Anyone know how to conquer feeling not equal to cis men?
I’ve been on t 10 years, had top, hysto, phallo (all stages) I’ve been told naked I look indistinguishable from someone with a natal penis, and my only stage to go now is tattooing (medical for veins, more colouring, though I naturally have a pinker tip).
All this work and yet I feel like I’ll never be satisfied and always wish to be a cis man, it’s the worst in sexual and romantic settings and having gone through a rough breakup recently I feel even worse
- Because despite knowing it’s not why I think being trans makes me less appealing to be with
- I now know I have to go through the whole crap of coming out again to anyone I date in the future and I’m so tired of opening myself up about all this stuff just to get hurt again or have it make me feel bad.
I’ve been in a pretty bad depression recently and wondering if I’ll ever feel okay with myself and my body. My family says to look how far I’ve come but I just think about what I feel I’m lacking or what someone will “miss out on” with me.