Now I'm well aware this is entirely a personal fault of mine, but it irks me when you find yourself being too charitable to others. There has been many situations where I've been talking to someone, trying to learn what they know, and I just can't seem to follow along. They'll say things or connect topics in ways I just can't wrap my head around, resulting in me spending lots of time doubting myself and wondering what did I miss. Finally, after spending ages thinking I'm some kinda idiot for not getting it, it dawns on me... I can't understand how it works because that person is fucking stupid and they don't make sense. I wish I was better at just accepting that "this person is a moron" instead of always being so charitable.