Hello my friends, here again with an update. This is what my meta looks like three months after my surgery. I'm feeling quite bad about it, as it doesn't at all look good to me. Several things went wrong. Two days ago I've seen my surgeon, and she understands why I'm not happy. Here are the issues:
- The thing that bothers me the most is the two flaps under the phallus. She said that these were supposed to be fused and attached to my body. Obviously something went wrong during healing even though I strictly followed the advice. It looks plain ugly and feels unpleasant to touch.
- The phallus is buried quite deeply in my body, at least 1cm / ½ inch. I feel the edges of where the skin connects with the newly moved tissue, and it just hurts. I hate that it's so small even though I had enough length pre-op. There's also some excess skin on the sides which also is sensitive in a bad way.
- The right side of my scrotum has a deep fold in it. It's very itchy, hard to clean, and looks bad. Also, the sack is divided in two, which to me does not look natural.
So it's certain that I'll be getting a revision. This will be done together with the plastic surgeon, a very talented one luckily. I will see both the plastic surgeon and my meta surgeon on 8 December. They will consult with each other and give me a surgery date, which hopefully will be soon after.
In the last pic I marked the changes that will be made:
- The excess skin will be removed, which will help in creating a more natural sausage shaped phallus and hopefully erase the unpleasant feeling.
- The flaps will be fused, creating a better, rounder sausage shape.
- The folds will be closed, and the two sacks will be united. Hopefully in Summer 2024, testicle implants will be placed
- Liposuction will be done to take away some fat surrounding the phallus, making it pop out more.
These things are still subject to possible change. I will update again after my December appointments.
We've also talked about a potential rod (ED) to be placed in the phallus, but that'll depend on the results of the revision.
I found it important to update since my situation is a good example of that things can unfortunately go against expectations. I've been feeling extremely disconnected with my genitals. My boyfriend of three years broke up with me during recovery, so the misshapen genitals sure we're a nice addition to that. I hope all can be fixed in the revision. And if not... I'll probably go for phallo. We'll see, ehy.
Cheers.