Samson Pumpkin Jr.
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- Joined
- Jun 13, 2020
Oh man… I lost my 22 yr old Nubian Queen last December. Fuck... it was like relearning to walk again in a way, so much old crap came back up I thought I was done with. Was the longest, healthiest relationship I’ve ever had, didn’t realize how much I relied on that relationship until it was gone. My black jungle fever coal bunny is gone forever. Never had such a strong bond with an animal before her. She was unusually empathetic towards humans and always sensed if something was wrong. She would put her hand on my heart when I was in the middle of a panic attack. Putting her down was one of the most traumatic things I've ever experienced in my life. The weeks following I started having multiple panic attacks every damn day and night. I never felt so out of control. I'm mostly ok now but still have random moments where the weight of this loss re-emerges in very vivid flashbacks. My heart goes out to anyone currently dealing with this.