Community Munchausen's by Internet (Malingerers, Munchies, Spoonies, etc) - Feigning Illnesses for Attention

[Flourishing Pinecone ❧]

young people generally don't yet have a litmus test for what it is to be really, truly, badly sick and incapacitated

Yes! Some of the most annoying patients when it comes to pain are young men. They get an injury or have surgery and it's the first time they've really experienced pain so they wail and moan about it.
But I've seen 80 year old Nanna's post abdominal surgery only ask for paracetamol because for her, compared to the kids she birthed/the arm she broke/the kidney stone she had etc etc, it's not that bad.

 

[Rose The Idiot]

There's so many questions and most of them revolve around my sexuality.

Stop worrying about the poop... I'm not into that.

Also stomas of any sort can not be penetrated. Personally even I think that's repulsive.

Look, if I could get off the Internet and leave all of this behind, I woud. But I have to fucking do this, ok?! That video was to tell people NOT to be me! The reason I do this is because it's all I can.

The perm? Because I don't like my face and it improves my esteem.

The glasses? Thankfully no longer needed. But I hated my face.

Why do you even care about my appearance? My ugliness doesn't even matter.

I see a psychiatrist, a therapist, and have had full psych testing.

I have OCD, PTSD (CPTSD isn't a diagnosis in the US) Depression and anxiety.

When submitting for SSI, I was still a child. I was not fully part of the process. But I was undiagnosed at that point so we gave them all my records. I'm genuinely unsure if I was given it for psych or physical reasons. But last year it was changed to permanent physical disability.

I actually believed there was a problem with my sexuality too. The verdict from the psychiatrist I saw was that it was not an issue so long as I followed a few rules.

I did intensive therapy for 30 hours a week until I WASN'T the problem. Took 2 years and a lot of work. I learned to hate myself, destroyed myself, and then became the person I'm proud of today.

Illness Questions

Stiff person syndrome is diagnosed with an EMG of paraspinal muscles. There should be continuous motor activity. This is impossible to fake because they can actually tell by response times (heck something like that, ask Piquet) if someone has it psychologically. This could be Munchausen or FND.
Mine was positive

Antibodies are either there or not. If they're there in high enough quantity you can confirm a seropositive stiff person syndrome

If they're not there you may have seronegative SPS.

There's also the Valium test where they see how Valium works on you. For me, the spasm stops and I'm in pain, but not experiencing any sort of high. Pain meds give me a high(?) where I feel full of lead. It's actually quite unpleasant. But maybe others enjoy it?

I tried for years before getting the trach. There are other options, I just ran out of them.

I have brainstem involvement and progressive nerve damage due to a different more minor condition.

But that caused dysautonomia which is why I'm what I am.

Someone way back asked me if I regretted it. I know what they meant is faking my illness, which I didn't do.

However, if I had, I think I would, because I can't imagine any amount of attention being worth this pain. And the pain at this point is inevitable. And, even if I was not sick with SPS at all, I would have signed myself up for death. I would at the very least hope someone would regret that.

As I am, I don't regret my procedures, as they improved my life and gave me it. But I'm in pain. The end.

For those telling me to take my tubes out, it's not that easy. I've asked.

All in all, I'm not leaving the Internet. I know who I am, and so do the people who matter to me. But this is my final reply. I'm sorry if I didn't get to your question, it was um... A lot more than expected.

Also to the one person who called me anorexic for some reason. I'm at the high end of a healthy weight. I'm borderline fat. And I got to choose my weight too! Are you alright? Please tell me you're talking about someone else because if you see me as anorexic I am terrified about how you view yourself.

 

[Rose The Idiot]

Rose, I'm honestly not here to judge you, just give you some advice if you're willing to consider it.

Fetishes have a way of escalating very quickly if you feed them. Like drugs, they hit the dopamine part of your brain and you need to go more extreme to feel the same high. I am glad that you found someone that appreciates you, but I also get the sense that your relationship may be escalating this activity even more to the point where you are doing serious harm to your health and any chance of recovery you may have. You can choose to be used, of course, but you can also choose better.

Ask yourself what would happen to your relationship if you wanted to stop this. Ask yourself, too, if you can take a break for a while. What would happen? If you don't think you can, it's likely you are in the throes of an addiction. Sex can be addictive, too. If you do indeed have a limited amount of time left, is this really how you want to spend it?

I think you are someone who is very vulnerable. I don't think you hold yourself in high regard and I don't think you believe you deserve better. But you absolutely do. This kind of degradation isn't the only love you are capable of receiving.

Just think about it. No need to reply to my post.

I will consider this. My fiance always treats me with incredible love. At least the way I see it. I think I'll take my photosets but for the rest of it, I'll wait two weeks, see how I do.

For the person who thinks I work in a nursery and at the zoo, I had to quit. I haven't been near a child in years. I'm actually quite scared of them. And yes, it is difficult to avoid children. I'm finally ok with minimal interaction but have genuinely gotten sick from the panic. You can put the pieces together yourself.


I'm also getting sterilized. I don't want any more things like me existing.

 

[Kate Farms Shill]

You brazen cunt. You're a danger to children because you're promoting the sexualization of childhood and children's bodies to an audience of pedophiles. Which is what you're STILL doing by posting this on your fucking fetish accounts.


I felt a tiny, tiny bit sad for you thinking you'd been exposed to this shit way too young to know the dangers and gotten groomed. The same way I'd feel bad for my nieces if I found out some perverts groomed them. But at this point YOU are the pervert doing the grooming.

And yes, when you decide that BABIES are an appropriate target for your genital torture fetish, there is something desperately fucking wrong with your "sexuality."

Antibodies are either there or not. If they're there in high enough quantity you can confirm a seropositive stiff person syndrome

The antibodies were there because of the IVIG.

The valium test is based on self reported success. It's like me saying alcohol is my medicine because I don't want to put a gun to my head as long as there's vodka in my glass.

 

[Rose The Idiot]

You brazen cunt. You're a danger to children because you're promoting the sexualization of childhood and children's bodies to an audience of pedophiles. Which is what you're STILL doing by posting this on your fucking fetish accounts.
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I felt a tiny, tiny bit sad for you thinking you'd been exposed to this shit way too young to know the dangers and gotten groomed. The same way I'd feel bad for my nieces if I found out some perverts groomed them. But at this point YOU are the pervert doing the grooming.

And yes, when you decide that BABIES are an appropriate target for your genital torture fetish, there is something desperately fucking wrong with your "sexuality."

Um... You realize that's an 18+ account. You can change it in your settings. I also only use 18+ tags.

They also don't test after IVIG. There's no point.

Valium was administered in a hospital and my reaction was monitored. Isn't it supposed to make you high?

 

[Kate Farms Shill]

Because that 18+ warning stopped you when you were a minor.

 

[bamboozled]

Um... You realize that's an 18+ account. You can change it in your settings. I also only use 18+ tags.

Since you are answering questions can you explain the GFM for your service dog then? Why did you not choose to apply to the two organizations that are offering mobility service dogs free of charge? Or did you need the money for something else?

This one even gives you free housing while they train you to work with your dog

*mobilefag sry for screwups

 

[TheBigZee]

When submitting for SSI, I was still a child. I was not fully part of the process. But I was undiagnosed at that point so we gave them all my records. I'm genuinely unsure if I was given it for psych or physical reasons. But last year it was changed to permanent physical disability.

I couldn't scroll past all the pictures to read the full timeline. If you're still making fetish content, please stop. If you're serious that you made a mistake, you really should consider advocacy. I'm not sure where/how you were selling this stuff, but you are a vulnerable person. Even if you made money you were exploited. If some treatment comes along and you can have a career this content will follow you forever.

Edit: Also, if you've never had a part time job you should try to find one. If you've converted to full SSDI because your mom turned 62 or became disabled, the work rules are different. Watching a video of you pulling that damn tube out of your throat is some of the grossest shit I've ever seen, but you have a generally pleasant demeanor.

 

[Lolzalolol2324]

Rose— child abuse fucks you up. It’s clear you have some sense of the ways it has fucked you up. But the way you’re currently coping is harmful and dangerous.

I don’t care what you do in the privacy of your own home. I don’t care what you wear or what you do with your fiancé. The problem is what you are sharing with the world.

Look at the comments your fetish pictures get. Who do you think finds it hot when you’re wearing a diaper and posting sex shit? Your audience is men who get hard at the thought of abusing children. This is how you are sexualizing children. I don’t care what your intention is— the people who get off to what you post are predators.

I’m not sure if you’re misunderstanding or don’t care or so deeply in denial that you can’t see this, but your content is made for pedophiles. You are normalizing their urge to abuse children. You are encouraging it with your pictures and descriptions.

If you actually care about “doing better,” stop doing that. Keep working in therapy, keep your fetish inside the privacy of your own home, and realize that the material you are posting is harmful.

 

[Rose The Idiot]

You brazen cunt. You're a danger to children because you're promoting the sexualization of childhood and children's bodies to an audience of pedophiles. Which is what you're STILL doing by posting this on your fucking fetish accounts.
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I felt a tiny, tiny bit sad for you thinking you'd been exposed to this shit way too young to know the dangers and gotten groomed. The same way I'd feel bad for my nieces if I found out some perverts groomed them. But at this point YOU are the pervert doing the grooming.

And yes, when you decide that BABIES are an appropriate target for your genital torture fetish, there is something desperately fucking wrong with your "sexuality."


The antibodies were there because of the IVIG.

The valium test is based on self reported success. It's like me saying alcohol is my medicine because I don't want to put a gun to my head as long as there's vodka in my glass.

Oops accidentally quoted

Because that 18+ warning stopped you when you were a minor.

Actually I did stop at 18+ warnings. But this is more than that it's an actual account block you can't get past it unless you lie about your age and then it's out of my control.

Since you are answering questions can you explain the GFM for your service dog then? Why did you not choose to apply to the two organizations that are offering mobility service dogs free of charge? Or did you need the money for something else?

This one even gives you free housing while they train you to work with your dog

*mobilefag sry for screwups

I really really tried actually. I applied to so many organizations. They all said I was too unpredictable and since they only train for that 2 year period, it would be hard to add new tasks when I needed them.

I couldn't scroll past all the pictures to read the full timeline. If you're still making fetish content, please stop. If you're serious that you made a mistake, you really should consider advocacy. I'm not sure where/how you were selling this stuff, but you are a vulnerable person. Even if you made money you were exploited. If some treatment comes along and you can have a career this content will follow you forever.

This is my career. I enjoy it, but it's too late to stop and make something of myself. However I am planning a 'career' right now, returning to volunteering. I don't feel exploited most of the time. But occasionally I do make content fully designed for others that can be uncomfortable to make.

There's no future for me. For heavens sake I didn't come here to try to rewrite my life. I'm just trying to save enough money he's not homeless when I die ok. Any of you would do this in my position.


I don't think I'm wrong in what I'm doing. I think I'm cringe. But I'm an adult with an adults body. These people aren't into kids. Otherwise they'd be looking at people who y'know, didn't have a pretty sizable set of tits.

 

[Randomrando]

@Rose The Idiot so were you diddled or nah

 

[Rose The Idiot]

Rose— child abuse fucks you up. It’s clear you have some sense of the ways it has fucked you up. But the way you’re currently coping is harmful and dangerous.

I don’t care what you do in the privacy of your own home. I don’t care what you wear or what you do with your fiancé. The problem is what you are sharing with the world.

Look at the comments your fetish pictures get. Who do you think finds it hot when you’re wearing a diaper and posting sex shit? Your audience is men who get hard at the thought of abusing children. This is how you are sexualizing children. I don’t care what your intention is— the people who get off to what you post are predators.

I’m not sure if you’re misunderstanding or don’t care or so deeply in denial that you can’t see this, but your content is made for pedophiles. You are normalizing their urge to abuse children. You are encouraging it with your pictures and descriptions.

If you actually care about “doing better,” stop doing that. Keep working in therapy, keep your fetish inside the privacy of your own home, and realize that the material you are posting is harmful.

Sorry this was an accidental quote

I couldn't scroll past all the pictures to read the full timeline. If you're still making fetish content, please stop. If you're serious that you made a mistake, you really should consider advocacy. I'm not sure where/how you were selling this stuff, but you are a vulnerable person. Even if you made money you were exploited. If some treatment comes along and you can have a career this content will follow you forever.

Edit: Also, if you've never had a part time job you should try to find one. If you've converted to full SSDI because your mom turned 62 or became disabled, the work rules are different. Watching a video of you pulling that damn tube out of your throat is some of the grossest shit I've ever seen, but you have a generally pleasant demeanor.

I'm hoping soon I can be a receptionist! I really like talking to people and making them smile. I think I could do a good job.

 

[bamboozled]

really really tried actually. I applied to so many organizations. They all said I was too unpredictable and since they only train for that 2 year period, it would be hard to add new tasks when I needed them

I can honestly tell you that if so many organizations told you no and it's including the one I've listed then there is a reason other than unpredictably.

My assumption is that you are applying with the expectation with the service dog to save your life. As much as our Disney World service dog subjects scream at bystanders "this dog could save my life." They can't and shouldn't be put in that position.

Dogs are dogs after all no matter how well-trained. The whole purpose of assistance dogs was/is to IMPROVE QUALITY OF LIFE not to save someone's life - not sure where the verbage has skewed to where owners consider them life saving medical devices now... Anyways, I suggest sticking with the 24/7 caregiver if you truly are at risk of dying any second.

 

[TheBigZee]

I'm hoping soon I can be a receptionist! I really like talking to people and making them smile. I think I could do a good job.

Rose, yes you can. Keep working on your mental and physical health.

There's no future for me. For heavens sake I didn't come here to try to rewrite my life. I'm just trying to save enough money he's not homeless when I die ok. Any of you would do this in my position.

Are you talking about your BF? I've been in a similar situation. Even if I made kink content, it would only be enough for a decade at most. I helped my partner get their issues treated, find meaningful work, and establish long term supports. If I die or wind up in a nursing home, they can stand on their own now forever.

 

[GibMoneyPls]

I will consider this. My fiance always treats me with incredible love. At least the way I see it.

LOVE is when your SO brings home AIDs from his true love...

How you don't see how this perpetuates child sex abuse...

I don't believe you're this naive though. You just care more about money than any kind of morality.

 

[Prokhor Zakharov]

Mine was positive

Prove it.

 

[one_time_user]

Maybe they won't give you a dog because they googled you and saw your baby play porn with dogs. I wouldn't give you a fucking plant.

 

[CoolFool]

I was someone who gave PhysicsGirl the benefit of the doubt since her munchie case is not typical, and I also do know of people who got covid and suffered horribly from it for months afterwards. I even thought maybe whatever illness she has wasn't real but that she truly believed it to be true, she wasn't intentionally trying to scam anyone. Maybe she just got super sick and then it turned into depression that she couldn't shake, Etc..

However, after seeing her latest video I now 100% believe this is bullshit. If you are bed bound for well over a year, there will be obvious signs. There is no way someone is completely bed bound for over a year and still manages to look that healthy. Eating healthy food and taking supplements might keep you from getting underweight, but it won't prevent muscle wasting. I work with people who are bed bound for various reasons, and even younger and healthier people than her still end up looking like shit after only a few weeks of being stuck in bed and unable to do anything else.

That latest video shows how she cannot even feed herself, the husband has to feed her like she's a baby ffs... So I'm really expected to believe that a woman who is so sick that she can't feed herself and apparently does nothing but sleep all day, still somehow appears to have muscle tone in her arms and has a healthy looking face after a year and a half of this? Yeah, no.

I don't know if this started out as a grift or later turned that way once the money started rolling in, either way she isn't being honest. I remember some people were speculating that the husband isn't in on the grift and that he's also being taken in for a ride by Dianne. But he surely must be involved, how could Dianna hide herself getting enough daily movement to stay healthy from him? And how could she hide herself doing other things besides sleeping all day?

 

[hat horse]

Some people who go through childhood sexual abuse become very sex-averse. They don't want to be perceived as sexual in any way. They struggle to be intimate even with a trusted romantic partner, because any sexual contact triggers horrible flashbacks. They feel repulsed by even the fairly "tame" and common kinks.

...and then there's people like Rose. I do wonder, is it really fair to blame all of this disgusting fetish content on her history of being sexually abused? There are other survivors out there who (rightfully) consider this shit to be completely repulsive and would consider Rose's fetishized existence to be a fucking living nightmare. There must be something actually faulty with the wiring in her brain for her to turn out this way. People like her, who purposefully sexualize children's things, who post it all publicly and normalize the sexualization and exploitation of childhood, are absolutely disgusting. Sure, she's not as bad as an actual child-abusing pedophile, but she has more in common with them than anyone ever fucking should.

I used to feel sympathetic towards you, Rose. If I didn't know the extent of everything, I would have willingly offered you practical advice about building a life outside of trauma and mental illness. But now? I find it very difficult to have any kind emotions towards someone this depraved. Yeah maybe this is all some elaborate form of psychological self-harm and you don't actually enjoy people getting off to you pretending to be a toddler - in the unlikely event that is all true, that still does not make it harmless or acceptable behavior.

Fuck. I don't even drink, and I need a drink after reading all that. Rose, I hope you drop your phone in the sewer and your wi-fi router explodes and you never go on the internet again.

 

[TheBigZee]

Stiff person syndrome is diagnosed with an EMG of paraspinal muscles. There should be continuous motor activity. This is impossible to fake because they can actually tell by response times (heck something like that, ask Piquet) if someone has it psychologically. This could be Munchausen or FND.
Mine was positive

Have you ever exaggerated any of your symptoms/episodes to make a better video?

When you look in the mirror at yourself, how do you feel?