Shitpost ahead:
I’ve heard certain psychologists say one goes through life trying to recreate childhood hurts in order to heal them. Sort of like doing the same thing over and over yet expecting a different outcome.
Is it true? I was thinking how that’d work with Chins. She was born to a teenage mother who used her pregnancy to try to keep a man and it didn’t work. Chantal grew up fatherless. Mom had to work and abandoned her to her grandmother’s care. Grams may have been fine with Chins but she was older and tired and probably found it hard to have a troubled child around all day. So she gave her food and likely TV to quiet her. Worse, mom later found a man and created her sister. There was that happy home with a dad and daughter that Chantel felt completely excluded from and should have been hers.
Abandonment. Exclusion. Those are her childhood themes and the trauma she tries to fix
Chantel had few friends and by the time she was in high school, her cycle began. She’d take any girl’s boyfriend if she could. She could only get them by sex so she used it, not caring about the other girls, but she really wanted her own boyfriend.
As an adult, Chantal is desperately trying to find a husband to prove she is worthy of a fathers unconditional love. Because of what her mother did, abandoning her, creating a new child and family, Chantel hates other women, especially mothers. Mothers are supposed to focus all their time on their child and never have a hobby or say a bad word about anybody. (Exactly what her own mother didn’t do). And she hates older women, even if they aren’t much older than she is. (She was in Gram’s way too) She’s perpetually the excluded child.
She chases men and is terrified of abandonment, but once one sticks around, she does everything possible to make them leave. She stalks/lovebombs, takes advantage of them, cheats, gets fat, is filthy, and finds their trigger to anger them, all in order to find that Daddy who will love her unconditionally. Few will put up with that abuse and chaos, but if they do, (Peetz) she can’t respect them because she ultimately doesn’t believe she is worthy of love. Daddy left her, after all, nobody can love her. The cycle repeats.
Chantal created her online community, her beezers, to prop her up and give her some acceptance. She can ban them because she barely knows their names. They aren’t real individual people, which is why she doesn’t even care if one dies. They are really just the voices in her head telling her she’s ok, she’s lovable, she’s not completely alone in the world. Deep down, she knows that’s not true, but her external ago is right there to help with doubts.
But as we know about Chantal, she’s not fixing anything. She’s the same abandoned, rejected person she’s always felt herself to be. Even if this idea was correct and she read it, she wouldn’t get it.
She has serious maladaptive coping mechanisms, addictions and zero insight, so it will never be resolved even a bit. She and Mae have a lot more in common than an unpleasant experience with Nader. If Chins could live long enough, she’d end up the same way, an old lady nearing 70 living in her car and crying about nothing to a few hundred people online with her family refusing to speak to her.
Fortunately, Chantel will eat herself to death within the next decade if she even makes it that long.
Whatever the relationship with Salah was based on, she’ll destroy it. Money, Canada, something we haven’t thought of yet. Hell, even love. She’ll throw it away, she has no father and never will.
She’s just a big empty black hole she tries to fill with food and anger and spits her insecurities back hatefully. It’d be a sad case-it is sad-except she’s so mean and unlikable you’d have to have the love of Allah himself to feel for her. Somehow, I’m not even sure Allah is that type of God.
TL;dr: At least it wasn’t about BBJ.
