I've always figured he was too sick and didn't want to draw that ordeal on him. Once the situation got too absurd then he cracked. When he streamed for the first time in a year last year, all of his references were from internet drama that he was a part of years ago, no recent shit. I think at that point he wasn't able to keep up with what retards were doing online and instead hermited himself away in his anime dungeon.
That dude couldn't even navigate the reply box a couple of days ago, and couldn't preview his messages to figure out why his webp's or whatever retarded filetype he was attaching wasn't playing. Idk why he insists on being a flailing retard when all he has to do is follow people's advice and lurk a bit more.
Man overcompensates for getting groomed and statutorily raped at 15. You do realise no woman in her late 20's worth her salt would swoon over a child, right? She targeted you for your age, disadvantaged position and therefor your vulnerability.