Hello, I'm Type A today, and schizophrenia positive for a moment. Serine-medicated, and maybe it'll go back down anyway.
I know what "media" is. I was confused because traditional neurology says that the neurotransmitters are the signal and the interstitial fluid is the media, at least as far as synaptic function goes. I'm trying to figure out how exactly you think neurotransmitters work.
I do not reject the statements of settled science. I generally only revolt against pussyfootings like "there is no test for schizophrenia", and generally otherwise I seek to write simple, nondisagreeable clarifications that bridge the science on the books with my discoveries.
Such as, the Florian face test for schizophrenia works even though nothing in the literature suggests it. But that's just because the doctor hasn't even
asked if schizophrenics can't move the upperface and lowerface at once - and he couldn't be surprised if that was the case.
What you're citing is what's microscopically true. I'm only here to argue that through some sort of connecting logic (and I'd be thrilled to write or read that logic), there are macroscopic truths that intelligent schizophrenics would find to match their experiences, and these could be used to create testable hypotheses for what will reduce symptoms.
Take a look at this one-minute video of "thought blocking".
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0u9d96b-Tyc This symptomatic man is undergoing a loss of the necessary conditions for cognition, and becoming debilitated. He's an actor so he doesn't abide by upperface/lowerface rules. But let's assume upperface, hence receding upwards.
Put your mouse on the video and swipe it upwards every time his cognition vacates. Swipe something away, and
that's how it really presents. It's an infringement on a medium, it's what eventually leads to
the turnstile model, and you can feel it when it's down to 25%, and you can feel it when it's 0%. And then you're screwed.
This medium will always have precisions I could never even grasp. All I know is, it's there, and it has to have a volume.
I must confess before I go any further, I want to express that I am interested in your situation from a selfish point of view, i have a passion for attempting to understand something that is impossible to understand. I wholly appreciate the effort that has gone into this thread and your resilience so far, I enjoy your flair but i want to make it clear have no real interest in others, or your safety or "cure". However i would really be delighted if you would continue to entertain my curiosity.
Drawing and sketching is obviously out of the question with skills like Hopkins, but visual does not always have to be in the finer details. Works of art from a mans expression are not limited to detailed paintings/drawings. A representation of an outburst of emotion is art, and it appears you have a "spark" for it already.. there are other ways of performance art that might convince that catatonic face to hold off for a little longer.. or maybe something for that state to marinate in? maybe not..
I would agree with your writing, and with many authors on hand and willing I wonder if a collaboration could in order. The daily battle would take its toll, do you resist indulging yourself and give credence to what haunts you? I very much doubt its something you haven't already attempted at least once..
Among all the failures of the brain, there is the one in which you
do not abide by your place in the world. And it is autistic, and cholinergic, and though it may or may not be manic, it makes your consequence exceed your potential.
And though this failure has been spotted too often in women, and though none of us is
uterine, all the thirding feminists in the world could never forbid a man from question and demand:
do I make myself a fool?
And so, we'll spite those selfless Kiwis. Let there exist, and let us wax,
hysteria.
I'm glad you liked my 1-3-2-4 rule of catatonia. But as for paths to collaboration I question what you mean. I can write a book of facts, but the eternal question - how much detail? - can be barely explored without writing the whole damn thing as consequence.
There will come a day when my code will be unembarrassing enough to post, and maybe I will one day summarize a sci-fi narrative in hopes of encouragement to write it more fully. Until then I'll try to make my rules simpler.
Happy news to that end: simple Benadryl helps to avoid catatonia. Probably it increases the dopamine/serotonin influence and makes adrenaline/acetylcholine into simply a smaller question...
... It also implies, as do certain vagaries of headaches I've felt, that Florian encephalitis may be real after all.
