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- Apr 1, 2022
anyone who knows me would tell you i dont lie, why would i need to? why would she even want to come to kiwifarms ahahah. she dont care about the gunt. registration is closed anyways. my girl is a true goddess to me. her and i have been friends for around 23 years so of course we know each other very well after that long, theres no secrets between us. she knows all about alice, she doesnt watch the streams unless i got em on. but she follows whats up second hand, i'll show her clips or tell her whats happenin a lil. of course naturally she might not be too big a fan of alice but i dont think she by any means hates her, i mean i certainly dont hate her. i feel she's making a mess of her life and it doesnt need to be public like it is because she's tanking her stock, but she's a younger person. and i mean, you cant really not expect younger people to always be on the best path they can be. if i would have livestreamed my life around the age she is at im sure a lot of people would have been worried for my wellbeing as well. my girl understands that i worry about alice, just as i would worry about anyone i was or am close to in a similar situation.
if im mad at alice, its because i miss my friend. i miss her art, i miss who she was to me. i feel she is a very gifted person who needs something or someone to help her pull her gift to the surface, so that she doesnt need to feel her life needs to be a spectacle like this. a muse, a guru, someone she can trust in a community of people who are just trying to get what they can out of her. and look, people change tho, you cant control that when things happen between two people. if i had a time machine and could go back and change things, i would. but thats because i miss having her in my life and being in hers. its because of what she went through as a person in the time i knew her, because of the things i went through too. maybe not all dudes would feel the same way. when she decided to get with chicken, i truly did want to see them happy together. i thought they made a cute couple. i figured they would be good together fully and theyd make compromises in their personalities for each other, or itd be good for em a while and then turn out how it did. if chicken and her had met when they were 28 or 30 or somethin, after havin some other relationships behind em, perhaps they would have had the experience in being in a commited relationship with other people enough to understand the respect for the spark they had with each other.
exactly this is one of the main points that my girl and i say to each other a lot, that we are super grateful that we had other relationships before we got together. it probably would have been the same way with us as it was for her and him. 23 years is a helluva long time to two people to have feelings for each other that you never act on other than eyefucking and the occasional hug thats a lil longer than with other friends, so we both feel blessed we have had the experience to be very, very good both to and for each other. before alice and chicken were together, she asked me if i thought he was going to use her for content. you all know what i told her, and we all know how that turned out and he's basically shifted that role to goocheese now. maybe in some ways goocheese is getting the litty scripty discord dave more than alice, but then again goo didnt move her whole shit across the country to be with him. cant say i ever saw discord dave tell alice to scram or try and slice her tts speaker up with a power saw.
nigga what the fuck