Trainwreck Pixyteri / Sarah Guilbeaux / Ashton Winters - Glorious Nippon Cosplayer and Stomach Penis Pooner, she's peein' and poopin' the bed, mother is equally crazy

[Falcon Sebben]

Ok, catching up with a slew of updates




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Ok, the hat is a bit wonky, but the rest isn't awful.
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I would actually buy that, NGL.

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Wait, what?
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Taking a break would be the best thing for her.
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Not going to jail is a good goal to have.
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She's fucking losing it. The forced tattoo literally sounds like the ramblings of somebody with schizophrenia.

 

[Ophelia]

She's fucking losing it. The forced tattoo literally sounds like the ramblings of somebody with schizophrenia.

Like she fell asleep watching a movie about that cult which branded women, had a nightmare, and couldn’t easily differentiate it all from reality.

 

[Stinkyboy]

Like she fell asleep watching a movie about that cult which branded women, had a nightmare, and couldn’t easily differentiate it all from reality.

Theres a recent documentary on Disney+ about them, so it’s likely.
The “rich or famous” part lines up.

 

[Dysnomia]

He is very akward in person, and has a strange quip where he "jokes" or says a one liner, then stares at you waiting for you to laugh. He behaves very strangely around women, like he is both scared of them and tries to give off a macho vibe. He talked incessantly about Gundam Wing and asked what anime I liked. I tried to be polite and make small talk but he just seemed stranger and stranger the longer he spoke. I eventually excused myself and crossed the street to a nice river walk restaurant to finish my work. I didnt see any more of him, but I did see Sarah from afar at the main lobby where they had a few tabels set up for merchandise at the con. I didnt know what a lol cow was at the time but eventually found out that she was one some years later and that this was a con that she went too. I didnt take any photos but she had some sort of kimono like outfit on and was very fat and short. Give me my power levels. Just wanted to share to whomever was curious

I believe that someone did post what was wrong with Kris on Maxfag or StaminaRose. Sadly I can't remember what it was or confirm if it was true. It's unfortunate that Pixy wasn't archives like Chris Chan. I already posted all I had left before my old PC died. Made it just in time.

Like I can clearly remember a lot of content. But don't have said content. But at least there's more saved than I thought.

Oh God, I knew a Gundam sperg. It's a special kind of weeb for sure.

I can see how Pixy would fall in with an awkward guy like Kris. They probably bonded over anime first.

Kris is the reason PT hates red heads. He had a thing for a red headed stripper and PT kept trying to interfere until he told PT off and called her a slut in the process.

PT had a thing for James because he (in PT's opinion) looked like Kisuke Urahara from Bleach. I don't know why everyone labels James as the bad guy when I think Kris did far orse to her.

Edit: I would also like to point out James was 19 when seeing PT and PT was 28, or 29

I think James got too much hate. It was Pixy clinging to someone who was barely an adult because he resembled the other half of her obsessive OTP. It was rather weird. Especially since she believed she was Japanese and was trying to become an irl Bleach fanfic with a guy much younger than her.

Does she even have any friends now? I'd think it would be hard hanging out with her given the current mental state. I was just wondering if some part of the reason she keeps going to the ER is that she gets to interact with people and tell her problems to staff who can't completely ignore her or openly make fun of her. Maybe she doesn't realise that this is one of her reasons for going. But she may be drawn to hypochondria because it gets her some level of sympathy. Even if it's just the staff's job to do so.

Pretty old picture but it really shows how short and wide she is. Not the best outfit.

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I remember this outfit. She had been going on and on about how she wanted a Japanese graduation outfit. I can't remember what it's called. It's a very nice outfit. But it makes her look so wide and squashed. And that was pretty much the reaction when it was posted. This was around the time she got obsessed with kimono. And unfortunately they didn't gel well with her body type. But she seemed happier even if the delusion that she was half Japanese was very unhealthy. Now she's deteriorated so much and is uglifying herself with this troon phase. OG Pixy would never make herself look that bad. Even her worst cosplays and kawaii outfits were "supposed" to be nice in her eyes. Her intention was to look good so even when she failed she felt good about herself.

 

[SpiceyHuman]

There is no doubt in my mind that pixyteris current insanity is both a mixture of nature and nurture. Her mom is batshit craxy anf the environment she has grown up in and currently is in has also helped to mold her into what she is today. However, I cannot help but wonder if her sudden intensity in the level of craziness she is exhibiting is some sort of mid life crisis?

She has really been playing up the "im too old to cosplay/travel/be my true self" shtick lately and while I personally believe you are NEVER to old to change, the reality is she is almost 40 and she owns no property, no land, no housing, has never had a long term relationship, she has no children to look foward to seeing grow up. She has no major plans, no goals that she is working towards, she is not putting her education to any use, she is admittedly not looking for a job or trying to learn anything new.

This just seems so crushingly depressing and anxiety inducing to even imagine living like that. Half her life is gone and she has absolutly nothing to show for it and nothing to look forward too and shes not doing anything to change or improve it. In the back of her mind she has to realize this and it must be causing her loads of existential dread. Maybe this is manifesting itself in her weird manic outbursts.

I so truely wish she would at least try looking for a part time job. She would feel so much better if she worked for a few hours a week and took her mind off her anxiety and let her regain a sense of self worth and pride. It truely seems like her crazy psychosis phases are always the worst when she is without a job. She needs to save her money, and rent a small efficiency apartment and get the hell away from her mother. Housing is super inexpensive in Texas, she could easily do it on her own and still budget to enjoy her hobbies within reason. Doing those two things, a job and moving out, would set her on the path to "getting better". She still has time to get out of this troon arc, find herself an akward but well meaning anime nerd guy, and maybe even having a kid.

Yes, yes, give me my rainbows. I just want one of my cows to have a good end...

 

[For The Internet]

I think Pixy is desperate for attention/validation/human interaction but she's also writing about the things that legitimately go through her head due to her anxiety and mental illness. She can be looking for attention and be genuinely mentally ill at the same time. I don't even really think she's playing things up per se, just talking about them ad nauseam because she knows she'll get some reassurance and validation. Her home life gives her absolutely zero support for her mental health problems and she has no IRL friends so it makes sense she turns to facebook for support and reassurance.

Kind of PL I guess but my grandmother was a paranoid schizophrenic and a lot of Pixy's delusions remind me of my grandmother's delusions and paranoid fixations. I don't know if she has schizophrenia or schizo-affective or something else but she's obviously profoundly unwell atm.

It's funny how Pixy said she's happier now she's transitioned. She has all the same issues she had before (age, weight, health) but now on top of those she's constantly freaking out about being misgendered and being hit on. She seems more miserable than ever.

 

[TheCakeIsALie]

I think Pixy is desperate for attention/validation/human interaction but she's also writing about the things that legitimately go through her head due to her anxiety and mental illness. She can be looking for attention and be genuinely mentally ill at the same time. I don't even really think she's playing things up per se, just talking about them ad nauseam because she knows she'll get some reassurance and validation. Her home life gives her absolutely zero support for her mental health problems and she has no IRL friends so it makes sense she turns to facebook for support and reassurance.

Kind of PL I guess but my grandmother was a paranoid schizophrenic and a lot of Pixy's delusions remind me of my grandmother's delusions and paranoid fixations. I don't know if she has schizophrenia or schizo-affective or something else but she's obviously profoundly unwell atm.

It's funny how Pixy said she's happier now she's transitioned. She has all the same issues she had before (age, weight, health) but now on top of those she's constantly freaking out about being misgendered and being hit on. She seems more miserable than ever.

I don't think she's schizophrenic, but my personal theory is schizoaffective or bipolar with psychotic features.

 

[Dysnomia]

I don't think she's schizophrenic, but my personal theory is schizoaffective or bipolar with psychotic features.

There's a woman I've seen wandering around my area lately. She wanders the same stretch of two miles back and forth. She must do it often because I walk that way for exercise and always see her at one end or the other. She seems to be on some predetermined track and even stops at the same places to talk to herself before moving on. It's 100% word salad. This time it was about a dog, a kid and a refrigerator. Last time it was something about the Bible. It's always in one continuous monotone voice. She's kinda squat looking so I was reminded of Pixy. And I was thinking that she could someday end up that way. If it wasn't for her family, as toxic as the situation is, she'd be lost completely.

That said, getting away from Debbie is her only chance at salvation.

 

[TokiBun]

If Pixy is a true schizo cow she needs to be more productive. She could be like the Vampire of Sacramento butchering rabbits in their parents living room!
Also I’m impressed with her paintings I’m shocked by how decent they are. I’d buy the alligator one for my home at least.

 

[SpiceyHuman]

If Pixy is a true schizo cow she needs to be more productive. She could be like the Vampire of Sacramento butchering rabbits in their parents living room!
Also I’m impressed with her paintings I’m shocked by how decent they are. I’d buy the alligator one for my home at least.

She absolutely 100% has some very real talent. The alligator one and the parot head one were both very cool and I agree, I would buy either one to keep in our game room. She should continue with this "series" of animal head figures, I find them very intresting. Her regular cat/dog/pet art is very nice too. Im genuinely glad shes made some money from commissions and her art sales. She seems way less manic when shes productive like that.

 

[Ophelia]

She absolutely 100% has some very real talent. The alligator one and the parot head one were both very cool and I agree, I would buy either one to keep in our game room. She should continue with this "series" of animal head figures, I find them very intresting. Her regular cat/dog/pet art is very nice too. Im genuinely glad shes made some money from commissions and her art sales. She seems way less manic when shes productive like that.

Not that it’s a high bar, but she’s definitely more talented than Yarrow.

Art therapy is real.

 

[Meowzers]

There is no doubt in my mind that pixyteris current insanity is both a mixture of nature and nurture. Her mom is batshit craxy anf the environment she has grown up in and currently is in has also helped to mold her into what she is today. However, I cannot help but wonder if her sudden intensity in the level of craziness she is exhibiting is some sort of mid life crisis?

i dunno, she pouts about being old but she doesn't pout about it as often as she did when she was in her late 20s. she's been having a midlife crisis since she turned 24 tbh. all the freaking out about chastity and being afraid of being sexualized or seen as a woman points to sexual trauma to me. everyone's talking about her exes, did they do any shady shit with her? wasn't there a story about one of her gross boyfriends' friends running a train on her?

i don't think a relationship, kids, owning land, etc would make her happy. those would stress her out even more to be honest. i don't know exactly what would make her happy; i think she'd be content by herself doing her little paintings and cosplays, but she's a deeply unwell and miserable person overall and will never be happy with anything. i do agree that if she gets out of debbie's claws her life would improve tenfold, though. i really feel for pixy; she's so deeply mentally unwell and living with someone just as mentally unwell and extremely toxic, and it's just a negative feedback loop where deb is picking on pixy, and pixy lashes out, so deb picks on her more, and so on.

she knows on some level that the way she lives is weird, but doesn't realize it's something she can change. it sounds like her dad is saying she can't go to schlitterbahn and she knows it's not normal for a dad to tell his 37 year old kid what to do, but she doesn't think she's normal. not in a 'better than everyone else' way, she thinks she's being targeted for fat/old/sick/transman-not-a-woman-but-has-both-parts/etc, and because of that, everyone is forcing her to get tattoos and wear bikinis and turn her into hamburger or whatever.
it's just a weird loop of life inconveniences and small comments about things she doesn't like about herself (weight, age, gender, etc) that most people just shrug off, but she's so sensitive and hyperfocuses on those small things, and those evolve into barely comprehensible delusions that just freak her out even more. she's a hot mess and is getting worse every day. lots of people are saying in this thread that she's just a miserable attention-seeker, but i don't think there's anything wrong with seeking attention. she obviously feels trapped, she's shouting into the void of facebook hoping that someone will help, but A. nobody gives her suggestions or B. she doesn't like their suggestions.

 

[TheCakeIsALie]

@Meowzers: a lot of Pixys sexcipades were put online through a combo of trolling and what Pixy herself has said. She’s also put her own nudes out there or sent them to others, and then those people sent them to family members. So I actually don’t blame Sarah for that part.

I can’t remember exactly everything but she’s talked about using tightening cream, 8 inch dildos, posts about being horny, etc.

Like, if she didn’t volunteer so much info herself and didn’t divulge this stuff to random people, it wouldn’t be out there. She lacks a filter that normal people have. Most of us wouldn’t talk about using sex toys or whatever so openly. I don’t care what people do, lots of people use sex toys, or have different fetishes. But they also keep it behind closed doors.

 

[TokiBun]

I’m not sure I went to know what tightening cream is.
Have any kiwis put out autism speculation with her? I mostly just see claims of her being a schizo.

 

[TheCakeIsALie]

I’m not sure I went to know what tightening cream is.
Have any kiwis put out autism speculation with her? I mostly just see claims of her being a schizo.

I’ve actually thought about that myself, but people with autism aren’t delusional. Now it is possible she has both, and a lot of symptoms of autism overlap with bipolar disorder. It would be hard to tell the two apart at the present. She would need to have neuro testing to rule it out, and she has never mentioned anything common in autism like sensory issues (hates certain clothes because they feel itchy, tight etc) or issues with crowds, noise, lights, issues with food like Arfid or hating certain textures etc. She seems ok with going to cons which are crowded and noisy.

I’m not saying for sure she doesn’t have it. It’s just really hard to make a good guess.

 

[Meowzers]

@Meowzers: a lot of Pixys sexcipades were put online through a combo of trolling and what Pixy herself has said. She’s also put her own nudes out there or sent them to others, and then those people sent them to family members. So I actually don’t blame Sarah for that part.

I can’t remember exactly everything but she’s talked about using tightening cream, 8 inch dildos, posts about being horny, etc.

Like, if she didn’t volunteer so much info herself and didn’t divulge this stuff to random people, it wouldn’t be out there. She lacks a filter that normal people have. Most of us wouldn’t talk about using sex toys or whatever so openly. I don’t care what people do, lots of people use sex toys, or have different fetishes. But they also keep it behind closed doors.

i'm not talking about her posting about her sex toys online or sending nudes to trolls or whatever. being tricked into sending nudes is traumatizing and I'm sure she has regrets about that, but i'm saying i think she was straight up raped and deeply traumatized. i can't see her openly talking about being raped on facebook, probably out of shame or paranoia. i don't want to seem dramatic but it's just so obvious! her mother called one of her exes a rapist too! she was already super mentally ill and barely functioning with no coping skills, and now has sexual trauma she can't process on top of that. it's just super sad.

 

[TheCakeIsALie]

i'm not talking about her posting about her sex toys online or sending nudes to trolls or whatever. being tricked into sending nudes is traumatizing and I'm sure she has regrets about that, but i'm saying i think she was straight up raped and deeply traumatized. i can't see her openly talking about being raped on facebook, probably out of shame or paranoia. i don't want to seem dramatic but it's just so obvious! her mother called one of her exes a rapist too! she was already super mentally ill and barely functioning with no coping skills, and now has sexual trauma she can't process on top of that. it's just super sad.

Yeah, I know what you’re saying. I am not sure. I don’t want to say I don’t want to believe her, because it does happen. That’s something to think about.

 

[TokiBun]

I mean maybe Pixy got diddled as a kid but I don’t think she’s ever been a victim of rape.

 

[For The Internet]

I mean maybe Pixy got diddled as a kid but I don’t think she’s ever been a victim of rape.

I don't know if she's experienced straight-up rape but she was definitely taken advantage sexually by men for years. Her hypersexuality could have been genuine but it also could have been a cope to deal with how she was being exploited. It's not unusual for victims of sexual trauma to end up acting out through sex as a way of trying to feel more in control of the situation and their bodies.

She was basically used as the town bicycle. It's pretty evident now that she wasn't really okay with it. It's not the internet that sexually abused her, although britfag certainly sexually exploited her.

I'm glad that Pixy has art, because art therapy is really helpful and great for your mental health. She's improved a lot over the time she's been paining and I agree that her alligator painting was especially cool. It's one of the few positive outlets she has for her feelings and issues, and I'm happy that she's being recognised in her community and she's getting commissions. If her parents were smart they'd really encourage her to pursue painting right now, because taking in money from commissions is a lot better than her sitting around doing nothing, and she can't currently hold down employment with her mental health situation.

She said she was commissioned for a painting that was over $200. One of my best friends is a professional freelance artist who mostly does paintings/murals and she was saying that depending on the canvas size that's an exceptionally good rate for someone who's essentially just starting out. If she was commissioned locally from her art exhibits rather than by a person online who knows who she is that's really impressive! Even if it was someone who knows her through her online notoriety, that's still a really good sale.

 

[Breadbear]

Iirc, one of her exes "used" her with a hammer. Whichever one that made her have sex with his friends as well as himself.