First off:
@Shamash I promise things are going to be okay. Eat a sandwich or something, your blood sugar is low.
I am going to say the most womanly thing ever, which clearly means that I'm attempting to control the world with my vagina. Anyone who wants to join my new vagina cult, sorry, I haven't found a man to actually organize it yet.
Because I know there are eyes on this thread, I want to say this to any groyper who needs to hear it: your mom and dad aren't as disappointed in you as you think they are. They watched you as a child and marveled at all the things you learned and could do, telling their friends all about how you were going to grow up to be a happy adult. When you sit in your room, a terminally online Neet, obsessively refreshing Twitter and watching Nick on another screen, what they're actually concerned about is the fact that you are wasting the talent that they once saw in you. When they point to the captain of the football team and say "why aren't you like that", they aren't saying that you need to be athletic or handsome or a girl magnet; what they're saying is "why can't you find some motivation to use the talents we know are inside of you?"
Being a part of something like America First is meaningless if you aren't willing to look at your own life and make changes to be better. Being "a part" of some great movement won't bring meaning to your life. You have to find the meaning on your own and bring it to the movement.
And finally, what you need is a mentor. An older man who has lived a long time and who is mature enough to recognize that the real path to immortality is to pass on what he's learned to the youth of today. Maybe he's your dad, or your granddad, or a trusted teacher, or your boss at your first job. He wants to teach you what he knows because he sees potential in you, and has no ulterior motive. What you do not need is a Nick Fuentes. He will teach you nothing and take everything, because he never sat down and really found the meaning in his life.
Also stop watching anime lol