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Estradiol is a helluva drug
So I finally tried Estradiol last night, 2mg taken sublingually.
Oh dear god, whoever said "don't expect to notice any changes for 2 weeks" is a damned liar (Or that advice is calibrated for swallowing the pills directly).
I made sure I was hydrated, because I wasn't going to be drinking or swallowing anything for a while.
I put one 1mg tablet under each side of my tongue, summoned a little saliva, and then lay in bed to wait to see if anything would happen. Would I even feel anything, or is it all just going to be slow subtle effects?
It began with a slight tingle in my gut, where I usually feel my visceral dysphoria. Then some subtle tingles here and there. Maybe it was working, or maybe I was just nervous. When I felt some tingles on the soles of my feet, I also noticed that my head was clearing up a bit, that my thoughts could move around like they'd been greased and could flow smoothly.
Then I felt like I needed to shift and stretch out, and noticed I felt it in a very feminine way, and the light touch of my shifting clothes on my skin felt nice...and I started getting a little hot under the collar and very..."excited". And [censored] [censored] with [censored] and it [censored] [censored].
[explicit images and wild fantasies]
...Hooooly fuck. That was a wild time. Ok, so I'm bi now.
The next day, I felt my appetite returning, food tasted better and felt more filling, eating for real hunger, not just to "put stuff in my stomach". My chronic anxiety was lessened. I still feel it but it doesn't "hurt" as much. I don't feel that empty gnawing in my gut. I am very aware of my nipples, and the desire for boobies has grown much stronger. I have a strong lingering desire to snuggle and am cursing my singlehood.
So...yeah. WHAT THE HELL???
So I finally tried Estradiol last night, 2mg taken sublingually.
Oh dear god, whoever said "don't expect to notice any changes for 2 weeks" is a damned liar (Or that advice is calibrated for swallowing the pills directly).
I made sure I was hydrated, because I wasn't going to be drinking or swallowing anything for a while.
I put one 1mg tablet under each side of my tongue, summoned a little saliva, and then lay in bed to wait to see if anything would happen. Would I even feel anything, or is it all just going to be slow subtle effects?
It began with a slight tingle in my gut, where I usually feel my visceral dysphoria. Then some subtle tingles here and there. Maybe it was working, or maybe I was just nervous. When I felt some tingles on the soles of my feet, I also noticed that my head was clearing up a bit, that my thoughts could move around like they'd been greased and could flow smoothly.
Then I felt like I needed to shift and stretch out, and noticed I felt it in a very feminine way, and the light touch of my shifting clothes on my skin felt nice...and I started getting a little hot under the collar and very..."excited". And [censored] [censored] with [censored] and it [censored] [censored].
[explicit images and wild fantasies]
...Hooooly fuck. That was a wild time. Ok, so I'm bi now.
The next day, I felt my appetite returning, food tasted better and felt more filling, eating for real hunger, not just to "put stuff in my stomach". My chronic anxiety was lessened. I still feel it but it doesn't "hurt" as much. I don't feel that empty gnawing in my gut. I am very aware of my nipples, and the desire for boobies has grown much stronger. I have a strong lingering desire to snuggle and am cursing my singlehood.
So...yeah. WHAT THE HELL???
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