I don't feel welcome here anymore, and I'm tired of it. I know those who are supportive are trying, but it's just getting to be too much. I have to leave this community.
Venting
I can never participate in this subreddit. The only time I ever can is if I post from an account that has no post history identifiable as that from a trans girl. Every time I comment, I get downvoted to oblivion and end up deleting my comments because of the lurking TERFS, (Whenever they're not blatantly spouting transphobic rhetoric). I don't even know why I'm posting this.. It's probably going to get downvoted too. (Edit: surprise.. not even a second after posting this I get downvoted.)
I say TERFs because this never happens to me when I don't post from an account that's identifiable as trans.. Then of course there's always TERFS in the comment sections as well. This shit happens everywhere to me, not just on reddit.
I feel like completely rejecting the lesbian label, as clearly I'm not allowed to have it. My sexuality already became really confusing after transition, but it seems I'm just best off rejecting it. I'm tired of having to explain my existence. I'm just so done.
I expected transphobia from cis hetero people. I didn't expect it from within the LGBTQ+ community and that is the most upsetting part. Thank you to those of you who support us, but I guess the TERFs are finally getting what they wanted, because I can't stay any longer. Either online or IRL, I really can't be a part of this community anymore.
Edit: I apologize if this sounded harsh.. I posted this in such an unstable state, as I still am. A lot of my thoughts were still the same but I’m just so confused. I just felt so rejected. Thank you all for what you’ve said.. I need to work things through. I hope I didn’t cause trouble with this. Thank you to those who have been supportive.. I cling onto this community because I feel like it’s one of the few things holding me together at this point idk..
Edit 2: I've noticed multiple downvoted posts, including my own that seemed to have been downvoted for literally no reason. Literally proving my point.
Edit 3: I’m starting to realize that literally ditching the “trans” part of my flair actually stops it in other posts here. I wish that I didn’t have to closet myself from this community just to participate, but I guess that’s where it’s at. I know the TERFs here who lurk don’t represent the community. I want to clarify that I still believe this community is trans positive. It’s just that this problem really makes me feel like I need to hide.. no ones to blame but those who lurk and cause problems. Thank you to the majority of you who have helped me and supported me here. I think I’m here to stay, but I’m going to use a lot more caution with my flair.
️validating