Lolcow Andrew Peter Carlson / Anaiah Carlson / Tamarlover / Xtamarlover - Jewish/Christian Wannabe Cult Leader, Stalker, Ugly af, dogfucker, mayor of spitsville

[Meat_Puppet]

Is it honestly worth trying to win her over when there's the risk of her never being with you? Have you ever considered something like Plentyoffish.com or just plying the field and seeing what kind of women are out there?

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Just a few quick questions:
Do you hear voices when no one is around?
Do you think that God/Jesus communicates directly with you?
Do you think the government is out to get you?
Is there a conspiracy against you?
Are you a prophet or religious figure?

I don't hear any voices. I don't think God communicates to me nor Jesus nor any angel or otherworldly being. No i don't think the government is out to get me. I am an extremely anti conspiracy person. I believe most conspiracies are nonsense. Government is corrupt but people are corrupt so what are yo going to do. I think everyone in government is a person who wants to try to do good ultimately but some abuse their power for selfish gain while simultaneously trying to good too. I would like perhaps in the future to work in the government though I'm probably destroying any chance of that happening right now, but whatever. I tend to believe that every person is valuable redeemable and has goodness in them. I try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt most of the time. I am no prophet or religious figure. I'm just some random person who is trying to do the best he can in this world but struggling to do the right thing and unable to let go and move on. And I'm obsessed.

 

[Ol' Slag]

I can't show you the videos, because I don't want them to be on the internet for others to see. if i knew you wouldn't share them with others, then maybe but i don't really trust anyone here considering the type of place this is. I don't masturbate only thinking about Tamar, but most of the time, yes. And yes its a sin. I'm evil and not saved and not righteous person. I am one of the few religious people who admits loudly that he is not saved and that he is currently on his way to hell because of his sins. I'm currently on a hellish path in some of what I've been doing. So i have to stop the hellish things and only do the good things. I think pursuing her is a good thing, but how I have been pursuing her in certain inappropriate ways has been hellish of me. No one hates myself more than me probably. I know I am a horrible person in many ways. But I also know I am a good person in many ways. My desire to pursue her is not wrong. But some of how I pursued her that is wrong and that is what I am ashamed about. So now I have to figure out how to pursue her without doing anything wrong. Certain thing to me are clearly wrong and I would never do. Other things are more fuzzy and more easily justifiable but only afterwards do I see how wrong I was in doing them.

Go to a fucking shrink.

 

[gummy]

I honestly don't know.

Do you find it difficult to empathize with and respect the feelings and wants of other people?

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Maybe you should get a jump on that last part.


By stalking her & pressuring her into a relationship. . .yeah. You are.


That only makes her hate you more. How is this difficult to grasp? I'm genuinely confused over how you fail to see this.
Also, if you actually loved her & respected her, you'd leave her the fuck alone. She gets to decide what's best for her, not you. She's not your property or your slave or a piece of meat, for fuck's sake.

That's called Stockholm Syndrome, you insufferable twat.

I want to be her slave and her piece of meat, not her my slave. I would gladly suffer physical and mental abuse from her if I could be with her.

 

[Ol' Slag]

Project Reconciliation.

You seem to like to write in depth @tamarlover , can you talk about this project in painstaking detail?

 

[Mason Verger]

unable to let go and move on. And I'm obsessed.

I'll tell ya this, friend, that's kind of a common denominator of the people we document here.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

If this girl has a restraining order placed on you then obviously she had to convince the court system that you were a viable threat. They don't just issue these out mindlessly.

They only have to convince the court that she was justifiably afraid even if I wasn't an actual threat. All that is needed to be proven is that a reasonable person would be afraid of physical harm being done to them. The judge doesnt have to believe that the person would cause physical harm or that the person is in fact a threat, but only that it is reasonable for someone to be afraid of that happening if the actions were being done to them.

 

[DatBepisTho]

Rate me late, but I missed this thread while at work and wanted to get in on this cow discussion/debate.

She used to like me and she's worth dying for... I was her best friend for two years. I'm not letting her walk away from our friendship without a fight.

I know how it feels for friendships/relationships to end abruptly, but sometimes people walk away from others. For various reasons. The only thing you can do, sometimes, is to respect that and move on. Trying too hard to get back in their life may only reinforce their decision to break things off.

If you're innocent as you claim, she'll realize that one day probably and may even be the one to approach you.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Project Reconciliation.

You seem to like to write in depth @tamarlover , can you talk about this project in painstaking detail?

If I can't convince her to give me another chance, then I'll attempt to convince her children to reunite with their biological fathers against her wishes. I can do good while also getting back at her. So if I am doing good by doing that, even if its also done for revenge, its two birds with one stone. And doing it for a good reason could justify the underlying motive and also provide a possible window for healing and restoration if the only way to get her children back is for her to interact with their fathers and face her demons.

Go to a fucking shrink.

Maybe a group like this is better than a shrink. I'll consider seeing a shrink though. Duly noted.

Do you find it difficult to empathize with and respect the feelings and wants of other people?

Not usually. But if I think there may be times when we do not have to respect the feelings and wants of others. Im just not sure exactly when we do not have to and when we do. For the most part I respect others feelings.

 

[Meat_Puppet]

They only have to convince the court that she was justifiably afraid even if I wasn't an actual threat. All that is needed to be proven is that a reasonable person would be afraid of physical harm being done to them. The judge doesnt have to believe that the person would cause physical harm or that the person is in fact a threat, but only that it is reasonable for someone to be afraid of that happening if the actions were being done to them.

That's exactly what I just stated previously. She had to have proof whether it be notes, texts, Facebook whatever. Does it come off that she might be legitimately afraid of what you could be capeable of doing to her or her husband?

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Rate me late, but I missed this thread while at work and wanted to get in on this cow discussion/debate. I know how it feels for friendships/relationships to end abruptly, but sometimes people walk away from others. For various reasons. The only thing you can do, sometimes, is to respect that and move on. Trying too hard to get back in their life may only reinforce their decision to break things off.

If you're innocent as you claim, she'll realize that one day probably and may even be the one to approach you.

Well I don't claim to be innocent, but I'm not the horribly evil person she thinks I am. But maybe if i stay away from her and leave her alone she'll change her mind one day. I've thought about that before. Its very hard to do that but maybe the best thing.

 

[Ol' Slag]

If I can't convince her to give me another chance, then I'll attempt to convince her children to reunite with their biological fathers against her wishes. I can do good while also getting back at her. So if I am doing good by doing that, even if its also done for revenge, its two birds with one stone. And doing it for a good reason could justify the underlying motive and also provide a possible window for healing and restoration if the only way to get her children back is for her to interact with their fathers and face her demons.

I know these are usually frowned upon but...

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

That's exactly what I just stated previously. She had to have proof whether it be notes, texts, Facebook whatever. Does it come off that she might be legitimately afraid of what you could be capeable of doing to her or her husband?

I realized this in court. So I tried to post on my youtube account a thing saying I promise never to find her in person. That was the main thing that scared her I think that I was saying I would come to her house when she least expected it. So i tried to post a promise after i got the protective order that I would not do that ever and i take back my threat. I hope she saw it and believes im tellin the truth about my promise.

 

[LazarusOwenhart]

I want to be her slave and her piece of meat, not her my slave. I would gladly suffer physical and mental abuse from her if I could be with her.

Yeah most women are super turned on by dog like subservience and really just want a man who deserves literally zero respect.

 

[DatBepisTho]

Well I don't claim to be innocent, but I'm not the horribly evil person she thinks I am. But maybe if i stay away from her and leave her alone she'll change her mind one day. I've thought about that before. Its very hard to do that but maybe the best thing.

Fair point on innocence part.

Might definitely be for the best in this case. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, after all, and this would give you more time to devote to your studies.

 

[Cuck Norris]

I want to be her slave and her piece of meat, not her my slave. I would gladly suffer physical and mental abuse from her if I could be with her.

I'm guessing the kid in the pics with your ex isn't yours, because no man that's actually gotten pussy before would say this.

 

[Meat_Puppet]

I realized this in court. So I tried to post on my youtube account a thing saying I promise never to find her in person. That was the main thing that scared her I think that I was saying I would come to her house when she least expected it. So i tried to post a promise after i got the protective order that I would not do that ever and i take back my threat. I hope she saw it and believes im tellin the truth about my promise.

As someone who has been stalked before (numerous times actually) it's hard to understand why someone would feel unsafe.

 

[gummy]

Not usually. But if I think there may be times when we do not have to respect the feelings and wants of others. Im just not sure exactly when we do not have to and when we do. For the most part I respect others feelings.

So you think romance is one of those rare times when you don't have to respect the other person's feelings? Because you seem to be trying to manipulate this woman into marrying you by tormenting her, giving ultimatums, etc.

Ignoring the stalking stuff for a moment, just look at the way you write: long, rambly paragraphs with little consideration for the reader's time. Nobody wants to read that. I think it's clear to everyone here that you have issues with empathy.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

I'm guessing the kid in the pics with your ex isn't yours, because no man that's actually gotten pussy before would say this.

The kid is not mine, but you are wrong. I had sex with my ex. She was the only one I have been with sexually. I had her pussy about 5 times. And she pleasured me other ways as well for about 4 weeks straight. It was great but I regret most of it.