How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Harbinger of Kali Yuga]

I'm afraid you don't.

Pre-Boomers are dying off in disappointment.

Boomers are a depressing bunch that can only talk about retirement and old people stuff while, by all purposes and instances, are trying to set themselves to leave this mortal soil with a bang. Their understanding of the world is outright retarded.

Gen-Xers are one of the most surly, bitter, frustrated mofos around. They are Joker-tier 'want to see the world burn' at this point.

Millenials are gloriously deranged, living a fantasy life of outdated pop-culture, random hookups, booze, weed and retarded politics that is becoming more and more difficult to sustain by the day, as if it was still 2006 and they still were teenagers.

Zoomers are millenials on steroids, they're all collective renditions of Edvard Munch's The Scream living in existential dread without aim or purpose in a world about which the only thing they understand is that it's unfathomably hostile. Since they can't read they are throwing themselves to all sort of grifters on Social Media telling them a comfortable replacement-religion dogma about how they should live their lives.

Everyone thinks I'm crazy and retarded in real life for saying this stuff... so how can I come to the exact same observations as you? And Gen Xers are the best generation, in my opinion. They're cynical and bitter because they generally have an idea of what is going on, and you don't have the fake smile and fake positivity stuff the Millennials and Zoomers have.

 

[Nick Obre]

I reckon I just went full blown Ralphamale on my woman.
IRL, I'm pretty fucking good to the people I care about. But my grievances just started spilling out, well into the point of being unconstructive.
I can objectively say I've done my best with us but idk if she and I will stand the test of time, especially after laying things out so bluntly. She's a great woman but things are fucked when I'm the voice of reason. Sorry for power leveling, but there is a man behind the shitposts.

https://youtu.be/LE04LgPmY6g?si=caKE9X3LXMbrx3l6

You're gonna have to qualify what you mean by that, because it can mean anything from "I was a loudmouth asshole" to "full blown drunken domestic violence"

 

[Ewan McGregor]

Everyone thinks I'm crazy and retarded in real life for saying this stuff... so how can I come to the exact same observations as you? And Gen Xers are the best generation, in my opinion. They're cynical and bitter because they generally have an idea of what is going on, and you don't have the fake smile and fake positivity stuff the Millennials and Zoomers have.

I see this shit everyday, it's difficult not to notice. It's very sad.

If you tell them they get super angry, so they must be aware at some level. I don't wish to become a shut in, but the disenfranchisement is real.

Sometimes I feel like the only people I can talk to that are not part of the madness is the people here, at the Kiwi Farms, but this, too, is an illusion.

 

[Woodchipper]

You're gonna have to qualify what you mean by that, because it can mean anything from "I was a loudmouth asshole" to "full blown drunken domestic violence"

Good point. Naw, just loudmouth drunken asshole.
Spent the morning remembering why I quit drinking in the first place. The experience was definitely enough to keep me away from the bottle for at least another two years.

 

[Catman from cat town]

Outing with guy went great. Now I’m just working to get ahead of things at work because this holiday has slowed us down.

 

[Doctor John B. Zyklon]

I'm sure there is no way to connect with anyone anymore

It doesn't help that most seem to lack basic intelligence. So the few who try, it's as if you're talking to a wall.

 

[Doctor John B. Zyklon]

Gen Xers are the best generation, in my opinion.

I've just had a different experience with this. I've always seen them as whiney fags because "muh latch-key kid". That everything people cite about Gen Y and Z, was also present and perhaps originated in X.

But, I think this is all the wrong discussion. The real discussion is why "muh greatest generation" are the fucking worst. Those commie cock sucking bastards are the reason we're here in the first place.

At least we're not speaking German! They say as their grand-child troons out.

It doesn't help that most seem to lack basic intelligence. So the few who try, it's as if you're talking to a wall.

Let me expand upon this briefly. As you can see in my previous fag post, I've had some shit go down this year which has resulted in a bit of an existential crisis of identity and morality for me. As one is to do, I sought out council from some fellow men. I've found that the heart-breaking reality is that only two could even discuss and contemplate the topics. Some of the men who were unable to comprehend the discussion claim to have a decent IQ, but there was just nothing there.

Perhaps this isn't intelligence based, but a larger social issue? I know even autists with sufficient intelligence, can create mental models to filter and simulate emotional intelligence and thinking. So I ponder, why can't these people?

Meh, I'm rambling but I digress.

 

[Betonhaus]

Once I get out of bed I'm fine, but before that I am utterly unmotivated and can sleep in past 2 easily

 

[Blamo2000]

Happy to say that I've been formally promoted to the job title I was doing anyway. With 0 real qualifications and 100% just doing the shit that needs done and common sense. Within 6 months I literally went from scrubbing toilets to being the second highest paid in my half of the building. Been promoted about every two months wtf.

I was very anti-"bootstraps" growing up, but I dropped out of college to work and look what happened- I make more in my desired field than I would have if I finished my stupid worthless degree. In literally less than 2 years of working. I'm gonna be able to buy a house!!!! And I'm debtfree!!

This is a certified nice post.

 

[Brain Power]

Ear mufflers + Powerful speakers + old phone with 3.5 mm jack = Fuck you shitty noisy neighbor! I tried to solve things the good way but they refused to cut the shit, so I'm just giving them a taste of their own medicine. It actually works at making them turn off the reggaeton they otherwise leave on for almost the whole day and makes the walls vibrate.

 

[The Cunting Death]

Dealing with a shitty cold.

 

[Betonhaus]

A friend just made the local news for wandering around town naked. I get that being naked is important to him and he loves going to the local nude beach, but... Dude, you got a problem.

 

[Doctor John B. Zyklon]

A friend just made the local news for wandering around town naked. I get that being naked is important to him and he loves going to the local nude beach, but... Dude, you got a problem.

Did he get a reward? A statue maybe? A lamp?

 

[Titty Figurine]

Pretty happy I moved out to the middle of nowhere. Spent the evening doing Christmas crafts at the handful of shops in town with the kiddo, made a holiday bread at the local pizza place, saw the tree lighting in the town square.

Looked up the news where I used to live to see if they ever had stuff like that going on and maybe we were oblivious because we weren't parents, and nope. All the recent news events were shootings, no holly jolly festivals in sight. Feels good to have made the right call.

 

[Betonhaus]

Did he get a reward? A statue maybe? A lamp?

He went slightly viral

 

[Zellogi]

Pretty depressed honestly, not just being harassed online but personal issues with my life have been tough. In this year alone I’ve lost my job, had an old friend die and lost two of my closest friends due to arguments. Been kicked out of my favorite social sites and been emotionally manipulated by lying two faced douche bags online. Having arguments with my family constantly due to many issues with work.and to top it all off just feeling depressed about my years of bullying at school even though it was years ago, but I feel so lonely it’s causing flashbacks for me for times I thought I could finally forget, but I can’t.

Overall just been a real dumpster fire of a year for me and I just want Christmas to go wells t least so I can scrap this year and start off fresh for 2024, here’s hoping kiwis

 

[Skyline Enthusiast]

In a constant state of manic frustration I can't get over. I almost quit my job yesterday because of a coworker I fucking despise. Miserable.

 

[Anonitolia]

Better than before, though I'm a little frustrated. My life feels like it's out of my hands and I'm too frazzled to do much about it. I still haven't gotten any word back on when my employment starts despite really just needing a go-ahead at this point and it's beginning to irritate me since this is quite possibly the worst time something this important could be left ambiguous. I've got maybe 2 or 3 weeks to prepare for three major holidays in December, damn it, please just let me know when I can start doing this company's dirty work and earning money to pay for them.

I'm also beginning to feel very strained creatively- ironically, not because I'm doing much creative, but because I've spent practically this entire year trying to make myself come up with something creative that I both enjoy and actually stick with through to the end. Especially something original. I'm still trying to free myself from the absolutely retarded shackles of my art-childhood where all I heard was "don't you dare steal other peoples' ideas unless they let you", and it's becoming increasingly tougher to do anything without fighting that stupid inner voice.

My solution to this? The moment that the holidays are over, I'm taking an extended sabbatical to go touch grass for at least a week or two. Hopefully longer. Ideally I'd like to find some new, more productive hobby to learn and enjoy so that I can refresh my life a bit, especially since I've gotten a lot of closure from that aforementioned lucky streak, though i'm not sure if that'll be sufficient.
Whatever happens, I think a nice break from the internet isn't a bad idea by any means, even if I might check in on the farms for a few minutes a day anyways. The rest of the web is overwhelming; at least this site has some chaotic order to it.

 

[Sniperwoof]

The only friends I have left are the ones I've met in college. All my high school friends are dead due to overdoses/drinking and I'm not even that old, I hate what our elites have done to this country.

People are dying/killing themselves out of despair so our treasuries can be looted and send to Israel and Ukraine. Middle America is dying.

 

[(((I am NOT a jew)))]

I'm just lost on where to go.
I wish I didn't waste so much time. I had half of the day off as a surprise and I've done nothing but scroll through here wasting my time. I do love this site for some of the practical advice it gives and the banter I get. But sometimes it just feels like wish fulfillment to a lot of us.
I think I gravitate towards it though because I have this warped idea that if I acknowledge everything's awful, then somehow that validation will make it less so. I feel like just going about trying to pass time or even work on shit is just temporarily averting my eyes from how bad things really are.
I've become the faggot who listens to shitty emo music all the time and wonders why he feels sad.
So I'm left with two real options.
Completely drown in the blackpill/doomer shit all while telling myself "At least I'm right" while dashing towards an early grave.
Or
Try to do small shit that doesn't really do much but temporarily blind me from previous bad memories in my personal life and pay as little attention to the demise of everything around me, because I'll have "got mine".

It's weird just how fast everything became so neutered and everyone lost their will. It's weird to think that 25 years ago we were practically at the literal peak of culture and societal cohesion. It's disturbing how normal it is for everyone to be as hopeless and withdrawn as they are at the moment. I wish I could do something about all the suffering going on. But I can barely keep myself going each day.

I think the past year has taught me one thing. I've caused the pain I'm in through my lack of will. I've created a really bad cycle for myself by being hopeless, and the saddest thing is I've had every reason to have that cycle. I've had so much bad shit happen in my life and every reason to give up. But I really think if I had just applied myself a little more and just fought against that "depressive realism", I might have actually been doing pretty good by now. I thought things were never going to get better, and what a surprise, they didn't. I don't know how to break this cycle anymore of wasting time and running away. But I also know that if I don't right now, I'm going to only have the same general decline I've had for years, which will only reinforce things.

Nothing will change if nothing changes.

Maybe we're all bound to some techno dystopia where everything we do is replaced by automation and we eat bugs in pods and we're all on happy pills to block out how fucked we are. Maybe we're going to watch capeshit and eat corporate slop out of a troth while never having kids for the rest of time.
But if I literally do nothing but doompost and being emo and can't try to fight for my life, then I deserve whatever nightmare world I get.
Maybe that's a cope and we're all fucked. I don't know.
But it's going to REALLY FUCKING SUCK if things magically turn around by the end of the decade and I'll have to show for it is years of bitching and fearing for the future.