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The fangirl to tranny pipeline is as real as the incel to tranny one.
Trainwreck Pixyteri / Sarah Guilbeaux / Ashton Winters - Glorious Nippon Cosplayer and Stomach Penis Pooner, she's peein' and poopin' the bed, mother is equally crazy
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Let's be honest, there's a lot more wrong with her post beyond the terminology.
But yeah, she thinks she's supposed to be a straight man but she's not attracted to women, and so that makes her gay? I guess?
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Something like that. Saying she's "supposed to be attracted" to women and is trying to convince herself that she is by saving/looking at "hot girl pictures" (anime/hentai? or is she still fixated on gravure idol stuff?) makes it sound like she doesn't want to be gay but as a man she's not supposed to be attracted to other men (technically it's underaged boy characters, to make matters worse) and now my head hurts. There's so many levels of delusion to pass through to make any sense of her ramblings.
Like @LonesomeDud says, she is in desperate need of outside support but the people she knows don't give enough of a shit and worse, Sarah won't accept anything they say or do no matter how well-intentioned and gentle it is. We've seen her flip out on her Facebook asspatters multiple times for the most innocuous advice or for asking her to explain her weird statements. She has to accept that there is something wrong with herself first, even just admitting that she has anxiety and mood swings that interfere with her day to day life. No one else can force her to go to anything as simple as outpatient therapy—which unfortunately might be ineffective anyway as long as she's stuck living with Debbie and her physical health continues to fester. She needs to stop fixating on whether or not she's a gay man because she likes BL and focus on getting her infections under control at the bare minimum. But that's not going to happen as long as she sees everyone including doctors as evil transphobes who want to tattoo/brand and traffic her as some kind of mail-order bride (???), ultimately not navigating the healthcare system properly instead of the frequent, useless ER visits.
I'm less worried about her meeting a violent end due to her untreated mental illnesses and more that the rest of her life is going to be this abysmal cycle of fighting with parents, running away to motels or getting arrested, coming right back home to post photos of herself dressed like a little boy and making sped faces like nothing ever happened, and repeating until one or both parents die. Then she will be eventually forced out of their house and onto the streets where she will drag all her costumes and other retarded clown clothes around with her until she dies in the restroom of a Japanese/Chinese restaurant because her UTIs and prolapsed vagina (
) developed into cancer.Or, by a cruel twist of fate, she becomes terminally ill while Debbie is still alive and once she passes away, Debbie has her buried or cremated in a dress. And until then, all anyone can do is watch Sarah rot away on Zuckbook.
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As sympathetic as Pixy is no, please no one in this thread try and contact mental health people in her area. We observe, we don't get involved with a cow's life. Just watch from afar and pity her it's more productive than harassing authorities in her area.
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I just wish there was something that could be done, especially with what happened to people like Elisa Lam and Terry Davis
My biggest fear isn't even her being suicidal/homicidal so much as her psychosis causing her to end up in a dangerous situation and not able to perceive the danger in time, like the people I mentioned. Especially since Elisa Lam was also bipolar like PT.
I have to wonder if the relative that Debbie keeps vagueposting about in relation to Pixy has tried to help. Or perhaps has actually made the situation worse. "Sarah meant exactly to her what she means to us".
But with such a vague wording it's impossible to tell. Hopefully someone in that family cares enough. But I can see them getting bitch blocked by Debbie if they try to intervene.
So she wants to/expects to be attracted to hot women because she's totally a man? I assume that's it. But women trigger her. So in the end she's still straight. She's trying to be a straight man and it's not working because she isn't really attracted to women. Although that really has zero to do with a person liking yaoi. Although maybe I'm reading too far into that part. But it sounds like something Pixy might think. "I'm a gay man because I like SoraxRiku".
I'm thinking it's more of a physical aversion to sex and not a mental one. She's probably too traumatized and in real physical pain to desire it physically. Even that post where she was lonely and wanted to "role play" was odd. It didn't seem to imply the old in out, in out to me. But rather some eroticism that wasn't necessarily full blown sex acts.
She's still gonna read her KH yoweez and is requesting fanart. She's implying she wants a Riku to cosplay with. Let's hope this is just for fun and isn't going to take a turn into a repeat of the Rukia phase.
Maybe the dad cooks? Debbie could cook with some accommodations if she wants to. if she is wheelchair bound she'd probably need help getting things in and out of cupboards, the freezer and the stove. I never thought of the poisoning angle. But I wouldn't doubt Pixy has considered it before.
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This is probably it. She skinwalks Sora and wants to LARP with another cosplayer as a yaoi couple, not doing anything physically sexual with them but still getting off on the idea of being a boy in love with another boy or something. Probably looks at photos of other KH cosplayers portraying SoraxRiku and wishes desperately that she could be like them.
At this point all we can really do is see long this Ashton era lasts and what develops after something breaks this delusion like the DNA test broke her half-Japanese delusion. (Maybe an ultrasound or MRI showing her there's no goddamned penis inside her? lol)
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I'm really curious who on earth would consider this "fan service" in Pixy's mind? Why is she wearing high cut panties if she considers herself a man? Why is she trying to do a typical sexy girl pose? Pixy just wants to be desirable and admired, whatever gender might make that more attainable she will go with.
(Unfortunately Pixy was not born with a beautiful body or face and is focusing on an unachievable goal that will only make her miserable. Seems to be a theme in this failed "Japanese" woman's life)
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It’s been said before but while Pixy isn’t exactly beauty pageant winner material, she isn’t some hideous ogre. Her insistence on weird aesthetics and specifically clinging to poses and styles that emphasize the things she clearly wants to downplay like her age, size, and build are what drag her down but as others have mentioned she would do well if she just…didn’t. Of course, cows would do better on the whole if they could just not, but it is a bit sad as at least to me she isn’t all that unattractive sans the crazy. She definitely looks older than her age (and it helps to know that she probably has no skincare routine given her shit hygiene and likely doesn’t use any sunscreen at all, and being white and in a southern state that really hasn’t panned out well for her) and snapping selfies where she looks like a dementia patient let loose in the yard doesn’t help. But I can almost see the alternate timeline where this is a selfie where she’s on some beach vacationing with her friends instead of posing like a schizo in her skivvies in the garden and it makes me wish she got help at all, if not sooner. As cliché as it sounds, she does have beautiful eyes and Pixy is one of the few cows I ever feel a smidge of pity for between the usual amusement/disgust/etc.
Seconding the fanservice question though, has anyone been thirstposting on her FB or other socials at all? I can’t imagine a single soul asked for this. Nobody seems to interact with her sexually at all, at least not publicly.
I also find it interesting this “man” appears to be shaving “his” legs, given her otherwise abysmal hygiene and the whole tranny nonsense I’m surprised she keeps that up. Unless Debbie forces her to or she for some reason is particular about it for herself?The worse conclusion is she specifically wants to larp as a prepubescent boy but I’m hoping it isn’t that deep.
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- May 25, 2013
At this point I wonder if PT is even mentally together enough for hygiene shit like skincare. If she's dealing with literal psychosis, self care and personal hygiene often suffer.
Not that she hasn't always had awful hygiene, but I'm wondering if she's to the point she can't care for herself even if she wanted.
Her pics continue to look like an intellectually disabled person being taken advantage of.
Not that she hasn't always had awful hygiene, but I'm wondering if she's to the point she can't care for herself even if she wanted.
Her pics continue to look like an intellectually disabled person being taken advantage of.
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Now I'm really wondering now if she's on some kind of Love Quest™ to find a boy-girl-personfriend to rescue her from Debbie&dad so she can live with them (and of course take care of her for nothing in return and not expect her do household chores, clean herself, go to doctors' appointments and be compliant with meds for her various ailments, etc). Since nobody (could) do anything to help her last week after she spammed "pleasehelpleasehelp" while appearing to be in a legitimate mental health crisis, she's changing her strategy by trying to attract someone instead. It's so bizarre and sad.
What's even weirder is she has no interest in joining any of the numerous troon communities that infect the interwebs nowadays. Probably a remnant of not fitting in and hating everyone in past lolita/cosplay/weeb groups she associated with in her youth. Maybe she knows she'll become a laughing stock again or just flat out exiled from the community if she tried to mingle with other pooners either online or off. But if she played her cards right she could join a tranny commune somewhere in Texas and finally be free to be the manboy of her dreams (and free of Debbie!).
What's even weirder is she has no interest in joining any of the numerous troon communities that infect the interwebs nowadays. Probably a remnant of not fitting in and hating everyone in past lolita/cosplay/weeb groups she associated with in her youth. Maybe she knows she'll become a laughing stock again or just flat out exiled from the community if she tried to mingle with other pooners either online or off. But if she played her cards right she could join a tranny commune somewhere in Texas and finally be free to be the manboy of her dreams (and free of Debbie!).
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I wonder if her mental illness is just too bad right now to seek out communities? Especially her paranoia.
Any bipolar/psychfags got info on how long untreated bipolar-induced psychosis can last? Does it come and go with mood cycles, or does it persist?
Any bipolar/psychfags got info on how long untreated bipolar-induced psychosis can last? Does it come and go with mood cycles, or does it persist?
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I don't know firsthand but have a fam who's biploar schizoaffective bad enough I've had to pry sharps out of his hand a couple of times, but I think a heavy manic upswing can go around a week or more?
There's also some amount of narc that comes on board as he/she realizes he can "be crazy" for extra sympathy from people around, so there's probably some of that to weigh into the mix.
but yeah, Pixy's got like, a lot of problems, some of them are her mom, some of them are her, the onlines are a very, very distant third place at this point
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In schizoaffectice disorders, positive symptoms can persist six + months. I don't know how long it can go on, but I feel like if it's widely known to persist six or more months, it can get really bad.
Sarah looks clean and well-groomed, and AFAIK has no one in her life who loves her enough to help her with ADLs like that. She's well enough to maintain herself, so that's at least a little encouraging.
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I had to give myself a break because she's wearing on me. And thanks to all the fam who's kept up in my absence.
Some recent Pixy updates from the past couple of days:
Well, small-town nutter doesn't really do it for a lot of people. And is she looking for a dude, or a chick? She doesn't know, obvs, but what would she even do if she found someone?
About as masculine as a tampon
Umm, wat?
We've reached the acting out physically stage of the saga
Some recent Pixy updates from the past couple of days:
Well, small-town nutter doesn't really do it for a lot of people. And is she looking for a dude, or a chick? She doesn't know, obvs, but what would she even do if she found someone?
About as masculine as a tampon
Umm, wat?
We've reached the acting out physically stage of the saga
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I smell pennies? The whole post is word salad so I don't understand.
She hit her laptop and now it's broken. Why not try to get it repaired instead of buying a new one? At least she hit an object and not a person.
She hit her laptop and now it's broken. Why not try to get it repaired instead of buying a new one? At least she hit an object and not a person.
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Please tell me she called Trans Lifeline 
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Umm, wat? Hahaha oh . The "I smell pennies" schizo-speak had me busting out laughing. I had to re-read it several times and I still don't know what she means. "Change it to penis", like... she wants people to say they can smell her pseudo-peen?
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