Been thinking about this post over the last while re: Nick and Korsakoff syndrome:
It's eerie, almost like your life is put on pause right at that moment that you lost the ability to properly absorb thiamine. All the memories from before aren't gone, but you're just not advancing past that hard stop.
Depending on the rate his brain has pickled, Nick could find himself mentally locked in at:
a) successful hard-drinking lawtube streamer/grifter, beloved by many and a closeted degenerate
b) depressed non-practicing lawyer always drunk and in need of a vacation, heretical hedonist and an open degenerate
c) declining lawtuber surrounded by betrayers and frenemies (online and IRL) who can quit drinking anytime
d) a permutation of the above resulting in a mixture of denial, depression, and anger
This is on top of Nick's persistent claims of being unknowable, revisionist memory, juvenile mindset, and overall refusal to accept his own faults. Nick is already repeating himself quite often, so it will be interesting to see where he experiences further arrested development; the ascent, the decline, or the crash (and of course they all lead to the bottle).
I get it. Kayla checked out of the marriage a while ago. I guess that she is physically, mentally and spiritually ill. I can almost hear her say "Where is my husband?" "Me and the kids never get to see you anymore...What happened to us, Nick?" So Nick went out and got that gawd awful tattoo...I WILL BE US. So now Nose has to do all the things, raise and educate the kids, bring home the paycheck, make everyone happy except himself. Poor Nicky.(How's that for a fanfic?)
Kayla seems to fluctuate between
degeneracy and
insecurity (posting her bum online and then leaving the Internet when she became self-conscious of her actions), but she never quite gets to a healthy place.
There are some signs that Kayla was aware of Nick's problem behavior. For example, she seemed somewhat bothered by Nick's inauthentic Christianity in the past:
But that was the past. In a lot of ways it seems like Kayla has given up on Nick (and herself to a degree). It's just a question of what that looks like long term. In any case, it's clear that Kayla is more concerned about her own reputation than the integrity of her marriage which is a sign of separation in itself.
People can think whatever they want of Nick streaming with thots and asking for lewds in Locals (including from people they've both met IRL), but Nick had better
not implicate Kayla while he lusts over Mandy on a livestream...
