Oh my God, I wanted to learn more about YanDev, but standing awake while paying attention to your muffled narration is a complete challenge. What a ride.
YandereDev gets ALL of my support. My hat's off to him, for making a game that attracted young girls so much. Especially when videogames have historically been a male-oriented industry. Literally any non-AAA game developer worth their salt could only dream of having such a following, even if just for a while. What a freaking genius. I hope he reads this, and I hope he changes for HIS own good, not for others'.
ANYWAYS, Hello and welcome to my text wall, now in glorious Engrish. If you reached this part, you probably are wondering why I support him at all. That's what I'll try to explain (and more!), while taking special care not to use certain specific keywords or wording, in order to trick the algorithm into not censoring my message. I'm not a lawyer, but I'll try my best not to fall in contradictions.
I'm an independent videogame developer too, been there for over 10 years as solodev and as the lead programmer for a couple of projects. Self-taught. Also done some VFX work, both for games and live-action stuff. And while I'm not YandereDev himself, I can draw many analogies to my own person; I am a so-called "manchild" too... just not in the way you'd expect, because it's fairly less artificial.
You see, I'm a different flavor of "retarded"; I grew slower than everybody else and it goes beyond just being "short" or teen-looking (I'm reaching 30 and still look like this, there's just no way I'd be of physical interest for a 20-30 aged girl... more on that later). While my IQ might arguably be "normal" (i.e. I'm mentally capable of holding jobs, study, drive a car, help others on things they don't know (I'm a library!)...), my emotional side is no older than 15 years old, and because I'm reaching 30s, I doubt my brain will develop any more. I DO look AND feel like a 15 years old, display the same kind of personality as a 15 years old, but I got nearly 30 years of life experience. For this reason I got bullied throghout all elementary and high school, I kept missing out on so much social stuff; just imagine a 9 year old in a classroom with 15 year olds, that's how, in retrospect, was like.
Now in adulthood I saw myself forced to study and learn some psychology like an autist in order to gain proper validity as an actual adult but... I guess that makes me manipulative? That's what I've been told anyways; the truth is I find adults boring and terrible, and I pretty much had to become an actor in order to fit in. I do touch grass, I like to trip, and while my friendship with other adults has vastly improved over time, I tried to meet and have a companion the "good way", multiple times, without success. For each failed attempt there's so much time lost, totaling months if not years. Unlike an actual autist (and I know many), I can be an interesting talker, been told so, but no matter what I'm just too short and "baby-looking", so I wonder, are my efforts worth anything at all? I'm so fed up of being seen as insufficient.
God knows I tried to do things well, but it seems he's immature enough to give me his worst for no reason at all. Hell, I'm even getting psychological and psychiatric help against the obvious depression I have, and everything was going so well during 2023... until I almost happen to die in January 2024 (saved by miracle?), reverting my advances and getting myself to question all my life. My life's been... SO BORING. And I'm a freaking game dev!
Ok. Just like YandereDev, I'm a he... be phile (please YT don't block this message for this one keyword... from now on I'll just write "heb").
If you know the term, I guess that makes me a P in your eyes (like I care), I know you imagine me as a creep hiding in the bushes ready to hunt 5 year olds, so let me do the attempt and clear it for you: Unlike a true P, hebs do look for girls with actual, active s3xual development. You know, people who would actually enjoy s3x. To be fair, most of us who you call Ps are actually hebs and up. And we don't only look for s3x, just like you we also want a full-blown, real and fulfilling relationship (strange, I know)... which objectively speaking can not happen through manipulation. So I'm a heb, but I'm not interested in being a gr00m3r, BY DEFINITION! I don't care if you don't believe that one, that's how it is for me and I'm just sharing my thoughts.
"Oh, so you're a heb because you can't get a girl your age hahaha l0ser"
People who like me: Old women, illegal girls, and some gay men of any age, both active and passive. If every group displays at least SOME interest in my person, EXCEPT for the 18-30 women I'm meant to like, then I don't think it's my fault anymore.
From a heb's perspective, having a relationship with a so-called "m1nor" (hate that word) is actually far more difficult than it ever will be for you "normals": The girl has to like me (like in any other kind of relationship), but good luck with all the culture and brainwashing she gets regarding Ps. In fact and due to this, hebs and up also risk being gr00m3d by girls/trolls, into saying dangerous stuff to screw them over. It happens ESPECIALLY to game devs, cartoonists, or whoever works in the media. On top of that, you need to deal with vigilance, both online and in real life; increasingly overprotective parents, stupid neighbors trying to screw each other, random judgamental people on the street, street cameras capable of determining identity, the list goes on. Forget about privacy, we got to deal with govts using us as their biggest excuse to have the power to monitor the internet, or worse yet of breaking into people's PERSONAL computers. Finally, if a true relationship happens... everything is at risk, everything can be lost, including but not limited to the people most trusted. Some adult men struggle trying to talk to adult women; I don't because I hate them, but for sure I'd struggle and be scared sh*tless if I talked to 14 aged m1nor, even after the hypothetical first date. It's a HUGE deal.
It's not a mission for the weak-minded. Unless of course you were a dumb P and didn't care for your own security, but good luck trying to do it before getting caught.
Why would I be interested if I got so much to lose:
1- I have done NOTHING illegal yet, and STILL got cancelled by a weird community years ago. I don't have to avoid doing illegal stuff for YOUR approval anymore, because you normal people literally just proved is not worth it. I'm just seeing the consequences of something that... I WISH I had done, but didn't, because I believed in you, thought that it was me who was in the wrong, and followed YOUR stupid morale. What a wasted opportunity.
2- Because I feel so lonely, and I'm so curious to at least learn how love is supossed to be. Even if only 1 time in my life. I'm a human, too. And it's already bad I get angry at normal women or couples for envy; I don't want this, I don't want to feel hatred for other people's happiness, but it happens.
3- Feminism aiming to be more than machism, instead of looking for a balance. It sucks when a man punches a woman (though he pays the legal consequences), but (keeping it light, still an unfair comparison) it also sucks that women feel entitled enough to demand so much from a man in exchange of "love". You adult women are meant to be mature, but unlike m1nors (or any other group really) you always have a checklist on hand with 999 possible points to "discard" a man. You elitists, that's how you call it, "discard"; do you see us as disposable animals now? Don't be stupid, don't repeat men's mistakes. And I wonder, do loser girls even exist? When I turned 18, it's as if women expected me to be in level 10, but through my backstory you already know I'm still on level 1, the tutorial. Holy cr4p how am I meant to begin any game from level 10?! Am I trapped into inceldom for the rest of my life? Worst game design ever, with these dumb laws there's no way I can play the tutorial. And... I'm aiming for romance more than sex, a hooker will not do the deed.
4- Breaking news. I swear, it's all over when age 16 is reached, but before that... they do look at me, they do follow me, they talk about me, because they LIKE me... I didn't become a game dev to bait m1nors, I never make a big deal of my skills in real life, but if they learnt that I work on videogames... They'd become CRAZY!! At least until they get convinced by others or their surrounding culture that they're not meant to. You should be GLAD I once denied my vocation to someone, just to avoid further issue. I don't know WHY they like me when they don't even know me yet, it used to be a nightmare during my "correct" times, but now it feels like a godsend, even if it's for such a short timelapse. "Kids love Ps" phrase didn't appear out of nowhere. And if I'm lucky enough, there's a 1% chance I could meet someone and wait for her to become of age before proposing to be more than just friends, BUT EVEN THAT IS FROWNED UPON. Give me a break.
Dare I say it, where I live we used to be seen as more valid humans than this, until getting gradually replaced by reproduction-incapable LGBTs, less than 100 years ago. Here, it's a fairly "recent" agenda that slowly begun in the 70s. Also stay tuned, because science says that the brain keeps developing until you turn like 25-28 years old, and it only takes a single powerful fr33mas0n/politician to decide "you become of age at 25", or even 30; after all, women DO manage to defeat their "princess complex", but not before their 30s, when age strikes and they finally realize they can no longer get away with living la vida loca and must change their mentality if they actually want something serious and meaningful. I guess I can do like my loser uncle and wait until my 30s, and by then maybe a 30 years old woman will finally have some interest in me, after all their relationship looks very deep and fulfilling... Naaah I don't have to deal with this anymore, you didn't like me before, now it's too late, I don't like women that treat men like this, deal with it, GTFO; it's also already late for me, you're not giving my lost time nor hormones back.
Princess complex is acquired, usually ranges from 15 or 16 to 30s, but women DO know how to love when they live outside this age range. In other words, they know what they are doing and take approach of today's circumstances, so I'm in all my right to retaliate against the older women who did it, especially if THEY feel like finally dealing with ME.
Meanwhile, as for the powerful guy I mentioned earlier, it doesn't matter how old he is, he will enjoy some good s3x with youngsters (and other weird, equally-illegal stuff), in his mansion or private island; don't forget that the hormonal peak is between 14-25. After all, fr33mas0nry is the religion of s3x, but right now they want to reduce world population. And then comes Infantilism, Disney shooting itself in the foot for promoting the so-called Agenda, less marriages and more divorces, low birth rates and so on. It's not even a full in-depth investigation, I didn't really try, is just an easy conclusion. I'm a game dev, I'm NOT really interested in conspiracy stuff, yet here we are. But I digress.
Want to cure inceldom? Better yet, want to lower the amount of desperate cr33ps? drop that stupidly high aoc to a reasonable number (obviously not 5, but come on), or better yet, the young adult women could do better, they did it decades ago so why not now. Chads could give us a hand too, instead of bullying us into being the very thing they complain against us. Most of the so-called "cr33ps" shouldn't even exist, but it happens that the more they need s3x, the less they get, oh the irony. It's simply more hot for her to raise a chad's average ego to the roof than raise a virgin's non-existant ego to average, it doesn't matter how bad said chad treats her because, with feminism and all, she can't admit that she wants someone better than her, not an equal. "Treat women nicely, like flowers" is the worst fraud my childish mind fell for that keeps me in level 1 with no legal way out because it's too late. Too bad I actually liked treating women nicely. And it doesn't stop there, if the guy isn't chad enough until the end of times or if she FINALLY can't take his sh*t anymore, she will report violence, ask for a divorce, take the child(ren), the money.
Stupidity is infinite.
On top of that, and if you REALLY want to be objective, you like many others on YT... is using someone else's disgrace on a monetized video. But that's normal I guess, you're such great people too.
How about I begin treating YOU "normal people" the same way you treat us?
Jelly might be skitzo (or not), but AllyMcC just sucks as a person and I hope she kills hers- nah not going there, I just hope karma strikes her back.
FYI, I actually will follow advice, I WILL grab a gun to "cure myself" as people say, eventually. Not before I find a companion though, but rather before police knocks my door instead XD, I'm not THAT dumb lol. I'm the main character in my life, and I say, that I deserve to feel happy in my life just like everyone else does. And, I don't owe anything to a world that only knows to turn its back on me. Also time is ticking for me.
That said, yes. I AM willing to quit game development (my ultimate passion), to risk losing everything, even my own life, if that means I'm going to feel, enjoy, and live the love, even if once for a short time. And you can't do anything to avoid it. Forget that you're better than me, you're not. Unlike you, I'm willing to fight and go through the biggest hurdles in the name of love even if doesn't look like it in your eyes. And why not, forget that you're better than "m1nors", most of them don't have to wear huge masks like you sociopa7hs do, they have much energy, and most importantly: they are FUN.
F you. F you very much.
Thanks for your time, I'm going to sleep now.