Lolcow Andrew Peter Carlson / Anaiah Carlson / Tamarlover / Xtamarlover - Jewish/Christian Wannabe Cult Leader, Stalker, Ugly af, dogfucker, mayor of spitsville

[Anaiah Carlson]

Something gives me the vibe that he didn't dump her. I don't know, a wife and a kid, looks more like she left him and he got bitter?

Yeah you got that right.

 

[MarvinTheParanoidAndroid]

I had such a close friendship with her, she is my sister and I am her brother.

This just became a whole new layer of creepy.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

I'll just say to inform you. When I was a child I was diagnosed with asperger syndrome. They then gave me therapy enough so they felt they didn't need to label me as having it to get special education. I was advanced enough in my therapy that I could live as a normal person. And I have always felt like I am a normal person and not different than anyone else. Some people try to blame my behavior on asperger syndrome, but I tend to think thats just an excuse and people don't understand what's it like. I also don't think anyone is truly crazy. I think everyone is accountable for their choices. If I am in the wrong, its not because I have a mental illness but its because I chose to do wrong things even though I didn't have to make those choices but I wanted to make those choices so I did.

 

[Carcinogenesis]

Yeah you got that right.

Have you ever considered just stopping this crusade to be with her, friend or otherwise? She gave you a restraining order, that should be enough to tell you that Melinda wants you to stay away from her. It will only hurt you more if you continue stalking her...

 

[Owen Grady]

I hope eventually for my beard to grow on my face. I do not plan on ever cutting or shaving any of my hair on my body for the rest of my life. Its a personal decision I have made. And I will never cut the hair on my head, not even for Tamar. Its religious for me. I'm not allowed to cut my head hair due to a personal vow i've made. If I were to cut my head hair that would be evil of me.

Would it be evil of you to at least style the thing or tie it up so you don't look like you have an organic ghillie suit growing out of your head?

Chicks dig a guy who's hair doesn't resemble overgrown shrubbery, you know.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

This just became a whole new layer of creepy.

I don't mean that in a creepy way. In religious circles, "brother" and "sister" means someone really close that feels like as if they are your family. I sometimes use that term loosely with my friends. But when I use it with her, it is something really special. Like the type of best friend who is your family. Thats what it was between me and Melinda. We were family. She didn't have anyone else that could be her family for her the way I was for her. But that eventually changed when she stopped being my friend.

 

[MarvinTheParanoidAndroid]

She dumped me. I didn't do anything to deserve this. She ruined my life by how she treated me. She broke my heart and my personality shattered into a million pieces. I've never been the same since. As a result, i've been very emotionally drained and broken. I loved every minute with my ex. It was great until when she broke up with me. Then my life spiraled downward. I picked myself up after that time, but was only able to salvage part of my former self. The rest of me died. I was 19 years old and she was 28 years old. Now I'm 26 and she's 36 almost 37.

I'll just say to inform you. When I was a child I was diagnosed with asperger syndrome. They then gave me therapy enough so they felt they didn't need to label me as having it to get special education. I was advanced enough in my therapy that I could live as a normal person. And I have always felt like I am a normal person and not different than anyone else. Some people try to blame my behavior on asperger syndrome, but I tend to think thats just an excuse and people don't understand what's it like. I also don't think anyone is truly crazy. I think everyone is accountable for their choices. If I am in the wrong, its not because I have a mental illness but its because I chose to do wrong things even though I didn't have to make those choices but I wanted to make those choices so I did.

I'm actually starting to feel sorry for you.

 

[Owen Grady]

She didn't have anyone else that could be her family for her the way I was for her. But that eventually changed when she stopped being my friend.

If this is true and Tamar had no other friends or family besides you to relate to on a deep emotional and familial level then she must have had a very good reason to break away from you. What happened?

 

[m0rnutz]

What you're saying is you do believe everyone, even the mentally ill are accountable, but you're accountable with the curse of having a more socially inept and improper behavior because autism, yeah?

Explains being dumped and your obsession with religion. Everyhing else, though is just sad. A cult? Buying 50000 fucking acres of sun and sand? Stalking a married woman until you got a piece of paper?

You have to actually shave the beard for it to grow, by the way. It doesn't come out looking like Jesus Hugo Christ automatically.

 

[Jill Kews]

Well this got disturbing fast.

 

[Telefunken]

I'm actually starting to feel sorry for you.

Cult leaders always try to elicit sympathy while abusing others.
Jim Jones and Marshall Applewhite were some of the nicest people you could meet; on the surface.
They also deflect criticism of themselves by portraying themselves as victims, with some sob story about the world not understanding their altruism.

 

[BOLDYSPICY!]

Cunt-fucking Christ on a cracker, I think my skin just crawled right off my body. Where to begin?

I always try to discourage people putting me on a ridiculous pedestal.

But you have no problem putting Tamar on a ridiculous pedestal?

Though there is one person that she is kind of obsessed about me and in love with me and she might have said something like that to me but I can't find the post.

Ahahaha, oh wow. You have no right to complain about that, all things considered.

By leaving traditional Christianity, I've encountered some of the most wacko and lunatic behavior ever.

Oh, but you're completely normal, got it.

Do you have untreated schizophrenia or are you just really dumb?

EDIT: Oh, wait, just saw that it's autism. It's always autism. Definitely still getting a schizo vibe, though.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

I will do my best to answer this in a brief manner. I believe in a mixture of Judaism and Christianity. I am a communist. There was an ancient Jewish religious group known as the Essenes and their group is essentially what I subscribe to, but within the context of Christianity. the closest group in Christianity to my beliefs is the Ethiopian Orthodox Church. I believe we must be sinless 100% or else we will be damned forever. I believe everything is alive. Humans, animals, plants, stars, and elements I consider living beings who are conscious, have the ability to be righteous or sin, and can learn and make complex choices with free will. I believe in trying to learn as many important things as possible, and to try to love others as much as possible, and to try to develop your skills and power as much as you can without going against your responsibilities. I consider more than 300 books of the Bible and I have discovered that the Bible has many errors and corruptions so I am doing research to restore the original text of the Bible as best as can be done. I consider logic supreme and superior to the Bible, so everything in the Scriptures must be tested with logic and reason. I am also very pro environment and health nut, and I think its wrong to kill mosquitos most of the time. I believe the concept of copyright is nonsense, and I believe I can break any laws of the government than I consider to be unjust laws. I think private property is a sin. I believe we are to share what we have with others and not hoard things to ourselves. So I consider the rich to be very evil people who are in the wrong. The rich should help other people not themselves. They only care mainly about themselves. They think if they give a few million dollars they are good people. But they are wrong. They need to devote everything they have into helping others, otherwise they are in the wrong. I do not believe in the right to bear arms except in the context of forming a militia or entering an actual war. i believe in trying to be peaceful if possible and violence and killing should be a last resort. I believe in living a life where you are not full of anger and hate but instead trying to be loving and kind to everyone even to people that hate you. Hence why I am trying to love this woman that hates me. If i didn't care for her then I would have moved on from her long ago. My religion is much more complicated than that but hopefully that satisfactorily gives you an idea of the type of person and beliefs I have. Oh i also believe everything in existence is just a matrix and the physical world as we know it is just an illusion or rather a computer generated program if you will as an analogy.

My influences are tons of books I consider Scripture. Also I like certain movies and tv shows. Lost and Person of Interest were two of my favorite shows which have influenced me. I also like Disney's Tangled and Dreamworks how to train your dragon. Melinda has been a huge influence for me in some of this as well, because she asked me to help her do some of these things a few years ago, but she didn't go nearly as extreme as me. But she has been a large influence on some of my beliefs. Also I have read Plato and I think some of Plato's ideas have shaped my beliefs in big ways.

I think that all religions are much closer to the truth than people give them credit for. I suspect most of the gods were actual real beings. But some of the stories about them have been tampered with over time and altered from the originals. I think rather than Babylonian and Sanskrit being a source of Abrahamic religion, i think the religions stem independently from an older religion. I think all religions ultimately stem back to a universal religion.

I like Taylor Swift, Jennifer Lopez, and various worship music groups. I also in the past have liked country. I was never heavy metal person.

The most important part of my discoveries are the realization that the Bible as we have it has been altered significantly from the originals and my discoveries have enabled me to have a very good idea of the original extent of the Bible. Other people know the bible has been altered significantly but up until now there hasn't been a lot to go on for knowing what the original form of the Bible was. But in the last 100 years some special manuscripts of the Bible were discovered and with the invention of the internet and the huge increase in ability for people to study these otherwise obscure writings and documents, it has enabled me to find the original form of the Bible that other scholars did not know but it was under their noses the whole time. I simply put the dots together and its all making sense. It may sound hard to believe the way I say it, but when you start looking at the evidence I found, it becomes overwhelming that what I have discovered is closer to the truth of restoring the original form of the Bible than anyone else has ever gotten in at least 1800 years.

@tamarlover what are your religious beliefs? could you elaborate on them? what is your main doctrine? what are your influences if any?

Oh hey, another vow came to answer questions.

Alright. Why are you so obsessed with getting this girl to marry you, when she has repeatedly told you to fuck off, gone as far as to get the authorities on you for your sociopathic behavior, and cut contact with you as a former friend? Normally when someone tells you no, you find someone else. This is just batshit.

On to religion. You feel Christianity is more orthodox, with Judaism being more traditional to the elden roots. Do you believe the former Babylonian and Sanskrit mythos to have played a part, if not have been an older concept of Abrahamic religion at the time?

Third question, what kind of music do you like? I'd guess from the hair you were a heavy metal dude, if I didn't know your background beforehand. Any favorite bands?

Fucking why?

Also, answer @Tempest and tell us about your beliefs. "Challenge" us, as you say. Explain to us the "secrets" of your discovery which, within the Bible's combined 3,500 year conception and continued existence, none of history's greatest biblical scholars or theologians have ever unraveled before.

 

[HOMO INSPECTUS]

She broke my heart and my personality shattered into a million pieces.

If I am in the wrong, its not because I have a mental illness but its because I chose to do wrong things even though I didn't have to make those choices but I wanted to make those choices so I did.

what

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Why do you need to be with her, at all?

Because I love her and without her I feel incomplete.

 

[Begemot]

Because I love her and without her I feel incomplete.

Are aware of the crude term, 'cuck', because it applies to you.

It also sounds like you can barely support yourself, let alone create a functioning community. You will just create a cuck cult of whimpering wretches, no offence.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

@tamarlover what are you going to build on the 40 acres?, and where is the land?

Like I would tell the group here . Nice try. Its in the USA in the western half. More than 2000 miles away from where I live.

Food does not grow in the desert.

Food grows in the desert actually its just significantly harder. But other cultures do it. Such as Egypt. In the beginning it would be food from the store. Eventually maybe there'd be enough food to grow on the land self sufficiently. Who knows. Maybe instead ill buy better land someday instead of crappy desert land. But i got desert land because i wanted to get as much land as possible to fit as many people on it. That was my vision.

 

[Cato]

I will do my best to answer this in a brief manner. (Followed by wall of text)

You failed.

 

[gummy]

She used to like me and she's worth dying for. She has wrongly judged me and I am going to change her mind and prove everyone else wrong about her and about me. I was her best friend for two years. I'm not letting her walk away from our friendship without a fight.

I'm sure she finds the prospect of toiling in the desert with a rambling, scraggle-bearded stalker and a bunch of homeless people extremely enticing.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

@tamarlover Would you rather be in a world where Tamar never loves you, or in a world where Tamar is dead?

I would rather her not love me and be alive than for her to be dead. But I would rather her love me for a year and then for me to die.

alrighty, so having established that you don't really care about any legal recourse intended to get you to stop, what obstacles are left? what's preventing you, right this very second, from just schlepping on over to her and forcibly marrying her? clearly Yahweh is with you on this matter, so what's the hold-up?


سيدي، قناصة مستعدون!

I would never physically hurt her. Nor would I ever want to. I am not going to literally force her to love me. But it isn't beyond me to pester her and annoy her until she at least talks to me. If she doesn't want to be married to me, I'm ok with that. But if she doesn't want to be my friend I'm not ok with that. I also don't want to go to jail and I do have a conscience which is more important to me than the law. So I'll break the law if I think its the right thing to do or if I think its ok to do. But i won't go against my conscience and I won't do something that is completely undesirable to me. And the fact is I have no desire to rape her ever. I want her to give me a chance and if I fail then i'll walk away forever. Maybe I am wrong, but I truly do love her and want the best for her. I think I'm the best (for her).

You failed.

I actually did a great job. It was really brief from what it could have been.