The Tenacious Unicorn Ranch / @TenaciousRanch / Steampunk Penny / Penellope Logue / Phillip Matthew Logue - Don't cry because it ended, laugh because it's still getting worse.

[stupid frog]

Why is there a baby toy in on of the photos

Not because any actual baby was there. Probably diaperfurs and "littles" and shit. Kevin is both.

 

[Bob_]

Pics don't look any different from when it was occupied by Bonnie et al? If anything, Kev's room is cleaner now.

My god, is there ANY chance that Kevin wasn't able to bring much of his hoard and the squatters found it?

If Kevvie was forced to leave any of his toys behind, it's all he would be tweeting about.
"Oh no, I miss my Shockwave transformer already! My life is so empty and meaningless without it!!!"

 

[Humbert Humbert]

KINDNESS STATEMENT & CAR DAMAGE
There’s more!!! Bonnie posted more photos of the damage done to his car! Apparently it’s been spray painted with the word “free” on the hood. Whether or not this means “free” in an anarchist way or “free” in a literal “this item is free”, I’m not sure, but it’s probably the latter. At least the alpacas are free though. [A]

And as you can see, he also linked a google doc containing Alyssa’s statement. I suggest you read it, even if it is a bit long. It details her experiences there and sheds light on other things. Here’s a few things that stuck out to me in particular:
Good thing I’m not a reporter.

She apparently paid Penny $250 for “counseling services” over Telegram in 2020, just over a year prior to the Denfur thing.

In the initial Tranch fight that we have only heard about where they didn’t like how Kindness, apparently some of them really didn’t like how she basically acted like a sped and felt like it was mocking disabled people. But, it seems like somebody who wasn’t Bonnie was the one to break this news to her.

In (possibly) October 2021, it seems like they had a negotiation meeting between Bonnie and the rest of the tranchers that took place at Alyssa’s house. Everybody kind of ignored the elephant in the room and pretended like everything was fine between them and Alyssa. This may have been due to the fact that Ash Coyote was filming the whole thing for the ill-fated Tranch documentary.

By the way, “fake-claiming” is basically when somebody calls you out for lying about having Dissociative Identity Disorder.

Bonnie also replied to another Tranch tweet with images of the property, including 2 new ones! [A]

Also, shit got so bad that even KEVIN said something about the squatter situation and was quite hostile towards Bonnie. I have not done the Kevin update today, but I’ll update you all if I find anything else. [A]

Spoiler: Pics

Edit: Bonnie is still awake and tweeting [A]


Edit edit: HAPPY 1,000 PAGES!
I couldn’t dream of a better arc for this page.
Edit #3: I somehow failed to notice that Kevin claimed to somebody in the replies that Bonnie called the cops on them.

 

[FinnSven]

Unfortunately it’s just the result of when some idealistic fools try to make a mutually supportive self sustaining commune, and find that most people attracted to such things are selfish lazy freeloaders.

This might not be a popular opinion but I think that Kevvie was the main culprit.
In the managing to and manipulating everything to be about him and his comfort.

Once that kind of thinking has set in and a dumb but forceful and threatening creature like Penny has been brought on side, then the rot spreads literally through the people and the property.
“Anarchism is about collective responsibility, but as we have a responsibility to the weakest members, the weakest members deserve the most support”.

The other problem is that most people attracted to such a way of living are people who hate their parents so refuse to tell anyone or be told to clean up.

Even better adjusted people need a structure or at least a person to take charge to keep things together and when the closest to that is a semi functional military larper who is only interested in keeping a useless childish run of shit happy then it is just going to fall apart.

That and it was pretty clear there was substance abuse going on, Kevvie’s weed, Penny getting through Bushmills regularly.

Even if Penny was not actually a full blown alcoholic, he clearly has mental disorders and regular strong alcohol makes these things worse.

Unfortunately for Bonnie Wee Paul, it’s difficult to the point of impossible to recoup losses from such tenants when this happens and the fact that there is evidence that he was aware and involved initially really doesn’t help his case.

His only recourse now would be to try and destroy the reputation of the Terrible Trio in the online trans community.

As long as Penny’s parents are safely out of the way, I do hope that a drunken Bonnie wee Paul shows up to confront them, and it results in a bizarre shootout between drunk and high men in dresses.

 

[stupid frog]

I thought she was too sick to recall events that happened there, etc etc?

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Edit: February 28th, 2023
My prognosis has advanced to needing the epilepsy unit and I'm not well enough to finalize edits to this document please forgive any work in progress aspects. In light of the vandalism of the property it breaks my heart that my last act of community service was to clean this home, with love and an open heart. And to see the current pictures…it's devastating. No matter how this happened, it shouldn't have.

I love you all. I'll be in the hospital an unknown amount of time but can be reached for non urgent matters or encouraging pet pics etc at comradekittypants@gmail.com

 

[Vesperus]

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Only a fucking troon would be so short sighed as to fuck up a four letter word on a car hood.

The fucking state of these retards.

 

[Counterfeit Obol]

As long as Penny’s parents are safely out of the way, I do hope that a drunken Bonnie wee Paul shows up to confront them, and it results in a bizarre shootout between drunk and high men in dresses.

Plot twist: Should a shootout happen, all evidence points to the surviving alpacas who opened fire.

 

[Scarlett Johansson]

Set up dynamite explode the place

 

[Ghostse]

Holy shit!
The "squatters" were Tranch guests, but when Penny & co moved out, they never really bothered to make their guests leave? They've totally trashed the place! Bonnie says he's going to sue! ( )
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Well at least you know the Treadmill is in pristine condition.

 

[stupid frog]

Set up dynamite explode the place

Do not disturb the alpaca resting grounds, bigot.

 

[Need4Sneed]

Does anyone know the status of the Transformer collection?

 

[RollingRock2]

KINDNESS STATEMENT & CAR DAMAGE
There’s more!!! Bonnie posted more photos of the damage done to his car! Apparently it’s been spray painted with the word “free” on the hood. Whether or not this means “free” in an anarchist way or “free” in a literal “this item is free”, I’m not sure, but it’s probably the latter. At least the alpacas are free though. [A]
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And as you can see, he also linked a google doc containing Alyssa’s statement. I suggest you read it, even if it is a bit long. It details her experiences there and sheds light on other things. Here’s a few things that stuck out to me in particular:
Good thing I’m not a reporter.
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She apparently paid Penny $250 for “counseling services” over Telegram in 2020, just over a year prior to the Denfur thing.
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In the initial Tranch fight that we have only heard about where they didn’t like how Kindness, apparently some of them really didn’t like how she basically acted like a sped and felt like it was mocking disabled people. But, it seems like somebody who wasn’t Bonnie was the one to break this news to her.
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In (possibly) October 2021, it seems like they had a negotiation meeting between Bonnie and the rest of the tranchers that took place at Alyssa’s house. Everybody kind of ignored the elephant in the room and pretended like everything was fine between them and Alyssa. This may have been due to the fact that Ash Coyote was filming the whole thing for the ill-fated Tranch documentary.
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By the way, “fake-claiming” is basically when somebody calls you out for lying about having Dissociative Identity Disorder.

Bonnie also replied to another Tranch tweet with images of the property, including 2 new ones! [A]
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Also, shit got so bad that even KEVIN said something about the squatter situation and was quite hostile towards Bonnie. I have not done the Kevin update today, but I’ll update you all if I find anything else. [A]
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Spoiler: Pics

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Edit: Bonnie is still awake and tweeting [A]
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Edit edit: HAPPY 1,000 PAGES!
I couldn’t dream of a better arc for this page.

That's a Nissan Leaf which is an electric car. Isn't the Tranch off the grid? Meaning after Bonnie drove it there he realised he couldn't charge his fucking car lmao. It might've taken a week or more to charge that thing in winter on 110volts with pissant amps. Who drives an EV to a ranch? No wonder it was abandoned.

 

[Foghorns at a Funeral]

Unfortunately it’s just the result of when some idealistic fools try to make a mutually supportive self sustaining commune, and find that most people attracted to such things are selfish lazy freeloaders.

This might not be a popular opinion but I think that Kevvie was the main culprit.
In the managing to and manipulating everything to be about him and his comfort.

Once that kind of thinking has set in and a dumb but forceful and threatening creature like Penny has been brought on side, then the rot spreads literally through the people and the property.
“Anarchism is about collective responsibility, but as we have a responsibility to the weakest members, the weakest members deserve the most support”.

The other problem is that most people attracted to such a way of living are people who hate their parents so refuse to tell anyone or be told to clean up.

Even better adjusted people need a structure or at least a person to take charge to keep things together and when the closest to that is a semi functional military larper who is only interested in keeping a useless childish run of shit happy then it is just going to fall apart.

That and it was pretty clear there was substance abuse going on, Kevvie’s weed, Penny getting through Bushmills regularly.

Even if Penny was not actually a full blown alcoholic, he clearly has mental disorders and regular strong alcohol makes these things worse.

Unfortunately for Bonnie Wee Paul, it’s difficult to the point of impossible to recoup losses from such tenants when this happens and the fact that there is evidence that he was aware and involved initially really doesn’t help his case.

His only recourse now would be to try and destroy the reputation of the Terrible Trio in the online trans community.

As long as Penny’s parents are safely out of the way, I do hope that a drunken Bonnie wee Paul shows up to confront them, and it results in a bizarre shootout between drunk and high men in dresses.

I think this should be the evidence people cite as to why modern communes do not work at all. Especially when it comes to basing one on stupid gender and sexual fetishes. All they have accomplished is abusing Alpaca's and trashing up a house. Commune's used be based on survival, were by if 1 guy died. It would fuck the rest of you, so you took care of people. But as their situation is not life or death. It turned in to more of a club house then to a shithole.
It is no wonder the low life trash turned up, when you don't (or in this case blocked by gender politics) have standards about the people you hang around and can be checkmated by someone else's made up genders.
But it has been a funny ride to read all about. Got to give them that.

 

[TheGoodNamesHaveBeenTaken]

Am I the only one that wishes Phil and the boys had hung around a few more weeks?
They could have inserted themselves into the "Noble Black farmer being oppressed by cops, KKK and Trump" scene.
Sooner or later there would have been a negligent discharge and they all would have started shooting at each other while thinking they were shooting Earl, the cops or the KKK.

Oh well.
Boner getting uncollectable judgments just isn't as satisfying as

TRANNY WACO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Boner's bit about "Be on notice this property is still protected by a bunch of queers. We will wreck your shit just like we did to Earl" is hilarious once it came out that it was wrecked by a bunch of queers.

They needed a queer protection force alright.
A force to protect the property from the queers.

 

[Sexy Senior Citizen]

Good thing I’m not a reporter.
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If you needed proof that modern transgenderism is a cult, look no further than this statement. Rather than take action that could get these vandals and freeloaders found and convicted, they're worried more about making trans people look bad (as if they need help with that.)

The collapse of the Tranch is getting more interesting by the day. It almost makes up for the destruction of the land and the mass alpaca graves.

Almost.

 

[Ghostse]

That's a Nissan Leaf which is an electric car. Isn't the Tranch off the grid? Meaning after Bonnie drove it there he realised he couldn't charge his fucking car lmao. It might've taken a week or more to charge that thing in winter on 110volts with pissant amps. Who drives an EV to a ranch? No wonder it was abandoned.

The Tranch has solar (not enough to top off up a leaf in any reasonable time, let alone given it'd need to share with their other needs) and gas generators. Because LOL.

There seems to have been some sort of grid power (or maybe just a propane jennie?) just not a lot of it, because the previous owners didn't have solar, didn't have a big gennie, and the tranch were doing fine until they tried to hook up their gaming rigs.

Anyway, weekly reminder:
If you've got a big enough set up (and drive infrequently enough) you can run an electric, but you need about 6KW set up if you're going to be off the grid with it.
And a Leaf is not the right vehicle for anything off-road.

I have a friend with a leaf. Its a decent electric, and its good for getting him to his job in the city and to his home in a satellite city. It is not good for anything other than good-condition asphalt.

 

[Procopius]

From what I remember of Alyssia's visit to the Tranch, she lost her phone in the field and Phil's truck suddenly grew a big crack across the windscreen. I'm betting the two are connected, Gash Coyote filmed the whole thing, and this is the Tranchers' revenge.

His only recourse now would be to try and destroy the reputation of the Terrible Trio in the online trans community.

Not a lot of support for Fat Paul in the wider Troon community. Here's "Aldo" who drove hundreds of miles across country to change his socks, back in the time of the original siege.

https://twitter.com/Huskier_Aldo/status/1630708761366241280

Hemingways Liver on Twitter: "Needing some clarification- you are thr…

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Needing some clarification- you are threatening to evict queer people after you just evicted another group of queer people, but this time you’re threatening to used an armed mutual aid network that was used to protect the other queer people you evicted?
Is that the sum of it?

And I'm calling out Kevin holding her rats and calling them "ritties" "because it sounds like kitties". Because it sounds like "titties" more like. We all know what a perv he is, and face to face with an actual, real life, woman he just couldn't help leching on her.

 

[Terrifying Organisms]

KINDNESS STATEMENT & CAR DAMAGE
There’s more!!! Bonnie posted more photos of the damage done to his car! Apparently it’s been spray painted with the word “free” on the hood. Whether or not this means “free” in an anarchist way or “free” in a literal “this item is free”, I’m not sure, but it’s probably the latter. At least the alpacas are free though. And as you can see, he also linked a google doc containing Alyssa’s statement. I suggest you read it, even if it is a bit long. It details her experiences there and sheds light on other things.

Full Local Archive:

Spoiler: Full Sperg

Edit: February 28th, 2023
My prognosis has advanced to needing the epilepsy unit and I'm not well enough to finalize edits to this document please forgive any work in progress aspects. In light of the vandalism of the property it breaks my heart that my last act of community service was to clean this home, with love and an open heart. And to see the current pictures…it's devastating. No matter how this happened, it shouldn't have.

I love you all. I'll be in the hospital an unknown amount of time but can be reached for non urgent matters or encouraging pet pics etc at comradekittypants@gmail.com

Feb 2023 White Nonbinary Person making a hand heart from transit home from Neurologist

I love you all SO MUCH. I KNOW that we can do better about making sure that we are keeping people mentally and emotionally safe moving forward and I still believe that community is the path forward.


Media outlets do not have my permission to use photographs or quotes from this document for any purpose. This is for the Trans community. If you want to publish any part of this story please contact me, I do not want this narrative being used to negatively impact the lives of Trans people.


My name is Kindness Stellar, I am a 30 year old nonbinary genderfluid plural transmasc from Aurora, CO. I recently came across a journal entry written in December 2021. I am in a more stable and safer place now, so I think it's time for me to explain to my community why I stopped streaming on Twitch, uploading to YouTube or creating daily vlogs after doing so for many years. I have missed my community very much and hope that I will continue to improve my health. Please do not read this document if you are in a compromised position with your own mental health. You are beloved.

I am speaking of my personal feelings alone and this document does not include my professional opinion about the wellbeing of the animals, any political opinions, or any statements about the use of firearms. This is strictly about how I felt as a volunteer and a disabled Trans visitor.

The end of this document features a journal entry in a very unsafe state of mind and the events leading up to it TW: Suicidal Ideation, Isolation, Depression, Negative Self Talk, Abilism, Eugenics

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An account of Volunteering with Tenacious Unicorn Ranch in late 2021 from Kindness Stellar

Pumpkin the alpaca of Tenacious Unicorn Ranch in Westcliffe CO giving Kindness, a white nonbinary person wearing a cowboy hat, a warm welcome September 2021.

For Disabled Persons: the following was true as of my last visit 2021

The Ranch did not encourage or mandate masking for visitors, the vaccination status for residents and other guests is unknown.

There is no wheelchair accessibility; the door is accessible via steep metal outdoor stairs or by climbing on top of a desk to reach the alternate door.

Service dogs may have issues with aggression from the relatively untrained very large dogs at the ranch and other herd animals may target small dogs as predators.

There are firearms present and at the time of my visit unlocked on pegs on the walls and being open carried by residents. This may violate Colorado law if any persons are unable to personally own a firearm, so be wary of your own status and mental wellbeing around firearms.

In regards to masking: I did not feel comfortable with this at the time but having just quit my previous job and living alone I rationalized I was only at high risk personally due to my own health concerns. At the time in mid 2021 I believed vaccines mandate at the event I met them to be sufficient protection. Although I did not get sick I regret being unmasked at any time at this event and at the Ranch in general. I would not do this as of 2023 and have not attended other events since my involvement with TUR.

Bonnie (retired, Co-Owner of TUR) a light skinned Peruvian nonbinary person wearing a MUSE band shirt and Kindness (Community Volunteer), a white nonbinary person at the Tenacious Unicorn Ranch in Westcliffe, CO . They're wearing protective hearing and eye protection gear and are getting ready to do firearm training. They are smiling on a bright sunny day and seem relaxed.

What is it like to volunteer at the Tenacious Unicorn Ranch as a Disabled Transmasc in 2021?

by Kindness Stellar, Disabled Artist from Aurora CO, January 2023
They are a Nonbinary genderfluid transmasc, any good faith pronouns are accepted such as [ They, He, Fae and She etc]

This document functions as a response to the TUR statement dated December 2022 in which I am referred to as "Bonnie's partner" where they describe that I was officially rejected for employment by TUR as I was considered unqualified, despite my never having formally applied to any position at this organization. I have had no visitation or involvement with any operations or individuals currently operating TUR since December 2021. I have never been paid or compensated in any way by this organization and want no future involvement.

Please note that the author experiences memory loss due to seizures and other health concerns. These accounts are taken from vlogs and journal entries, to the best of my ability these events are reported honestly and accurately.

Naga the female Great Pyranese of TUR greeting Kindness, a white nonbinary person in sunglasses and a cowboy hat smiling brightly, Sept 2021. They look relaxed and happy.


My experience with the ranch in person began August 2021 and my first visit in September was by request of the then co-owner Bonnie Nelson. I was to visit and
pro bono assist with the development of a plan for increasing commune cohesion using my previous volunteer management, IT management and team building expertise. We met at a local event where the ranch was the featured charity fundraiser. After spending the first year of my transition living alone due to the pandemic, I specifically attended the event with the hopes of making connections and ideally getting a hug from a fellow Trans person.

At Denfur 2021 Kindness, a white nonbinary person in glasses tipping their hat wearing a mask with cactus while seated in their wheelchair.

We connected online during this event and our first "date" was a group dinner with many ranch members where we discussed their current and future projects. My interest in being involved was not correlated with my budding romantic interest in Bonnie, as I was already seeking volunteer or career opportunities with local nonprofits. I had already been in detailed private contact initiated by Penny (the founder) years prior, in response to my request for trauma informed support for age regression and PTSD. We spoke over Telegram, I was relieved to find some form of counseling services from someone at a nonprofit, this was why I trusted her with my vulnerable experiences. During these compensated exchanges with Penny (totaling via PayPal $250 during April-June 2020). I dug into my personal history, mental health and hobbies. She highlighted my possible value to the project and also that a visit may be valuable to me in my healing. We discussed what a visit might look like especially in Penny's hopes of developing a friendship with her partner Kat due to our shared interests. We fell out of contact when my own housing instability due to domestic abuse no longer made it possible to pay for these sessions comfortably.

We do not believe she recognized me as the same person during this dinner, but was happy to see Bonnie smiling. Later, when discussed with her by Bonnie she acknowledged the connection but at no point acted familiar or affectionate towards me in person, or using my nickname Penny chose "cupcake head". This was jarring emotionally but I knew that it was a paid therapeutic exchange and not a friendship. I wanted to make sure that she knew who I was and was comfortable with me visiting still given the emotionally intimate nature of our text conversations and our lack of recent communication. She seemed pleased that Kat and I had such enthusiastic conversations about fundraising at future events, such as BLFC and Penny seemed happy to invite me to join dinner.

Dinner after Denfur fundraiser event of Ranch Members Clockwise. Kat, Jen, (Former Member), Bonnie (Former Member) Kindness (Future Volunteer), a friend of the ranch and (Former Member) The atmosphere is joyous yet tired.

[ARCHIVIST'S NOTE: LOL! KEVIN IS FAT!]

Featured on this post by the Ranch August 2021
https://twitter.com/TenaciousRanch/status/1429795677790380042?t=hqHka3sWVFLSpJtIMI0HiQ&s=19


We parted ways later that evening with the hope to spend more time together in the future, to discuss ideas and ultimately to figure out what kind of connection we wished to have. After lengthy text exchanges we called "relationship negotiations" where we shared some of our traumas, challenges and necessary accommodations Bonnie came to visit my home in Aurora. We spent the evening discussing in detail the unique concerns of her project and she felt my insights to be highly valuable. At this time we also discussed my future career options given that the work I'd been doing as a more than full time housekeeper and nanny was far too taxing on my body, mind and soul.

She felt that I should visit her project as I had been attempting to gather the necessary funds to begin my own nonprofit to rescue animals displaced by the pandemic (this project was halted due to my faltering health and heavy workload). I was excited at the thought of working with an existing nonprofit instead of needing to get certified on my own. I prefer to work within existing projects and add my skills to the pot. However, having already lived communally and recognizing my own housing needs; we were instead discussing ideas such as having me operate a donation drop off/resale location within the city proper with my own apartment.

My motivation for visiting the ranch was to find social support as a Trans Person who started my transition in 2020, having been isolated before that weekend due to the pandemic. I was seeking a sense of community and family, which I was expecting after the media appearances and the warm reception at the group dinner. I felt at that time that I was uniquely capable of assisting them with their concerns and that as a transmasculine person older than those who resided there, a possible role model.

While there I focused on the cleaning tasks and getting to know ranch members. I experienced one of their firearms training days which was challenging given my disabilities, but I felt proud of my successes. Overall, I felt very positively about my experience, and was able to provide Bonnie with extensive thoughts regarding ways the project may be improved.

I met the TUR team in my wheelchair but due to their lack of wheelchair accessibility when visiting I required the use of my cane and ultimately attempted to make do without mobility aids. I didn't manage my own limitations very well due to the high altitude and required frequent rests to recover from my seizures. Bonnie was very supportive and attentive to my health concerns during my visits and Penny assured me that the ranch was disability friendly as she herself is multiply disabled.

Bonnie (former Co-owner) and Kindness (Ranch Volunteer) on their 3rd date, the first visit to the Ranch on September 10, 2021. A light skinned Peruvian Nonbinary person in glasses wearing an arm brace sling and a white nonbinary person in glasses with their faces close together sticking out their tongues. They look happy and playful.


I arrived in the fresh mountain air of the familiar seeming valley, a place my mother told me I'd spent time as a child with my grandparents, on the evening of September 10th 2021. It was a bit of a bumpy ride with my window stuck open, and the sunflower I'd stopped to pick for Bonnie had seen better days; But she was happy enough with it to take the above picture so I think I did okay.

After meeting the dogs, a rambunctious group of Great Pyranese in the yard and a few alpacas, even being greeted by the gregarious Pumpkin, I toured the smaller animal pen. I felt a special connection to one of the ailing lamb with tummy troubles, and spent time getting him fresh water and food, and cleaning up his pen. He perked up after a gentle massage and petting, I was looking forward to visiting again to see how he was improving.

Kindness,a white nonbinary person in sunglasses and cowboy hat snuggling up to a lamb in hay

I enjoyed my second "family style" dinner this time cooked up at the ranch and felt my nerves calming. I felt how sincerely I wanted these people to like me, to think I was a cool guy (I'm genderfluid but at the time, I really wanted to be a cool guy). But most of all, I wanted to help them, their animals and be someone that was part of this amazing mission…saving Trans lives.

It was hard on me to return home to my apartment, but I had my job to worry about and my own animals to tend to. It had been for that stretch of time a true breath of fresh air from my experience closeted. I wasn't misgendered. They knew who I was…they knew I was Trans.

Kindness, a white nonbinary person in sunglasses and a cowboy hat pulled over in a car, smiling at the camera brightly. They're about to visit the Tenacious Unicorn Ranch in Westcliffe, CO for the first time.

After returning home, I kept in close contact with Bonnie, our connection was forming in multiple facets - but first and foremost we shared moral values predominantly to help others in need. To this end with my (not yet then diagnosed but suspected) epilepsy worsening Bonnie had come to visit me again this time to encourage me to find new employment. As a previous home health aide she was acutely aware that my health was not capable of upkeeping the cleaning I'd done at her house, within my own house or at my job as a nanny/housekeeper. She made it clear that the negative effects on my body were concerning her, she helped me when physically quitting my job, and with explaining to them that my health was no longer stable enough to be capable of safely caring for and driving children.

At this point in time I still had not written a new resume, cover letter or applied in any way to work with the ranch beyond my attempts to build a connection to Bonnie and help her friends. I was not expecting them to provide me employment or housing. I was concerned with many aspects of their project after my first visit but still wanted to help them succeed. I had requested that Bonnie check with the ranch members particularly with Penny that it was okay for me to visit again so soon after my first visit, to what she replied "Forever yes, he makes you happy"

Kindness, a white nonbinary person in glasses , Wearing a shirt with a Unicorn lifting weights with text "Installing Muscles Please Wait…" drinking coffee at the Tenacious Unicorn Ranch September 2021 They looked relaxed, content and somewhat tired, but smiling at the camera.

Upon my second visit the following weekend, I had a split visit for the week as I was still responsible for my own caged animals and household. Bonnie and I made this trip together to get extra supplies I was donating to the Ranch as well as physical therapy equipment I wanted to lend them for their injured members. I brought several loads of laundry to my home to assist them with catching up.

Loki, Kindnesses service dog, a mini Australian Shepherd dog wearing a shirt with the words "Be Kind" on his visit to the Tenacious Unicorn Ranch September 2021 being a gentle pet.

I was involved with skirting fibers and learning about the process of milling from their business partner with whom I strongly connected. During this visit I spent most of my time trying to understand the interpersonal needs of ranch members to help facilitate a new action plan as many household chores were struggling to be distributed in a way people felt equitable. This is a challenge I've faced before when working with a similarly sized team in Americorps in 2010. I made it clear to the Ranch members that I was seeking new employment and still on my lease several hours away for another 9 months but that I hoped I'd have time to continue to volunteer as I felt a strong kinship.

Kindness, a white nonbinary person in glasses working on cleaning projects at the Tenacious Unicorn Ranch September 2021. There is a pile of miscellaneous house goods behind them.

Bonnie, a light skinned Peruvian Nonbinary person and Kindness, a white nonbinary person riding inside a tractor doing ranching work together. They are smiling affectionately and content.

After leaving from my first two visits in September I felt overjoyed. I thought I had succeeded socially and was likely going to have new friendships and possibly even a viable next step in my career. It was both my and Bonnie's understanding that I was warmly welcomed back. There was one direct request to change my behavior (specifically to not talk out loud to myselves while overhearing a disagreement by one Ranch member and someone else, this was immediately complied with to my knowledge)As we understand there were no other indications of rejection, displeasure at my presence or concerns about my attitude or behavior were ever broached with me. I had several one on one and small group meetings with people to discuss if they were comfortable with my presence, offering to leave if needed. Online and in person my grasp of the situation was that I was warmly welcomed, wanted and positively influencing those present.

Kindness, a white nonbinary person in glasses in front of the progressive pride flag and a sword hanging at the Tenacious Unicorn Ranch September 2021. They seem cheerful and smile with their eyes. They're wearing a beaded camp style bracelet.

Returning home I was feeling physically exhausted after a challenging ride home, extrapolated due to needing to stop to rest multiple times but emotionally bolstered due to feeling I had contribute meaningfully to a charity organization. I took care of my animals and rested peacefully in my own bed. Knowing that I'd finally found a like minded community, people who wanted me, in every unusual facet of self. I finally found "my people" I thought.

The Ranch had weekly/ regular all hands meetings and I was messaged during one of these meetings held the next day. A ranch member reached out who had walked out of the meeting due to their perception that the statements being made against me as a plural person to be over the line. They had spoken up on my behalf and felt I deserved to know what was being said about me behind closed doors. This was followed up by Bonnie immediately afterwards, she was so deeply distressed by the discussion that she wanted to take me up on my offer to host her for any reason if she needed a safe place up north. I was not told the specifics but it was made clear to me that a vote has been called about if I was going to be allowed to come back to volunteer or ever cohabitate. I found it devastating to learn, especially via second hand accounts because I had been reassured in person that I was wanted, even requested, and that I was a positive presence.

Allegedly, they ultimately decided not to ban me from the property on these grounds after a heated discussion, where some members expressed having had positive interactions and others questioned my intentions. Expressing disgust at my flagrant behaviors which they felt were mocking the experiences of other disabled people in their lives and didn't want me to return. This boomerang left me feeling shocked, mostly confused and I journaled extensively about these events. I believe a few videos exist of me at the time saying rather heatedly to the effect "if you don't believe me come read my medical records". Most of my friends had never seen me curse in a vlog before, or ever, so it stands out in their memory and my own.

Kindness, a white nonbinary person, masked in a star wars mask and cowboy hat, doing a half heart with their hand. September 2021 at the Tenacious Unicorn Ranch

To this day I am still deeply emotionally affected by this incident despite now having my epilepsy diagnosis, having access to therapy and social support. I am haunted by the thought, the worry that people think I am not being genuine or that my disabilities are not okay in front of people and this has caused profound social isolation both online and in person. I do consider one of the people involved in the incident, antagonistically, to now be a possible friend as we've discussed the incident. We check in regularly on one another and express a sense of regard and hopes for each other's health and wellbeing. I believe at least with that connection there is forgiveness and healing and this was not a malicious act towards me.

Unfortunately, due to the attention being associated with the ranch brings especially as someone perceived as rejected by the Ranch, I've had a lot of discussions online focusing on my worst days, my darkest moments. Due to transphobia, I've entirely stopped my online streams which I used to do multiple times a week. Due to stalking and harassment by people who believe I am faking my disabilities, who are protecting "genuine disabled people" I don't feel as safe trying to interact with people on Twitter, I don't want them targeted.

This incident wasn't made public by the Ranch, unfortunately I made that mistake myself. In no small part because of my breakdown emotionally after these accusations which were semi public due to my work at that time as a vlogger, I no longer feel safe online or in public. I don't feel particular shame for expressing my confusion, fear and hurt. But for safety reasons, I really wish I'd been emotionally mature enough at the time or had access to a therapist to have not been public about my processing.

I think, when I think about if I regret visiting the ranch, I loosely can say yes. Clearly, it was not a positive experience for all of the residents there, and the disillusionment I felt afterwards was certainly bittersweet. And truly I wish before bringing things to a hearing, before such a serious accusation was raised about a guest, I wish any of them had asked me about my disabilities; had a human conversation with me about my experiences before jumping to fake-claiming. I wish that I had been treated like a person.

Bonnie and Kindness, nonbinary partners, holding hands interlaced, around a little bead star, a gift from one of the other ranchers September 2021 at Tenacious Unicorn Ranch, Westcliffe CO

At some point in Late 2021, likely October, after I'd hosted Bonnie as my guest for a time during her recovery she was visited by ranch members, using my house as a neutral meeting ground. While visiting me this fake-claiming incident was largely glossed over and I was assured by Penny that I was still warmly welcomed at the Ranch. Jen expressed a desire to play board games together and Kat gleefully held my "ritties' ', her nickname for rats, because they resemble little kitties. This was filmed by the documentary film crew working on the Tenacious project. I was visited by Ash, her cameraman, Penny, Kat and Jen to check in with Bonnie on her unpaid sick leave and update her about the building of a new barn structure. One they wished for us to come visit, It was proclaimed that Bonnie was recovering well and they were happy to see her. This documentary footage has not been released to my knowledge.

She requested my assistance in October 2021, I believe this trip was to return her Ranch vehicle as it was clear she would need a longer time away to recover fully. We returned again October 18th 2021. This was very challenging for me, given my concerns about making people uncomfortable but I chose to focus on the task at hand which was helping a Trans Person in need. I was far less social during this visit, trying to keep my head down. Just focusing on cleaning and packing some of her possessions into my Mini Cooper.

Kindness, a white nonbinary person in glasses smiling with a half heart while at the Tenacious Unicorn Ranch October 2021.

It's my understanding that during this visit and some following in December, there were conversations between Bonnie and Penny wherein the discussion explicitly involved a reconsidering of my collaboration due to my positive affect on her mental well being. This was not on my behalf and after the Abilism I faced I had no desire to cohabitate. At this time Bonnie asked for assistance in designing a program by which to improve the disability literacy at the Ranch; especially in regards to mental health, trauma informed practice and boundary setting in particular with plural persons (many of the ranch members and visitors are). However, By the final visit in December 2021 I was no longer interested in any kind of partnership with the organization and felt very uneasy on the property due to the high tensions unrelated to me.

A beaded name bracelet gifted to Kindness, a white nonbinary person, by a transmasculine person from Tenacious Unicorn Ranch September 2021

I do not personally recall clearly enough the events of visiting the Tenacious Unicorn Ranch, so the best evidence I have about "What is it like to volunteer at the ranch?" Is my journal entry from my final visit, please be warned it is coming from a vulnerable state of mind and is not appropriate to read when you are not stable.

As Bonnie recalls I didn't have any personal confrontations with anyone during any of the visits. I understood the issues to be likely unrelated to me… however, I was overwhelmed by the sensation that all the yelling and fighting was connected to my visits because I was hosting one of the ex members of the ranch. I was harassed online due to my perceived connection to the ranch. I was deeply emotionally distressed. Having quit my job in September 2021 and working as a freelance dog sitter until my health failed fully in early 2022, I did not have access to mental health resources and therefore turned inward on myself. Although I wasn't at the meeting myself I filled in the gaps with my own abilist intrusive thoughts and I thought anyone close to me would be harmed as a consequence of my sense of being "cursed". I was particularly triggered due to my own trauma history around yelling and the long drive back north. At the time from my journals and vlogs, I was feeling a large amount of social and professional rejection and recognized the need to step back and treat my PTSD. I am not currently in any emotional danger or distress. My friends did an amazing job taking care of me in the following days.

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As I cannot speak to my feelings at the time other than this journal entry let this stand as my summary of volunteering with the Tenacious Unicorn Ranch. Please note much of my reaction is due to my personal trauma history and not necessarily directly reflective of the character of these people, merely the mental state I was in at the time of these events. At this time I have no future desire to interact with any members of this organization.

I had initially and informally expressed an interest for partnership before visiting the property but did not feel it was in any way appropriate for my housing needs…namely that I am an ambulatory wheelchair user and the house is utterly inaccessible in this way. I have never formally submitted any kind of application for housing, I do not recall having ever provided Penny Logue with my resume and have found on my end no cover letters or emails to this effect. In my opinion, It is not true that I have ever formally applied to work for this organization, though I believe I referenced my efforts to volunteer with them to a community case worker when trying to apply to social support services. It was clear immediately that it was not going to suit my long term needs and I expressed this to Bonnie as well as my friends and the public online and I made no moves to break my lease or plans to move. I personally did not find their project at any point fully compatible with my wants, needs, or beliefs enough to consider it suitable as there were no actions made to assuage my concerns. I want it on record that I've never tried to work at the Tenacious Unicorn Ranch. I briefly volunteered there, I have no association professionally or personally with the current residents or any of their activities and have not returned to the property and have no intentions to ever return to the property.
Kindness Stellar January 2023 in response to TUR statement December 2022

In regards to my connection to the ranch in 2021 any donations made, time spent cleaning or other efforts were strictly donated upon the pretense of their being a nonprofit. None of my opinions are influenced by my personal relationships or bias towards any individuals.

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TW: Suicidal Ideation, Isolation, Depression, Negative Self Talk, Abilism, Eugenics

Transcript of image available below

Written by Kindness Alchemy Stellar, after my last visit to TUR December 2021, the transcript is provided below. A handwritten note in pen note written in English overall legibly.


Start of TW: Suicidal Ideation, Isolation, Depression, Negative Self Talk, Abilism, Eugenics
December 2021 after arriving at my dog sitting house I journaled:

Finding myself entangled within the sharp barbs of others long ignored hurt was a sobering reminder of my own fragility. I fear that if I am honest with myself that my physical, social, intellectual and spiritual capacity is vastly too limited to provide a substantial contribution to society.

I find my will power too tethered to my reception, too eager for encouragement, too hungry for others faith. Heavy weighs the sense of dread that for all of my potential, for all the subdued talent… even my lived history which many moments feels so scarcely relevant - What good is a skill if my shattered mind cannot pull on the correct thread to bring it to light at the right moment. For even my ability to walk, speak, see is not a given, and unlike the tides it does not hold to a predictable pattern.

I find myself circling back to a stale conclusion that perhaps I am simply not well enough suited to the collective of greater society - perhaps I shall find a small space to carve out a quiet,frugal living until death lets me rest.

I have spent too long trying to motivate myself with the promise of glory, of purpose. Too long offsetting the guilt of my own shortcomings by calling it a curse, the reality being a much more bitter chill - Everyone has endured suffering and unlike the bible I fear there is no higher purpose - not to my pain nor my survival.

I simply exist and needs must sort out a greater level of humility towards my own value. If I wish not to be a burden I need to develop more consistently useful skills, as it stands I am a liability personally and professionally.

It is fortunate, I suppose at least given my current state of apathy and exhaustion that I have made a promise to fight ongoing for my own survival… Though it feels tremendously disingenuous to be anyone's role-model or teacher or leader when the truth of my spirit is that I am not strong enough, wise enough or able-bodied enough to be what is needed… I do not have any intentional desire to render harm unto myself beyond a strong instinct of flight and to find space to lick my wounds.

I fear that even at my best it will never be "enough", and that I have done a great evil by convincing others with my ego, youth and arrogance that I have anything to offer of substance. I am simply a selfish human and I must make peace with my limitations. I cannot be a hero,the hero is not me.

End of TW: Suicidal Ideation, Isolation, Depression, Negative Self Talk, Abilism, Eugenics

Again, today here and now, I'm okay ♡
And if you relate to how I felt back then I hope you believe one day you will feel differently about who you are and what is possible. I believe in you. Today and Tomorrow onward.

With all of the love in my heart
Yours,

The people Kindness of House Stellar
You are my hero, thank you reader for keeping my star alight.

Kindness, a white nonbinary person signing "I love you" to the reader with a broad cheerful smile. You are beloved.

Media outlets do not have my permission to use photographs or quotes from this document for any purpose this is for the Trans community.


If you feel the need to speak with me about this or think we might be able to be penpals my email is comradekittypants@gmail.com

 

[Vesperus]

Not a lot of support for Fat Paul in the wider Troon community. Here's "Aldo" who drove hundreds of miles across country to change his socks, back in the time of the original siege.

Someone send a bunch of workshy homeless antifa faggots to @Huskier_Aldo's house, ASAP.

 

[Counterfeit Obol]

Someone send a bunch of workshy homeless antifa faggots to @Huskier_Aldo's house, ASAP.

Just write a letter saying that Aldo wants to join Penis's cult commune, and wants to discuss this in person.