Crossover Ethan Ralph vs Chrissie Mayr and Brittany Venti - JCaesar187 hollers over women of colour.

[Buddhabouya]

Keep in mind Rozy is subjected to Ralph's hollering the entire time this sperg out occurred. Something Sandra too had suffered through. "KILLSTREAM BABY! ROZY SHUT THE FUCK UP"

Yeah i don't want to sound like some faggot or anything but isn't it late over there and he's got music blasting while screaming i kind of feel bad for her

 

[Trigger Me Timbers]

Holy shit the kino, he can’t hold his tongue, he is a full blown nigger. Like all he had to do was take it on the chin and dismiss it.

He also keeps assumes everyone on the planet is like him and everyone has a video of them arguing with their mother, when he brings up to Chrissy she’s like “no I don’t?”.

Also Chrissy was spitting facts that she’s had similar shit happen to her and she held her younger and the audience validated her when someone fucked with her dead mom.

Hes so triggered it’s starch-tastic, honestly crypto is down but Corn is forever.

 

[EggImpregnator]

I wonder if warski will break his other eye so theyre both messed up but symmetrical.

 

[He Who Points And Laughs]

The ragepig is just a total asshole.
This happened AFTER he drove home, drunk, from D.C.

 

[Lurking Cuttlefish]

He will give himself a rage induced aneurysm before the age of 40 at this rate. How can his body take it night after night?

 

[AltisticRight]

The ragepig is just a total asshole.
This happened AFTER he drove home, drunk, from D.C.

He was driving under the influence too?
What a piece of human garbage. Shit like this turns me into an actual a-log wishing him a rejoice with Sandra and Ronnie in Eternal Hellfire.

 

[BlackDragoons]

He will give himself a rage induced aneurysm before the age of 40 at this rate. How can his body take it night after night?

He's gonna have a heart attack. He is going to rage so hard that his piggy heart is gonna say "Fuck it" and just give up.

How long till he fucking snaps at Pantsu? Any bets?

 

[Buel19]

His fans are so pathetic. They watch a grown man throw a temper tantrum to the point of almost passing out, and they respond with "king shit!" They're bigger losers than Ralph.

 

[Blue Miaplacidus]

 

[Exceptional individualist]

Very funny, Chrissy’s last name is Mayer, probably chosen just to make fun of Ralph’s wife

God really is the biggest aylawg

 

[Mr E. Grifter]

All you had to say was "I'd rather not comment on it" or "it was one of my worst moments which I regret", but no, sperg out and seethe about it.

This is, I think, so symptomatic as to what Ralph's problem is. For whatever reason - for what its worth I believe he has NPD - he is unable to retreat from a position, and unless he is truly pushed into a corner he is unable to admit vulnerability in a way that he views as weakness. I do not think anyone would fault Ralph if he said to Chrissy, even on stream, that he would not respond or react to superchats pertaining to his family on stream - it is a reasonable, if for him hypocritical, stance to take. Yet why did he not make this clear from the outset? He wants to appear macho, he wants to be the Ralphamale, he wants to pretend nothing gets to him.
He could of, and should of, been clear with her when it was getting to him. Instead, he chose to explode because to him making a stand is his only option. He often openly talks about how these things make it worse, but then incoherently rambles off when he ponders taking a different route. "I could just sit there and take it... right?" (stated sarcastically). The answer is of course not, but just leaving, or just addressing it calmly and saying to Chrissy the situation would have dealt with it without becoming a spectacle and ruining even more relationships which were of benefit to you in a business sense.

God, Ralph is so full of regret. Underneath all that bluster, how he treated his Mom has devastated him psychologically. It's a truth that brings forth white hot rage against anyone in the vicinity. If he were to turn it on himself, he'd self-destruct. His rage is rooted in deep self-loathing and regret. To let comments about his Mother or his relationship go unanswered is to fail her twice.

The twisted mind of Ethan Ralph is a literal hell. If he were a woman he'd have self-harm scars all over his body. He's a huge sack of shit nonetheless. He's a man who cannot cope with what he's done and who he is, so he instead seethes with all he is. That level of seethe cannot be contained, and so Ralph lashes out.

He's hurting so bad over it, he projects that others will have the same pain if he talks about their mothers, daughters, girlfriends or wives. Ralph is unbelievably tortured by his own choices.

Ethan Ralph is Kino.

I agree with this, but taken with the above I think there is more to it. Ralph lacks a degree of insight and self-awareness, and while he can see the symptoms of his behaviour, he knows he does not like it and wants it to end, he fails to understand the route cause of it all. It's why despite his shame to how he treated his mother he continues to act like a piece of shit to his baby momma and is unrepentant about it. I do not think he understands how his behaviours and actions contribute to his predicament, beyond paying mere lip service when he is called out on it. Ultimately, he will concede in the vaguest of terms because while his brain cannot spin it to be someone else's fault he is physically incapable of taking personal responsibility. You see it in the texts with Faith, he will accept culpability, partially, then keep on going doing what he is apologising for. It is not sincere.

He reminds me in certain ways of another posthumous lolcow, Elliot Rodger, in that Elliot - who I believe had NPD and severe social anxiety - could recognise his social isolation, could recognise the problems this caused for him and could even at times identify the specific instances of how his behaviour contributed to it, but could never accept he was at fault because his narcissism prevented him from doing so. In doing so, he could never confront what was causing the issues he had. Women were not interested in him, but it was not him at fault for not approaching them or making friends - it was them for rejecting him. Likewise, Ralph hates how people behave towards him - they talk shit about him, they steal his son, they talk shit about his family members and fuck with him in real life... All things which would never of happened but for his own behaviour. He cannot see fault with how he acts and refuses to change because he is a narcissist.

With that said, narcissism is also a front, I believe what you have outlined are thoughts that do creep into his head. They are things that gnaw at him and which he is aware of, but he does not necessarily accept them as is. Hence he can't deal with them, he spends his time spinning how it wasn't his fault, it was the pills, the alogs, his mother, Fai Fai...

Unless he accepts he has a problem and gets help he will never change, and I do not even think he is capable of genuinely even taking the first step in doing this.

 

[Capt. Jean Luc Ritard]

This is, I think, so symptomatic as to what Ralph's problem is. For whatever reason - for what its worth I believe he has NPD - he is unable to retreat from a position, and unless he is truly pushed into a corner he is unable to admit vulnerability in a way that he views as weakness. I do not think anyone would fault Ralph if he said to Chrissy, even on stream, that he would not respond or react to superchats pertaining to his family on stream - it is a reasonable, if for him hypocritical, stance to take. Yet why did he not make this clear from the outset? He wants to appear macho, he wants to be the Ralphamale, he wants to pretend nothing gets to him.
He could of, and should of, been clear with her when it was getting to him. Instead, he chose to explode because to him making a stand is his only option. He often openly talks about how these things make it worse, but then incoherently rambles off when he ponders taking a different route. "I could just sit there and take it... right?" (stated sarcastically). The answer is of course not, but just leaving, or just addressing it calmly and saying to Chrissy the situation would have dealt with it without becoming a spectacle and ruining even more relationships which were of benefit to you in a business sense.

I agree with this, but taken with the above I think there is more to it. Ralph lacks a degree of insight and self-awareness, and while he can see the symptoms of his behaviour, he knows he does not like it and wants it to end, he fails to understand the route cause of it all. It's why despite his shame to how he treated his mother he continues to act like a piece of shit to his baby momma and is unrepentant about it. I do not think he understands how his behaviours and actions contribute to his predicament, beyond paying mere lip service when he is called out on it. Ultimately, he will concede in the vaguest of terms because while his brain cannot spin it to be someone else's fault he is physically incapable of taking personal responsibility. You see it in the texts with Faith, he will accept culpability, partially, then keep on going doing what he is apologising for. It is not sincere.

He reminds me in certain ways of another posthumous lolcow, Elliot Rodger, in that Elliot - who I believe had NPD and severe social anxiety - could recognise his social isolation, could recognise the problems this caused for him and could even at times identify the specific instances of how his behaviour contributed to it, but could never accept he was at fault because his narcissism prevented him from doing so. In doing so, he could never confront what was causing the issues he had. Women were not interested in him, but it was not him at fault for not approaching them or making friends - it was them for rejecting him. Likewise, Ralph hates how people behave towards him - they talk shit about him, they steal his son, they talk shit about his family members and fuck with him in real life... All things which would never of happened but for his own behaviour. He cannot see fault with how he acts and refuses to change because he is a narcissist.

With that said, narcissism is also a front, I believe what you have outlined are thoughts that do creep into his head. They are things that gnaw at him and which he is aware of, but he does not necessarily accept them as is. Hence he can't deal with them, he spends his time spinning how it wasn't his fault, it was the pills, the alogs, his mother, Fai Fai...

Unless he accepts he has a problem and gets help he will never change, and I do not even think he is capable of genuinely even taking the first step in doing this.

TL;DR: Ralph big fat baby bitch

 

[Zaryiu2]

"Chucklefuck superchat"
"Judas superchat"
These are words that have never ever been strung together before.

Squealing over his dead mum, how fucking pathetic. How many people have you personally wished death upon, talking about pissing on their graves, fucking their women, the appearance of their family members and unfortunate miscarriages. For a man that brings family into every feud he has at an instant in any given moment, he sure can't take any of it. It wasn't even a nasty superchat like "Sandra is rotting in Hell" (which she is), just one asking for a statement. All you had to say was "I'd rather not comment on it" or "it was one of my worst moments which I regret", but no, sperg out and seethe about it.

"Can't understand what it's like to be me".
Sure.
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Ralph is 5'1'', or 154.9cm, he falls in the bottom 2% of the population.

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Ralph has a BMI above 30, making him morbidly obese, he is in the top 1.4%.

So only about 1 in 3600 understand the difficulties of being a short fat fuck like Ralph.

Ralph without his platform shoes is 4'9" and a half inch

 

[6thRanger]

This is, I think, so symptomatic as to what Ralph's problem is. For whatever reason - for what its worth I believe he has NPD - he is unable to retreat from a position, and unless he is truly pushed into a corner he is unable to admit vulnerability in a way that he views as weakness. I do not think anyone would fault Ralph if he said to Chrissy, even on stream, that he would not respond or react to superchats pertaining to his family on stream - it is a reasonable, if for him hypocritical, stance to take. Yet why did he not make this clear from the outset? He wants to appear macho, he wants to be the Ralphamale, he wants to pretend nothing gets to him.
He could of, and should of, been clear with her when it was getting to him. Instead, he chose to explode because to him making a stand is his only option. He often openly talks about how these things make it worse, but then incoherently rambles off when he ponders taking a different route. "I could just sit there and take it... right?" (stated sarcastically). The answer is of course not, but just leaving, or just addressing it calmly and saying to Chrissy the situation would have dealt with it without becoming a spectacle and ruining even more relationships which were of benefit to you in a business sense.

I agree with this, but taken with the above I think there is more to it. Ralph lacks a degree of insight and self-awareness, and while he can see the symptoms of his behaviour, he knows he does not like it and wants it to end, he fails to understand the route cause of it all. It's why despite his shame to how he treated his mother he continues to act like a piece of shit to his baby momma and is unrepentant about it. I do not think he understands how his behaviours and actions contribute to his predicament, beyond paying mere lip service when he is called out on it. Ultimately, he will concede in the vaguest of terms because while his brain cannot spin it to be someone else's fault he is physically incapable of taking personal responsibility. You see it in the texts with Faith, he will accept culpability, partially, then keep on going doing what he is apologising for. It is not sincere.

He reminds me in certain ways of another posthumous lolcow, Elliot Rodger, in that Elliot - who I believe had NPD and severe social anxiety - could recognise his social isolation, could recognise the problems this caused for him and could even at times identify the specific instances of how his behaviour contributed to it, but could never accept he was at fault because his narcissism prevented him from doing so. In doing so, he could never confront what was causing the issues he had. Women were not interested in him, but it was not him at fault for not approaching them or making friends - it was them for rejecting him. Likewise, Ralph hates how people behave towards him - they talk shit about him, they steal his son, they talk shit about his family members and fuck with him in real life... All things which would never of happened but for his own behaviour. He cannot see fault with how he acts and refuses to change because he is a narcissist.

With that said, narcissism is also a front, I believe what you have outlined are thoughts that do creep into his head. They are things that gnaw at him and which he is aware of, but he does not necessarily accept them as is. Hence he can't deal with them, he spends his time spinning how it wasn't his fault, it was the pills, the alogs, his mother, Fai Fai...

Unless he accepts he has a problem and gets help he will never change, and I do not even think he is capable of genuinely even taking the first step in doing this.

I largely agree with your take here, but I honestly think Ralph has more insight than most people think. To admit who he is and what he's done is so who destructive that he's set up a mental shield to protect himself. The alcohol and drugs are part of that barrier to stop the full realization from hitting him. His machismo is as well. If the barrier crumbles he will be crushed. He has moments of clarity in which I wouldn't doubt suicide flashes across his mind. People call his suicidal ideation suicide-baiting, which it is, but it's also him at his most vulnerable coming close to assessing his life. The reason why he can keep pushing forward is also because to stop the behavior means it's truly damnable and erodes the barrier.

Ralph is constantly rationalizing because he does have the insight to know he's wrong - he just can't stop. It's the same way a crackhead knows he shouldn't light the pipe, but he does, day after day. Ralph is addicted to that barrier that prevents his guilt and shame from collapsing on to him. Every attack on him is an attack on the barrier and he cannot let it slide. If that barrier collapses and he has to truly face himself and his decisions, it's over. He'd rather have a Pillstream and burn a million and one bridges. His constant rationalization is why he continuously says "Do you understand?".

I agree with your assessment of NPD, but I would add subtype: fragile core. Ralph deep down knows who and what he is.

 

[Berb]

"Xander calls another man daddy"

Fuck, that's rough.

 

[HONKY DESTROYER]

I knew from that bar-hopping IRL stream some corn-growing magic was coming down on us.

 

[GeeWilickers47]

Ralph is legitimately unhinged, Jesus Christ. The man is at 100 miles per hour non-stop, it's a wonder his fat piggy heart hasn't given out from the 24/7 raging.

 

[Pomniman]

This is, I think, so symptomatic as to what Ralph's problem is. For whatever reason - for what its worth I believe he has NPD - he is unable to retreat from a position, and unless he is truly pushed into a corner he is unable to admit vulnerability in a way that he views as weakness. I do not think anyone would fault Ralph if he said to Chrissy, even on stream, that he would not respond or react to superchats pertaining to his family on stream - it is a reasonable, if for him hypocritical, stance to take. Yet why did he not make this clear from the outset? He wants to appear macho, he wants to be the Ralphamale, he wants to pretend nothing gets to him.
He could of, and should of, been clear with her when it was getting to him. Instead, he chose to explode because to him making a stand is his only option. He often openly talks about how these things make it worse, but then incoherently rambles off when he ponders taking a different route. "I could just sit there and take it... right?" (stated sarcastically). The answer is of course not, but just leaving, or just addressing it calmly and saying to Chrissy the situation would have dealt with it without becoming a spectacle and ruining even more relationships which were of benefit to you in a business sense.

I agree with this, but taken with the above I think there is more to it. Ralph lacks a degree of insight and self-awareness, and while he can see the symptoms of his behaviour, he knows he does not like it and wants it to end, he fails to understand the route cause of it all. It's why despite his shame to how he treated his mother he continues to act like a piece of shit to his baby momma and is unrepentant about it. I do not think he understands how his behaviours and actions contribute to his predicament, beyond paying mere lip service when he is called out on it. Ultimately, he will concede in the vaguest of terms because while his brain cannot spin it to be someone else's fault he is physically incapable of taking personal responsibility. You see it in the texts with Faith, he will accept culpability, partially, then keep on going doing what he is apologising for. It is not sincere.

He reminds me in certain ways of another posthumous lolcow, Elliot Rodger, in that Elliot - who I believe had NPD and severe social anxiety - could recognise his social isolation, could recognise the problems this caused for him and could even at times identify the specific instances of how his behaviour contributed to it, but could never accept he was at fault because his narcissism prevented him from doing so. In doing so, he could never confront what was causing the issues he had. Women were not interested in him, but it was not him at fault for not approaching them or making friends - it was them for rejecting him. Likewise, Ralph hates how people behave towards him - they talk shit about him, they steal his son, they talk shit about his family members and fuck with him in real life... All things which would never of happened but for his own behaviour. He cannot see fault with how he acts and refuses to change because he is a narcissist.

With that said, narcissism is also a front, I believe what you have outlined are thoughts that do creep into his head. They are things that gnaw at him and which he is aware of, but he does not necessarily accept them as is. Hence he can't deal with them, he spends his time spinning how it wasn't his fault, it was the pills, the alogs, his mother, Fai Fai...

Unless he accepts he has a problem and gets help he will never change, and I do not even think he is capable of genuinely even taking the first step in doing this.

Rekieta's cluster B armchair psychologist "theory" last night was histrionic personality disorder for gunty.

 

[He Who Points And Laughs]

He was driving under the influence too?
What a piece of human garbage. Shit like this turns me into an actual a-log wishing him a rejoice with Sandra and Ronnie in Eternal Hellfire.

He was drinking all day in D.C., decided to skip going to the baseball game with Sisco (his superchats barely broke $300), then got behind the wheel of his truck and drove home, very intoxicated.

Then he got his shit pushed in by a superchat on Mayr's show and proceeded to ragepig out.
5 star days!

 

[Mr E. Grifter]

Rekieta's cluster B armchair psychologist "theory" last night was histrionic personality disorder for gunty.

They're all fairly similar in a certain sense, I think NPD best suits because Ralph is incapable of recognising his problems and accepting they are problems and he caused them. Plus, he can be very grandiose about himself and the Killstream. A show basically noone watches.

I had to live with a guy who had BPD, he was one of the worst people I have ever had the displeasure of knowing. Yet, he knew and accepted he had a problem, that his behaviour was at fault and that he needed help for it.

His sincerity in wanting to change was another matter entirely, if you've ever dealt with people who have BPD you'll notice they almost relish the ability to blame their behaviour on "the disease".

Ralph doesn't even do that, the most you get is when someone points out his behaviour being behind these issues is him saying "well yeah aknow, but Yoo know what it was probably yoooo".