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Covenant School killer Audrey Elizabeth Hale, a biological female who identified as a transgender male at the time of her March 27, 2023 attack, wrote a three-page journal entry titled “My Imaginary Penis” that was included in the writings recovered from her vehicle.
The Tennessee Star confirmed on Wednesday it obtained nearly four dozen pages of Hale’s writings from a source familiar with the Covenant investigation, including the March 11, 2023 entry discussing her desire to have a male anatomy.
Hale’s diary or journal entry begins with the title “My Imaginary Penis” and includes a crude drawing.
“My penis exists in my head. I swear to god I’m a male,” wrote Hale in the diary or journal recovered by police. She then wrote about her desire to have a penis for the purpose of heterosexual sex with a woman.
While the entry is sexually explicit in nature, Hale also wrote about her experience using the name Aiden, which she began using during her transition. Hale explained that using the name on a job application for a delivery position resulted in issues with the company’s background check.
She also described being raised a girl as “torture.” She claimed she feared “being called a dyke or a f*****” during high school before feeling liberated in college and eventually learning about transgenderism in her early 20s.
“I finally found the answer – that changing one’s gender is possible,” wrote Hale before claiming her mother opposed the idea.
Hale explained, “What she believes, how she grew up, conservatively, and that LGBTQ – especially transgender – was an enigma, nearly non-existent.”
About her parents, Hale added, “I hate parental views; how my mom sees me as a daughter – and she’d not bear to want to lose that daughter because a son would be the death of Audrey.”
On the second page of the entry, Hale continued to disparage her parents for their alleged refusal to support her transition but also wrote about the advent of puberty blockers in 2007.
“I’d kill to have those resources; 2007 was the birth of puberty blockers and a newfound discovery for treatment of non-conforming transgender children,” wrote Hale. She then acknowledged, “I was in the 6th grade, puberty already hit me.”
At the bottom of the second page, and into the third, Hale revealed that she fantasized about experiencing intercourse as a man by creating scenes with her stuffed animals.
“I can pretend to be them [and] do the things boys do [and] experience my boy self as Tony,” which Hale explained is her “stuffed boy doll” which she wrote “is like the boy I am in another form.”
In the entry, Hale proceeded to describe simulating intercourse between the “stuffed boy doll” and another stuffed animal over the course of hours.
According to Hale, she began taking photos of the fantasy enactment and became so enamored that she lost track of time and could not visit the gym.
“God, I am such a pervert.” Hale wrote, “I waste too much time in my fantasies.”
Hale wrote the entry just 16 days before committing her attack on the Covenant School, which claimed the lives of three 9-year-old students and three adults.
Star News Digital Media, Inc., which owns and operates The Star, and the publication’s editor-in-chief, Michael Patrick Leahy, are plaintiffs in lawsuits seeking to compel the Metro Nashville Police Department (MNPD) and the FBI to release Hale’s writings, including those that have been called a manifesto.
An FBI memo to MNPD Chief John Drake in May 2023, published by The Star on Tuesday, “strongly” suggested withholding the release of “legacy tokens,” including written materials, after incidents like the Covenant School shooting.
Covenant School killer Audrey Elizabeth Hale expressed frustration over being misgendered, satisfaction with the use of male pronouns, and a desire to have a “boy body” in a journal.
The Star on Wednesday confirmed it obtained dozens of pages from Hale’s journal from a source familiar with the Covenant investigation. The journal was retrieved from Hale’s vehicle.
A biological female who identified as a transgender male at the time of her March 27, 2023, attack on the school, Hale wrote about her struggles with gender identity throughout the journal.
In an entry dated February 21, 2023, Hale wrote, “I was called a woman, lady, and ma’am all in the same day.” She wrote, in capital letters, “I hate everything about my gender,” then added, “everything hurts.”
Hale, in an entry located two pages later but also dated February 21, also wrote extensively about being greeted using masculine pronouns.
“I was actually identified as a male today and it felt right but embarrassed of my female body,” wrote Hale. In capital letters, she exclaimed, “I should not be in this body!”
According to Hale, the clerk at a local store used masculine language with her including “bud, bro, and man.” Hale wrote the experience was “accurate to who I am as a guy inside.”
She wrote, “If only all other men [and] boys could see me that way, that my body doesn’t make me a female.”
After relaying her experience being identified as a male, Hale wrote that being misgendered makes her “not want to exist.” She wrote, “I’m just damn [tired] of being called [and] identified by a gender I am not,” then lamented having a female figure.
At the top of the entry, Hale also seemed to question whether her alleged autism diagnosis was a result of her “male brain.”
Hale also seemed to connect transgenderism with religion.
On the first page of the notebook, Hale questioned, “why does my brain not work right?” Then wrote, “Cause I was born wrong.” She then wrote, “Nothing on earth can save me… never ending pain. Religion won’t save.”
In an undated, two-sentence entry approximately 60 pages later, Hale wrote, “The [cocoon] of my old self will die when I leave my body behind and the boy in me will be free; in the butterfly transformation; the real me.”
She concluded, “If God won’t give me a boy body in heaven, then Jesus is a f*****.”
The Star reported on Wednesday that Hale wrote a three-page entry titled “My Imaginary Penis.” In the entry, Hale detailed her struggles with transgenderism and being accepted by her parents. She also wrote about fantasies of heterosexual sex that she enacted with stuffed animals.
Hale also referenced transgenderism and non-binary people in a political rant, declaring, “So now in America, it makes one a criminal to have a gun or, be transgender, or non-binary. God I hate those s***head politicians.”
Both Star News Digital Media, Inc., which is the parent company of The Star, and its editor-in-chief, Michael Patrick Leahy, are plaintiffs in lawsuits seeking to compel the Metro Nashville Police Department (MNPD) and the FBI to release Hale’s writings, including those that have been called a manifesto.
On Tuesday, The Star published an FBI memo sent to MNPD Chief John Drake in May 2023. Though the memo did not mention Hale by name, it seemed to refer to such writings as “legacy tokens” and “strongly” advised against releasing them due to concerns about “false narratives” and “conspiracy theories” spreading among the public.
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Tom Pappert is the lead reporter for The Tennessee Star, and also reports for The Pennsylvania Daily Star and The Arizona Sun Times. Follow Tom on X/Twitter. Email tips to pappert.tom@proton.me.
June 6, 2024 Tom Pappert
Covenant School killer Audrey Elizabeth Hale, a biological female who identified as a transgender male at the time of her March 27, 2023 attack, wrote a three-page journal entry titled “My Imaginary Penis” that was included in the writings recovered from her vehicle.
The Tennessee Star confirmed on Wednesday it obtained nearly four dozen pages of Hale’s writings from a source familiar with the Covenant investigation, including the March 11, 2023 entry discussing her desire to have a male anatomy.
Hale’s diary or journal entry begins with the title “My Imaginary Penis” and includes a crude drawing.
“My penis exists in my head. I swear to god I’m a male,” wrote Hale in the diary or journal recovered by police. She then wrote about her desire to have a penis for the purpose of heterosexual sex with a woman.
While the entry is sexually explicit in nature, Hale also wrote about her experience using the name Aiden, which she began using during her transition. Hale explained that using the name on a job application for a delivery position resulted in issues with the company’s background check.
She also described being raised a girl as “torture.” She claimed she feared “being called a dyke or a f*****” during high school before feeling liberated in college and eventually learning about transgenderism in her early 20s.
“I finally found the answer – that changing one’s gender is possible,” wrote Hale before claiming her mother opposed the idea.
Hale explained, “What she believes, how she grew up, conservatively, and that LGBTQ – especially transgender – was an enigma, nearly non-existent.”
About her parents, Hale added, “I hate parental views; how my mom sees me as a daughter – and she’d not bear to want to lose that daughter because a son would be the death of Audrey.”
On the second page of the entry, Hale continued to disparage her parents for their alleged refusal to support her transition but also wrote about the advent of puberty blockers in 2007.
“I’d kill to have those resources; 2007 was the birth of puberty blockers and a newfound discovery for treatment of non-conforming transgender children,” wrote Hale. She then acknowledged, “I was in the 6th grade, puberty already hit me.”
At the bottom of the second page, and into the third, Hale revealed that she fantasized about experiencing intercourse as a man by creating scenes with her stuffed animals.
“I can pretend to be them [and] do the things boys do [and] experience my boy self as Tony,” which Hale explained is her “stuffed boy doll” which she wrote “is like the boy I am in another form.”
In the entry, Hale proceeded to describe simulating intercourse between the “stuffed boy doll” and another stuffed animal over the course of hours.
According to Hale, she began taking photos of the fantasy enactment and became so enamored that she lost track of time and could not visit the gym.
“God, I am such a pervert.” Hale wrote, “I waste too much time in my fantasies.”
Hale wrote the entry just 16 days before committing her attack on the Covenant School, which claimed the lives of three 9-year-old students and three adults.
Star News Digital Media, Inc., which owns and operates The Star, and the publication’s editor-in-chief, Michael Patrick Leahy, are plaintiffs in lawsuits seeking to compel the Metro Nashville Police Department (MNPD) and the FBI to release Hale’s writings, including those that have been called a manifesto.
An FBI memo to MNPD Chief John Drake in May 2023, published by The Star on Tuesday, “strongly” suggested withholding the release of “legacy tokens,” including written materials, after incidents like the Covenant School shooting.
UPDATE: New Article Released With More Info
Covenant Killer Audrey Hale Expressed Frustration over Being Misgendered, Desire for ‘Boy Body’ in Recovered Journal
source, (A)Covenant School killer Audrey Elizabeth Hale expressed frustration over being misgendered, satisfaction with the use of male pronouns, and a desire to have a “boy body” in a journal.
The Star on Wednesday confirmed it obtained dozens of pages from Hale’s journal from a source familiar with the Covenant investigation. The journal was retrieved from Hale’s vehicle.
A biological female who identified as a transgender male at the time of her March 27, 2023, attack on the school, Hale wrote about her struggles with gender identity throughout the journal.
In an entry dated February 21, 2023, Hale wrote, “I was called a woman, lady, and ma’am all in the same day.” She wrote, in capital letters, “I hate everything about my gender,” then added, “everything hurts.”
Hale, in an entry located two pages later but also dated February 21, also wrote extensively about being greeted using masculine pronouns.
“I was actually identified as a male today and it felt right but embarrassed of my female body,” wrote Hale. In capital letters, she exclaimed, “I should not be in this body!”
According to Hale, the clerk at a local store used masculine language with her including “bud, bro, and man.” Hale wrote the experience was “accurate to who I am as a guy inside.”
She wrote, “If only all other men [and] boys could see me that way, that my body doesn’t make me a female.”
After relaying her experience being identified as a male, Hale wrote that being misgendered makes her “not want to exist.” She wrote, “I’m just damn [tired] of being called [and] identified by a gender I am not,” then lamented having a female figure.
At the top of the entry, Hale also seemed to question whether her alleged autism diagnosis was a result of her “male brain.”
Hale also seemed to connect transgenderism with religion.
On the first page of the notebook, Hale questioned, “why does my brain not work right?” Then wrote, “Cause I was born wrong.” She then wrote, “Nothing on earth can save me… never ending pain. Religion won’t save.”
In an undated, two-sentence entry approximately 60 pages later, Hale wrote, “The [cocoon] of my old self will die when I leave my body behind and the boy in me will be free; in the butterfly transformation; the real me.”
She concluded, “If God won’t give me a boy body in heaven, then Jesus is a f*****.”
The Star reported on Wednesday that Hale wrote a three-page entry titled “My Imaginary Penis.” In the entry, Hale detailed her struggles with transgenderism and being accepted by her parents. She also wrote about fantasies of heterosexual sex that she enacted with stuffed animals.
Hale also referenced transgenderism and non-binary people in a political rant, declaring, “So now in America, it makes one a criminal to have a gun or, be transgender, or non-binary. God I hate those s***head politicians.”
Both Star News Digital Media, Inc., which is the parent company of The Star, and its editor-in-chief, Michael Patrick Leahy, are plaintiffs in lawsuits seeking to compel the Metro Nashville Police Department (MNPD) and the FBI to release Hale’s writings, including those that have been called a manifesto.
On Tuesday, The Star published an FBI memo sent to MNPD Chief John Drake in May 2023. Though the memo did not mention Hale by name, it seemed to refer to such writings as “legacy tokens” and “strongly” advised against releasing them due to concerns about “false narratives” and “conspiracy theories” spreading among the public.
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Tom Pappert is the lead reporter for The Tennessee Star, and also reports for The Pennsylvania Daily Star and The Arizona Sun Times. Follow Tom on X/Twitter. Email tips to pappert.tom@proton.me.
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