I think a lot of us agree that, at this point, what most of us are here for is to see Chinny get her comeuppance. In spades. I for one have been clenching my teeth for longer than I care to admit, wishing the worst for her. More than once I have seen Farmers try to console one another with the notion that Chinny is suffering her consequences now, in the way that her body punishes her for her gluttony and sloth.
Rest assured, her body does punish her. She can't walk, she'll never jog or run. When she stands up, her back starts hurting, and so do her joints. She may not admit it to herself, but she feels deep inside that it's only going to get worse with time. I won't reiterate the ever growing list of her ailments - not theoretical or potential ones, but those that are absolutely real. Suffice it to say that already her physical existence is hell. Which is why she'll never give up drugs. Imagine having to be stoned all the time just to go through the day.
I'm sorry. It isn't enough for me. She doesn't care that she can barely walk. As long as she can shove food in her face unreservedly, commiserate with her beezers, and claim to be fake loved, she is happy. SHE IS LIVING IT UP RIGHT NOW. She is excited about her move. She is dumping everything she no longer enjoys in her life with no effort at all, and barreling full steam ahead to her new glamourous life with her (she thinks) handsome husband.
Here's where I beg to differ. Do not confuse manic excitement with happiness. She knows no happines, never has and never will. She's just jacked, nothing more than that. She has no idea what it feels like to experience quiet, serene contentment. I do agree, however, that she has no problem dumping Peetz, the cats, the villa and all else. Again: imagine not being able to experience any long-term attachment to anybody or anything. That gnawing sense of emptiness is what fuels constant hunger, never to be satiated. Remind me which circle of Dante's hell is that. But hell it definitely is.
Sure she is vile and hideous and most people recoil at the sight, smell, and sound of her. BUT SHE IS OBLIVIOUS. SHE CARES NOT. She does what she likes and fuck everyone who doesn't kiss her ass--and she gets away with it. I repeat: THIS BITCH IS HAPPY. Nothing phases her.
She's not oblivious. She just tries very hard to ignore the inner voice that tells her that exact thing every time she sees someone looking at her in real life. She doesn't do what she likes, because she doesn't know what she likes. She acts on pure, reptile-like instinct. If she tries to find a purpose, she's choosing it badly, because she bases it on spite and hopes that what she does will make other people suffer. A psychopath, she has no idea what is wrong with her and why she can't be like other people. A nagging question that she keeps pushing away, but it's there, somewhere. Ass-kissing satisfies her only momentarily. Mind you, she's never satisfied for longer than a couple of minutes. What a terrible state of mind and body to be in!
Her soul is a void that cannot be affected by others' suffering. She "does what she wants, so stay mad."
In that you're absolutely corrct, imo. It becomes more blatantly obvious for us with the whole cats situation. Very interesting to witness, totally terrible when you give voice to your own empathy. I accept that it's impossible to make her repent for the wrongs she's doing. A monster will not be un-monstered. If this is what "doing what one wants" looks like, than let's thank goodness that we neither can nor want to have that in our lives.
No, I wouldn't want to be her. But I believe that she is able to disregard reality to the point where she will never get the fact of what she truly is. And that is the one thing I want more than anything. I want her to see herself as others see her--and to be truly and deeply ashamed.
I get you. Bad news: this hope of ours will probably never be fulfilled. The more I watch her, the more emotionally detached I become. It's like your mind and your heart refuses to be any more invested into this whole spectacle. Let's just watch it with cold interest and not much emotion. Emotion - any emotion, anybody's emotion - is wasted on that black hole of a creature.
But, the SECOND most basic fact about Chinny is--SHE HAS NO SHAME.
Neither do lizards, you know, LOL
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