I lathered in the sink and rinsed off in the shower and I got the water scalding to kill as many germs as possible.
I usually get it as hot as is comfortable and I bathe for 10-20 minutes scrubbing myself raw and then 2-3 days later I’m healed and I scrub again, but since I got all the lathering done in the sink gently I was able to use extremely hot water that hurt really bad for a quick thorough rinse off so I’m probably cleaner than I have been in quite some time.
So, sincerely, thanks for the idea. I know you are mocking me but I can’t argue with results.
Actually looked up navy shower on Wikipedia, and there are entire cultures of the world that bathe that way (excluding the shower at the end) it actually works better than just a regular comfortable temperature shower.
Actually I went top down obviously and since it just sat on my face long enough, the soap dried into like a facial mask at a spa and tingled and tightened up my skin and when I rinsed it off my skin was so soft.
I’m serious I haven’t felt this clean since the last time I bathed in bleach water. (I was really stressed and felt dirty and itchy and soap wasn’t helping.
I went to the laundry room, got the bleach, brought it to the bathroom, sat in the tub of water as hot as I could stand it, and poured the bleach on my head straight from the bottle.
It was cold then really hot and it finally got the body oils off my skin I scrubbed and scrubbed until my skin went from light tan it is naturally to bright white.
I rinsed off the bleach, I don’t know how but it didn’t make my hair any lighter but it did bleach my skin for 1-2 days and then eventually the colour came back to my skin and I took a normal shower and it felt good.
I had squashed the nagging thought of how dirty I was. It doesn’t happen a lot but I get contamination obsessions and drastic measures is what it takes to get me out of it.
One ex had lice once, not bad, I couldn’t even see them but when she told me about it I got so paranoid about it I poured peroxide on my hair and let it set for 30 minutes before I rinsed it out. Again, I don’t know how but it didn’t bleach my hair any blonder than it already was. And I shaved off all my body hair to prevent them spreading just in case it was the other kind and she was lying about it just being head lice.
And thanks to phil ken sebben you are exactly right about the fact that I have lost sensitivity and it purely being the biological sex drive that keeps me wanting it.
If I had conscious control over my hormones I would stop feeling any sexual desire at all and would only masturbate the biologically obligatory amount that prevents cancer and that would be it.
All right, to clear up some confusion, the skin on my balls is also very thick and insensitive it is trauma/pressure that they are sensitive to. A firm tap causes pain, or if I sit on them (which happens a lot actually) I double over and become nauseated for a minute or 2.
I actually think part of the numbness has to do with my autism, because it is a symptom that many of us deal with. Our brains feel small signals so easily that a powerful signal overloads the system and we don’t feel it.
Tickles and light touch or certain fabrics will hurt like hell but we can fall really hard and barely feel it. That’s part of why I would rather be punched than spanked if I had a gf into bdsm. A spank stings and itches but the pain of a punch aches a while and subsidies.
I’m actually serious about bettering myself. Hell, just the commitment to bettering myself has lifted my spirits a tiny bit.
But yeah I’m such a bad person I’ll probably fail at this just like everything else in life.
