Unschooling is terrible. I feel so bad for all the other kids that will have to go through this crap because their idiot parents saw it on TikTok. For as much as people bash public school, it's still a thousand times better than having no education at all. Being unschooled K-12 has completely crippled me in so many ways. What makes it worse was that I talked to my mom about it recently, and she said it was a good thing I was held back in her own words. Now I do community college, where she does most of it by cheating, and even my dad thinks it's ridiculous. In this same conversation, my dad even admitted I would have been better off if I had gone to public school, but my mom insists it was a good thing I was unschooled.
I honestly have lost hope in my life. I'm normally not a suicidal person. Okay, sometimes maybe I am, but now I legit feel hopeless. I have so many issues that will be so hard to fix. All of my hopes and dreams of moving out and having freedom are being shattered by this online community college because she has already hinted she wants me to do my 4-year degree online. This leaves me with no chance to escape. Even my brother called her out for wanting to do everything online. It sucks so much because I don't want to be around her. I dread having to hear her speak every day. I am so sick of her bullshit.
On a side note, I remembered recently all of her psycho plans, including holding back my school so me and my brother could go to college together as roommates. Even my grandmother thought this plan was crazy, but I was oblivious to it at the time. That's another thing about my mom: she constantly lies and fakes everything and has no remorse for it. She wants her kids to go to college, but she doesn't bother to teach them any school subjects. She wants her kids to be social but doesn't let us be around other kids. She wants us to be successful but doesn't let us do anything without her assistance. She doesn't care that her kids cheated in school to pass because they don't know middle school math; she only cares that she can tell her friends that her kid went to college.
on the bright side I think my mom's compulsive lying and mental illness has affected how I view the world in a somewhat positive light. I remember when I was a kid, my mom made Dad sleep on the floor, and I, being oblivious at the time, told my homeschooled friend who was visiting, That's where my dad sleeps. My mom freaked out and explained the concept of a white lie, but I was like, Wait a minute, the Bible says lying is wrong, and my mom was like, Yes, it's wrong. But it's somehow a good thing? Even as a kid, I could sniff out her nonsense. My mom is like the role model of what not to be; she constantly cheats, lies, and gossips. I honestly don't know how anyone can live the way she does. Unlike her, my entire life I have always been honest, and I was often compared to a preacher as a kid. Obviously, I started to lie in my teenage years because of my mother's strict rules, but I still carry those values into my adulthood. Honesty is everything.
Hopefully I can overcome the social barriers that unschooling gave me. My dad told me it would be a shock adjusting to the real world, but we both came to the conclusion that I will need to be in the real world one of these days, so it's better I go out and experience it for myself. Of course, my mom was lecturing me about how I have to be tough and can't let people upset me, even though she purposely isolated me from people and bullying. and all of the other experiences that would have fixed my social problems
So I'm pretty sure the talk will end up being pointless because she doesn't want me to get a job where I can gain those social skills and independence I need to function in the real world, and I know I will probably never get to live my dreams of escaping my mother and having freedom so I can fully enjoy life like every other normal kid got to, but there is a small light in my ever-darkening sky; I may be able to start driving and will one day get my driver's license. After that, I can hopefully get a job and escape my mom at last. Maybe I will find a unicorn at the end of the rainbow while I'm at it.
TLDR: Unschooling is child abuse, and my mom was terrible.
