Trainwreck Virgo Rouge / Jamie Morse / Marissa Morris/Elienne/Marchant/Elene Nadieja / Rachzel Grezbian - Narcissistic Failed Musician, Pseudointellectual, Pseudo-Health Nut, Family Hater, and Ghostfucker

Damn, Marissa hanging with some "real" people now. She better hope neither of those guys are boozers and get sauced up later. They might take Marissa talking to them as flirting and come pay her a visit to her room after dark. I take it these are other bums and lowlifes who are staying at the Fleabag Inn?

Dude says "I've been a crazy sonofabitch all my life" which prompts Marissa to ask "Are you safe to be around?". The answer she got should have been enough to tell her (or a sane person anyway) to end that convo, wish them a good day and get the fuck out of dodge! Dude: "Well that's for you to decide! HAHAHAHAHAHA <cackling laughter>". Yeah, he sounds like the type of guy a vulnerable woman who has an attitude problem should be engaging with. I hope she starts recording some of her in person interaction more. It is a very rare piece of Marissa content. I can't recall any other vids where she is interacting with someone off the type of my head really.

Just stop and imagine for a moment. 3 years ago Marissa had her own place, where she could prance around like a fairy while "playing" a variety of instruments and having freewill to do whatever struck her fancy, and now today she is carting her smelly clothes around in a torn garbage bag and staying at a motel that has been turned into a low income flop house for any junkie, criminal, retard or other undesirable to stay at for 50 bucks a night. I hope she isn't the only female there either. Must be at least 1 or 2 sex starved or perverted men that are in that place.

From my view, I truly believe it has to be that her mental illnesses and narcissism are what keeps her from doing a flip. Anyone else of sound mind who went from what she had for most of her life to now being no better than a bum sleeping on the sidewalk and eating of a dumpster would have took a leap off nearest bridge or found some rope and a tree.

We should all be grateful that Marissa is batshit and a narc as she continuously provides us with this constant stream of quality content. May she live forever!
 
She's still recording her fellow nutters. There was a brandishing of a crutch in Marissa's vicinity when her interrogation subject believed she was crowding his space and giving him shit. She wants the tv off; he wants it on. He should feel indebted to her because she has lectured him about his health.

It's great listening. She's being deliberately antagonistic with this guy she tells us she fears and she posts the convo only at the point when he shows some annoyance with her.

ETA - They talk about their being in PA that night, though it was NY cops who escorted her out of NY and PJ's info was that she was put in an NY motel. ETA 2 - She's sharing the drummer's garage studio with a friend of his.

Proof Being Abused By Ex Convict I’m Homessless Being Physically Threatened​


Marissa: So why don't you have empathy and compassion you just I just asked you a question what is the problem with empathy and compassion? why did why did you just say that you're not that nice a guy why would you say something like that that you're not that nice a person

Ricky: know what because I'm really not

[ed: YT skipped the next two lines]

Marissa: what?

Ricky: I'm really not.


Marissa: why are you really not a nice person

Ricky: cuz I'm not. I mean I got good sense I got I know how to be sociable but when something interrupts my life I don't like it

Marissa: and so you just told me that you don't have any empathy. why?

Ricky: um I don't know maybe I'm not a sensitive person

Marissa: I'm sorry I didn't hear you what?

Ricky: maybe I'm not a sensitive person

Marissa: why not?

Ricky: um probably because I don't want to be

Marissa: you don't want to be sensitive why not?

Ricky: doesn't appeal to me

Marissa: so being a nice person to people or strangers or people you don't have to be nice to who don't give you anything at the moment

Ricky: in other words I like doing, let me repeat myself like doing whatever the [ __ ] [ed.: he says "fuck," the blank was inserted in brackets by YT] I want to do

Marissa: regardless of [if] it hurts hurs other people?

Ricky: what I do don't hurt other people

Marissa: you just raised your crutch to me like you were going to hit me for no reason

Ricky: because you was all the way over here [ __ ] [ed; fuck] giving me [ __ ] [shit]

Marissa: I was not I asked you if I could go to sleep nicely I didn't do anything I said I'd like to go to sleep

Ricky look I ain't playing no mind games with you, chick, you understand me

Marissa: uhhuh

Ricky: [ __ ] [fuck] you [ __ ] [fuck] a horse you rod in [she sniggers] all shut the [ __ ] [fuck] up

Marissa: the horse what horse

Ricky: whatever horse you got

Marissa: I don't have a I don't have a horse

Ricky: okay [ __ ] [fuck] you you understand English?

Marissa: yeah that's not English it's not in the dictionary

Ricky: well you understand it though that's all it matters [ed: that matters]

Marissa: uhhuh right but you have to show physical threats to someone just because they want to go to sleep and in a garage with rats right so you're going to start you know just just with threats just because I asked to go to sleep and quiet

Ricky: what I'm going to tell you right now is kiss my [ __ ] [fuckin'] ass

Marissa: why

Ricky: cuz I want you to

Marissa: why do you talk to me like that

Ricky: CU [cuz] I don't like you no more

Marissa: you don't like me at all anyway because I asked you if I can go to sleep nicely and and I can't have the TV

Ricky: yeah I don't have to change the way I roll because of you

Marissa: the way you roll yeah okay and you said you were in and out of jail many many times and that you're you're a nice guy to whom who are you nice

Ricky: to myself

Marissa: you're nice to yourself okay but I try to be nice to you today because you're on crutches right now I tried to help you with your health I tried to be your friend

Ricky: how the [ __ ] [fuck] did you try to help me

Marissa: I tried

Ricky: [ed.: by] talking to me?

Marissa: I got you food I made you food

Ricky: I got you food yeah

Marissa: I didn't need it though but you did that just because I want to get your food [ed: I went to get you food]

Ricky: yeah I figured if I going get food you would get F [ed: food]

Marissa: I had to also that was nice of you but it was but also you know I cleaned your dishes I got the food out

Ricky: clean my dishes yes you cleaned my dishes

Marissa: yes I cleaned them off

Ricky: what a [ __ ] [fucking] paper plate get real man

Marissa: I had to clean it and put it in in

Ricky: [ed: you need to] get real you got [ __ ] a serious laum [ed: can't make out the word] problems

Marissa: well I had to clean it off with water and put it in the recycling bin it was a recycled plastic I had to clean it

Ricky: I hope you did AR [ed: unintelligible] you

Marissa: I don't mind I don't mind helping people I mean I wanted to help you anyway I don't care whether you paid me or not I would have done it anyway you didn't have to give me any money I would have done that for you without you giving me any money to to to go and buy you food

Ricky: well I appreciate what you did

Marissa: I would have done it without you giving me anything just because you're not feeling well

Ricky: well I feel fine

Marissa: okay you feel fine

Ricky: : I'm just my leg got hurt yeah

Marissa: okay that

Ricky: I feeline [ed: feel fine]

Marissa: okay well I feel sorry Ricky I thought you seemed like a nice guy today but you just turned out to be uh you know just kind of negative I I consider it to be toxic and you're going to smoke in the room with me here you're going to smoke here without you're not you're going to smoke in the room with me and I and I don't smoke is that what you're going to do?

Ricky: looks that way

Marissa: well i' I'd like to ask you not to do that right right now if you could go outside please

Ricky: well what

Marissa: not to smoke in here with me here and because I don't smoke

Ricky: what have I done

Marissa: I've had asthma before I've had Uh problems with breathing especially after 911

Ricky: [ed: coughs]

Marissa: and I had Co[vid] and I had I have buzzing in my ears I still think I have residual coet [ed: Covid] I wake up with buzzing in my ears and I I don't really it took me months with I I was having problems with breathing

Ricky: what you say you think you got Co[vid]?

Marissa: I just am saying that I have had problems with my breathing at times

Ricky: you got Co[vid]?

Marissa: no I don't think I have it but after I got it I have had buzzing in my ears a lot with different weird things and I'm concerned about my health

Ricky: well I guess I can step H [ed: outside]

Marissa: hmm?

Ricky: you heard me

Marissa: I didn't hear you

Ricky: I said I guess I'm going to step right [ed: out] side
you I want your ear to talk bugging well [ed: don't want your ears to start buzzing]

Marissa: I I have some issues with my health I I had told you I was bedridden for 6 years and I'm concerned about my health and was unable to work with internal bleeding and everything else I really need to take care of my health and I am afraid of losing my health again considering I couldn't walk and I did tell you that I wasn't trying to get your pity for any reason I was being honest about that I have to be concerned because I have to take care of my my life nobody's out there to help me. I don't want to be disabled I have to take care of my health cuz now that's the only thing I have left

Ricky: get it [ed: Got it]

Marissa: yeah because I did lose my health for a while and that's really no fun it's probably worse than anything you've ever been through

Ricky: well you said you need to catch up on your sleep didn't you

Marissa: I do I need to go to sleep

Ricky: [ed: coughs]

Marissa: okay uh well good night do you ever sleep actually do do you go to sleep
Ricky?

Ricky: you'll find it after the

Marissa: I'll find out okay [ed: heavy sigh] well I'd like to be friends anyway even if you don't like me now okay? I just hope you understand that I have had very chronic physical problems and those problems were very serious

Ricky: I think you're on a power trip myself

Marissa no I'm not I'm concerned about my health and losing my my physical health losing my life losing my storage I have responsibilities I have to work

Ricky: yeah what's that got to do with me?

Marissa: I need to go to sleep at some point I need to sleep properly in order to be healthy

Ricky: May welcome to U [ed: Well welcome to] Pennsylvania

Marissa: what?

Ricky: welcome to Pennsylvania

Marissa: I already lived here

Ricky:welcome back here now

Marissa: 13 years

Ricky: yeah I'm not trying to bother you just don't bother me you know what I mean?
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Text: "This person is an ex convict ...is an addict of pot and cigarettes..in a garage with rats .. no one cares about me .. I feel unsafe..It is cold outside ..send donations..I am going to lose my health"

ETA - She claims she has asthma, something I hadn't known about before, as well as her previously aired breathing difficulties since 9/11, tinnitus, and possible residual covid.
 
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She clarifies that she's back at the drummer's house, complaining about his unheated garage studio and being abused there, too, of course. Having filed a police complaint against one of two guys she knows in that area, she's now ensconced with the other guy. Look out, Jerrold, you're The Third Man (non-generic theme).

I am A Multi-Millionaire 3D Is Not Important Receive Donations So I Can Get Out Of Homelessness​


I'm a multi-millionaire

I had 4 hours sleep and I'm being abused in somebody else's house

this is a studio with no heat he's not planning getting any heat in here in this garage

sleeping with an ex-convict he's not my boyfriend he's

I'm not sleeping with him he's he's basically on the couch with empyema [ed: emphysema]

this kitten was attacking me

it's not going to be here they're getting rid of it and I really like it and it's been attacking me

I do need donations I'm a multi-millionaire

I am a person that's not derivative

I'm an actual really creative artist we haven't heard these for so many years they don't have them on the radio anymore

they have very Bland instrumentation

it's all generic it's all formulated and people that have a formula that's really not a
really interesting formula either uh with very um same Samy instrumentation very uninteresting melody lines something that's not memorable as usual claiming that their billions of dollars are helping Society

well I love cats as you know on my channel I've had many of them I'm being attacked by a kitten

I need help

please please I need help I be attacked

it's a feline a ferocious little feline

please I know you'll send me donations

you know why?

because I'm a good musician a good composer and an ranger and I I love kitties

my friend lady Claudine she comes on here she's a cat lady she likes me cuz I love kitties

I had 4 hours sleep and I'm being abused morning noon and night but I take care of my health I try to stay away from these smokers so please send some donationsbecause I need help

I'm going to get another job and whatever

but I'm a multi-millionaire because I'm a famous composer and this kitten's attacking me please help me this ferocious feline is coming into my boundaries

This ferocious fine [feline] is going to have my God done for please please help me please help me oh gosh ferocious feel like is Legend of fun house no sleep with crazy people everywhere I go

and I'm being swatted by a [feline]

[singing] send donations I know you will share my music I'm a composer I'm a
serious artist thank you

ferocious fine let's play ferocious feline let's play play

Neptune, be good [ed: cat's name apparently] Neptune

[Marissa sneezes] there's no heat in here and he's not planning on getting so I'm going to be in here in 40-30 degree weather isn't that great

no heat. Eh, life is amazing

I'm I am a multi-millionaire manifesting what I want

I love cats

[to the cat] they're getting rid of you today I hope not I hope they're going to keep you

they don't have money to pay for the electric in this place

he has a nice house um inside he decorates it nicely but they all smoke and I can't be around these smokers and it's very depressing

TV all day long and it's it's you know people that are the kind of people I can't be around

it's not very it's not the worst it's just I don't want to be

her uh ferocious feline is I I love these cats they're just freaking amazing this is my only family member, Neptune, and they're going to be taken away today

they're getting rid of the kitten okay have a good day right bye
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I am a multi millionaire and I am manifesting what I desire every single day right now in the three dimensional world. It doesn’t look like it is manifesting but it is manifesting and it will come to pass because what is in your subconscious mind and what you believe in your subconscious mind will come to pass if you line your vibrations to the universe and to God definitely is happening. It’s been happening for years.
 
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She is absolutely insufferable, and loves pushing other people's buttons to alleviate her own crippling ennui born of sociopathy. Marissa is also in close quarters with men who seem awfully short tempered. This is a recipe for lulzy disaster.

She is compelled to start fights with anyone around her at all time, so it's baffling that she's being allowed to stay with these guys. Ricky sounds like he's a couple beers away from giving her the beating of her life for never shutting the hell up - Marissa is very lucky he's a stoner.

Her recent rants about social services and evil psychologists demonstrate how terrified she is of being forced to face reality. She was given a motel and some money and couldn't throw that safety net away fast enough - back to sleeping rough, nonstop complaining, and 24/7 fantasy for her!
 
I would just like to point out that what is on display here is almost textbook mental illness that sustains homelessness. Again, rather than getting actual help, she (supposedly) is abusing the system meant for people in genuine crisis. I am not saying she isn't in one, but she immediately spent all those emergency funds to reset the clock on her debts (supposedly), rather than prolonged food and shelter, then immediately went back to the type of people she claims put her in crisis to begin with. This misprioritizing is frequently seen in homeless people, so I suppose in a way, Marissa is grifting to support her habit. It may not be rat poison laced fentanyl, but it is an addiction all the same.

Can our heroine in distress truly navigate the dangerous rapids of consistent subsistence existence, transient housing and unmedicated illness? Find out on the next exciting episode of 'Mad, Marvelous Marissa'.
 
. This misprioritizing is frequently seen in homeless people, so I suppose in a way, Marissa is grifting to support her habit.
Her habit must be greivances. & It's total mismanagement but not some decision anyone else around her could execute for her. I can understand wanting to hang on to your posessions and things for sentimental reasons pictures and even artwork, but for fucks sake anyone else after 6 months to a year of it not working out would have started to sell the valuable things.
 
Her habit must be greivances. & It's total mismanagement but not some decision anyone else around her could execute for her. I can understand wanting to hang on to your posessions and things for sentimental reasons pictures and even artwork, but for fucks sake anyone else after 6 months to a year of it not working out would have started to sell the valuable things.
Her entire identity is tied up in those specific objects. As others have pointed out, she is literally sleeping in a room full of music equipment with which she could create with, but since they aren't 'her's' they are not up to her standards and thus would sully her simply by touching them. If there is to be a suicide at all in this story, it will be when her items are auctioned off for a fraction of what they are worth. Otherwise it will be murder or exposure.
 
Her entire identity is tied up in those specific objects. As others have pointed out, she is literally sleeping in a room full of music equipment with which she could create with, but since they aren't 'her's' they are not up to her standards and thus would sully her simply by touching them. If there is to be a suicide at all in this story, it will be when her items are auctioned off for a fraction of what they are worth. Otherwise it will be murder or exposure.
A cautionary tale to not be like this person. But I won't stop watching. Neither will Rick Cleland, though his one emoji comment did not set off the usual paragraph just a few sentences.

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A cautionary tale to not be like this person. But I won't stop watching. Neither will Rick Cleland, though his one emoji comment did not set off the usual paragraph just a few sentences.

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Marissa is fascinating to me from a purely psychological point of view. Her circumstances made her what she is; nature made her a sociopath, nurture made her expect endless praise and money and kept her in check, with the death of her handler she is almost fully unshackled from reality and this whole time, help was always just a phone call away.
 
If there is to be a suicide at all in this story, it will be when her items are auctioned off for a fraction of what they are worth. Otherwise it will be murder or exposure.
I'd add anorexia / voluntary starvation to the list of possible ends. Marissa loves fasting to prove how above the human condition she is, how much better she is than everyone else. She also likes to make a show of how she can only eat specialized, organic, expensive raw foods due to her self-proclaimed delicate and refined nutritional needs.

But running her mouth around other mentally ill homeless people is more likely to take her out, either directly (murder) or via exposure when she gets kicked out of someone's house or motel room during winter.
 
Oh shit, just started listening to the first vid @Bookwork posted...I am excited for what's ahead!! LOLOL And she called him "toxic" and asked him not to smoke! Insanity is a bitch, she knows not what she does. EDIT-He said he thinks she is on a powertrip! Wow, he pegged her damn quick.

This dumb cow in the first night there has already pissed off some guy who sounds to me like he would have no problem bashing her head in and would enjoy doing it. I get visions of Negan playing baseball with Glenn!

Damn, hope this ride I am about to go on hits the jackpot more than it already has!
 
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What a little liar she is! Arrested for assaulting her mother and sent to a group home, all that was voluntary, hmm? Court records documented Marissa's obsessive harassment of her sister and father to the point of requiring a restraining order, is this also imaginary? Driving without proper registration or insurance repeatedly is against the law, but not in Marissa's world? Stealing goods and services she doesn't pay for, like car and storage payments, that's not criminal? She called in a false police report just yesterday, another crime.

Marissa's just been lucky that her family covered for her until she was in her fifties, because she'd have been in and out of jail, too, if left to experience consequences for her actions.

Consequences are here, and she's desperate to escape them by repeating to herself all day that she's rich and famous. Marissa: the richest and most famous homeless bag lady in the county lockup, coming soon.
 
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What a little liar she is! Arrested for assaulting her mother and sent to a group home, all that was voluntary, hmm? Court records documented Marissa's obsessive harassment of her sister and father to the point of requiring a restraining order, is this also imaginary? Driving without proper registration or insurance repeatedly is against the law, but not in Marissa's world? Stealing goods and services she doesn't pay for, like car and storage payments, that's not criminal? She called in a false police report just yesterday, another crime.

Marissa's just been lucky that her family covered for her until she was in her fifties, because she'd have been in and out of jail, too, if left to experience consequences for her actions.

Consequences are here, and she's desperate to escape them by repeating to herself all day that she's rich and famous. Marissa: the richest and most famous homeless bag lady in the county lockup, coming soon.
Don't forget squatting in her Staten Island apartment for what a year without paying rent? If it was easier to remove squatters with the police the landlord would have had her arrested but the laws are kind of fucked for squatting it's more of a drawn out court hassle. Better to trick them into leaving like her landlord eventually did.
 
The fucking lunacy and nerve of often complaining about not making music anymore while sleeping in (probably spending all day too) a stocked music stuido with a wall of amps and guitars.

she is literally sleeping in a room full of music equipment with which she could create with, but since they aren't 'her's' they are not up to her standards and thus would sully her simply by touching them
If I was that musician I would ban her from using any of my instruments. I would not be surprised if this has happened.
 

I Am A Multi-Millionaire A Famous Composer Of Serious Music What You Believe You WILL Manifest​


hi I just wanted to tell you that today's music is very generic and that's commercial world and they're not looking for anything Innovative or Progressive

but years ago in the 60s they had a time period where their formula was actually cool they had a formula going on

they were less formulated but they did have a formula just like the Baroque Era had a formula the classical era had a formula uh the period of Renaissance High Renaissance Middle Ages they had a formula

uh the formula right now is dull and it's lacking in harmonics and interesting harmonics and Acoustics and lacking in Timber and certain qualities that people uh look for when they know something about quality music

um it's lacking in certain elements and sometimes it's too Bassy for me to be interested too many drums too much very uninteresting rhythms

um they're not poly rhythmic and people know about music actually talking about music because they don't know about music

I'm a composer so in order to have a long lasting career you need to be composing music serious music

yes serious music is long lasting last for hundreds of years and I'm a serious composer and arranger not a songwriter even though I write songs

uh it could be art songs it could be serious art songs it could be commercial things pop music anything could be serious even if it's today's music

uh it could be but there their music is not serious at the moment

it's not serious music maybe in the 60s a few things here and there where they had really catchy melody lines that were hard to create because something really catchy and memorable isn't easy to create and they also had interesting instrumentation together with that

is difficult to create and they're not doing that at the moment um and only people that know about music would know that now

some of the progressive music era they didn't develop melody lines and catchy tunes and things like that they were working on instrumentation

but the goal is to try to um create something on both sides and either ambient as well where it's not all bombastic and loud

uh so I'm a multi-millionaire by the way

I'm really here to Campground right now

I I'm going through a certification to become a caregiver to live with somebody

it's not really what I should be doing I should be doing music

uh I have this other job lined up

I'm really struggling and as far as my storage

I feel like I've lost my storage but I haven't actually lost it because I don't play instruments anymore and I'm at The Verge where they're threatening me again and I feel I've lost it this time because I lost my car and I just feel any day now it's just the end of everything I own

and I did say that I lost it because I I haven't been playing instruments for two and a half years

I don't sing I don't do anything and I've been really struggling with anxiety

I did have a physical today for my job and I passed it with flying colors

sometimes the back of the phone makes a more realistic um videos so you can see what I look like realistically

I do not have a good camera so this is a a little bit more realistic um than taking it the other way

uh I don't really look realistic uh through the front of the phone my face doesn't

so um right now I'm focusing on serious music

we're speaking about serious composition uh my ghost lover wants me dead is just another of my instrumentals where I hardly have any voice there at all

ambient music is another thing that I love but I'm not interested in commercial ambient and Commercial horror for the most part

no I learn from it

I can it depends who it is but they're just there's something lacking in what's going on here

it's a lack of knowledge of music that's really what's going on or sticking to traditional formulations without being able to innovate so that is why some of it might be a little dull in my opinion

but I really do love lots of different kinds of music and even some formulated music

if I like the formula the the TV shows in the 1960s they did have a formula

Billy Goldenberg was a film composer he didn't really have a formula he was experimental and uh in the Columbo soundtrack

I love a lot of these composers

one was from New York City in Brooklyn one was from New Jersey somewhere I forgot where the other one was from

but uh yes composers can make billions of dollars

you don't have to be a popstar to make a load of money

you don't have to be pretty

you don't have to be good-looking

you don't no all you need to do is put out the goods musically

that's correct and that's my goal and it's always been my goal

when I was in college to be a serious composer not to be a pop star even I studied voice for 14 years belto singing at Curtis Institute um Philadelphia College of Performing Arts uh and Westminster choir College particularly mostly Curtis Institute of music

I did not set out to be a singer or opera singer I set out to be a creative person and mostly a composer because without interesting instrumentation and Innovation vo by itself doesn't seem interesting to me

and of course we've heard incredible instrumentation in the Opera field already but it's traditional and it's not Progressive

it's not going in different directions

so Innovation is my goal um and that is why I I am a multimillionaire because I've worked hard

I've worked up to this point and I am a professional on a very high level

and the ENT entertainment industry is that they are professional entertainers not musicians not at this point no and um they just aren't

they used to manufacture music in the 1960s and hire real musicians to come in there and writers for people that couldn't write

they did that and they even did that for the Beatles

they they brought into Rangers [brought in arrangers]

they've done this for different people in the 80s

I'm not a real big fan of the 80s um but I just am not no I just analyze music

I I listened to the 1920s film music 1950s

the silent films interested me um everything

I'm just very much into art

I also was a member of the Massachusetts Museum of Fine Art

I'm interested in visual art because I'm a visual artist

I'm an illustratorbbut I don't have any time for it

but people in this era now we're talking about they're interested in tattoos

it's a big industry for them

they don't care whether it's healthy or not permanent tattoos

they don't care about it and they don't care if people feel regret

they don't care about anything

that is what they believe art is

I don't have any and I like art on walls murals um canvas

I'm just not into what they're into

that's what they claim art is

this is the big seller right now that industry and and I personally think that I I'm not into that

I'm not interested in artificial intelligence

I prefer real acting

I'm not interested in autotune

I like acoustic music

I like uh also digital at the same time

so I like real jewelry

I like real rubies real Opals real diamonds okay and I'm a multi-millionaire and I'd like to give some money to support art colleges and artists and I'd like to help people because I am a multimillionaire

no matter how much I'm struggling now I am attracting abundance and millions and millions of dollars with my strong material and my strong instrumentation and my strong uh melody lines which they don't have right now

they don't have memorable melody lines and they don't have Timber

they don't have harmonics

they don't have anything interesting going on here hardly at all

99.9% of their music is not going on is not full music

it's not doing anything for me no and uh they're not going to last as a music industry

they haven't they're not a music industry anymore

they are an entertainment field that's all it's about and basically right now um there are people that would come against me who don't particularly have any interest in music for real who don't want to be educated or they don't want to be educating themselves either and who cares about you

I'm a leader and uh I appreciate what you think but it doesn't matter because you are not leading our society and uh basically right now we're in a slump artistically

we are and I thank you for coming by

I do and um I have been going through a lot

I did have a physical today

I have perfect blood pressure and my weight is really good

um for my height my age everything about my health is improving for whatever reason

but I am also under a lot of stress being homeless

I'm living at different people's houses some worse than others

sometimes it's horrendous

sometimes I can't handle it

I just lived by myself for so many years

I need to live in my Mansion

I deserve a lot of money for what I've done and I deserve attention I made the cover of numbers of newspapers San Francisco weekly uh and the Cleveland newspaper and I deserve massive amounts of attention and support for what I've done with music

I have so much handwritten music that I don't want to lose in my storage from college and I could lose this

I do need some donations because I lost my car and somebody got in a a car accident with a moving truck and refused to take responsibility for it

so please help me

um I couldn't pay for their insurance but I'm sure you will help me I just need about a month of help to help me with some of my bills

I I'm being abused and and I'm sick of this

I should be rich immediately

I am rich

I have to say this your subconscious mind is what rules your life and when you say you want to be rich that's not going to cut it

you have to say I am rich I am abundant I am a multi-millionaire and you have to believe it

all right thank you
  • She passed a physical for a job today and for the first time in a vid has reading glasses propped on her head.
  • She's trying to get certification as a live-in caregiver.
  • She's back at the High Point State Park (NJ) campground, which appears to shut down on October 30. ETA: Cabins available until October 16.
  • She has NOT paid the storage bill and thinks she will lose her stuff.
  • "I deserve massive amounts of attention and support for what I've done with music."
  • She makes it sound like a moving van hit her car and she got stuck with the tab, thereby losing her car.
  • Being a music expert, she says "timber," not "timbre," just as she's an hair, not a porpur.
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No matter how young and good-looking I was I never wanted to be a popstar, and I never wanted to be a model.

My goal has always been to be a composer on the highest professional level in the world a very serious music of the most serious music it could be 20 minutes long. It could be an hour.

I have never been interested in the things that they believe are important in the society. The fashion is a wonderful thing, it could be and also film could be wonderful using very young people if they’re extremely talented and individualistic, but not the kind of narcissistic society we have no there’s absolutely out of control it’s not art it’s just pure Greed and it’s disgusting industry.

I don’t know if it always has been this way.

Guess what? I’m not here to look good for you. I’m not here to be pretty for you. I’m not here for anything but serious music and I’m here for what I do with my brain my heart and my soul and that’s all I’ve ever been concentrating on..

Since I thought we'd be getting more Interrogations of Ricky videos, I took a look back at what Marissa has said about Ricky and Robert Ballinghoff (stage name: Bobby Vale). In light of tonight's video it's not of much interest - unless she calls Bob and tells him to come get her again.
The first time Marissa mentioned being in Milford in Pike County, PA, where Bob and Ricky live was March 1, 2023. She was staying with Dave Webb at the time. Nothing we captured seems to allude to Bob and Ricky that year.

But @Fleetwood found a video Bob posted in June that year of him drumming on a train station railing and in July Marissa posted a video on a bridge, seemingly down in Bucks County with an unseen male friend drumming on the railing. Seems possible she met Bob up in Milford and he drove down to visit. The train station vid has "homeless" in the title, so perhaps Bob was referring to his own past and has particular sympathy for Marissa's self-induced suffering.

That December, Marissa stayed at her second cousin Jerrold's house for a couple of weeks and then with a host who had terminal cancer.

On January 2, she gave us the first clear reference to Bob, saying Robert had contributed percussion to her Cosmic Magician video. It would become clear that she wasn't staying with him, though. On February 14, she made her panicky "storeroom" video in which she's fearing her host will cast her out. She was considering inviting herself into Bob's household. She was afraid of Ricky, though.

On February 29, she did spend the night in Bob's unheated garage studio. It was her first night there and in her videos the next day she seemed resolved to sleep in her car instead.

On April 11, Bob put her on blast in the comments of one of her videos, accepting her demand to go no contact and scolding her for her shitty behavior. "I really tried beyond my means to, at the very least, become your friend," he wrote in response to what seems like a demand for money.

Then crickets for five months when, this Tuesday, she got him to let her sleep in his studio again after she reported Dave to the police, seemingly ending her many and sometimes quite long stays with Dave.

Just to be thorough, I checked the PA sex offender registry for Ricky. Without a surname, I can't be sure he isn't listed somewhere, but for Pike County, PA, where he seems to have resided for more than a year, there's no one with a first or middle name of Richard or Ricky listed. I also ran Bob and Dave in PA and NY and got no hits.

Timeline with links:

March 1, 2023​

The first reference I've found to Milford, PA, where Bob lives. Marissa says she's going there to stay with a friend. 4,482 h/t @Raijin

March 2, 2023​

She was sleeping on somebody's floor in Milford and would move on in a couple of days. 4,487 h/t @Raijin In a second video, she says she's staying in Milford. Dave invited her to stay with him and she found being there difficult:

"uh well life is not easy and I really don't want to live where I'm living right now but this person I'm not gonna say they're Dave they're from New York City but they have been living in Milford, Pennsylvania, saying you know why don't you stay here I guess right now it's okay as a temporary place but it's really hard and I can't even get into all the personal details of why uh living with this person is not the easiest thing it's really hard"​

Transcript 4,493 h/t @Fleetwood; video 4,494 h/t @Starbuxxx

Dave now lives across the river in Deerpark, NY, but in 2023 he could have been renting in Milford or Marissa may just refer to the entire area as Milford. But one way for Marissa to have met Bob would be if Bob and Dave lived near each other that winter.

March 4, 2023​

She claims to be fleeing Milford because her life is in danger. A friend texted her a while ago that the man she was staying with murdered three women. He has a history of being with people with serious problems. She has known this murderer for two months, which matches Dave's driving a rented truck for her when she left her Staten Island apartment. She can't go anywhere in public with him without being insulted. 4,496 h/t @Starbuxx

Possibly unrelated, Dave's name appeared in the obit of a baby momma who died December 2010. The kid with his surname would now be 15. The woman's death may be something that fuels rumors about him. 5,538

June 27, 2023​

Bob posted a video of himself drumming on a railing, "Motherfucking Train Station Homeless."
5,320 h/t @Fleetwood

July 26, 2023​

Marissa made a video on a Delaware River bridge, possibly in Bucks County, with a male friend who drums on the railing 4,958

Interim: Nothing more that seems to be relevant that summer or fall. In December she begs her way into her second cousin's house in upstate New York for two weeks. As of December 16, she seemed to have left there and on December 19 she said she was staying with a friend in upstte New York. On December 28, she was still staying there and said the friend had terminal cancer.

January 2, 2024​

Marissa says Robert played percussion on her new Cosmic Magician video. She's likely to have recorded the audio in his garage studio. 5,229

Interim: By January 21, it was clear she was housed somewhere because she wasn't ebegging for a moetl. On January 22, she said Harry contributed Raven sounds to a video. On January 25, she says her car was vandalized. She later says it was done by Dave's former girlfriend, Hava Arifi.

February 12, 2024​

After some wandering, Marissa returned to Milford. 5,277 h/t @Fleetwood

February 14, 2024​

In the "storeroom" video, Marissa outlines the horrors of four men she's stayed with or contemplates staying with:
  • a veteran with a drinking and drugging problem who's younger than she is,
  • an 80-year-old gambler who is addicted to food and sex and has dementia (Dave would actually have been about 70. Later in the year she'll refer to him as a gambler),
  • an ex-con who did 15 years for sexually abusing a woman (apparently Ricky), and
  • someone who owns a studio (Bob).
She slides back and forth without clueing viewers in to the who/when while describing creepy behavior she's endured. The guy with the baseball bat whom she suspects of fapping in the dark next to her seems to be the vet. But this reference is clearly Bob and Ricky:

"um I am scared of staying at this place down the street here because there was somebody there that was in prison for 15 years for sexually abusing a woman​
"he claims he didn't do it and he's in the house where somebody offered me a place to sleep in um a studio there they. it's not a nice Studio it's h very dreary​
"I don't know if he even has heat and and they didn't even say I could really stay there"​

Apparently referring to Dave she says, "I'm scared some woman said that he murdered somebody."

She did not jump to Bob's place then, given what she says later in the month.

Video 5,280 h/t @multiverse; transcript 5,283

February 24, 2024​

At 5,303 on Feb 24, 2024, I exercised my clairvoyance on behalf of Mr. Webb:

"She may not report you to police for fear they'll notice the expired stickers on her windshield, but don't count on it."​

February 29, 2024​

She says she has been told Dave is responsible for a woman's death. In comments, she added,
"I need to go to cure a I need to go to a court to file a complaint against people, David Webb, and Hava Arifi." 5,314

Later that day:

"I have to go to court to file a complaint against this man who's an alleged murderer who killed three women or three people" 5,316

She spent the night in Bob's garage studio and told us about it the next morning. The garage is unheated and it had been 25 degrees outside. 5,319

March 2, 2024​

"I only slept in the cold garage one day," she said in a comment. 5,330 h/t @Fleetwood

In that video accompanying that comment she said:

"I stayed in a studio for one day and they know this woman uh who uh died in her car recently and they don't know how and some of them have been in prison in this house and uh I don't feel comfortable because I think that there's a vibe that might might be dangerous that I don't know anything about cuz one of them was in prison for 15 years​
"they keep talking about the Bible yeah and then one of them uh was found dead in the in the car okay recently and I'm not friends with these people​
"I just don't have a place to stay and I stayed in their studio and um you know and you're saying staying homeless shelter I mean the people are in [on] drugs and alcohol​
"this guy David web uh supposedly and allegedly murdered a few people I guess by putting them on drugs to try to get his way with them and has babies out of woodlock"​
So on February 14, it was a woman who told her of a suspicious death linked to Dave. Now Bob and Ricky tell her about suspicious death and Dave "supposedly and allegedly murdered a few people." 5,328

April 11, 2024​

Bob posted a comment scolding Marissa for her rotten behavior and her money grubbing. At the time, she was bouncing between motels. She wanted to go no contact and Bob was in favor of that.

"YOU MIGHT WANT TO BLOCK ME FROM YOUR HIGH AND MIGHTY CHANNEL BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT GOING TO LIKE WHAT YOU READ. You really need to take a look at yourself and how you are treating people that you are begging for help from. No one wants to help someone who berates them or stresses them with all your baggage. Your baggage is also the reason you can't land the simplest of jobs. I really tried beyond my means to, at the very least, become your friend. You can't even keep your mouth shut long enough for me to say anything or express my feelings which you have soured time and time again. So I think it is best that we cancel all contact like you want, because I recently got rid of my anxiety after 7 years and you just brought it back. Thanx for that. Have a good life and I hope it gets better for you, just change up your above all people attitude and you might just do ok. Later"​

5,503 h/t Starbuxxx

September 10, 2024​

Bob and Ricky fetched her from the NY side of the river after she called the police claiming Dave Webb abused her. She surreptitiously recorded conversation during the ride, interviewing Ricky about his 15 years in prison for, he says child abuse. 5,760

That night, she stayed in the garage studio, complaining of rats and inconsiderate behavior by Ricky, whom she again surreptitiously recorded. 5,762

September 12, 2024​

She was back filming in the mirror of the bathroom cabin at the campground she favored during the summer. She doesn't comment on whether she spent another night in the garage studio with Ricky or whether she's still on good terms with Bob.
 
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She's trying to get certification as a live-in caregiver.
Well, that's fucking dangerous. Not only is she violent and manipulative, she's convinced that feeding anyone raw beef livers and royal jelly will cure all their ailments, and she'll happily rob anyone blind without a second thought.
 
Well, that's fucking dangerous. Not only is she violent and manipulative, she's convinced that feeding anyone raw beef livers and royal jelly will cure all their ailments, and she'll happily rob anyone blind without a second thought.
Her predisposition towards feeling she is owed or deserves things means theft is a given.

Her opinion that she knows better than physicians, pharmacists and rehabilitation therapists means causing harm to her clients is a given.

A person that lacks any empathy towards other people in a caregiver position is depressingly common and easy to bullshit your way into at the lower levels.
 
We must trust the nanny state to save the elders of the tri-state region. Since she says certified that seems to mean she has to do about 40 hours of training in NY or 79 hours in NJ or 8 in PA.

LOL, PA is always the libertarian paradise compared with NY and NJ. NY's site says something like you don't have to be certified so maybe they're actually the winner of this round and I just need to comb more thoroughly for what might and might not be applicable to she who deserves massive amounts of attention and support for what she's done to music.

I'm hoping for a replay of Budd Lake with the same life-saving outcome but this time with a surreptitious recording of her farewell chat with her supervisor.

Think she's already imagining being installed in the mansion of a pliable rich old coot who will sign any will she puts in front of him? A woman client would get the whole Annie Wilkes treatment.

ETA - Today's comments on yesterday afternoon's video:
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@bryannamyo
4 hours ago
My comment was auto deleted by ai. This has been happening a lot lately. (

@marisaelenenadiejamusiccom3974
2 hours ago​
People like Elon musk, think that artificial intelligence is so amazing and that he really believes it can generate excellent artwork…. He dresses and very bland, and inartistic clothing… he is very blonde. He is not animated or interesting. Yes, he believes he’s an expert in culture, art science, etc. there are composers in the world that make billions of dollars we don’t need to hear about people who are not interested in culture all the time and act as though the arts means nothing​


@frejgun
1 hour ago (edited)
:)

@marisaelenenadiejamusiccom3974
1 hour ago [breaks added]
Don’t promote yourself on my channel because you don’t support what I do with my music you’re a self-centered person. I don’t like what you’re doing and I don’t like you go away and find something else to do. I didn’t even listen to it​
have you ever supported me even with a five dollar donation did you listen to my video no you didn’t listen to anything I have to say​
this is a channel for people talking about serious composers, not pop wannabes … there’s lots and lots of places for people like you on the Internet I’m not interested in pop music I’m not interested in people that are interested in commercial music who have no openness to anything I’m talking about you’re not even open to any of the composers I’m talking about and you’ve never been on my channel saying anything positive about my music..​
it is extremely rude to come on the Internet and come on somebody else’s channel and try to promote yourself without talking about what I’m saying on a video leave me alone and don’t come back​
@frejgun
1 hour ago
@marisaelenenadiejamusiccom3974 wow hey i listen you !!! Please put out more ,music instead of ranting about being a musician :( I want to hear it. Music is about sharing not making success. you of all people should know that.​
@marisaelenenadiejamusiccom3974
1 hour ago
You have never been on this channel saying that one positive thing about anything that I do… I am interested in serious composition, serious music on serious musicians… don’t promote yourself here I’m not interested just like you’re not interested in what I do with my music I’m not saying anything positive about any of my videos and you’re not even responding to anything I’m saying here I am not giving you any attention, go somewhere else or go pay for promotion leave me alone​
@frejgun
55 minutes ago
Lets just go back to being kind to people we dont know. Im sorry. I have edited the comment. All the best​
@marisaelenenadiejamusiccom3974
54 minutes ago
You just deleted your link you aren’t talking about anything I’m saying in this video so when people put a video of try to respond to something that I’m saying within the video which would show that you’re actually watching my videos and you’re not just here to try to get attention..​
@frejgun
47 minutes ago
⁠i just think it is still possible to create music that has connotations to the sixties and music that has great compositionary values. Im sorry that you lost everything. Sorry for provoking domething in you. Would love to hear some serious music from you. Really! Could you publish some for me to purchase?​

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