April Lauren / April Lauren Wilson Brown / Wakeupbright - Fake positivity, pedostache husband. Voted fatty most likely on the verge of her Stepford Wife robot programming malfunctioning

[Ginger_beer]

I am behind not just on the forums, but on April's last few videos. I will say that I count her 5K successful, in spite of what people are saying over on Chikara transformation's coverage of the video.

For ordinary/beginning runners the big victories in my opinion are not some stellar race performance but rather a) not hurting themselves, and b) finishing the distance. By both of these criteria April succeeded. Her time wasn't even that bad, given her size and previous lack of cardiac fitness. Again I know people were sneering at it, and *yes* it's slower than many people's walking pace -- for that matter it may be slower than *April's* fastest walking pace. That's not uncommon for long distance endurance paces (which this isn't, but relatively speaking it is if someone doesn't routinely run further than 10K or so) and also perfectly normal for a beginner. She's only 5-10 minutes slower than I would expect from any rank amateur over the age of 25 with no other sporting experience running their first 5K. So well done April, and doubly well done for actually seeing something through successfully!

That said, my goodness she looks odd (?) in some places. I don't know if that glazed expression is from the filters, or Botox, or medication of some sort, but it's definitely off and if it's purely due to filters she'd be best served using different ones. The inspirational music in the running video is also hysterical -- I can't think why she thinks that's necessary and/or inspiring or desirable in any way. If it was someone else I'd suspect them of subtle self-ridicule, but I don't think April is capable of that.

 

[Guston]

April shouldn't be running at all. She's still morbidly obese and has had a bunch of pretty serious injuries to her ankle and knee from a fall off a ladder at work a few years ago. Here's an explanation of the injuries from the first page of this thread:

"She was climbing a ladder at work, lost her balance, and hopped slash fell down and when she landed, she destroyed the tendon in her ankle.
Her ACL (anterior cruciate ligament, band of tissue that helps connects your thigh bone to your shin) tore, her MCL (medial collateral ligament, band of tissue on the inside of the knee, also connects thigh bone to the bone of the lower leg) destroyed her meniscus (cartilage in the knee, acts as shock absorber) in knee, and broke her fibula (the thinner bone in the lower leg, runs down the lateral aspect of the leg from knee to ankle). She was immobile for a few months. She couldn't walk. It took her almost a year to walk normally again."

I don't think I've ever heard April acknowledge the impact her weight and the types of exercise she chooses has on her joints, including the previously injured knee and ankle. She's not doing herself or her viewers any favors by going about things as she does, especially if her goal is to be an inspiration.

I don't know what her time was, but is even worth discussing either way when she should be walking, not running? If she's dying to run, she should get into a pool and run in the water.

The inspirational music in the running video is also hysterical -- I can't think why she thinks that's necessary and/or inspiring or desirable in any way. If it was someone else I'd suspect them of subtle self-ridicule, but I don't think April is capable of that.

Her use of this sort of music and the placement of it is egregious. She does this frequently!

 

[Clown Baby]

Like everyone probably, I'm not super up to date on any cows with the farms being down for so long, but I thought it was really funny that April made that whole video about how successful her 5k was, and then at the very end was super breezy like "oh by the way I gained almost 10 lbs but it doesn't matter because it's my jour-knee okay byyyeeee" lmao sure, gorl. Seal claps for you from all the brain damaged sycophants in your comments, guess you're a success.

 

[thejackal]

Like everyone probably, I'm not super up to date on any cows with the farms being down for so long, but I thought it was really funny that April made that whole video about how successful her 5k was, and then at the very end was super breezy like "oh by the way I gained almost 10 lbs but it doesn't matter because it's my jour-knee okay byyyeeee" lmao sure, gorl. Seal claps for you from all the brain damaged sycophants in your comments, guess you're a success.

One of the best comments was "rookie mistake to do such a hard leg day before the run". Yea, right, I'm sure she did a real hard leg day. Fact is when you're trying to run at 275lbs everyday is a hard leg day. Some of her commenters are as dumb as April and lord do they adore the stupidity.

 

[Kitty kitty cat]

April shouldn't be running at all. She's still morbidly obese and has had a bunch of pretty serious injuries to her ankle and knee from a fall off a ladder at work a few years ago. Here's an explanation of the injuries from the first page of this thread:

"She was climbing a ladder at work, lost her balance, and hopped slash fell down and when she landed, she destroyed the tendon in her ankle.
Her ACL (anterior cruciate ligament, band of tissue that helps connects your thigh bone to your shin) tore, her MCL (medial collateral ligament, band of tissue on the inside of the knee, also connects thigh bone to the bone of the lower leg) destroyed her meniscus (cartilage in the knee, acts as shock absorber) in knee, and broke her fibula (the thinner bone in the lower leg, runs down the lateral aspect of the leg from knee to ankle). She was immobile for a few months. She couldn't walk. It took her almost a year to walk normally again."

I don't think I've ever heard April acknowledge the impact her weight and the types of exercise she chooses has on her joints, including the previously injured knee and ankle. She's not doing herself or her viewers any favors by going about things as she does, especially if her goal is to be an inspiration.

I don't know what her time was, but is even worth discussing either way when she should be walking, not running? If she's dying to run, she should get into a pool and run in the water.



Her use of this sort of music and the placement of it is egregious. She does this frequently!

The music almost got me in my running clothes and straight on to a marathon.....
I know her fans are retards but its soo blatantly manipulative. Exactly how low iq do you have to be, in order for you to think thats awesome content?

 

[Ginger_beer]

I'm sure she did a real hard leg day. Fact is when you're trying to run at 275lbs everyday is a hard leg day.

When I saw the workout she claimed she did I thought she was deliberately setting herself up with a somewhat* plausible excuse for when she failed to finish the race. (*Somewhat. Assuming she actually did that workout -- or *any* leg workout -- the day before that run is a measure of exquisite stupidity assuming the person isn't looking to self-sabotage for some reason. There's a reason the terminal taper is there in every running plan in existence that I'm aware of.)

April shouldn't be running at all. {...] I don't know what her time was, but is even worth discussing either way when she should be walking, not running? If she's dying to run, she should get into a pool and run in the water.

I agree with you that she shouldn't be running, and that her exercise should be done under the supervision of an actual physiotherapist (not some random personal trainer that she's chosen from Instagram), likely in a pool. If she's looking for the benefits of vigorous cardio (physical and mental) a stringent pool workout will certainly deliver that, without risking injury, and she could likely go harder for longer which would boost weight loss assuming she didn't increase her food intake in response to the exertion. I just took exception to where people were saying unrealistic stuff like "surely she should have run that in half an hour" (when they themselves obviously do not run and don't grasp how relatively fast that is for sustained exertion for a beginner). The event was also evidently a fun charity run, and time doesn't matter at all at those things, only (debatably) showing up and paying the entry fee (certainly). People walk them all the time, including seniors with canes, or do them with dogs and small children and sometimes exotic pets in tow.

Spoiler: PL about charity runs

I've seen a chap carrying a full-sized iguana, and a lady with a llama, which thankfully did not get annoyed and spit on any of the other runners.

Given April's usual modus operandi, though, I'm amazed that she a) didn't give up training and just never mention it again and b) didn't actually fail to finish the race somehow and c) come up with some bizarre justification for how she actually succeeded by some vague internal metric, and she's proud of herself for that rather than upset at failing to finish. She actually Did The Thing, for the first time since I've been paying attention. I'm not going to denigrate or belittle that, and my "well done April!" is possibly warmer and more sincere than Kenny's praise in the video was. If she just takes the ability to stick with the program and push through discomfort that she's presumably been cultivating through C25K she should be able to turn her focus to other things (*cough* actual weight loss *cough*) and be successful.

I don't think I've ever heard April acknowledge the impact her weight and the types of exercise she chooses has on her joints

She never has, that I'm aware of, and she may be in complete denial to herself rather than seeking to mislead her audience. For some reason that I don't understand April seems to have this obsessive belief that a) exercise is really what is needed for weight loss -- if she does that she won't need to change her eating -- and b) that she's actually an athlete. She's so invested in that persona that she keeps pursuing it, in spite of all the evidence to the contrary. Furthermore, she's an *inspiration* -- she can't be like the hoi polloi who get up in the morning, get their workout in, and go to work. No, she has to obsessively try different things to "find her niche" and inspire others to greatness! Honestly I don't understand the fixation, or the grandiosity, but I can *see* where this is something she actually deeply believes, or wants to have happen so much that she doesn't care that she's functionally destroying herself with her obsessive behaviour. It's what makes her both entertaining to watch, and morbidly fascinating to me.

 

[low sodium]

My first 5k EVE, Finishing my Couch to 5K training | Day in the Life on my Weight Loss Journey​

Premiered Sep 19, 2022

"In this video, I take you on my 5K Race Day Eve, talk through nerves, talk about my couch to 5k training, reflect on my intentions and what comes next and more!"

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From 352.8 lbs to running a 5k, this is my couch to 5K race story | April Lauren Weigh In Wednesday​

Premiered Sep 22, 2022

"This past spring, I slowly started jogging some during my 3 mile for time videos, https://youtu.be/c5cT5n5cwA4. It scared me. It excited me. I felt encouraged. This Summer I decided to do a Couch to 5K training program. I took it slow and careful. In this video, I share my race day and talk about my most recent weigh in."

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A little Better Each Day, sharing my latest DEKA Strong and chatting about non-scale progress​

Sep 27, 2022

"In December 2021 I did my first DEKA strong. DEKA is a Functional Fitness Decathlon. It consists of indoor fitness competitions and motivational training programs designed for ALL levels. I loved it! I wanted to do it again, and look at my progress. "

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My Birthday and Milestones | Celebrating with a 4 mile fun run | Weigh in Wednesday​

Sep 29, 2022

"In this vlog, I share little bits of my birthday and talk about milestones and my most recent weigh in."

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Overcoming Fear and Refusing to Quit | Pt 2 Think Like a Warrior: Wake Up Bright with April Lauren​

Sep 21, 2022

"In todays episode, April Lauren explores belief 4 and 5 of the Five Inner Beliefs That Make You Unstoppable, as written by Darrin Donnelly in his book Think Like A Warrior, The Five Inner Beliefs That Make You Unstoppable. As April shares excerpts from the book, she reacts to the content by sharing how it relates to her recent experiences on her weight loss journey. "

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Rachel on losing 175 lbs and being authentically herself | Wake Up Bright Podcast with April Lauren​

Sep 28, 2022

"In today's episode, our guest Rachel Billy, also known as Rachel Reduces, shares how she lost 175 lbs, how she maintains it, talks about twerking at every size and being "authentically you" while growing better each day. This episode made me smile, laugh and get a little teary as I watched it back. I hope it brings a little joy to your day and as you listen to Rachel's story, you feel encouraged to go forward stronger."

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[MullPrep]

Ape is so fat and refuses to stop eating so much

 

[The Skeksis Emperor]

Ok, summary of the videos we missed during The Troubles with pictures (yes, new account, I nuked my dedicated kiwi-email because I'm a paranoid idiot who overestimates troons). Some of this was already discussed (in more depth) in the posts above.

My first 5k EVE, Finishing my Couch to 5K training | Day in the Life on my Weight Loss Journey​

It's nothing.

From 352.8 lbs to running a 5k, this is my couch to 5K race story | April Lauren Weigh In Wednesday​

April does a 5k, it takes her 50 minutes (results page). She gets a medal. Kenny is visibly annoyed and snipes at her: A: 'What do you think about my 5k? K: 'You did alright. I think I feel similar, you go get your experience, so next time you can'.

April is going to work with a running coach, because she wants to keep running despite having a weak knee and still being very overweight. Her next 5k is on October 1st.
April says she is an 'angry worker outer' but that she feels great when it's over - it's been noted before that she tends to look miserable during her sports events. But to be fair I also have resting rage face when I exercise, so that could be legit.

There is a weigh-in that April is not happy about, a gain of several pounds since the last weigh-in(s) (I think her last one was in her July 22nd video, in which she had gained 5 lbs and ended up at 258.7 lbs) . But it's okay because 'the number on the scale does not have the power that it once did'.

A little Better Each Day, sharing my latest DEKA Strong and chatting about non-scale progress​

Time for another DEKA! With comparison shots of the first DEKA in December 2021. Most of the footage is continuously being sped up/slowed down to make April look faster than she is. She does look a little smaller in the new footage, but she also took off her big hoody.
The video ends with a rant on progress and not judging people solely on their weight.

My Birthday and Milestones | Celebrating with a 4 mile fun run | Weigh in Wednesday​

This is the third birthday April shares since starting her youtube weightloss journey. April is going to do a neon fun run with Yeniz and the people from the gym.

April's birthday gift is a Kitchen Aid mixer. She had fond memories of her mom making cookies. While you can use mixers for many things, most people use them to make (sweet) baked goods and bread and dessert. I don't think this is a good birthday gift for someone who is still struggling with overeating. How about a non-food related gift?

Kenny might have to go work during the neon run, and April is absolutely fuming inside, but she smiles through it and says 'but it's okaaaay' with a voice strained with annoyance. But it all works out and Kenny can come.



April fantasizes about her future family - she wants to have kids and then for them to be a physically active family who does hikes and 5ks on holidays and special occassions. No comment.



Another weigh-in, 1,5 lbs loss.


April is now also being sponsored by electrolyte power in some of her videos. April says she got a 'really condescending' comment that said she doesn't need electrolyte powder. April says you don't need to be an elite athlete to buy overpriced supplements and also that her body needs it, and that as soon as it hits her tongue she feels better.

 

[Guston]

She does look a little smaller in the new footage, but she also took off her big hoody.
The video ends with a rant on progress and not judging people solely on their weight.

After 9 months, most people actively trying to lose bodyfat would look obviously different, not leave everyone unsure whether or not they lost a few pounds.

April's birthday gift is a Kitchen Aid mixer. She had fond memories of her mom making cookies. While you can use mixers for many things, most people use them to make (sweet) baked goods and bread and dessert. I don't think this is a good birthday gift for someone who is still struggling with overeating. How about a non-food related gift?

This killed me! A stand mixer is not really what one would ask for on their birthday when they're trying to avoid eating cake, cookies, bread, etc. Kenny didn't exactly look excited to be standing in line buying it, either. I totally agree that she should have chose something more aligned to what she says her goals are. If she really wanted something cooking/food related, how about treating herself to some cooking classes, which she really needs and would be better aligned with her stated goals of losing weight and being a mommy/housewife.

April fantasizes about her future family - she wants to have kids and then for them to be a physically active family who does hikes and 5ks on holidays and special occassions. No comment.

In my experience, families like that do not have a morbidly obese mom who prefers dining out to most anything else in her life.

April says you don't need to be an elite athlete to buy overpriced supplements and also that her body needs it, and that as soon as it hits her tongue she feels better.

She doesn't need electrolytes for her brief walk/jogs or whatever else she's doing. She likes having a sweet drink to sip on while she exercises, like many people. She shouldn't be pushing this product to her audience of similarly obese, mostly sedentary viewers. The way she's selling it in that transcript is crazy--her body knows she needs it, and when it hits her tongue she feels better? FFS April.

 

[Artificial Baits]

She doesn't need electrolytes for her brief walk/jogs or whatever else she's doing. She likes having a sweet drink to sip on while she exercises, like many people. She shouldn't be pushing this product to her audience of similarly obese, mostly sedentary viewers. The way she's selling it in that transcript is crazy--her body knows she needs it, and when it hits her tongue she feels better? FFS April.

I also think she is salty about this because Ilona called her out for using electrolytes and looked at the ingredient profile. Turned out it is basically flavoured water and the dosages of the compounds were way below efficacious dose, so completely useless to take - even if she did more than a 5km walk

April does a 5k, it takes her 50 minutes

She basically walked the 5k then? In the video she made it seem like she jogged the majority of it, besides the bridge, but really she walked it. And not only that, she did it SLOWER than her last "3 miles for time" video back in July! What is she proud of exactly? The obvious overconsuming and lack of exercise she has been doing in the two months she has been absent from Weigh In Wednesday's?

If she spent half as much time looking up motivational quotes on Pinterest, being "unbothered" by haydurs and actually just stuck to walking 5kms a day and eating 2000kcals a day, she wouldn't cry about fertility every couple of months. But if that was the case, she wouldn't have a thread here so cheers April - you're doing fantastic gorl! Keep damaging that bad knee and pretending you're jogging 5kms, despite setting a slower time by 4 minutes than when you walk it

 

[Simon]

Ok, summary of the videos we missed during The Troubles with pictures (yes, new account, I nuked my dedicated kiwi-email because I'm a paranoid idiot who overestimates troons). Some of this was already discussed (in more depth) in the posts above.

My first 5k EVE, Finishing my Couch to 5K training | Day in the Life on my Weight Loss Journey​

It's nothing.

From 352.8 lbs to running a 5k, this is my couch to 5K race story | April Lauren Weigh In Wednesday​

April does a 5k, it takes her 50 minutes (results page). She gets a medal. Kenny is visibly annoyed and snipes at her: A: 'What do you think about my 5k? K: 'You did alright. I think I feel similar, you go get your experience, so next time you can'.

April is going to work with a running coach, because she wants to keep running despite having a weak knee and still being very overweight. Her next 5k is on October 1st.
April says she is an 'angry worker outer' but that she feels great when it's over - it's been noted before that she tends to look miserable during her sports events. But to be fair I also have resting rage face when I exercise, so that could be legit.

There is a weigh-in that April is not happy about, a gain of several pounds since the last weigh-in(s) (I think her last one was in her July 22nd video, in which she had gained 5 lbs and ended up at 258.7 lbs) . But it's okay because 'the number on the scale does not have the power that it once did'.
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A little Better Each Day, sharing my latest DEKA Strong and chatting about non-scale progress​

Time for another DEKA! With comparison shots of the first DEKA in December 2021. Most of the footage is continuously being sped up/slowed down to make April look faster than she is. She does look a little smaller in the new footage, but she also took off her big hoody.
The video ends with a rant on progress and not judging people solely on their weight.

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April doesn't have job, does she? YOU DON'T HAVE A JOB, APRIL, WHAT ARE YOU DOING? Are you eating the whole fucking day?? If you have nothing to do, why aren't you at least working on your diet and exercise?

Also, nobody is judging you solely on your weight, Ape. We judge you on the fact that you are trying to run and do these work outs that obviously put your body under strain and could result in injury. You have no regard for the fact that you shouldn't be doing these at your weight, and that's what we judge you for.

 

[sophiesprettytits]

April does a 5k, it takes her 50 minutes (results page). She gets a medal. Kenny is visibly annoyed and snipes at her: A: 'What do you think about my 5k? K: 'You did alright. I think I feel similar, you go get your experience, so next time you can'.

What does Kenny even get out of being with her? He doesn't like being around her, she's obese, can't cook, and is leeching off him. They're both complete doormats.

 

[Ginger_beer]

The interface is not allowing me to quote again, but where you said :

"The way she's selling it in that transcript is crazy--her body knows she needs it, and when it hits her tongue she feels better? FFS April." @Guston

I actually think April is being honest*, but she doesn't know what she's revealing. She's a sugar addict, so she craves sweet things, indeed she probably thinks she "needs" them because the desire is so strong. And indeed the minute she tastes something sweet the reward centres in her brain light up just like any addict's when their body processes the presence of their drug of choice. The science on this is very new and wobbly (and may end up being false in the end), but it seems like sugar addiction really is a thing [Link to a paper on the subject], and that it can be so bad that someone gets a rush off just *thinking* about ingesting something sweet. (It has been a while since I read that paper, by the way, and skimming it again? I think it describes April's behaviour perfectly, as furious as she would/will be to hear me call her an addict. Is it as destructive as hard drugs? No, and the societal cost is decidedly less as I don't think anyone has ever been robbed or knifed for money to buy cake, but yet it seems to cause diminished quality of life, and kill people all the same.) *Ire at Ilona for rightfully calling bullshit on the product completely aside.

"She basically walked the 5k then?" @Artificial Baits

I'm sure she did jog/run as far as she could, and then because she pushed herself harder and longer than she does during training she basically ran out of gas and shuffle-walked the remainder slower than if she had speed walked the entire thing. Mind you, had April not mentioned not being able to run the full distance herself I would have just assumed that her pace for running longer distances is slower than her speed walking pace -- that's not particularly uncommon, actually, particularly for beginners, and completely unsurprising in someone April's size.

"April doesn't have job, does she?" @Simone

She mentioned teaching yoga a couple of times per week in an earlier video. It's not nothing, but depending on how many classes that is it's not even as much as a part time job. That was the same video where April mentioned that she's "not particularly hungry in the morning", implying that Intermittent Fasting is a good fit for her (as it's popular with many athletes at the moment it seems). All I heard from that statement is "I eat a gigantic dinner with dessert, and snack in the evening so I'm still full the morning after". LOL.

I boggled at the stand mixer, and then laughed until I cried. Yes, what a morbidly obese person needs is a kitchen appliance, particularly one geared towards baking! (Does anyone recall if she has a blender or food processor? Those would actually be useful for preparing food that would support weight loss goals.)

 

[Kitty kitty cat]

Podcast review by the buff woman

 

[Lucille's Brands]

Premiere just finished -

WEIGH IN WEDNESDAY and GOING 22 miles with 22 pounds in September
Oct 6th 2022

Spoiler: Archive

Weigh in, which she skates past with -
".. This week i weighed in at 258.6 pounds, which is a loss of just under a pound, and I accept you.'

Which is April for 'don't fucking dare comment on that'.

The usual lies and delusions abound, it seems we've missed little changes that way during the site downtime.
Haven't watched properly yet, but what filters is she using, or fillers has she has done? Look at her face from the cheeks down. Her face is so unnaturally oblong? The frozen forehead, I've gotten used to, she's obviously gotten botox to correct her comically overactive spock brow. She's normally got hamster cheeks, and it tapers quickly to a bottom of a heart type shaped lower face.
Or has she simply put on weight rapid, and her face is just bloated?
By God does she do that uwu face squint slash eye fucking herself often. It's a pity the botox didn't hinder that.
Suffice to say, there's little evidence that April doesn't delight in watches herself on camera. Why indeed would she lose weight, if she's been overweight most of her life, and simply sees herself as rill purty?



Constantly showing her usually blurry apple watch for eh what reason? There's no voice over to explain why.



Ilona was pretty blunt in her latest reaction to April, and it's understandable. As the same bullshit is presented in the same way, I've found myself losing patience, getting jaded and a bit MATI, so I've avoided posting.
I've seen a shift in the tone of the posts here, as it becomes increasingly apparent that April will double and triple down on her delusion, and do fucking anything except track her food and stay in a calorie deficit.
I think @Ginger_beer is right, April's ruled by her sweet tooth. Buying a stand mixer? It's primarily a baking tool. Her alleged 260lb ass needs sweet things like a hole in the head.
Fine - sure why not throw in a waffle iron and an ice cream maker, too - let's not half step it.
She'll protect the status quo of her current food consumption at all costs. It's obvious, like any self respecting addict, she'll put her drug of choice above her husband, her own aspirations, kids, actually standing a chance at properly improving at Deka, running etc.

The way she's selling it in that transcript is crazy--her body knows she needs it, and when it hits her tongue she feels better? FFS April.

That description of why she knows she needs electrolytes was so very telling. 'It's just a small cake, I need it, Kenny - mah blood sugers rill low..'





Lol, how'd this get in there? April and her Buff bestie. Good Times.


TLR - April loves April, despite her protests that 'she fills uncomfortable if not in the background' in Ilonas latest react. This shy kaween is clearly eating too much, badly, or bolth. Despite her bare faced lies to the contrary, the irrefutable fact remains that bodies don't lie, and hers says she's been feeding it shit.
Ugh. After over a year of following April online, I'm starting to understand Kenny's thousand yard stare.
Poor bastard's living with a heffalump, promising the same goals, but getting no where. All the while spending a fortune financing the should be low process.
IT'S THE FOOD..

 

[FatalTater]

Nothing wrong with having a sweet tooth, but if weight loss is important, reduce portions and go for lower fat sweets, things like Smarties, candy corn, gummis, Tootsie Rolls instead of cheesecake and ice cream.

As for her body needing electrolytes... maybe? I know if I'm doing stuff on hot days I feel a LOT better if I take potassium supplements. If I don't, I find myself craving bananas and potatoes.
(A medium banana has about 422 mg of potassium, a medium potato has about 897 mg, RDA is around 1600 mg for adults if you want to supplement but don't know what a normal amount looks like.)

April is eating too damn much and lying about it. Either own it or lose the weight, April!

 

[Ginger_beer]

Nothing wrong with having a sweet tooth, but if weight loss is important, reduce portions and go for lower fat sweets, things like Smarties, candy corn, gummis, Tootsie Rolls instead of cheesecake and ice cream.

Actually if (that's a big "if", I am not a medical doctor, and don't pretend to be one on the internet) April has an eating disorder such as BED and sugar is a trigger then it's *any* sugar that sends her into a spiral of eating too much. It can even be any refined carbohydrate -- a lot of people with BED are apparently sent off the rails by plain white bread or plain pasta. The phenomenon is called Loss of Control Overeating (Link to one study on the subject with a description), and what happens is somehow something goes off in the person's brain in response to a flavour or texture and they lose the ability to self-regulate and stop eating. They may feel full to the point of being overfull or even sick, and yet they will feel compelled to keep eating. Eating a diet higher in protein and fat -- particularly for the first meal of the day -- apparently helps suppress this to a certain degree.

It would be very interesting to see April make effectual changes like eating a diet primarily consisting of protein and vegetables, with no refined carbohydrates or sweeteners (natural or artificial -- the calories don't count, only the brain response to something sweet) for a time, and see if it would help, but realistically there's no way she'd entertain the notion of making such an experiment*, even for a couple of weeks. She is so focused on gustatory pleasure (and possibly self-soothing anxiety by eating) that she can't bear the thought of not continually gratifying her urges, even if it would help her get a real handle on her eating.

Spoiler: Autism about food type/availability

*I'm not suggesting permanence, just an experiment of a couple of weeks without any other calorie and portion control. If she found herself full/disinterested in eating it might help her mindset so that she could then learn to control herself in general with the addition of a greater variety of foods. But that would likely mean a level of work that she's simply not willing to do, as she has said herself. I'm not pretending an experiment like that is easy, but if someone *can't* go a couple of weeks just eating purely for function rather than gustatory pleasure then it really clearly shows where their issues might lie. Part of why people were slimmer historically is that (while energy output was simply much greater due to all the walking and manual labour) truly palatable food was also less easy to procure in quantities and frankly just less tasty on a day to day basis assuming people weren't upper class. If someone wants to eat like their European ancestors I can guarantee that a diet of nothing but plain porridge, boiled potatoes, cabbage or rutabaga, and the odd bit of salted pork will quickly have them disinterested in the act of eating apart from quelling real hunger -- and I'm even being generous with the assumption of potatoes. Butter and milk would be luxury items, and only used very sparingly. Suddenly it becomes clear why wars were once fought over the access to pepper...

 

[burntgrilledcheese]

Since her official 5k time is significantly slower that her training 5k time, it makes me think she might be the type to stop her watch every time she walks or takes a break, then restarts it once she's 'running' again. Can't stop the clock in a race!

 

[PotatoFace]

Fall Goals, Intentions and focus for Weight Loss, Fitness and Fun | Balancing Weight Loss and Life
Posted 10-10-22

New video (and I'm glad to be back on the farms)! Summary:

• Wow, she did a really bad job at overlining her lips today
  
  
• This summer was bittersweet and a period of growth for her (we know, April; you gained 10 pounds)
• Will continue her growth in the fall but she wants to enjoy fall to the fullest (this already sounds like an excuse to indulge herself to an excess)
• Is replacing her monthly goal videos with 4 seasonal goal videos a year
• Goals for Fall 2022:
  • Lose 20 pounds
    • Get 15k steps a day, track her food (doesn't mention anything about how she's eating or if she's eating in a deficit, just that she'll "track"), get adequate sleep
    • Will continue doing Weigh-In Wednesdays
  • Fitness
    • Weight loss isn't about fitness, at least that's her new story; she works out because she enjoys it (funny, hasn't she said the opposite in the past?)
    • Goals are to do a DEKA Fit in NJ (like a DEKA Strong but with runs added), do a DEKA Strong in Dec under 23 minutes, work with a run coach, do a couple of 5k runs.
    • Will do a 1 mile for time and 3 mile for time this month.
    • "Would be fun" to get together with Yenna for a Kettle Hell this month
  • Pick apples in an orchard; make Kenny an apple dessert
  • With the new Kitchen-Aid, has decided to learn to make bread weekly, experimenting with recipes and flavors (my guess is she'll do it once and never mention it again, just like her other fleeting interests)
    • Wants to share the bread with neighbors, her gym, and other members of her community
  • Day trips to hike the mountains with or without Kenny
  • Go to the pumpkin patch
  • Have the neighbors over; has been thinking about this a lot and it's been "heavy" on her
    • Wants to foster the community around her and know where the old and feeble people are
  • Have more routine with regular household things like the yard and "projects"
  • Do little things daily; currently makes the bed and cleans the kitchen daily, but sounds like nothing else. What does she do all day, seriously?
  • Mentions several times she wants to seek out her community; guess she's finally feeling lonely

April Word Salad of the Day: "I really want to be...less...drawn in...to projects...but in a way that I sustain that project over time...?"