining as fuck, and Cody & I were already on the verge of breaking up due to compatibility issues. Sadly, me interacting with her then made Cody go batshit and he kicked me out of an apartment that had my name on the lease because he was butthurt that Wyna was showing me attention and not giving him any… lol. I soon moved to another state, and Wyna, despite continuing to love-bomb me for months online, eventually shifted into the hatred phase again because she realized I wasn’t going to come back and live inside a tent in her backyard that she had prepared for me.
- In the 2 years since then, she has continued to devolve, typing less and less coherently. She used to switch between phases of being more coherent and appearing slightly rational, and then phases of pure insanity, but now she’s pretty much in the insanity phase all the time and her messages either don’t make sense, or are nothing more than projections of the insane reality she’s constructed in her mind. Sometimes she demands for me to travel over 1,000 miles back to her house so she can make me suck Cody’s dick for some reason. It’s getting pretty damn weird, and I have to just block her most of the time or else I randomly get flooded with incoherent messages.
- I have known her on-and-off since 2012 and I wish I could actually write-up a proper story about who she is and what her motivations are, but I honestly have no fucking clue. Her personality changes constantly, as do her stated reasons for doing what she does. She can't even get her own narrative straight. From what I understand, she's currently still angry at me for dating Cody after she dumped him even though it's been 3 years now since I left him. She still occasionally messages both of us and spouts incoherent shit.
Some might wonder why I've interacted with this cow so much, given the shit she pulled on me. Well, I'm an autist myself who enjoys spiritual stories & RP, and I never realized that her Messiah story was something she was actually taking seriously until recently. Besides that? Honestly, her unpredictable insanity was just entertaining for a while, and I went along with it for a bit just because it was amusing and outside the norm. Plus, all of her friends are retarded simps who are incapable of thinking for themselves , so I didn't give a fuck that me interacting with her in any way was just fuel for her to talk more shit to them. But recently, her unpredictability has become predictable in itself, and she just spouts similar-sounding insane dribble over and over. So now I watch my prized little schizocow from afar, occasionally unblocking her for a little trolling whenever I get bored enough.
So yeah, nothing too special honestly, just a very unstable, schizophrenic autistic woman with a messiah complex who types in a way that reveals her insanity. Maybe someone will get a small laugh out of something recent on her YouTube. She's also got a Deviantart. She drew fanart of my troon ex-boyfriend, so there's a little cross-over if anyone here happened to also see my post about my ex over in the troon victim support thread.
