Your 推し is くそ Ellie Lois Marcus / fallenshadow / Shondo / syadouu / shadowxeclipse / killudesu / IRresolute / @fallenshadow_YT

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The european benadryl isn’t really addictive since it doesn’t contain diphenhydramine that makes you high. Generally the european version has cetirizine/acrivastine which isn’t addictive at least that’s what I got from google. Also goddamn pills over pills I wonder when is she gonna get into the big boys drugs like Krokodil, Meth and Heroin.
If it's anything like Aus stuff then yea it's basically not gonna do anything unless you are kinda strange. cough syrup used to absolutely knock me out as a kid and still kinda does last time I took it when I was super sick.
Paracetamol does it as well if I've not taken any for like 4 or so months.
 
If it's anything like Aus stuff then yea it's basically not gonna do anything unless you are kinda strange. cough syrup used to absolutely knock me out as a kid and still kinda does last time I took it when I was super sick.
Paracetamol does it as well if I've not taken any for like 4 or so months.
Idk medication for me doesn’t work much. I never got knocked by meds ever. Fuck I even needed a double dose of anesthesia when I had surgery or teeth extraction.
 
wait, she has/had a job? what was it, I find it hard to believe, but form the later comment maybe dishwasher or waitress? I imagine she'd do awfully at either
She worked as a hotel restaurant waitress: https://archive.ph/uIQ6Q (archive of https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCQbn3hkCmc7d-X3pWiHKxpQ/community)

fallenshadow waitress.webp

She had mental breakdowns in front of customers at this job, so she did do awfully.

I remember someone here mentioning they think her "mommy voice" voice changer is actually her real voice, but there's this clip of her mom having a genuine reaction so I doubt that's the case.
All of her voices are fake. She doesn't use her real voice in her videos or streams. The voice closest to her normal voice is her "kitsune voice".

In the 2019-09-10 livestream, at 1:25:10 she talks in a fake deep southern US accent, and at 1:28:55 she uses her "succubus voice" (aka her "mommy voice").

Here is a dump of the sub channel. I uploaded it to gofile because I don't know where else you can upload ~3 GB files. It's an html file, but I don't know any browser that can open files that big; use a notepad++ or something instead.

https://gofile.io/d/Ea6bps
You can import Discord servers to Kemono.
 
She worked as a hotel restaurant waitress: https://archive.ph/uIQ6Q (archive of https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCQbn3hkCmc7d-X3pWiHKxpQ/community)

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She had mental breakdowns in front of customers at this job, so she did do awfully.
This reminds me of the post earlier about these guys fetishizing girlfailures. I’m convinced it’s because they’re so dysfunctional that they need for the existence of women who are also dysfunctional in order to feel like their existence isn’t just a waste of space. It’s like the meme about dudes going to mental wards to try to find a girlfriend because they don’t really know what it’s like to actually have to deal with a mentally ill woman because they’ve never had to deal with an actual woman.
All of her voices are fake. She doesn't use her real voice in her videos or streams. The voice closest to her normal voice is her "kitsune voice".
There’s so much about vtubers that’s so obviously fabricated and these autists will cry “muh kayfabe” as a way to defend the illusion.
 
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She worked as a hotel restaurant waitress: https://archive.ph/uIQ6Q (archive of https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCQbn3hkCmc7d-X3pWiHKxpQ/community)

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She had mental breakdowns in front of customers at this job, so she did do awfully.
You know if she is and or was that mentally unwell that customer service caused her to meltdown on multiple instances, I can see why she gravitated to streaming and rotting away.

Its either that or britbongers are just that draining to work with, or quite possibly both
 
According to her, the meltdown that got her fired happened because she dropped a tray of glasses while walking downstairs on a busy day. Apparently, her anorexia and mental instability made it hard to keep up with the work.
You know if she is and or was that mentally unwell that customer service caused her to meltdown on multiple instances, I can see why she gravitated to streaming and rotting away.

Its either that or britbongers are just that draining to work with, or quite possibly both

As a Brit if she really did drop a bunch of glasses in a hotel bar she was probably met with a very degrading "Waheey!" from the punters which could well drive a less-than-stable person to become a shut-in.

This reminds me of the post earlier about these guys fetishizing girlfailures.

100%, there's even a meme about wanting a "tardwife" over a "tradwife". Losers want a dysfunctional woman that will never leave them due to her own hopelessness, rather than desiring a fulfilling relationship on equal terms. They simply want to be in a relationship for the sake of it rather than the enjoyment of sharing your life with someone.

Not to say that a "girlfailure" can't participate in a meaningful romantic relationship, but they literally just want a woman who's entire existence can be boiled down to "gf" with no personality or motivation of her own.

As a group of people with 0 experience in relationships however, they have no idea that dating a clingy, mentally ill woman who has no identity outside of being your girlfriend is pretty fucking horrible.
 
According to her, the meltdown that got her fired happened because she dropped a tray of glasses while walking downstairs on a busy day. Apparently, her anorexia and mental instability made it hard to keep up with the work.
If anything of what she said about her workplace holds true, yeah I couldn't blame her for having an autism overload. I guess the UK really is a second world country :story:
 
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100%, there's even a meme about wanting a "tardwife" over a "tradwife". Losers want a dysfunctional woman that will never leave them due to her own hopelessness, rather than desiring a fulfilling relationship on equal terms. They simply want to be in a relationship for the sake of it rather than the enjoyment of sharing your life with someone.

Not to say that a "girlfailure" can't participate in a meaningful romantic relationship, but they literally just want a woman who's entire existence can be boiled down to "gf" with no personality or motivation of her own.

As a group of people with 0 experience in relationships however, they have no idea that dating a clingy, mentally ill woman who has no identity outside of being your girlfriend is pretty fucking horrible.
They’ve got zero to very little understanding about what it takes to have a relationship, much less one that’s meaningful. They want a relationship but also hate women, so they’d never be able to maintain any kind of meaningful relationship because of it. That’s why they love vtubers so much and keep this parasocial relationship going. They want to take and have their cake while also eating it too.
 
According to her, the meltdown that got her fired happened because she dropped a tray of glasses while walking downstairs on a busy day. Apparently, her anorexia and mental instability made it hard to keep up with the work.
In that video, she said she weighed 90 pounds. At her height of 5'7, that's a BMI of 14.1.

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A BMI below 15 is classified as "extreme anorexia": https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anorexia_nervosa#Levels_of_severity

Her habit of eating sponges is probably her way of filling herself up without eating food.
 
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All of her voices are fake. She doesn't use her real voice in her videos or streams. The voice closest to her normal voice is her "kitsune voice".

In the 2019-09-10 livestream, at 1:25:10 she talks in a fake deep southern US accent, and at 1:28:55 she uses her "succubus voice" (aka her "mommy voice").
This concept is so fucking alien to me. If I were to stream, I'd make it as comfortable as possible. No fake voices, no weird hats, no straining quirk. Yet, every single vtuber defaults to this nasal voice. Or being a loud gremlin. Even the self-proclaimed 'mommies' attempt to lower their voice and it sounds so dumb.

I watched some chick streamer with face cam and no gimmicks, then suddenly she wanted to vtube so I quit. Years later she's part of the Onlyfangs WoW shit and I hear her voice; the most fabricated fucking shit imaginable. She had the holy grail, a recognizable face and voice, and threw it away to join the vtuber cult.
 
This concept is so fucking alien to me. If I were to stream, I'd make it as comfortable as possible. No fake voices, no weird hats, no straining quirk. Yet, every single vtuber defaults to this nasal voice. Or being a loud gremlin. Even the self-proclaimed 'mommies' attempt to lower their voice and it sounds so dumb.

I watched some chick streamer with face cam and no gimmicks, then suddenly she wanted to vtube so I quit. Years later she's part of the Onlyfangs WoW shit and I hear her voice; the most fabricated fucking shit imaginable. She had the holy grail, a recognizable face and voice, and threw it away to join the vtuber cult.
Who’s that ? Give names
 
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Calling her pedobait but you're all obsessively hunting down and collecting images and videos of her from when she was a minor and analysing her body. Is there even an ounce of self awareness in this thread? Even trying to spin it as part of archiving, it has no bearing on anything to have irl images of her when she was a minor. Same as all the weird armchair psychologists and the fact more than half of everything posted after the OP is just speculation. For someone everyone here is meant to have a problem with, a lot of you don't seem to actually know anything about her that isn't clips, second hand speculation, or bits and pieces heard from someone else that is probably biased or incomplete info? Just an observation I've made reading through all this.
 
This concept is so fucking alien to me. If I were to stream, I'd make it as comfortable as possible. No fake voices, no weird hats, no straining quirk. Yet, every single vtuber defaults to this nasal voice. Or being a loud gremlin. Even the self-proclaimed 'mommies' attempt to lower their voice and it sounds so dumb.

I watched some chick streamer with face cam and no gimmicks, then suddenly she wanted to vtube so I quit. Years later she's part of the Onlyfangs WoW shit and I hear her voice; the most fabricated fucking shit imaginable. She had the holy grail, a recognizable face and voice, and threw it away to join the vtuber cult.
At least some of the point of being a vtuber is protecting your identity, which means less if people will just recognize you by your voice irl. It's also easier to disassociate if your voice is different. You're just playing a character, you're an actress.
 
At least some of the point of being a vtuber is protecting your identity, which means less if people will just recognize you by your voice irl. It's also easier to disassociate if your voice is different. You're just playing a character, you're an actress.
Vtubing should be only about protecting yourself from stalkers. As a type of activity I don’t think they should do anything different than flesh streamers. I also find vtubing quite limiting in what you can do without revealing yourself. For exemple I find hololive pretty boring in terms of content. All they do if play games and do karaoke that’s all. Now that I mentioned Holo isn’t that Koseki Bijou also a loli ? I remember her having a model with a pacifier or am I trippin’
 
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