Stephanie Cianfriglia / Sapphire Crimson Claw / Yarrow Brown / the-ghost-fucker / transmascdruid / anarchoenby77 / darktwistedpussy / Druid of Endicot - Xe/xyr ghost-fucker, womb wizard, hand sanitizer sommelier, trans-boomer, violently abuses her elderly parents, has sexual fantasies about raping children

[Pee Your Pants]

An epic slapfight happened today that caused her to have a massive meltdown, suicide bait, lock her account and go on a hiatus. The reason? Such a classic old school Tumblr complaint: muh trauma being triggered by images that you can avoid by turning off your goddamn computer. I have no notes (except 'LMAO'), just enjoy it for what it is.

Spoiler: People have PTSD, Brenda.

 

[Helvetia]

go on staph, aaron bushnell yourself. free palestine. you can do it. or do nothing, because you're fat and fucking lazy.

 

[pink cigarettes]

Funny that staph just stated that woman's picture for no Reaosn. "this is objectifying" apart for when you readily reclaim world like slut and whore and say it's just bodies and everyone is beautiful. "manwhore 4 till".
Oh that's right, men get to have ownership over wanting sex, women don't.

Funny that she says she only hated wen when she was one. What an odd thing to say.
It's like, I only hated black people when I was one. I only hate painters when i was one. It doesn't work for anything else. So why did she hate women? Because she felt in competition with them maybe, for her boy chasing, which clearly takes the top spot as main passion in her life.
She had to move onto the astral plain as an unattractive woman.. But has happily stayed there as a "masc".
Its not like she's suddenly gotten confidence to actually move to real life. So she probably does still jsut hate women but also hates everyone else just as much so it doesn't show up as hard. Apart from when they are abstract decorations for her morality to be demonstrated. Actual real people all suck.
The Brown and the poor are great unless they are real, and are men or women.

She only hated women when she "was one" because by her own retarded social justice rules, she isn't allowed to hate women now. She's pretending to be a man, or "masc," or "bxy," or whatever. And when men hate women, it's naughty and misogynist. Ergo, she can no longer hate women.
Perfect example of how all of this is for pretend and not based on any of Stephanie's actual life experiences or beliefs.

 

[redbarchetta]

New vlog. It's painful to watch and I haven't finished yet, she pauses every three words to gather her thoughts consistently.

archive: [LINK]

Spoiler: Youtube Transcript

hello everyone uh trans masc druid here
again and I apologize for once again

forgetting that this channel exists um

so I just will briefly bring everyone up

to speed with my practice

um I've

been diving heavily into um

learning the actual ins and outs of

sather and a lot of it has uh been

um two books in

particular and I will link um to them in

a comment in a pin

comment

um but they have been the best guides

that I have found for um

accurate and traditional

practice and exactly what that

entails so

um a lot of it has been

divination and

um learning the runes

specifically and um the other side of it

has been Journey

work which I've done

um a lot as a druid and not as much in

under the

um the Norse tradition or

modalities and

um there's also a very big emphasis

on the voice and

singing and given

that I am transgender

this has been a bit of a an

ick because even as I sit

here with about a year and a half on um

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testosterone I don't feel like I still

don't feel as if my voice is where I

want it to

be so so uh with Loki's

encouragement I am going to start um

gender affirming voice training with a

speech

pathologist and um in a little over a

week I also have my gender affirming

Care Checkup and I'm going to let them

know that I want to increase my

dose so

um that's where that stands but terms of

practice

um I have been trying to

um improve my pronunciation with the old

Norse

words

um The One book The One sather book has

a very good um chant for

journeying that is actually an excerpt

of a wardruna

song so if you

um the name of the song is a

truthless a rootless tree

falls and the chant is at

about 2 minutes and 45 seconds into the

song if I'm not mistaken

I'll also link that song in a in a pin

comment if you so by Design

um this

chant the author explains that is is

very good for preparing the journey

because it calls

on most of the

beings um

involved in Norse

cosmology the AER the

norer the

Vanner the

Valkyries and I believe also the

ancestors which

are so you've got your bases covered for

uh protection

the other vocal

um I had been working with

Galder but I did not realize that there

are also two other forms of vocal

practice within the Norse

tradition one is known as

um

varder

or vth

Loa which is a

which literally translates to W

song but it is actually a song for any

purpose that you obtain through um going

on a journey to any of the nine Realms

and um bringing back um the words with

you very similar to um an iaro which um

I learned when I was studying um General

Shamanism and a lot of it was based off

of South American uh Shamanism and I

stopped that because I felt like it was

being culturally appropriative um and I

wanted to delve into my own ancestral

tradition so

um yes so it's similar to the io that it

is a song that you received from the

spirits and then use in practice and the

other is

AAL which is a spell song um

specifically a spell song so

um I get I write my own

cavals and they usually involve um

German which is not my language but for

some reason I feel more authoritative

when I

command in German so

um I'll pull them up and I'll give you

an

example

um sorry bear with me I'm opening up the

document

um two V

will I command you to V will you will

listen to

vas you will leave to

vas you are banished

toas do not dally

toas depart this place to vas will feel

my rage to vas will go go now toas will

go go

now and that is for

banishing a

spirit and what

um toas means um do what I want

basically so I don't know why

I again feel the

need to shout things in German to feel

that I'm getting my message across but

maybe it's because I've

been listening to a lot of

Ramstein um it just feels

like it it it carries iies

um I don't want to say that I'm not

trying to say that you know the

stereotypical American thing of German

sounds angry it just it just sounds like

um to

me that I can say it loudly and again

that's that's probably from listening

know a lot of

Ramstein

uh but um

yeah I've I've been writing my own

cavals and I have been obtaining the

vard loer from

um going on Journeys and a lot of that

has been um to

yenim and I think that's that's due to

um an alliance with

Loki things have gotten

very I don't know if if this was faded

probably things have gotten very

um intimate with Loki let's let's say

that

um I had

a button made

that pretty much shows that

um that

says soran of

sliger which which pretty much

translates to the fact that I

will let Loki use me in a sexual

manner which

uh I'm finding is pretty common across

um those who work with him I don't know

why he is even depicted in an old

Icelandic manuscript masturbating

so it it was apparently known to people

back then that he was the

um kind of sexually forward one and he

is certainly known to people now as the

sexually forward one but

um to me it does not feel much different

being in a relationship with God from

being in a relationship with a human

Spirit except for the fact that

um I don't see him

right in front of

me it's more of

um feels more like a video

call but inside my head so I'm like

seeing um seeing him very clearly inside

my head or I'm hearing him very clearly

speak inside my

head but it's not it doesn't feel on the

same same way as when I speak to a human

Spirit or a

white that is right in front of me and I

can like Reach Out And Touch I hope that

makes sense if if you don't if you're

not familiar with deity work and um I

decide that I want to get more strictly

in depth with that um in a future video

I will

um but that's just catching everybody up

to speed of

of how things have been

going and now

um I just want to briefly explain what

um the next few videos will

be I am doing

a we're not calling it a dieta this

time I am just going under the tutelage

of a plant Spirit

again this time being mug

wart I also have a have found a very

excellent book of um working with plant

Spirits

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under within the Norse tradition and

I'll also link that Below in a in the

pin

comment and

um so mugart starting on July's new

moon or somewhere soon

after I will

start exactly one lunar cycle so between

the 5th

and around the 21st 22

of um being under the strict tutelage of

mugart and she is

um both in within the

Druid druidic and the um Nordic

tradition she is very revered as a plant

teacher so I'm highly looking forward to

it

so I will try to post

a vlog a week about

that and

um and I'm going to try something

different because um looking at my

analytics people don't watch me talk for

a very long

time and I can certainly understand that

because I never watch rewatch these

videos myself I don't like to watch

myself talk or express

myself so I

am going to

bring I'm going to bring you with

me I was gonna I was gonna gonna

say the actual type of phone I have but

nobody cares about that I'm going to

bring you with

me when I go out if hope hopefully I can

go out as I film this there is a storm

blowing

through I haven't heard any Thunder but

I didn't I didn't plug in the the laptop

just in

case so hopefully I will actually be

able to go

outside bring you with

me and um actually demonstrate some

um communication with um

mugart

which I'm going to have to act as a as a

intermediary because you won't be able

to feel what and experience what I am

with the plant Spirit but I'll do my

best to

convey what I might be getting I'm

certainly not going to record myself

journeying because all that'll look like

is me lying on the floor for

or sitting upright somewhere with my

eyes closed for 15 minutes and nobody

wants to see that uh but

um I will demon go out and demonstrate

exactly what I'm talking about as far as

the the plant spirit

communication and

um maybe discuss her elementally or

folkloric or

or we'll see I haven't just quite

decided yet but there you go I have

rebooted this channel again hopefully

you

got something out of this I don't record

these for any kind of

um main character

syndrome self AG grandis M I just

recorded them to put out um

my practice of these these very

old traditions and techniques and what

have you because they they're not

discussed that

much and um I feel like they need to

be so

um a trans Master Druid signing off

again hopefully you watch any portion of

this I don't care

hopefully you watched at least some of

it give it a like subscribe if you want

to and thank you for um showing interest

in these very fascinating old practices

because either from a magical or a

scholarly

standpoint more people need to be

invested in them 100% thank you again
trans masc Druid signing off

 

[Helvetia]

I watched it on 2x; she looks like fucking homer simpson.
she's been learning runes, and journeywork (?) in the Norse tradition.

she wants to start singing but hasn't been happy with her voice due to T. But with loki's encouragement, she's going to start "gender-affirming voice training" with a speech pathologist and she's going to increase her T dose in a week.

she's trying to improve her pronunciation of old Norse words because wants to start chanting

she stopped South American druidwork to "connect with her own ancestors", and she felt like she was being "culturally appropriative".

she wants to start doing spell songs in german. she admits she can't speak it. gives us an example. literally traumatising.

"i don't know why i feel the need..."

admits she only likes german because of ramnstein. she says she likes german because she can say it loudly.

she's been journeying to yotenheim, things have been getting "intimate" with loki. she now wears a badge on her hat. that translates as "i will let loki use me in a sexual manner"
her laugh sounds horrendous. very gravelly.

she finds its common for loki to fuck people he "works" with. she says she's in a relationship with Loki, its no different to a human spirit but it's more like a "video call" in terms of how they interact, it feels like loki is speaking inside her head.

she's going to go more in depth in a future video. she never rewatches her videos before uploading

she starts talking about plans for next videos, but really only speaks about one:
the plant spirit - mugwort? posting a vlog a week about it. . she's going to film herself outside. demonstrating communication with mugwort.

she won't video herself journeying because its her lying down in silence for 15 minutes (i.e. she has a nap)

fin.

 

[oishii desu]

Wow, I'm really glad Staph has sought help and has obviously improved so much with her ability to handle disagreements. Her journey for self-improvement has shown so much personal growth compared to when she started and would suicide bait on tumblr. Now it's on twitter.

she now wears a fucking badge that translates as "i will let loki use me in a sexual manner"

This woman routinely volunteers information about herself that you could not waterboard out of me.

 

[Rap Scallion]

Jesus, Stephanie, I know you're a sped but panic attacks don't kill people.

If having one will cause the sort of health complications that can kill you, you need to get the hell off testosterone, drop weight, and stop fucking up your blood pressure.

 

[Vandy2]

I like the part where that person said to get off the Internet if you're triggered and that some how translated to fuck all mentally ill trans people. It's not on other people to control what you see. Getting off-line and grounding yourself is exactly what a therapist would tell you to do if you're triggered by something online. That's part of trauma therapy.
I don’t know how someone whose never been exposed to real gore in their life could possibly acquire a gore-induced trigger though. You'd think hand sanitizer would be more triggering.

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

I watched it on 2x; she looks like fucking homer simpson.
she's been learning runes, and journeywork (?) in the Norse tradition.

she wants to start singing but hasn't been happy with her voice due to T. But with loki's encouragement, she's going to start "gender-affirming voice training" with a speech pathologist and she's going to increase her T dose in a week.

she's trying to improve her pronunciation of old Norse words because wants to start chanting

she stopped South American druidwork to "connect with her own ancestors", and she felt like she was being "culturally appropriative".

she wants to start doing spell songs in german. she admits she can't speak it. gives us an example. literally traumatising.

"i don't know why i feel the need..."

admits she only likes german because of ramnstein. she says she likes german because she can say it loudly.

she's been journeying to yotenheim, things have been getting "intimate" with loki. she now wears a badge on her hat. that translates as "i will let loki use me in a sexual manner"
her laugh sounds horrendous. very gravelly.

she finds its common for loki to fuck people he "works" with. she says she's in a relationship with Loki, its no different to a human spirit but it's more like a "video call" in terms of how they interact, it feels like loki is speaking inside her head.

she's going to go more in depth in a future video. she never rewatches her videos before uploading

she starts talking about plans for next videos, but really only speaks about one:
the plant spirit - mugwort? posting a vlog a week about it. . she's going to film herself outside. demonstrating communication with mugwort.

she won't video herself journeying because its her lying down in silence for 15 minutes (i.e. she has a nap)

fin.

God damn it. Speech pathology courtesy of NYS bc she wants to work around the hormonal violence she has committed against herself.

I swear to God, people like Staph bitching about not getting enough attention, healthcare, attention, love, attention, special treatment, attention, etc., when in fact they get free access to healthcare for frivolous wants beyond what many working people can dream of affording for actual medical issues.

When people rightly critique the US for our poor ratio of healthcare-dollars- to-outcome, THIS is the reason.

 

[AfghanBlue]

Sped up sped, tiny wee local archive of her talking about allowing Loki to "use her sexually" etc. 1.75 x speed.

(Sorry if you can indeed hear me laughing at points, I tried to stifle, but basically can't work out how to record the audio aside from the actual phone mic.)

I dunno if Homer Simpson is more accurate or comic book guy

The phrasey teeshirts are really more his thing. And at least Homer can be fucked to shave. And we can't forget the monotone.

 

[oishii desu]

Jesus, Stephanie, I know you're a sped but panic attacks don't kill people.

If having one will cause the sort of health complications that can kill you, you need to get the hell off testosterone, drop weight, and stop fucking up your blood pressure.

I interpreted that as being driven to suicide due to the emotional distress the panic attack could cause. Which like, if your emotional state is so precarious that seeing an image randomly could cause you to kill yourself you shouldn't be on twitter yeah.

 

[Bojack Horsekin]

Tu was ich will!
Play with your cat!
Tu was ich will!
Take a shower!

 

[Pee Your Pants]

I have some screencaps from earlier. I just wanted to get that slapfight uploaded, then we had the new video! I look forward to watching it in 2x speed. What a bountiful day.

These are from Twitter, before the meltdown:

Insatiable libido/ ace. Pick one.


Oh, they see who you really are alright.


Stop wasting food.


Crap excuses for not making friends. In her perfect world, friends would get delivered to on her sofa.


Name them.


OMFG LOL How are you even real. How are you not a satirical performance piece.


You're always too sexual.


Prelude to the meltdown.

She said she took a break from social media, but she meant Twitter, because she went elsewhere:

I would have loved to have heard that phone call. 'Someone told me to go offline and now I want to kill myself.'


Looking good! All your parents' work, I assume.



But you will miss the drama and be back on Twitter soon.


Newsflash: It is not Tumblr circa 2015. Just because you put 'trigger warning: eye contact' on pictures of your cat, doesn't mean everyone else should follow your rules. Talk to Elon Musk about it lol.


Her cursing stick. Quick kiwis! Put up your shields in case she points it our way! I hope that skull was ethically sourced. It looks like a coyote skull.

I don't know what the original post was, but I assume it was someone saying they want to contact Jeffrey Dahmer's ghost:

Downvoted by other lunatics, fantastic.

An afterthought about that meltdown: How can she be triggered by graphic images of war, but not ones of crime scenes that she claims to get off on?

 

[it's pronounced gif]

Lol

Just fucking lol at that whole slapfight

Nigga just turn off your phone/computer/tablet!!!

Worst LMSW ever

Editing to add in case anyone isn't familiar with panic attacks firsthand, if you are actually having one you are not capable of having a hissy fit about it on xitter. You are panicking and ONLY panicking. Full blown meltdown mode. Staph is just a whiny bitch baby.

 

[Sparkle Sloth]

I do love how Twitter thinks that wanting graphic war gore videos and pictures tagged is blasphemous and obviously means you don’t care about The Brown™ . The gore doesn’t bother me personally in the “omg panic attack!!!!” manner, no, but I don’t see why some people should get exposed if they don’t want to. “WELL PALESTINE CAN’T IGNORE IT” god shut up

The meltdown is entirely hilarious though. She’s definitely changed, though, right! Definitely not classic Staph.

She’s still on tumblr reblogging things every so often, so she’s still checking social media. Nothing new on twitter as of now and it is still locked. She did add an emoji to her title so she checked in there at some point, too.

Her cursing stick. Quick kiwis! Put up your shields in case she points it our way! I hope that skull was ethically sourced. It looks like a coyote skull.

the fucking rubber bands on it……….

meanwhile, on naptime:

can people stop reporting every tiny thing to naptime, by the way?

 

[pink cigarettes]

trans masc Druid signing off

Just a fat troon talmbout demon worship & jacking off! ~child frenly~

 

[BoobWhiskers]

I must emphasize that I cannot belive I am having to say this semi-seriously, but based on her track record Stapphy is normally horny about murdered minors. Can she not flick her bean to kids with their heads blown off because it's not related to her serial killer special interest or something?

How fucked up as a person has she gotten where, if I took five minutes, I could pull up a screenshot in her own words that would back this turbofucked statement up?

I think that kind of merits a panic attack, or at least it would if she was capable of introspection.

 

[cock sucka]

there are approximately 100 "um"s in that transcript

 

[Chromeo]

I must emphasize that I cannot belive I am having to say this semi-seriously, but based on her track record Stapphy is normally horny about murdered minors. Can she not flick her bean to kids with their heads blown off because it's not related to her serial killer special interest or something?

How fucked up as a person has she gotten where, if I took five minutes, I could pull up a screenshot in her own words that would back this turbofucked statement up?

I think that kind of merits a panic attack, or at least it would if she was capable of introspection.

Maybe the Palestine photos upset her so much because it's the only thing she can't make herself the victim of.

 

[moorhen]

It’s been so long since we’ve had a real classic Steph meltdown, and this one really had everything.

I don’t think trying to make herself the victim has ever gone wrong so quickly for her. Only Steph would try to make herself the victim in an actual war she’s not involved in at all.

You can mute words on xitter, so I’m not really sure why she’s expecting everyone else to censor themselves.
I’m sure if someone told her some of her tranny nonsense was triggering their panic attacks she’d immediately attack them.