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She got her fix of attention and left lol
Summer Nicole Pelkey / Summer Rain / cloverneko / ennuigod / uirusu - BPD, Schizo, Fishtank Contestant. Falsely Accused Sam Hyde & Jet Neptune of Rape. Might Got Fucked in the Ass by Jon. Dating a 35-year-old Internet Tough Guy Cryptodude. Infected with Herpes. Victim of Swamp Magic. Ex-pooner and Abortionist
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🔧 At about Midnight EST I am going to completely fuck up the site trying to fix something.
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Found on /bant/, apparently from her IG story
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also from /bant/. still paying for insta ads and trying to make it in hollywood I suppose
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I know summer has a vagina but everything about this picture is troon energy.
She has the same type of hair and glasses troons use to hide their manly features and receding hairline as well as a hat. also the hunched over pose to reduce the hulking hight they have and shoulder width.
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After all, what purpose would paying back her debt have? That bridge is burned and balancing accounts would not materially benefit her.
It being the right thing to do apparently doesn't enter into the consideration.
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I really want to feel sympathy for you Summer but you make it so hard. You contradicted yourself by coming back to this boring thread already, fuck off seriously. Fuck off or shut the fuck up, it's easy. You and Jeremy, shut the fuck up, that's all you have to do, for a while at least, go live your life, stop showing it.
And pay your god damn room-mate back, if you ever ask yourself "would doing the right thing really matter?" you're being a cunt. Cheers, get well.
And pay your god damn room-mate back, if you ever ask yourself "would doing the right thing really matter?" you're being a cunt. Cheers, get well.
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big man
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damn summer looks absolutely horrifying in that new fishtank video, i always forget that she heavily depends on filters when posting herself online
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They did her dirty by putting sinister music on her segment just like in the BTS video lol. I guess it will be her theme music in the edited cuts.
Also, LMAO at Abi
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She has really promenant chudlines on her face
Mr.F
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Makeup is witchcraft and filters are demonic.
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Summer trauma-dumping on her Tumblr.
Must be a response to Abi lol
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Jeremy comes to the rescue
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the fact that so many people still like me and think i’m pretty and sympathize with my mental health struggles gives me hope and staying off of sites where people just talk about how much they hate me anonymously is helping my mental health too
its hard when your brain is constantly attacking you and therefore attacking everyone around you when you’re at your lowest and it’s not an excuse but just an explanation as to why i constantly self sabotage my life
my bpd comes from being abused emotionally verbally and physically as a child from my mom, my closest friends when i was a kid wrre familiar with our struggles, she was an alcoholic and i was mentally ill even back then because of the abuse i had already endured in a single mom household, i would run from home a lot, we would get into physical fights, i remember being strangled on the floor when i was a minor on more than one occasion
it got a lot worse when my mom was prescribed xanax and started losing everything and blaming me, accusing me of stealing her things, if she couldn’t find a lipstick i would walk home from school to find the house completely torn up and dirty and her screaming at me for stealing her lipstick, even though i had no idea where it was, and i’d have to clean it all up and console her and say i was sorry for stealing something i didn’t steal
she got into three car accidents in less than a few months and a dui, so things became even more tense during my teenage years, i became incredibly rebellious and hateful towards her because i blamed her for my shitty life and shortcomings. i cut all my hair off, changed my name because i hated having one connected to my mom, started saying i was a boy, gave myself piercings and tattoos at 14, and starting drinking hard liquor heavily and dangerously without supervision. i started to put myself in dangerous situations because i didn’t care what happened to me anymore and ended up being assaulted at a new year’s party by someone ten years older than me as a minor and just came home, hid the clothes i wore that night in a closet and told my mom i was just hungover. i begged my mom for therapy and medication and we started getting treatment for me through a low cost/free mental health care center in my home town. we attempted family therapy, but it often ended up with my mom flipping me off, storming out, yelling at me and making me cry etc. my mental illness was making me a horrible person spiraling out of control but i felt like nothing could be done because i was in an environment that wasn’t healthy for me and only encouraged my self destructive habits. i would get so drunk off of cheap vodka at a friends house at only fourteen and throw up everywhere and pass out for hours and felt that this was somehow normal. i started getting into relationships that weren’t good for me, all of which slowly fell apart and i felt i had to escape at the last minute only with encouragement from friends, because i was and still am in a lot of ways incapable of putting myself first.
i ruined a lot of friendships of my own accord due to being so mentally ill beyond help, threatening self harm and suicide and attempting multiple times, being hospitalized, taking out my frustrations on others… and not understanding that i was getting worse and worse
i was in inpatient treatment for four months which significantly helped despite me hating it the entire time.. i enrolled in a therapeutic classroom through a special needs IEP and managed to graduate my senior year, something that wouldn’t have been possible earlier due to my truancy and constant mental health episodes..
now i’m here, recovering after making another huge detrimental mistake but still feeling like with hard work and therapy and medical help i can get better with my bpd and learn how to go through the world independently without losing my mind, and that one day with my effort i can go into remission and be happy and nondestructive.. and i forgive my mom despite everything, because forgiving her for me is the only way i can move forward and heal. i cant as an adult hate her forever for not raising me correctly because now it’s my job to raise myself in a way where i can recover and heal from everything and try to be normal again.
the worst part about a mental health episode is not knowing that you’re in one. i would say in november-december i was suffering a very severe mental health episode due to a breakup and acted out terribly, was very scary, and constantly on the brink, but because i felt i had this “opportunity to change my life”, i entered a state of euphoria where i felt like i was truly ok and at baseline when really i was near manic and should have never gone anywhere outside of my home state, should never have attempted any big life change. but i had no idea it was that bad even though my best friend told me it was, i couldn’t understand because i felt so elated to have this chance to be someone else. i was wrong. i couldn’t understand anything when i broke down at my worst, i was near catatonic and confused and scared and was not in touch with reality at all. im glad that i am not in that state of mind anymore but very sad that i could not be helped, and ended up taking it out once again on a lot of people who i loved and cared about through self sabatoge. but you live and you learn. i cant give up just yet.
its hard when your brain is constantly attacking you and therefore attacking everyone around you when you’re at your lowest and it’s not an excuse but just an explanation as to why i constantly self sabotage my life
my bpd comes from being abused emotionally verbally and physically as a child from my mom, my closest friends when i was a kid wrre familiar with our struggles, she was an alcoholic and i was mentally ill even back then because of the abuse i had already endured in a single mom household, i would run from home a lot, we would get into physical fights, i remember being strangled on the floor when i was a minor on more than one occasion
it got a lot worse when my mom was prescribed xanax and started losing everything and blaming me, accusing me of stealing her things, if she couldn’t find a lipstick i would walk home from school to find the house completely torn up and dirty and her screaming at me for stealing her lipstick, even though i had no idea where it was, and i’d have to clean it all up and console her and say i was sorry for stealing something i didn’t steal
she got into three car accidents in less than a few months and a dui, so things became even more tense during my teenage years, i became incredibly rebellious and hateful towards her because i blamed her for my shitty life and shortcomings. i cut all my hair off, changed my name because i hated having one connected to my mom, started saying i was a boy, gave myself piercings and tattoos at 14, and starting drinking hard liquor heavily and dangerously without supervision. i started to put myself in dangerous situations because i didn’t care what happened to me anymore and ended up being assaulted at a new year’s party by someone ten years older than me as a minor and just came home, hid the clothes i wore that night in a closet and told my mom i was just hungover. i begged my mom for therapy and medication and we started getting treatment for me through a low cost/free mental health care center in my home town. we attempted family therapy, but it often ended up with my mom flipping me off, storming out, yelling at me and making me cry etc. my mental illness was making me a horrible person spiraling out of control but i felt like nothing could be done because i was in an environment that wasn’t healthy for me and only encouraged my self destructive habits. i would get so drunk off of cheap vodka at a friends house at only fourteen and throw up everywhere and pass out for hours and felt that this was somehow normal. i started getting into relationships that weren’t good for me, all of which slowly fell apart and i felt i had to escape at the last minute only with encouragement from friends, because i was and still am in a lot of ways incapable of putting myself first.
i ruined a lot of friendships of my own accord due to being so mentally ill beyond help, threatening self harm and suicide and attempting multiple times, being hospitalized, taking out my frustrations on others… and not understanding that i was getting worse and worse
i was in inpatient treatment for four months which significantly helped despite me hating it the entire time.. i enrolled in a therapeutic classroom through a special needs IEP and managed to graduate my senior year, something that wouldn’t have been possible earlier due to my truancy and constant mental health episodes..
now i’m here, recovering after making another huge detrimental mistake but still feeling like with hard work and therapy and medical help i can get better with my bpd and learn how to go through the world independently without losing my mind, and that one day with my effort i can go into remission and be happy and nondestructive.. and i forgive my mom despite everything, because forgiving her for me is the only way i can move forward and heal. i cant as an adult hate her forever for not raising me correctly because now it’s my job to raise myself in a way where i can recover and heal from everything and try to be normal again.
the worst part about a mental health episode is not knowing that you’re in one. i would say in november-december i was suffering a very severe mental health episode due to a breakup and acted out terribly, was very scary, and constantly on the brink, but because i felt i had this “opportunity to change my life”, i entered a state of euphoria where i felt like i was truly ok and at baseline when really i was near manic and should have never gone anywhere outside of my home state, should never have attempted any big life change. but i had no idea it was that bad even though my best friend told me it was, i couldn’t understand because i felt so elated to have this chance to be someone else. i was wrong. i couldn’t understand anything when i broke down at my worst, i was near catatonic and confused and scared and was not in touch with reality at all. im glad that i am not in that state of mind anymore but very sad that i could not be helped, and ended up taking it out once again on a lot of people who i loved and cared about through self sabatoge. but you live and you learn. i cant give up just yet.
to a mentally ill person suicide has always felt like this glowing red exit sign in the back of my head that i can go to when i can’t handle life anymore but i’m realizing it’s more like a dirty plate in my room that i’m never gonna wash i just keep going oh god i really should wash that it’s all gross and moldy (i do not actually have moldy plates in my room but am using metaphor) but i never do and it just sort of becomes part of the room that i live with and it’s gross but it’s not that bad and it’s manageable
Must be a response to Abi lol
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Jeremy comes to the rescue
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"the fact that so many people still like me and think i'm pretty..."
i thought this was a strange way to start off her post, it seems like all those youtube comments really got to her.
i think it's safe to say that we can expect a lot more trauma essays as soon as the first few episodes drop. i hope they include some of the basement footage
i thought this was a strange way to start off her post, it seems like all those youtube comments really got to her.
i think it's safe to say that we can expect a lot more trauma essays as soon as the first few episodes drop. i hope they include some of the basement footage
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welcome back @Disappear Here
didn't she say that she was going to get a job and stay off websites like these? she always logs back in whenever there is major fishtank news, sam and goran's internet show probably lives rent free in her head at this point
didn't she say that she was going to get a job and stay off websites like these? she always logs back in whenever there is major fishtank news, sam and goran's internet show probably lives rent free in her head at this point
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Coincidentally, she DFE all of her socials as well. I guess she doesn't like the fact that her trauma dump is being posted and archived here. That "Last seen" must have been her trying to hide her activity lol.
big man
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i wonder if jeremy will still white knight for her on twitter during all of this, she will definitely come back and post about her multiple trauma stories as soon as the first couple season 2 episodes drop
also it just occurred to me that she may have been trying to delete her KF account since she's in DFE mode right now. too bad though lol, "eternal summer" will be archived forever
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She is probably butthurt that even Muaro was invited back for the vampire shit. she is like the only one not asked back.
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Summer’s boyfriend is so retarded. Dude thinks he’s the “coolest” guy in the world, and claims he’s “better off” than anyone else on the internet. Just ‘cause you know more than 50 obscure gay ass indie rock bands doesn’t mean you’re different. Dudes like him are the worst, we know you’re a fag and like it in the butt secretly, seems like the type of dude to sucker himself into thinking he’s in love with a trauma-dumping BPD girl with mannerisms of a toddler. Sounds familiar?
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jeremy is a hilarious freak, he always acts so condescending and angry whenever someone potentially brushes up against his ego. it's funny as hell watching him try to portray himself as this masculine badass on twitter, all while his distressed girlfriend goes on 4chan to write about doing anal with an actual retard
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I don't have any clips of it but yesterday on Fishtank they started letting through TTS about Summer being raped and Vance wept, everyone was laughing about it.