Lol no it wasn't really something I ever justified. But that's fair and that's fine by me if you feel that way, I understand. And some one from either metro or 0chan messaged me. Told me some interesting thing and wanted me to join metro instead of here to explain things.Considering how quickly Kevin found out he was had, I'm sure the answer will come out sooner rather than later.
BTW @ab8403752 I don't really give a shit about your changed man spiel. You said it yourself, you went there when you were suffering and now your life is together. That impulse was in you. It still is in you. Skinning monkeys or drilling their eyes out is too far for you, but you still felt that endorphin and dopamine hit when you watched animals in pain. PERIOD. You just aren't suffering right now because you got that rockin' bod (which doesn't change the fact you're a manlet btw. That shit lives in your head, not your body.)
Food for thought.
To be honest I knew it was wrong. If I can describe from my point of view, the video is a recording of something that already happened.
When in literal pain and hurting? No, I never really enjoyed any of it. There was no enjoyment for me. I never thought to myself, "Fuck yeah this monkeys hurting that's awesome!"
It was more of an outlet for hate. Deep down I knew it was wrong. It's not like I indulged on endless nights of content. The content I saw was moreso the behavior of them and just how they freaked out over nothing.
I think the one that really got to me was some baby monkey that had a broken jaw and a badly infected hand. The guy would squeeze its infected hand as a form of relief and it was difficult to watch. I actually stuck by hoping it would make it but it eventually died.
That's probably the first time I ever truly felt guilty. Even if I wasn't enjoying it but rooting for it, I stayed to see its journey which was a very sad one that it didn't deserve.
I never enjoyed them being in pain because the thought, "What if someone did this to your pets?" always was in the back of my mind. I'm not trying to act guilty nor innocent but rather just explain my side. Not once did I ever truly justify that behavior nor really "enjoyed" it.
There is no impulse when I'm logically thinking. I mean come on man, is it really that hard to believe I have a conscious? I never got an endorphin rush nor anything like that because deep down I knew it was wrong.
But I understand your sentiment and accept your judgement. I admit that I was and have been wrong and want to change. But that's understandable sir, I wish you nothing but the best and agree especially with your insults
