- Joined
- May 26, 2024
How am I supposed to interact with the modern "male" in 'good faith' when the vast majority are utterly disgusting when you get a look inside their heart? They're all so goddamn filthy. If they're even aware of their filth, they revel in it, and only want to find more excuses for their filthiness. There's no shame, there's not even a sense of apology or regret. They're all proud of their nonsense! They LIKE talking about their degeneracy, they WANT to bring it up! It's so disgusting... I can only name two 'men' I've 'met' in my entire life who don't make me want to vomit the more I think about them, and I've never actually met either of them in person anyway!
Please tell me it's just because I'm a hermit who uses the internet all day, so by default I'm interacting with the lowest common denominator...! I can't fucking take it anymore. They're all putrid! All they talk about is their sexual dysfunction or the fucked up shit they want to do to women or each-other. Nobody can even focus on their autistic hyperfixations! That'd at least make it more tolerable, y'know, "men" can at least do their job, they at least have interests? They can't even do that...! Nobody can get good grades, or get steady work, or even take care of themselves. God forbid a family!
Even the 'good' ones that don't make me want to vomit immediately are godless, weak manchildren who need to be babied after, or drifters who don't ever put their feet in the Earth. What the fuck happened? Please tell me there's a reason! Is it a jewish plot to use porn and everything else to erode the soul? Is there something in the air? Does HAARPA send out waves of energy that suck out positive desires and urges in anyone with a certain amount of testosterone? What am I supposed to tell myself just to get through the day? How does anybody go outside knowing there's so many cockroaches in the mocking form of 'Man' running the streets, and do it without suffering some kind of mental break?
It's just exposure therapy, right? I'll learn how to live with it? It's like taking tiny amounts of allergens or poison to build a resistance? There has to be something I can do after interacting with these skinwalkers just to feel a little clean again. I try to bury myself in my solo hobbies but it's not enough. Is there some kind of ritual? Should I just take a long bath if it gets too much? How do I filter them out better? Every time I think I figured it out and I'm interacting with somebody that isn't hopeless, they let out some deranged shit like it doesn't mean anything!
Please tell me it's just because I'm a hermit who uses the internet all day, so by default I'm interacting with the lowest common denominator...! I can't fucking take it anymore. They're all putrid! All they talk about is their sexual dysfunction or the fucked up shit they want to do to women or each-other. Nobody can even focus on their autistic hyperfixations! That'd at least make it more tolerable, y'know, "men" can at least do their job, they at least have interests? They can't even do that...! Nobody can get good grades, or get steady work, or even take care of themselves. God forbid a family!
Even the 'good' ones that don't make me want to vomit immediately are godless, weak manchildren who need to be babied after, or drifters who don't ever put their feet in the Earth. What the fuck happened? Please tell me there's a reason! Is it a jewish plot to use porn and everything else to erode the soul? Is there something in the air? Does HAARPA send out waves of energy that suck out positive desires and urges in anyone with a certain amount of testosterone? What am I supposed to tell myself just to get through the day? How does anybody go outside knowing there's so many cockroaches in the mocking form of 'Man' running the streets, and do it without suffering some kind of mental break?
It's just exposure therapy, right? I'll learn how to live with it? It's like taking tiny amounts of allergens or poison to build a resistance? There has to be something I can do after interacting with these skinwalkers just to feel a little clean again. I try to bury myself in my solo hobbies but it's not enough. Is there some kind of ritual? Should I just take a long bath if it gets too much? How do I filter them out better? Every time I think I figured it out and I'm interacting with somebody that isn't hopeless, they let out some deranged shit like it doesn't mean anything!
why can't men and women just get along and smoke meth together 
